Chapter 1: The Book
I was trying not to think about my Gran but it was very hard not to do. She is… was my everything, she had taken care of me since I was a baby. My parents died when I was a baby, well my mom did but I don’t know about my dad. My Gran won’t tell me about him, only that he was never really in my mother’s life, that he is a very bad man but Gran said he wasn’t always that way, it happened the night that she told him that they were going to have a baby and then then next morning he was a totally different man. He tried to hurt her so she ran away from him and she never saw or heard from him again and now I would never know who is or where he was. I did want to know but Gran would never tell me.
Sometimes I can’t help but think about him, especially if he is all that I have left. I have always felt like something was missing from my life and I just knew that it had to do with him, but I also felt like it wasn’t a good thing if he was to come back into my life.
Don’t ask me how I know that cuz I won’t be able to tell you that, it’s just these feeling that I get sometimes. I just get them and my Gran would tell me that one day they would become into something bigger.
Well let me tell you who I am, my name is Rina Reon Sander and I am 26 years old and I am an only child, well unless my dad had any more kids but I don’t know so we are going to go with that I am an only child. I grow up with my grandma in Organ, Eugene. It was just the two of us for the longest time, she didn’t let me go out much because she was worried that I would get hurt or something like that.
I think it was something different but she wouldn’t tell me anything else and she would always close herself off when I would try to talk about it.
So, I have lived my whole life in this house and the forest around it, not that I am complaining because I love it out here and wouldn’t want to be anywhere else. It’s not bad but she told me when she passed on that I needed to bury her and that I couldn’t ever leave the house or bad things would happen to me, but she wouldn’t tell what the bad things were.
She taught me how to hunt so I knew that I would be okay with food and I could stay here but that didn’t mean I wanted too, I wanted to get out in the world and live a little.
I had just gotten done filling in her grave when I looked around, it was well after dark and I knew that I needed to be getting back to the house. I didn’t have much time tell her guards would go up and I would have to spend the night in the woods.
That had happened once before when my Gran left me here and she when into town for the night and let me tell you she was not happy when she got back and I wasn’t in the house.
I quickly got my things together and took off through the woods as fast as I could. I knew that I only had 3mins and 47sic to get back inside the guards, like I said I didn’t want to happen again.
I was moving so fast that I didn’t even notes that I was moving too fast to be humanly possible, as soon as I got back inside I took a deep breath and looked around in time to see the guards go up.
I made it just in time.
It was a beautiful thing to watch, all the colors that would move up to the sky and then over my head tell they came together and then the colors would shoot back down to the earth. It was a very hard spell to make and cast, it was one that I was never able to get right but I knew that I had to keep trying. I didn’t have a chose, I would have to put it up tomorrow night.
With Gran gone I only had less than a day to make it work before my guards would be down and then anyone could find me, Gran said that the guards would keep anyone for finding me as long as I stated inside. I did have my pendant but that only did so much. It would only keep me safe in danger that was happening now not latter. It was beautiful, it was round with a moon hanging on the outside. The moon was separate from the round peace and inside the round peace was a grope of stars forming the consolation of Leo.
My Gran said it was Leo was our Star God, I didn’t know a lot about him but I did know that he was said to keep us safe and if we ever needed him that he would be there, we would just have to call out to him through a spell from his book. She told me that all I had to do was wish upon his stars and cast The Spell and he would come and save me, I don’t know what she means by that but she did give me his book.
I think I will look into that latter but I had things to do first.
She told me that she had meet him once when my mother asked him to save her and me. She said that he came down but there was nothing that he could do. That the only way he could even try was he would have to take a life for a life and my mother wouldn’t let that happen. She was a very good wiccan, she always made sure that everyone was safe before she worried about herself, at least that is what my Gran has told me.
She told me that he was very handsome and that he was big. I remember her saying that he had to be over 7 feet tall. That amazed me, after all I was only 4 feet 11in. That was well over a foot taller than me, that was like two!
I needed to get to bed so that I could try to keep the guards up. I turned around to face the house, it was big but it blended in well. There were 3 levels to the house and that didn’t include the basement, which I didn’t like going into. There was a nice back deck that turned into a wraparound porch. I don’t know much about it because I am always outside, I hated being trapped inside and that is how I felt when I was inside.
I walk up the back steps and through the back doors, I made sure that I shut and locked them behind me. I went through the kitchen, I wasn’t going to even eat tonight. I didn’t feel like I could eat after what I did.
I left the kitchen and turned right and want down the hall towards the stars that are on my left. I went up the stars and to my room that was on the right, three doors down.
I opened my door and went in, it was a big room. Me and Gran had knocked down the wall between mine and the next room to make mine even bigger.
Mine was even bigger then Gran’s but she said that she didn’t need anything but me so she wouldn’t let me make here bigger.
I looked at my big four post bed with my purple silk sheet and comfier. I had white pillows on my bed and my lap top was sitting there were I left it this morning when I didn’t hear my Gran get up.
I walked over to my walk-in closet and went to my dresser to pull out my PJ’s, they were silk but blue.
What can I say I had a thing for silk and I had a spell that could turn anything into silk so I used it a lot.
I grabbed them and headed into my bathroom, I really wanted a nice hot shower. I stripped down and jumped in, the water was nice and hot just the way that I liked it.
I wanted to stay in forever but I knew that I needed my sleep too, so I got out and got into my PJ’s and brushed my teeth before jumping into my bed.
I sighed, it felt nice to get in my bed after a long day like today. I may like to be outside but I loved being in bed just as much if not more.
I closed my eyes and tried to let myself sleep but it just wouldn’t come, I was starting to get mad that I was just laying here when I knew that I needed to sleep so I could try to make the guards for tomorrow night.
I was trying to think of something to help me sleep when I felt my tummy growl at me but I didn’t want to get out of my warm bed to go all the way down stars and eat something.
I decided to just wait to morning like I was planning on anyway. I even tried to count Sean’s but that was not working! Ugh! I banged my head back down onto the pillow.
“You should little one, you will need your strength.” I shot up in bed, what was that!? I know that was a voice in my head but I didn’t know whose it was or where it came from.
“Hello? Is anybody there?” I was met with nothing but silence.
I was slightly on edge, no one should be able to talk to me especially in my mind the guards were up, they should be working. I got out of bed and quickly turn on the lights to look around my room.
There was nothing out of the ordinary, my laptop was still even on my bed. I walked over to it and picked it up and took it over to my desk, laying it down there.
I ran my hand through my hair in frustration, I felt like I was being watched I had since Gran died. But no one should be around or in these woods, Gran owned them for miles and miles.
I walked back over to my bed and plopped down onto it, I had a feeling this is going to be a long night.
Maybe I should go downstairs and get something to eat, but that was what the voice wanted me to do. What if somebody was down there waiting for me?
“You are safe for tonight little one, go and eat.”
Once again, I jumped out of bed and looked around me, what was going on and who was talking to me.
“Who is there? Who are you and what you want?” I tried to sound brave but I knew my voice was shaking.
I’ve never been faced with anything like this before, Gran would know what to do. I wish she was here to help me now.
Maybe it was Gran!
“I am not your Gran, I am offended that you would think that I was, little one.”
“Will you please tell me who you are and what you want?” I slowly sat back down onto my bed and ran my hand through my hair again.
“You will know who I am and what I want soon enough, you will know when I come for you. Now get something to eat and sleep, I will talk to you soon little one.”
“Wait don’t go!” But I already knew it was too late I felt the connection leave, I didn’t even know it was there.
I was hungry, and if something was to happen I would need to have all my strength. I had made my decision I got back up off my bed hopefully for the last time tonight and made my way downstairs.
When I got into the kitchen I flipped on the lights and went to the fridge, I opened the door to see what was left inside. There was a tater tot casserole left over from last night, sounds good to me. I pulled it out and quickly put it into the pant so I could slide into the oven, after I had slid it in the oven I turn the oven on.
I was too tired to wait for it to preheat so I figured by the time that it was preheated it would be warm.
I put my hands behind me on top of the counter and use them to help lift myself up onto the counter top. I could feel the coldness of it through my silk jammies.
There were times like these that I wish I had a cell phone but my Gran never let me get one, she let me have a laptop but no cell phone. I also didn’t have any Internet so it’s not like could do much on the laptop but write.
I decided to amuse myself with trying it to make bubbles with fire inside of, I’m always trying to come up with new interesting things so why not.
I almost had it down when the stove beeped and scared me so bad that I jumped which caused me to slide off the countertop because of my silk jammies and let hard on the floor on my butt and let me tell you it hurt.
“Fruit loop! Flapjack! Butterball!” I yelled. And then when I tried to get up I couldn’t since I had my fuzzy socks on I just kept slipping and falling back on the floor.
And then I started laughing at myself but then I was laughing so hard I made myself cry, it was a very vicious cycle.
When I was finally able to stand on my own two feet again I very carefully pulled the pan out of the oven with hot pads and set it on top of the stove.
I decided to let it cool down a bit before I dish it up so I went over and grabbed my plate and a fork and a big spoon and set it next to the hot pan on the stove.
I also decided it was not a good idea to climb back on top of the counter so I just stood by the stove waiting. But then I got to impatient and decided to dish it up anyway.
I quickly dish it up onto my plate and then put the pan with the big spoon into the sink filling it up water to soak overnight and I would do in the morning.
I then walked back to the stove and picked up my plate before heading back upstairs to my room. I thought about eating it on my way upstairs but I knew my luck, I would probably trip up the stairs and fall and break something so I waited tell I got up to my room.
I sat down on my bed with my plate in my lap and quickly eat my dinner, I know it’s not good to eat fast but I was tired and I just wanted to get to bed.
As soon as I was done I put my plate on my bedside table turned off the lights and crawled back under my covers in closing my eyes. Soon sleep overtook me.
My body woke me up about 630 this morning, my body has always hated me. I had already been up and did the dishes and got dressed and I was trying to practice the guard spell, it wasn’t going so well.
I was taking a break for lunch, I was sitting in the dining room eating a tuna sandwich when I heard something.
It sounded like somebody was calling my name, but I was the only one in the house. I quickly stood up and mumbled under my breath. “Fire be mine.” I felt the warmth on my hands as my fire started up. If someone was here if they were going to be in for a surprise.
I looked around the kitchen and into the backyard to see if I could see anyone but nobody was there. I went to turn back around when I felt like someone was standing behind me and it felt like somebody was breathing down my neck, I spun around and when to throw my fire but no one was there.
I looked around bewildered, was I losing it?... I was about ready to send out my sensor when I heard that voice from last night again.
“Little one, get your things and leave now. Only take what you need, I will find you.”
And then he was gone, I was pretty sure it was a he, I didn’t know any female that could be this demanding and if you’re wondering I couldn’t tell by the tone of voice it was all jumbled.
I quickly ran back up to my room, I grabbed my bag that had my spell book and it my laptop and a few casting spell items. I quickly swung it over my shoulder and took off back down the stairs.
When I reached the back doors, I couldn’t see anyone so I took a deep breath and slipped out not bothering to lock the doors I had a feeling I wouldn’t be back anytime soon.
I took one more look around before I took off to the forest edge by the time I got to the forest edge I could hear some noise behind me.
I looked back over my shoulder at what I saw I was shocked, there were two men standing on my back porch. They were looking around frantically, had a feeling they were looking for me but I had made it to the edge of the forest just in time to hide myself behind shrubbery.
I wanted to stay to see what they would do but that voice came back.
“Run little one and don’t look back.”
I was almost to my grands guards when I reached my hands out I swiped my hands out in front of me and mumbled, “Guards fade away.”
Just as I would have run fully into the guards they dropped. I almost made it 10 steps away from the forest line when I felt and heard a big boom! The forces of it through me to the gowned. I landed very hard on my right arm, I felt it slap under my weight. I let out a scream that I couldn’t hold in. Black dots came before my eyes but I knew that I couldn’t let them take me. I had to get up and run. It didn’t matter if I think I just broke my arm I needed to run I could feel it.
I used my left arm to push myself up onto my knees and then up so that I was standing. I looked back at what was left of my home. There wasn’t much at all, the house was falling in on its self and I could see someone standing at the left corner of what use to be my home and I could see the other two standing off to the right and I knew that I had to run and not look back.
Whoever these people where they weren’t good and I want to wait around to see what they wanted. I could only assume that since they were at my house they were after me but what I don’t understand is how they got through the safeguards and all the way up to the house that would be something I’ll have to think about later.
I took off running as fast as I could go. I didn’t want to wait around to see what was going on. I knew that if I didn’t go then I was dead, I could just feel in my bones that they would rather kill me first and ask questions later. Maybe it was the voice that was pushing me forward and giving me these thoughts.
I had to keep telling myself that I was okay and that I could keep going, even though I was in a lot of pain and the black dots kept coming back and they were staying longer. I knew that I was going to pass out soon but I had to keep going. I couldn’t let who ever blow up my home get me, I made a promise to Gran. If they could do that to my home then I knew what they could do to me, and that scared me even more.
I was deeper into the forest but I knew that if I stopped that they would catch up to me and then I would be done for. But I also knew that if I didn’t stop then I was going to pass out and then I wouldn’t have any hope.
I came to a stop and lend on a tree, I couldn’t keep going. I looked around me quirky to make sure I was still alone, I couldn’t see anyone and I couldn’t hear anything either. When I was, sure I was safe for now I turned my attention to my right arm. It was just hanging there, and I knew that I had broken it but I also dislocated it as well, not again! I groaned.
I knew that I had to get it back into place and then I could start healing it, I also knew that it was going to hurt but I didn’t have any other chose. I tuned so that I was facing the tree and then I lend my right shoulder against it, I took a deep breath in and let it out.
This was going to hurt so bad and I needed to do it so that I could keep going.
With a quick movement, I jerked back away from the tree and then I slammed my shoulder into it at full forces. I had to bite my bottom lip so hard that I bit right through it but that was better than letting out my scream. I felt it go back into place, now all I needed to do was speed up my healing, I couldn’t let it heal on its own it would go to slow and I didn’t have that kind of time.
I lend on the tree and tried not to cry but I couldn’t help it and a couple tires escaped. I took some deep breaths and tried to calm myself. It was slowly working, as I was coming back to myself I could hear people talking. I lessened in on them to see who they were and what they were up to. I didn’t think they were this close when I stopped if I had known then I would have kept on going.
“She went this way, I can feel it. She is strong just like her father. We need to get her before he finds out we lost her.” One man said. They were standing about 150 feet away from me and they were on the other side of the tree. It was a good thing this tree was big, it was the only thing keeping me out of sight.
I needed to find out how to get out of her and fast before they found out that I was behind this tree. I didn’t think that I would be able to out run them if they did find me.
“We need to find her, he father is going to kill us I just know it. it’s not going to matter if we find her or not. Maybe we should just run and leave know.” Another man said.
I tried not to make any sound but it was hard since I was still in pain and I wanted to know how they knew my father and why he would want to hurt me.
“He may just kill us or at least you. Look what you did to her house! You almost killed her! He wants her alive. You moron!” I heard what sounded like someone hitting the other upside the head. If I had to guess I would say that the first guy just hit the second guy.
Wait did he just say my father is after me?! I mean I I knew it was only a matter of time before my father tried to find me what my Gran said I didn’t think it was going to be this soon.
At least I knew that my father didn’t want me dead but I still didn’t want to know what he did want with me. I had a bad feeling and I needed to get out of here and fast. I decided that I didn’t need to hear any more so I pushed off the tree with my left hand and turned my back into the tree.
All I had to do was keep my back facing the tree and walk in a straight line and I would be good. I could also start healing myself too. I took a deep breath as I heard a fight start out between the two of them.
For all I care if they could kill each other and then that way my dad couldn’t find me hopefully. But I had a bad feeling, I saw three people standing at the house there was only two of them there where was the third? Was it my father?
I pushed off the tree and started my walk, as soon as I got about 100 feet away from the tree I took off running. I started using my healing spell on myself. I mumbled under my breath, “Mend what was once whole and now is broken back together as it should be.” I stumbled as my broken bones started to heal, it was very painful. I looked down at my arm and watched as my broken bone started to slowly go back into my skin but then it stopped.
I knew it would only heal me so far but I was hoping it would at least close my wound on my arm. It wasn’t bleeding as bad but it was still bleeding but I knew would have to keep pushing forward, this was as far as it was going to heal.
I kept own moving forward, I didn’t have a chose. I was slowly moving through bushes now and around trees and before I knew it I was deeper into the woods and I couldn’t hear the men fighting anymore. They were to fair away and for that I was thankful.
I looked around as I walked and I knew that I was in a new part of the forest. I just knew that I had never been this fair in before but I wasn’t afraid. I felt at home here. I have always felt at home in the woods, almost like it was my real home and that I have always belonged here.
In this part of the forest there were more trees and they were so close together that you couldn’t see the stars when you looked up at the sky. I could also tell that I was going up the side of one of the mounters. I was hoping that I would hit the waterfall that I knew was up here I was getting thirsty and it took everything I had left to heal myself and I didn’t even heal myself all the way.
I looked around to see if I could find a hiding spot, so I could take a rest. I also needed to look at The Book and make sure everything was okay with it and I was starting to think that I should be asking it for help like my Gran said I should do.
I found that to my right was a grope of rocks that could be a good hiding place but it was also obvious and I didn’t want that. I looked over to my left and saw that there was a smaller rock that I could use as my cover.
How you may ask well you see I can cast a clocking spell and I would look just like the rock and I could just blend in.
I went over to the rock and sat down by it and a little on it. I sat with my knees brought up to my chest. I laid my head down on my knees and mumbled, “I ask you this, for only protection. I need thy help hid me in plain sight. Make me as this rock beside me.”
I felt the change as it happened. I picked my head up and looked around me, it worked! I had a hard time with this spell and I didn’t think I could get it to work but I did and that makes me so happy. I laid my head back on my knees and took some deep breaths, trying to calm my mind and body.
I wonder what happened to the voice, he hadn’t contacted me for a while and I kind of missed it was reassuring.
I just needed to figure out what I was doing and make a plan. I knew that my father was the cause of this but what I didn’t know why he was doing this and what he wanted from me. I also needed to figure out who I was.
Who could I be that my father would want me so bad? I don’t think I was anything special.
“Oh, but you are special little one, I am sorry it is taking me so long to get to you but I’m having a hard time locating you. I need you to hang in.”
I didn’t even bother to move my head up, hearing him inside my head was in a strange thing anymore it was like peace.
“I don’t know how much longer I can hang on.” I whispered.
I don’t know what I was expecting a but an answer wasn’t it, I sighed again. Maybe I was going crazy.
I knew that I was getting stronger but I didn’t know why. I knew that I was a wiccan and that I was the last in my coven and that meant I had all my coven’s powers. Was that why my father wanted me?! You may be thinking why not go see you father, he wouldn’t hurt you. But you see I knew better. My Gran had told me that He was a bad man, he wasn’t always that way but something happened to him to make him that way.
I also know what I felt when I was by my home and that was pure evil and if it was just those men there then I knew that they were bad man and if they worked for my father like they said then I knew that I couldn’t trust them or my father.
I have just assumed that they work for my father by the way they were talking. Anyone would have. I took a deep breath and decided that I need to look at The Book. I moved slowly so that the spell would still hid me.
I let go of my knees and turned slowly at my waits so that I could get into my small bag that I had on me and get The Book out. I reached in ever so slowly and pulled it out and then I turned back around so that I was facing forwarded again.
I opened The Book up and laid it across my knees, I took a deep breath and then spoke in my mind as not to break the spell. “I only ask for your help to know what is it that I should do, to keep you safe above all else and only myself second.”
I watched as the pages started to flip back and forth and I just waited to see what The Book had to show to me. When it finely came to a stop I was surprised to see what it landed on. I was speechless. It landed on the wishing upon the unseen star spell.
This was the spell that my Gran was talking about! This is the one that would bring the Star God to me.
There was no way I could do this spell! It was the hardest spell to do and I was still just a beginner at this. What was I going to do now?! What could I do? I would just have to keep moving and hopefully they would give up and leave me alone. I knew that was never going to happen and just to prove it those two men just tumbled into the small clearing that I was hiding in.
I had been so caught up in my own thoughts that I didn’t see or hear them. I could be so stupid sometimes! I very slowly slipped The Book back into my small bag. I wrapped my arms back around my knees again slowly and waited to see what they would do.
“I told you she had to come this way.” The first one said. He was not very tall, I was taller than he was. He had black hair and the eyes to match, he was also fat. No wonder I could out run them. I was trying not to laugh but it was hard to do.
“I hope your right. I want to get out of here, I don’t like this world. ” The second one said. He was taller but I was still taller than him too. He looked like the other one but his eyes were yellow and that scared me. Only low grade warlocks had those eyes. I think I will call him yellow eyes and the other one will be fatty.
“We just have to find her and then we could have some fun before we take her back.” Said Fatty as he scratched his fat stomach. I wanted to barf but I held it in.
“You know we can’t do that! HE will kill us if we did anything to her, now were, is she? I can’t sense her anymore.” Yellow eyes said as he looked around.
I knew that I was safe but I was still scared and I didn’t want them to find me. I was trying to think of what I could do when there was overwhelming power that just came out of nowhere. I looked around and gasped. It was HIM.
It was my dad.
I stopped breathing and I thought I was going to die. I looked like him. We had the same white blond hair with a hint of purple in it and he was so tall at least 6 feet 5in and then there was his eyes. They were the brightness blue just like mine.
“Where is she! I told you not to lose her and what did you go and do! I swear I am going to kill you both for this. I can’t feel her anymore that means she is heal just enough and she is clocking herself. I can’t finder her now!” He was turning redder as he yelled at them.
It made me happy knowing that he couldn’t find me. I could just stay here and wait for them to leave then I could figure out my next move. I needed to find out how to do that spell, I could feel that the only way out of this mess was casting that spell.
“Master, were trying but she is just too good with her powers. If you had just bounded them we could have got her with no problem.” Yellow eyes said but that was all he said and they were also his last words because my father reach out and just snapped his neck.
I held in my gasp as I tried to keep calm and just wait this out but it got even hard when he ripped Fatty’s heart right out of his chest. I watched as his body fell to the forest floor.
" I know that you are here somewhere Rina! I will find you and when I do I will punish you for running away from me. I know that you are still coming into you powers and that bitch of a mother kept me from you and that stupid mother of hers helped and I would kill them if they weren’t already died.” He spun around and yelled at me.
I am so glad that he can’t see me. I put my head down on my knees and just waited for him to leave. A fire ball came shooting passed my head, I tried not to move. I knew what he was doing, he was throwing random fire balls to try to scare me out but I wasn’t going to let him do that. I took a deep breath and calmed my heart.
“Fine my little Rina I will be back for you, I will always find you. Don’t ever forget that.” With that he vanished. I let out a breath that I didn’t even know I was holding. he was gone for now and I just needed to stay here for at least a day then I knew that I would be safe to move again.
I tried to settle in for the long day ahead of me, by this time it was day time, the light was just coming throw the trees. I knew that I would be fine but I knew that I was going to be worn out by the time I could move again. I guess that I could try to figure out how I was going to cast that spell and I needed to do it as soon as I could.
As soon as I could move I would have to go find all the things that I would need and that could take all night. And that was when I decided that I would wait tell night fall and then I would go out and find what I would needed and then I would cast that spell cuz tonight was a new moon and that was just what I needed.
My powers would be at their strongest.
But I also knew that my father was watching, I could feel him. I had to wait tell he was gone just long enough for me to cast two spells. One for an inadvisable and the other for a rock. I needed to make a rock to look like the one I was making myself look like so that he would think I was still here when he came back and then the other so that he couldn’t see me when I left or if he were to come back before I was done with my rock casting spell.
I just had to figure out which spell I wanted to use. There were many that I could use, but they needed to be the right one or he would find me out and all hope would be lost and to think I was having a good day and then this happened, well except for losing my Gran.
I got out of bed this morning and it was a good day I was going to practice my spell casting but that all changed when this happened. Well it’s a good thing that I am not normal because I would be freaking out right now or I would be dead. I am glad to be who I am.
“You little bitc*! I am going to kill you as soon as I find you. I am done playing with you. Just wait tell I find you.” I looked up and saw him standing by the two dead men. He was looking around, trying to see if he could find me.
I don’t know what it was but something changed inside of me, something made me not care that he was going to kill me and I stood up and broke my spell.
In a voice that I didn’t recognize as mine but I knew that it had to be mine I said, “Don’t call her that.” I almost scared myself. My voice sounded scary to me, it made me want to run away. “She is no one’s bitc*.”
It was like I had not control over my own body. I watched his eye go wide as he looked at me and then I watched as I called on my fire without saying anything and they I reached out my left arm and throw it at him. But just before it would have hit him right in his chest he floated up into the sky.
I was shocked as all this was happening. I felt like I wasn’t driving my own body because the next thing I knew I was flying up into the air right after him and I couldn’t understand I didn’t say “I” I said “Her” and “She”. It was like I wasn’t the one talking or in control.
I or whoever was controlling me looked around. I could see my father in front of me and he still looked scared.
“Fay... get out of her! You are going to hurt her. She is not ready for this.” My father shouted at me. Why would my father care if I got hurt or not it didn’t make sense.
What is he talking about? Fay was my mother... I was so confused.
“She is my daughter. I know what she can take! You are the one that is trying to kill her! I am going to kill you for threatening my daughter.” It raised my hands and started shooting fire at my father.
I tried to stop it but there was nothing I could do. I didn’t really like my father but I didn’t want him died! I could feel myself crying so I knew that I had some control but not enough to do anything.
My father was jumping around in the air so that he wasn’t getting hit but I was still scared for him. Then something hit me. It had to be my mother. She had to be doing this! I had to stop her. This wasn’t the first time she tried to help me. She did this all the time when I was little.
So, I did the only thing I could remember that stopped her, “Mother! I can do this. I love you but I want control back.” I spoke in my mind. Hoping she would hear me.
I could tell her hared me because the next thing I know we are being teleported somewhere and then after that I felt her leave me but I looked up and there she was in her ghostly form.
“Mom???” My voice came out all little and shaky sounding. It sounded like a four-year-old me.
“Rina, my baby. Oh, how I have missed you my little bug.” Her voice was so soft sounding now. Like a loving mother should be, I had waited all my life to hear her voice.
I’ve heard it before but not clear like this and let me tell you it was amazing 26 long years waiting to hear your mother’s voice, it was torture but it was worth it to hear it now.
“What is going on? I don’t understand. What’s happening to me?” I felt like crying for the first time in a long time, I was so frustrated that I wanted to cry not that I was sad. My emotions were just hooked to my tear ducts so whether I was mad, sad and upset I just cried.
“Oh, little bug I cannot say but I couldn’t let your father hurt you. Not when they need you. You need to do that spell little bug and it has to be tonight.” She was starting to fade but I didn’t want her to go! Not when I just go her back.
“I don’t know what to do mom! I can’t do that spell and who are you talking about? Who needs me? Mom don’t go! Please! I need you!” I tried to reach out but my hand just went right throw her.
“All in due time little bug. Just do the spell.” That was the last thing she said before she was gone.
I fell to my knees and started crying. I didn’t know what to do! I can’t do this. I sat this way tell it had grown dark out. I looked around me to see where I could be.
I recognized this place!
This is where my Gran brought me and told the story about The Star Gods. This is where I needed to do the spell. This is where the altar was I just had to find it.
I tried to remember the story that my Gran told me about the Star gods.
20 years ago
I was waiting for my Gran to come and tell me the story about The Star God’s, she would always tell me it as a bed time story.
I was all ready for bed, I was just wait for her to come tuck me but she was finishing up the dishes.
I laid back on my bed looking up and the stars that we had panted on the ceiling of my room. I loved looking at the stars so Gran had them panted up there, it was so much fun!
I heard my Gran coming up the stairs I did my best to stay in bed, my door slowly creaked open as my Gran walked inside.
“Are you ready for your story?”
“Yes, Gran please, please!” I was jumping with joy in my bed but I quickly got under the covers and got already the story to begin.
My Gran sat down on the side of my bed, she then turned and looked toward me.
“All right this is how it goes, so long long time ago God decided he needed help looking over and out for all of his creations so that was when he made the 12 Star Gods and we know them as the 12 zodiac signs.
But with the 12 Star gods came the 12 galaxies, each star God was assigned a galaxy and people to take care of and look after.
Earth and our galaxy is not part of those 12 but all 12 Star God’s help look after our galaxy. It’s a very big task but one the 12 Star gods happily did.
Aries, Leo, and Sagittarius belong to the fire element.
Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn belong to the earth element.
Gemini, Libra and Aquarius belong to the air element.
Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces belong to the water element.
These are all 12 signs, these are our Star God’s, some people believe that all Star God’s are in mortal and will live forever but they all have a choice.
They can decide when to start aging but in order to do that they have to find their mate and produce an heir to take over as a Star God.
It is not easy for Star God to find their mate they can go hundreds to thousands of years before finding her or him but in the end, they all believe that it is worth it.
Our Star God is Leo, the original star God retired over 1000 years ago, and his grandson is the one that holds the Star God title and he has had it for 300+ years.
I have met each and every one of our Star God’s the three generations of the Leo’s each has been very generous and kind.
Our cousin was started with your great, great, great, great, grandmother and because she started our clan it was based off from our Star God Leo he watches over all of us but especially the ones of us that belong to our clan that is where your necklaces from.
That necklace is passed from generation to generation your mother had to give it to you she wanted to give it to you herself but I promise that one day you’ll get to see her again and she’ll give you something even more special.
Get back to the story, at see where was I? Ah, yes.
With your necklace our star God will know who you are and he can find you through that necklace.
Mean your mother met him once, your mother called on him to ask for help with saving her in you.
You have this an amazing gift in order to survive you can drop energy from someone else around you. We were going to lose you but your mother gave you permission and you immediately started drawing your mother’s energy we were prepared for you to take all of it so we called upon our star God to see what he could do to help.
But there was nothing he could do and your mother made the decision that at any cost, she wanted you in our lives.
So, she brought you to where to me to live with and this is where your mother died she loved it here.
The Star God try to get in contact with your mother again, but it was Artie too late she was gone. And I knew if he got a hold and contacted me or you that would bring all that bad stuff of your fathers to us and I couldn’t have that.
So that is when I had you from all not even the Star gods can find you, and that is forbidden to do but was a risk I was willing to take for you.
Star gods are not very forgiving people, if they ever found us I feel what would happen to you. I know they would take you away from me.
But we still should not fear them they are sent here to help us and keep us safe as long as we don’t break any laws it up and set into place.
We also have an advantage because we are supernatural beings we are not human at least not all the way but those that are human if they break a law that they didn’t even know existed they still have to be punished as if they knew it was there in place.
Why do you think there’s all of those disappearing missing persons? That is the Star gods at work.
They have to keep the balance between all worlds and galaxies and they do it the way they only know how.
It may not seem right to some of this but God put them in place to make sure that we were safe and that the world did not become completely evil.
Rina I need you to promise me that you will always be safe and you will always obey the rules so nothing happens to you. Promise me.”
I looked up at my Gran I could see that she was serious so I quickly promised her.
“That is my girl will have a story another time.” She got up from the bed and walked away after she kissed me on the forehead and turn the lights out.
* * * * *
That was the last time my grandma told me anything about the Star God’s. It didn’t matter how much I begged and pleaded to know more she wouldn’t share.
So, I knew very little about them I knew what they did what they were supposed to do but that doesn’t mean I knew how to find them besides at the book told me to do.
I thought all the time that if I could just meet us Star God that I could change so much I could teach them and show them that it’s not right and everything that they do.
But it didn’t matter anyway even if I met a Star God it’s not like one listen to me the only way that one could possibly ever listen to me as if I was a mate to one the Wiccans didn’t have mates that’s a Gran told me.
Sometimes I didn’t believe her because I know there’s a lot of things that she told me half-truths on or didn’t bother to tell me at all I know she was doing it to keep me safe but she can only keep me safe for so long.
I didn’t know what the Star gods would do to me now they could find me if they wanted to the ground was gone I know they could still technically dish our punishment in the afterlife but I don’t want them to and I couldn’t let him do that.
Gran was the mother that I never got to have and she was taken away for me just like that if I could protect or even in the afterlife that is what I would do.
People should know better than to question me I took after my Gran so I knew I had a temper and if somebody push me too far I knew I would snap.
I kind of wish that my father would question me and push me too fare that they would snap and I could and him and then all this would be over but I knew I didn’t want to go to the dark.
The dark was a very bad place that is where you become a witch and a warlock, the dark turns you bad they could turn the purest Wiccan bad just buy one decision I wasn’t going to be that Wiccan.
My Gran had taught me to be stronger than that, and I was stronger than that I just need to keep my priorities straight.
Them and I needed to find where the altar was to cast the spell, as soon as I could find it I could get the spell ready dark was already upon us I maybe had 6 to 7 hours before the moon was at the highest point in the sky.
That was the time I would need to do the spell, I glanced around real quick again but I couldn’t see anything. I didn’t know where to even begin to look it should be here.
Why couldn’t my Gran make things easy, I know the great things in life are the ones you should work for but I really have to work for it now this was an emergency.
But I guess even in emergencies you still had to take your time.
If my mother was here she would know what to do so would Gran, but I was on my own. I really should stop thinking about being alone but I couldn’t help it.
“You are not alone little one. I will always be here with you, it is just taking time for me to find you. I need you to stay strong and keep fighting for me.”
There was that voice again, I wish I knew what who was and where was coming from it would make this a little bit easier why did you have to be so vague.
It seemed like everything in my life was very vague, and I wasn’t one that like to lose control but it didn’t seem like I had much choice in this type of situation.
I decided to put in all of my effort to find out where the altar was, I started coming to the area one step at a time using my magic to reach out and see if I could feel it.
It was an easy task to do there was a lot of ground to cover and so little time.
I threw my hands up in frustration on my second sweep through without finding anything. I didn’t understand why none of this was working it should be I was doing everything on my Gran had taught me to do.
I know I was in a hurry but still I should be able to find the altar, maybe there were some sort of spell keeping me from feeling it may very broke that spell that I could find it and then get rid of the spell that Invisible.
Sounds like a lot of work I know but I had to make quick work of it I had been looking for the alter the last 30 minutes with no luck.
I went to work trying to figure out what type of spell could be keeping me from finding it, there was hundreds of possibilities but I knew I had to do it so I kept searching through the possibilities as fast as my mind would go.
It was like a word search, a giant word search. I always hated word searches I did much better with numbers something like Sudoku, too bad this to have anything to do with numbers.
I feel like I was going at her for hours but I knew was only minutes, it was like a lightbulb going off when I realized I found the right one.
It was a believer spell, I had to believe in it wholeheartedly for to be released, I thought I was bleeding and a wholeheartedly I don’t know what else I could do to make them believe that that I knew there was an altar around here.
Maybe you had something more to do with me believing in something else not the altar. But what else what anemia believe in?
I believe in all things magic and good, I didn’t support anything that was evil that came from the dark.
What could it be?
I was getting very frustrated, maybe it was me not believing in my Gran. I mean I do believe in her I just didn’t wholeheartedly support everything that she did with raising me.
Maybe I need to let all that go in order to find the altar.
I went to take a step forward when I suddenly felt dizzy and fell to my knees, as soon as I gained composure myself I looked down and I realized I was bleeding through my makeshift bandage.
I knew the bandage that I had made for magic will hold very long but I needed it to otherwise I was going to bleed out.
I quickly went about making another makeshift bandage with magic for my arm I just needed to last a little bit longer.
I laid my back against the tree as I said in my mind that I believed everything my Gran and taught me wholeheartedly and I would never stop believing so long as I lived.
I felt the shift in the air, I knew at this time I would be able to look and I would find the altar but this was a small spell compared to what was to come.
I would have to brace myself, but I often think I was can have enough energy to break the spell that was hiding the altar and then to perform one more spell to bring our Star God here.
I might as well just give up now.
“Little one you must not give up you were so close I will feed you some energy to keep you going. Just know you can reach out for my energy any time and as long as I’m able I will give it to you”
I really like this voice whoever was but he still was getting on my nerves being so vague with all of his answers I know I’ve said this before but I hate people that are vague I like being in control why must I be tested in this?
I immediately felt a surge of power go through me, I don’t know how really to explain it like maybe after running a marathon even know you’re tired and you know you should be tired you still have energy and you’re still energetic because it felt so great to do it.
I quickly push myself up off the ground I was going to find the Psalter and I was going to destroy that spell and perform the one last spell to bring the Star God here and when this is all said and done I was going to take 48-hour nap was 24-hour soak in a very hot tab with bubbles and I was in the sleep some more before curled up at the blanket in front of the fire and just read a book.
I think I deserve that besides I think I may have bruised my tell bone it really hurt from last night.
I really need to be more careful in know I am clumsy but sometimes it feels like somebody’s purposefully doing things.
Like the one time that I was walking across in the backyard and I knew there was no rocks anywhere near there but suddenly the rock came out of nowhere I tripped on it falling on my face and almost breaking up my nose.
Even had a scar on my nose matter how much magic I used on it I could never get rid of it.
I remember grand saying something about if of magic caused injury magic cannot undo it. I know it sounds crazy but I had to be true.
Maybe I had like it goes from that was lingering on me…
Are okay concentrate altar.
I reached back out my senses trying to find the altar any shift in the air around me. I had to concentrate very hard because it would just be a subtle shift.
I could be so subtle as a flutter of a butterfly’s wing soft. This was the hard part for me because they can never sense it Gran was always good about hiding her spells so well.
I looked through my mind’s eye picturing the meadow as I walked over inch by inch I was walking over the third time when I felt the slightest shift between two trees there were off to my right there was a group of rocks at the base the trees in my mind’s eye but not when I open them.
That had to be it!
I almost jumped for joy, but I quickly contained myself because I knew that I taken about an hour just to find this so I had 5 to 6 hours left to break the spell and cast another.
I knew I could do it if I just concentrated said took a deep breath set out to destroying the spell that my Gran had casted.