The wedding was set for Saturday, July 12th 2012, and to be honest the closer it got the more scared I got. Luckily I had Madison and Berdina helping me out with everything because God himself knows I never would have gotten through any of this without their help. It also just so happens, they’re two of my bridesmaids. Kim, Becky, Hazel and Katie are my others. I know it’s a lot of bridesmaids, but they’re the only women in my life that are constant and that I trust.
I know I said I was nervous but it wasn’t because I didn’t want to marry Logan. Hell, he was good looking, an amazing dad to my children, successful and he knew everything about me and accepted it without hesitation. How could I expect to find someone better? The only thing that scared me was the fact that I was afraid history would repeat itself and somehow I would mess something up and get hurt again.
Madison seemed to sense what I was thinking and said, ““We can draw lessons from the past, but we cannot live in it. – Lyndon B. Johnson and Courage is being scared to death – but saddling up anyway. – John Wayne. A woman is like a tea bag; you never know how strong it is until it’s in hot water.-Eleanor Roosevelt.
“I can go on forever. You see, Rain, everything happens for a reason and at some point or another everyone gets scared. You know you love this man. You are definitely not making the same mistakes as before. He loves you too much and would never hurt you like the others have. Trust yourself. It’s what you’ve always been good at.”
I smiled at her because I knew she was right. There was no challenge that lay ahead of us that we couldn’t face together. No matter what happened in the future I knew I would always have someone that I could turn to for anything.