CHAPTER 17: VISIONS
I felt an overwhelming sadness grip at my heart as I looked up into his beautiful, sad, teary eyes. The light seemed to have gone completely out of the already dark blue orbs as he searched everything in my face for any signs of anything. He looked at me as if he was trying to memorize everything about me as a tear slid down the side of my face. We said nothing as he wiped the tear away, just started at each other, wishing, desperately, nothing more than to never have to let go, but we knew…
We knew that as soon as he let go of me and walked away, our lives would be nothing but hell and I would hate him each passing day for leaving me here and now, in this moment.
“I-I’ll die.” I sobbed and buried my face in his chest. His arms tightened around me and he kissed the top of my head.
“Me too.” H breathed and I looked up at him once more, in a desperate attempt to change his mind.
“I have no choice Sammie.” I clung to him tighter and shook my head. Why did he have to do this to me? To me! Why did our lives have to be so damn complicated?
“Why?” I cried aloud.
“Why!” I punched his chest in anger before my legs gave out and we fell to our knees, still holding each other. “Why? Why? WHY!” with each time that I said it, I hit him again and he took my hand. “Please don’t…” I breathed. “Please…” I clung to him so tightly, so desperately, as if he was my life line, as I sobbed…
I sat up gasping and screaming as tears stung my eyes and sweat ran down my face, arms and neck. Someone grabbed my shoulders as something ran from my nose and I jumped and tried to get away. An aching started to build in my chest as I started to struggle, only to realize that the person who grabbed my shoulders, had glowing blue eyes. I breathed shakily and looked away.
“Sammie.” Deric murmured and took my face in his hands as Sebastian ran over to us.
“Sebastian.” Deric turned to him as the ache got worse. I drew my knees to my chest and he quickly turned back to me as I breathed out a hard breath and wrapped my arms around my waist. I buried my face in my knees and felt the wetness seep through my jeans. It was starting to get hard to breathe and I gasped in a breath. “Get me a rag and the cream, now.” Deric ordered as he made me lean back. I cried in protest, but he gave me no room for discussion. “Sam, stop.” He said. “You’ll only make the pain worse. Listen to me.” I was still fighting him. “Listen to me Sam!” he grabbed my face in his hands and forced me to look at him. “The Euphoric is still in your system. You still need to keep as calm as you can. I know that it hurts, and I will put the cream on the bite, but I need you to lay back, please.” I whimpered. “I know Baby. I know it hurts.” He lay me back on the bed and held me down until it didn’t hurt as bad and I was able to lay still…
For the most part anyway.
Sebastian came back over and sat down at my other side. Deric took the stuff from my brother and opened the jar of herbal smelling cream.
He dipped his fingers into the brown-green cream and made me turn my head so that he could put it on my wound. The pain in my chest seemed to start moving toward the wound in my neck, as if it was drawing out the “poisons”.
“Hand me something to wipe this up.” He murmured as I closed my eyes and clenched my jaw. I gasped and grabbed Deric’s wrist as he wiped up something that ran down the side of my neck and he told me that it would be okay in a soft voice. “There we go. Now…” he placed his hand on my cheek and then ran his thumb under my nose. He drew it back and I saw the blood. I swallowed hard as he looked at it and then at me. He wiped the blood on the rag that he held against my neck and then moved it under my nose. I closed my eyes as he dabbed at my nose softly. “Right now, you need to remain calm, or as calm as you can, because the Euphoric is still in you. Ortho was able to draw out much of it out of your blood, but there was so much and it was so close to your heart, that it was nearly impossible to get as much as he did without hurting himself. The cream is to help draw out the rest of the ‘poisons’.”
“L-like tobacco on a b-bee sting?” I asked quietly as I opened my eyes to look at him again. He smiled softly and nodded.
“Just like tobacco on a bee sting.” He nodded and stroked my hair. He moved the rag from my nose and then set it aside. “Better?” he asked. I nodded some and relaxed some more in his arms. “Come on. You must be starving.” Right on cue, my stomach started to growl and he chuckled. Normally, I would feel embarrassed, turn red as a tomato and start biting my lip, but right now I was a little upset—still—with my sexy, vampire boyfriend, so I just looked at him quietly. “Sammie-“
“You drugged me Deric.” I whispered I felt some more blood run down my face from my nose and he clenched his jaw as I sat up. The blood ran over my lips as I grew very dizzy. I don’t know why, maybe because it felt weird and I didn’t want it there, but I licked my lips and then grimaced at the coppery taste.
Deric tilted my head back and placed the rag against my nose again. He pinched the bridge of my nose to help stop the bleeding. I swayed a little and breathed shakily. If he hadn’t been holding me up, I would have fallen over already.
“I know, I’m sorry.” He sighed. “Just relax Sam… why did you start screaming?” he asked.
“Why should it matter?” I muttered.
“Ortho told me that because he used magic on you, you would probably start getting your powers. I was just thinking that you might have had a vision…” he paused as I looked at him with a scowl. “When a seer has visions, they tend to have nose bleeds. So much power tends to cause damage to their heads and causes them to have nose bleeds. No one knows why really, but they do. For a while, they seem almost child-like until they heal. It takes about an hour or two until healing is complete… and you are showing signs of having had a vision.” I looked at him a moment. Had it been a vison?
Tears filled my eyes.
I didn’t want that to be a vision. If that was a vision, then he would leave me. I didn’t want him to leave me, even if I was mad at him right now. I didn’t want him to ever leave me.
“W-what is it?” he asked me a bit breathless now as his eyes filled with worry. “Baby… Sammie, what did you see?” I moved his hand and the rag away from my nose and I felt more blood run down my face, but I didn’t care as I buried my face in his chest. I wrapped my arms around his waist and he wrapped his around my shoulders. I clung to him tightly and sobbed. “Sammie?” he tried to push me back so he could look at me, but I held tighter. “Sammie, what is it?”
“Don’t leave me.” I sobbed. He tensed. His arms tightened around me and his fingers slid into my hair as he pressed my head against his chest. He kissed my head and then made me look at him.
“Settle down Baby.” He breathed and stroked my hair out of my face. “Settle down. You don’t want to get too worked up again. It will start to hurt.” I nodded, but choked on another sob. “ I’m not leaving.” He whispered. “I’m not leaving you unless I am dead or me being near you, puts you in danger. Do you understand? I will be dead before I leave willingly and if I have to go, it will only be because I have somehow put you in more danger than whatever else is going on. Shh.” He hugged me back against his chest. “I’m not going anywhere. Don’t worry about it. Okay. I am here now and that is what matters most. We have each other, that is all that matters. Do you understand me?” I nodded against his chest and sobbed harder. “Shh.” He stroked my hair and back. “Shh Baby. Calm down. I am so sorry. I am such a terrible boyfriend. Please forgive me and calm down.” I hugged him tighter and he did the same to me. “Shh.” He held me for a while as Sebastian and Drew watched quietly.
“Can I get some water please?” I asked the waiter quietly. He scribbled it down on the pad in his hand and Sebastian got a coke. Deric had suggested that Sebastian and I go get something to eat and he and Drew would go feed and meet us wherever we were. I didn’t know why we didn’t just go to McDonalds or something with a drive threw, but I didn’t question my brother’s choice in place. I sighed tiredly and rested my cheek on my chin as I looked over the menu. It was a Chinese restaurant, but I wasn’t really in the mood for Chinese.
“Do you need a few minutes or are you ready to order?” the Asian man asked with a thick accent I almost didn’t understand. I was really tired and I had a slight headache. Deric had said that getting some food in me before we headed out would make me feel better. It would also help with the healing in my head…
If I had had a vision.
“Sam?” I looked at Sebastian. He looked worried, but he didn’t say anything about it. “Do you know what you want?”
“Sweet and sour chicken with fried rice please.” I looked at the waiter. He wrote it down on his pad, then looked at Sebastian.
“I’ll take the same.” He said and the waiter nodded, wrote it down on the pad and then hurried back to the back where they cooked the food. I closed my eyes and then jumped when someone sat down beside me suddenly. I looked at Deric and then at Drew as he sat down beside Sebastian. I looked back at Deric and then just leaned against him.
“Switch spots with me.” He told me and stood up. He took my hand and pulled me out of the seat, then sat down and pulled me back into it and made me lean against him. I sighed tiredly and he laced our fingers together as he held me against him. He kissed my head and hugged me against him. “More comfortable?” he asked and I nodded. “How do you feel?”
“My head still hurts, but I’m okay right now.” I answered. He rested his chin on top of my head. I closed my eyes and sat there in silence as we waited for the food to come out.
Deric held my hand as we walked back toward the car. Sebastian was still inside, paying for the food and Drew had excused himself to go do something soon after he got there and still hadn’t returned. Deric didn’t seem too worried about it so I guess I shouldn’t have been either, but to be honest, I kind of was.
Deric pulled me to a stop suddenly and I looked back at him. He pulled me close to him and wrapped his arms around my waist. He put his forehead to mine as I placed my hand against his chest.
“You look nice tonight.” He told me softly. I smiled a little and breathed a small laugh. I was wearing pretty much what I always wore. Jeans, a long sleeved, lightweight shirt and my motorcycle jacket with a thin jacket under it so I wasn’t too cold since I was slightly anemic, my combat boots and my gloves. “I do like the way that you can pull off the dark clothes.”
“What can I say?” I asked. “I just know how to work it.” He chuckled and I bit my lip. “Beside. You don’t look so bad yourself.” And he didn’t. with his dark jeans and his light grey button up shirt and his lightweight jacket, he looked rather handsome as he stood before me.
His blue eyes watched me a moment before he dipped his head down to kiss me softly. I pushed up on my tippy toes to make it so he didn’t have to lean down so much and slid my hands up his chest, around his neck and into his hair. A breeze picked up around us, but I barely noticed it as he pulled me closer to him and smiled against my lips.
When he pulled back, he put his forehead to mine again and held me close. I bit my lip once more and smiled at him.
“What are you thinking right now?” he asked softly.
“How much I love this feeling right now.” I answered. “Us together and nothing to stop us.” I leaned my head against his chest and he rested his chin on the top of my head. “The way you hold me and kiss me… it makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. He ran his hand up and down my back lazily and kissed my head before he put his chin back on top of my head. “Deric…” I pulled back some to look at him. He scowled as I looked up into his deep, blue eyes. He studied my face a moment before he met my eyes and I saw the worry find its way into his. I studied him quietly. How his eyes watched me, how his brow creased with worry and how his jaw clenched slightly. I felt his arms tighten ever so slightly around my waist, in an almost possessive manner that I was actually okay with right now. The wind blew his already ruffled hair and it made me want to smile at how it blew around his head. He was my perfect—no matter how imperfect he was—vampire boyfriend and I loved him for it…
Love? Do I really love him? I asked myself as I continued to look at him. We haven’t known each other very long, but I feel like I have known him an eternity already. A few weeks of him being so close has made me feel so much safer than when it was just Sebastian and Dad and Tonya. Even Terry and Andy didn’t bring me this much comfort…
Andy. Before I could stop myself, I let out a sigh, which made Deric’s face darken with more worry. I miss him. I miss how close we were and how he cared about me, even when I didn’t show how much I really did. I love him. I know I do, but it isn’t the same as I feel about Deric. Deric is different. I feel completed. He makes me feel like everything is okay and that it will stay that way, even if I know it won’t. he makes me feel like I am home with him, even so far away from any kind of place I can call home. He is what I have always wanted and always feared. He meant so much to me…
And I was so scared to lose him.
“Sammie?” Deric cupped my face in one of his hands. “Baby… what’s wrong?” he wiped away a tear that I didn’t realize I had shed. I slid my hands down his chest and then around his waist and rested my head against his chest again. “Sam-“
“I love you Deric.” He tensed and I felt a tremble run through him…
Or maybe it was me. I heard him breathed shakily and I closed my eyes, feeling as if I had made a mistake. I was about to pull away, but he wouldn’t let me as his arms tightened around me once more. He made me look at him and before I could say anything, he kissed me softly and I instantly gave in.
When he pulled back, we were both breathless. He looked into my eyes and I saw a little fear in his.
“Do-don’t be mad at me Sammie… but I’m not ready.” I felt a small part of me fill with sadness as he spoke the words. “I care so much for you… but I’m not ready to say…” he breathed shakily.
“It’s okay.” I whispered, even though I was a little upset. It was okay. He just wasn’t ready yet. Soon he would be and it would all still be okay, but right now, he wasn’t ready and I had to respect that. “Just know that I do.” He nodded and smiled sadly at me. He kissed me again and then pulled back as someone walked up to us.
“You two ready?” Sebastian asked as he stopped beside us. I nodded, feeling the tiredness start to sneak back up on me. I yawned and he laughed a little. Deric did too, but his seem just a little forced. I tried to ignore it, but it did start to eat at me. I really hoped that I hadn’t just messed something up with us by saying that. “Come on. You can sleep on the way.” I nodded and took Deric’s hand again. He squeezed mine and we started walking to the car again.