I clenched and unclenched my hands as I finally spotted the duo walking towards the cafeteria building. I had angry tears in my eyes and I was trying my best to blink them away. I couldn’t believe that I was seeing that.
I pressed my lips in a thin line to stop the sob that was trying to escape my lips. I didn’t want to break down into tears before everyone. I felt a pinch in my heart when I saw them holding hands together.
I couldn’t believe that Frank was cheating on me after being together all these years. I clutched the strap of my bag really hard as I started to follow the duo. The more I looked at Fank with that girl, the harder it got for me to believe that he was the same person with whom I had waken up this morning.
Why did he do this to me? Was it because I wasn’t good enough for him or was it because I wasn’t pretty enough?
All these questions bubbled in my head as I started to approach the duo. I didn’t like to create to a scene in the public but I knew that this time I had to confront him before everyone otherwise he would just brush it under the carpet- just what he had been doing for so long.
For the past month, his behaviour had changed drastically. He started first by hiding things from me and then lying followed. Some of my friends had already informed me about him but I was too blinded by love that I simply shrugged the problem off.
I trusted him blindly and he ended up breaking it like this. My heart wrenched just to see him smile down at the girl. I clenched my jaw and increased my walking speed. I bumped into a couple of people but I didn’t care to apologize because my eyes were only fixed on Frank and the girl who was holding hands with him.
I saw them entering the café. I followed them inside and found them sitting together and acting as if they were so deep in love. This made me sick to the stomach and angry at the same time. I wanted to know why he was doing this.
We have been together for five years now and I was sure that he was going to propose to me once we graduated and found a job. By the way, he was now kissing that girl, I knew that all these things were not going to happen anymore.
I simply walked to their table and stood in front of them with my hands crossed on my chest. It was the first time I was able to see the girl’s face. She looked young. I could tell that she was straight out of high school.
It was the girl who first noticed me and pushed Frank a little bit back. He was so busy shoving his tongue down that girl’s throat that he didn’t even hear me when I called out his name. When the girl refused to kiss him back, it was then Frank looked at me.
His eyes widened instantly as soon as they fell on me.
“Go on, kiss her!” I raised my voice, attracting attention from people around us. I was so angry at that moment and wanted to have revenge that I didn’t care anymore. I was an introvert but when times came, I wasn’t afraid to speak up.
“What are you doing here, Carmen?” He asked me instead, slowly getting up from his seat. He had now suddenly forgotten the girl sitting beside him.
“Who’s she, Frank?” The girl asked as she gave me a judging look, feeding my anger even more.
“Oh, why? He didn’t tell you before shoving his tongue down your throat that he already has a girlfriend?” I questioned. Meanwhile, Frank was still in shock from being caught. I wanted to grab him by the collar and demand him why he did this to me.
“Girlfriend?” The girl asked, puzzled as she looked between Frank and me.
“She was my girlfriend,” Frank spoke up now. He sounded very calm and composed by now. He sounded as if he hadn’t been caught red-handed at all.
“Was?” I repeated with hurt, anger and bewilderment laced in my voice. I now understood that he was trying to play cool because everyone in the café was looking at us now.
“Carmen, I am sorry. We cannot be together anymore,” He spoke very calmly. My blood was boiling as it ran throw my veins.
“Oh really?” I screamed, “After all this time? What did this bitch give to you that I couldn-“
“SHUT UP!” He shouted at me all of a sudden, making me jump back slightly. I looked at him wide-eyed as he glared back at me.
“Fra-“ I tried again but he cut me again.
“JUST SHUT UP!” He shouted louder than before, “I am tired of you and your ways now. I don’t want to be with you anymore!” He told me with a degrading tone while I was left staring at him with wide teary eyes.
A lump was building in my throat by now. He had never shouted at me before like that.
“Just get out of here right now. I don’t want to see your stupid face anymore!” He told me in front of everyone. A tear betrayed me by escaping my eyes and rolling down my cheek. He saw me cry but he didn’t say anything.
I’ve had enough by then and I was now aware that a lot of people had watched our breakup, making this even worse for me. I was afraid that I’d start crying in front of everyone so I spun on my heels and started to walk away.
“She wouldn’t come back, right?” I heard the girl ask Frank while I was leaving.
“No, I don’t want her anymore,” He told her. With that, I heard my heartbreak.