I'm so lonely
As I toss and turn I hear my alarm go off. I groan and reach to switch it off but it falls off my bed rug. As I reach to pick it up, my face decides that the floor needs a kiss. I stand up and curse underneath my breath.
" Stupid alarm. Who said I want to go to work? I'm the boss for crying out loud. Ugh but who cares? Oh look surprisingly me."
Oh fuck I'm so lonely. I need a life. As I was bathing I could feel the loneliness drawing in. It poured on me like heavy rain pouring on the ground. I could feel the warmth of my tears running down my cheeks. I promised myself that I would not cry about that night. Its over. It's all over.
I get ready by putting on a red dress with a slit on the side and a v that ends just above my butt. I make sure I look as professional as possible.
I walk in at HQ of Butterfly Effect Clothing. Yes I own a fashion business. I make beautiful gowns. As I walk in I dont greet anyone as always. Kaylee walks upto me to give me my schedule for the day. I thank her shut my door in her face.
I need a break from everything.
For what feels like a lifetime I hear a knock on the door. I groan and tell Kaylee to walk in.
" Uhm Ms. Ferguson, uh Mr. Michaels is on the line. What should I say to him?" Kaylee asks.
" Ok. I'll talk to him just now." I say shooing her away.
I finish up my paper work and take the phone in my hand as I walk to the window to look at the beautiful view of the city.
" Mr. Michaels to what do I owe the pleasure?" I ask sarcastically.
" Uh Ms. Ferguson I'm so sorry. I had some errands I had to attend to. I didn't..." he tries to explain but I cut him off.
" Look here, I don't need your whole life story. As long as you work for me you need to be on time. Do you understand?" I ask.
" I'm so sorry ma'am. I..." he tries to apologize.
" Shut up. Imma let it slide this once. Just make sure you won't do it again." I command.
" Yes thank you. Thank you so much." He said sounding so ecstatic about it.
" Don't get overly excited this wasn't for you. It's all because of your daughter. Go thank her." I replied.
" What? My daughter? What did..." he questions.
I end the call in between he's questioning. I sigh and lean against the wall and think of how I really got here. Thinking really deep. I zone out thinking of how my life used to be.
" Ava! Ava! Ava! Ava!" The crowd shouted my name.
I didn't care if I was already drunk. All I wanted was to take more shots. My life was perfect.
I stood up to go to the bathroom. But first I needed to kiss the living shit out of Frencesco. I looked around everywhere. Where could he be?
I gave up eventually and headed towards the bathroom. I hear moaning as I'm approaching. I giggle to myself and think that this couple is most definitely enjoying themselves. It could've been me and Francesco but he's nowhere to be found.
I take a turn around the corner and my heart drops to my stomach. Francesco was fucking... why her? How could he? He knew. He knew. He fuckin knew!
I bang my hand on my table. And tiny glasses of my water glass cut me. There was blood all over the table. And I didn't even care.