It has been five days since I’ve last had a proper shower and breakfast...but this is the only safest place I could be. No one comes here. I casually took my tooth brush and paste and brushed my teeth, took out a Doritos packet and took my medication. After a while, I got tired and laid back down. These past few days, I’ve been sneaking into people’s windows and charging my phone and laptop. I guess it’s a habit now...I took out my phone and called Victoria. She didn’t pick up. I called again and again but she didn’t pick up....odd.
I looked at my apps even though Victoria had told me not to press on tiktok...I couldn’t help it. I clicked on it and the first thing I saw was Noah. Usual tiktok, showing off his packs and abs and good looking feature blah blah blah. Then I saw a girl. Madison. The hottest girl in school. I almost threw my phone to a wall when I read the description. Best girlfriend ever.
I screamed. And screamed and screamed. Then I started watching all the tiktoks he’s posted these five days ago, there were lots with him kissing Madison and calling me out and him with Madison reacting to one of my tiktoks. Then him explaining that,
“My ex was a nightmare, she’d often throw my stuff out the window, she once burned my friend’s apartment and is now planning to tell the police something.” Then he sighed. “I guess that’s life...but if she does and I go to jail...I’ll be satisfied to say what I just said to you guys....some exes are really dangerous.”
I scoffed as I knew exactly what he’d done. He told the truth but made me look like the bad guy. He knows he couldn’t lie. He can never lie. He’s smart. But now he’s going behind bars....I started sobbing and sobbing and suddenly I heard a familiar voice.
“Sky?!” Nathan rushed over to me.
“He’s an idiot!”
I showed him the tiktok of him and Madison. “He’s probably is using her!”
“You don’t know him. He’s mad at me. So he’s going back to his old self. Back to the playboy isn’t it.”
I hugged him tightly. “Everyone hates me. There’s no place in this world for me...”
“That’s not true. Come on let me take you home.” He said getting up and helping me up.
He carried my backpack and held onto my hand as we walked out of the alley. We walked for a good fifteen minutes and then we reached their house.
“Sky?!” Laila quickly hugged me. “You’re cold and wet and you’re crying, Sky...”
“I’m fine.” I wiped my tears.
“Go take a shower and get changed. We need to have a proper talk.” She said. I went upstairs and after half an hour, I’d finished putting my clothes on and showering. Of course, leggings and hoodies.
“You need to stay here.” Laila said sternly. “I’ve cooked a meal for you. You stay here. And I’ll contact your college and tell them that you need work. Okay?”
“I’m not going--”
“Online. Don’t worry. I’ll make a good excuse. Until then, eat and Nathan. Hang out with her.”
Nathan was about to protest when Laila gave him the evil eye.
“I promise, I’m fine. In fact, I don’t even feel like eating anymore. I just wanted to sleep.” I said going upstairs. Then came back down. “Nathan can I--”
“Yeah go on.”
I went to his bedroom and laid down on his bed. I looked at my phone and burst out crying...after a few minutes, the door opened.
“Sky you okay?” Nathan walked in. “Sky?”
“I’m fine. Just trying to sleep.” I lied. He sat down next to me.
“Actually I think I forgot to--”
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
“I’m fine.” I lied. “You can go. You don’t need to stay with me. You can go hang out with your friends if you want.”
“We’re not going anywhere today. Laila’s already on the phone with Riverspark college.” He sighed. “Maybe you should do something rather than moping around like a saddo.”
I just looked at him for a while. “I’m going to get revenge isn’t it?”
“No, that’s not what I--”
I quickly got up and switched the lights on. I opened my bag and picked out the most tightest outfits I could find and wore it.
“Can you do me one favor?”
“You need to act like my boyfriend--”
“But I can’t do that. My sister will go mad and so will Catalina.”
“I’ll deal with them. Until then, he’s dead. For good. I’m going to violate him and ruin his life...with my favorite app of all time.” I smirked. I looked at my favorite sounds.
“Okay, so this was actually viral around April but I think the sound is suitable for this tiktok. So, listen to the lyrics and then we’ll do it.” I said giving him the phone, after quarter of a second from listening to it he smiled. “I loved that song. Haven’t heard it in a while.”
“But anyways, you need to obviously flirt with me, but, not in real life because I have no feeling whatsoever for you.”
“So you still like him?”
“That’s not important.” I said putting the timer on. “Okay.” I said holding onto both his cheeks. He held onto mine’s and after three seconds, the song started. “Why don’t you come on over?” We both sang. “I can’t just let you go, oh baby, why don’t you just meet me in the middle?” We both smiled at each other and leaned in about to kiss when the sound and recording ended. It looked real. Like super real.
“He’s so gonna hate this!” I smirked. I edited the video saying he was my new boyfriend as my other boyfriend was just a player and had absolutely no heart and cheated on me. Then I tagged him, @noahheff. Then posted it.
“You still like him.” Nathan nudged me in the ribs.
“No.” I blushed. “Lets just...oh, one like, two, three, four..” Then I looked at the comments.
"Let’s just wait until you go viral.” Nathan said slumping back down on his bed. “You have gone through a lot.”
“And I’m still here.” I laughed weakly. “I really want him...I don’t know what I was thinking--”
Then I got a notification, @noahheff has posted a new video. I looked at Nathan. “Should I?”
“Do it.” He said. I unlocked my phone and clicked on the notification which took me straight to the tiktok. I watched in shock as I saw him and Madison kissing in real life. I threw the phone across the room and screamed.
“Calm down.” Nathan said. “Laila--”
“What happened?! Nathan?!” Laila burst into the room.
“I didn’t do anything. It’s Noah--”
“I don’t see him.”
“He’s got a new girlfriend!!” I screamed. “I’m going to kill him!!” I jumped off the bed about to go out when she pulled me back.
“What on earth is up with you. I thought...never mind. Just...I’m going.” She left. Then I got an idea. I looked at Nathan.
He knew what I was thinking. “No, I don’t--”
I went across the room and took my phone. Placed it down on his desk and pulled him up. “Shirt off. Now!”
“I need to do this or else he wins.”
“Fine then.” I started walking to the door.
“Wait, where are you going?”
“To find a player and get him to kiss me and I’ll post it on tiktok.”
“Yes I can.”
“But nothing. Now I’m going on a search to find a hot guy.”
“Woah. You aren’t just going to go up to some random dude you think is hot and throw yourself at him, right?”
“What’s the problem with that?”
He looked at me as if I was a complete idiot. “You are joking?”
“I know it’s wrong but I’m desperate.”
He hesitated for a moment. “Okay...I..I..I’ll do it..”
“Thanks...you know you don’t have to.”
“Right. If I say no, you’ll do something stupid and it’ll be my fault.”
“You should be saying the opposite.” He muttered.
I placed the phone down and went to my favorite songs and DELIBERATELY put electric love on. 3, 2, 1.
I stood with Nathan smiling. “Baby, you’re like lightning in a bottle. I can’t let you go now that I got it. All I need is to be struck,” I kissed him and he kissed me back after a few seconds, By your electric love...” the recording ended and I pulled out. “Gosh you’re a bad kisser.”
“Not even a thank you.”
“But thank you. That was really kind of you, you know.”
“You’re welcome. And now I definitely know, I’m the worst kisser ever.”
“Hey, don’t get upset.”
He sat down next to me and rubbed the back of his neck. “I’ve never kissed a girl. That’s why I didn’t want to kiss you.”
I re-watched the video and realised it didn’t look bad. “The kiss looks good.”
He looked at it again and smiled. “You’re right.”
Then the door opened. “Sky! Nathan!!”
“I was just about to put my shirt on.” Nathan said. “Just changing to go play football.”
“Is that so?” She looked at him clearly not believing him. “And you Sky, you too going to football?”
“Yeah. We were both going, that’s why I’m getting changed.” I lied.
“You both, what’s going on?!”
“He was changing for football and he had never kissed a girl and had this huge crush on this girl. So I taught him.” I said. I’m a bitch ass liar.
“Is that true?”
“Yeah.” I blushed.
“Are you both sure that’s all and there’s nothing going on between you both?”
“Absolutely nothing romantic going on. Right Nathan?”
“Yeah. She was just teaching me how to kiss.” He said. He’s also a bad liar.
“Guys what’s really going on?”
I hesitated for a moment. “It’s a lie. It’s my fault. I got annoyed at Noah so I did a tiktok, and then he did an even better tiktok and then I did this tiktok which we kissed but it meant nothing.”
“So you used him?”
I looked at her shocked. “I...I...I..no...I didn’t think of it like that. I swear, I didn't mean to...use him...I knew it was a bad idea. It’s my fault.”
“No, it’s mine’s too. She was going to go out looking for strange hot guys and throw herself at them.”
“Sky?!” Laila shook her head. “You have got to be kidding me. All this for a stupid silly tiktok. If you love him that bad just tell him. He probably still loves you!”
“But what if he doesn’t. He will beg for me back. Until then--”
I got another notification. It and saw him and Madison. This time they were hugging and kissing like the perfect couple. “That son of a bitch!!!” I shrieked. Then I realised something. “Violence isn’t the way. Music is isn’t it.”
“Let’s listen to music. It’ll drain out--”
I rushed to his desk and took out a piece of paper and pen. After five minutes, I had a rap. Rhyme rap. I took my phone and the paper and went into the toilet and locked the door. I pulled my sleeves up exposing lots of my bruises. Then pressed record.
“Boy A, always says he loves me but punching me twice in the face, obviously loves me.” I twirled my hair.
“Boy B, strangling me one, two, three, four, oh, was it seven times is totally cool.” I laughed.
“Boy C, clearly never loved me as I was a," I winked. "Psychopath. Told me you loved me just as a sis but I saw the spark in your eyes.”
“Boy D, I’m absolutely obsessed with you.” I scoffed. “Not.”
“Boy E, you’re fine. Just need to fix up all your dumb brothers. Or is that all too much?” I rolled my eyes.
“And Girl A, back off my man, he’s just using you for revenge, but of course, you’re so blinded by his looks you don’t see the demon inside. Buy some glasses, or just wait for him to burst.” Then I winked.
“Girl B, I told you I’m straight but if you don’t understand, come over to mine...if you don’t mind getting stabbed. Twice, just like me.” I winked again.
“Girl C, keep your big mouth shut and stop snooping around MY business. It’s getting really creepy, especially locking me in a room full of 16 year old boys. Changing. You happy?”
“Girl D, you’re a life saver, that's your job, of course...but you’re the cause I left you all, I mean, no one wants a psychopath. Or a therapist!”
“Boy F, the kiss was magical, not. The second one, almost, but you were,” I smirked. “Too scared. Scared of a kiss? I’m harmless. Or am I too poisonous?!” I glared at the camera. "Or embarrassed?"
“Boy G, I’m sorry I can’t make it, but I won’t tell our secret. Loyal, remember. How’s Ellie doing? Remind her I’m a she not a he.”
“Not naming names but, you guys know who you are, so careful, don’t wanna push it. Or is twice not enough?! Loving the bruises are you?" I did a three sixty spin. I glared at the camera and hissed, “One call. Behind bars.” Then I ended the video.
All in 57 seconds. I can rap. I started looking for a tune to blend in with the rap. After about fifteen minutes, I heard a knock.
“Sky, you’ve been in there a while, you okay?”
“Better than ever.” I said opening the door and walking out glued to my phone. Still editing.
“What’s up with you?”
“Nothing. Just calling everyone out.”
Then I posted the video. I waited for a few minutes then Victoria started calling me. “LUNAR SKYLAR!!!!”
“Drop the act! What the fuck have you done?!?!”
“You’ve called everyone out!!”
“Sorry, not. Love the tune. Don’t lie.”
“Sky you are fucking unbelievable!!!”
“What? I know, I should go report them to the police.”
“NONONO!!!! I fucking mean is for you to take the video down or Noah, his friends and all of us, are dead.”
“Didn’t say your names did I?”
“But still. Lately everyone’s obsessed with you. You’re famous around the whole of UK! You really think no one will start questioning you?!”
Then I cut the call. I went into Nathan’s room and laid on his bed. I started reading the comments and replying back. Then I got a notification that Noah had posted a new video. I clicked on it. Great, he was flirting. But not with Madison. He was fucking flirting with his 1.2 million followers. How dare he!! He’s acting like he’s single!!
“Sky you okay?”
“Yeah. Fine.” I said coldly. He’d already put his pyjamas on and was lying down next to me. “My advice is you ask him to take you back.”
I turned to him. “I hate him.”
“But you don’t. If you did, you wouldn’t be trying to infuriate him would you?”
“I’m just settling an argument. Stop making it a big deal.”
“It’s a big deal. He loves you, you love him...make it work.” He said taking my phone.
I snatched it back. “Don’t you dare go on my social media and say anything!!”
“Fine.” He huffed.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to snap. Just--”
“I want to sleep.” He said coldly turning away from me.
I closed my eyes knowing that I’ve already upset someone in a matter of hours. I feel so bad right now...why am I always so guilty? I’m not innocent...I watched him sleep for a few minutes and fell asleep.
I was back in my room...sleeping...Mason next to me...then me irritating him and him leaving me...then the lights opening and seeing Noah’s angry face. Pure evil...then the beating and beating and beating...then darkness....then all of a sudden, Noah grabbed me by the throat and pushed me to a wall. He kept squeezing my neck repeating, “You better not tell anyone--”
“Sky, Sky!” I felt someone shake me.
I opened my eyes and sat up straight gasping for air. I kept heaving and breathing rapidly until I realised it was just a dream.
“You were having a nightmare...about Noah...and his friends...”
“I just want Mason here...”
“He’s back home...”
“I need him here to help me sleep, to calm me down...”
“But that’s not the same...”
“But I can try. Come on.” He said laying me back down and cuddling me. “My younger sisters are a nightmare.” He whispered.
“I’ve got a younger sister which is an absolute pain in the ass.”
“Common thing, how about your favorite show?”
“Same. Did you know, I had a massive crush on Juliette.”
“Yeah. Perri now. What else do you like to watch?”
“I mean, Sidemen, obviously.”
“Who’s your favorite?”
“JJ definitely and then Harry. They are both so loud.”
“Tell me about it. Did you know, I didn’t know Harry had met Cristiano Ronaldo until a few weeks ago.”
“That’s crazy. You like a big fan?”
“Not the ones that creep up on their every move but the type of fans who watch them every Sunday night.”
“I’m that type of fan.”
There was that awkward silence in the air.
“What are you thinking of?”
“If I’m a bad kisser and if I’ll ever meet a girl. You?”
“You’re not that bad. Just an inexperienced sixteen year old.”
“We are both sixteen.”
“And I’ve kissed a guy more times than you can--”
“Stop making me feel bad.”
“Not your fault. Some people just don’t have the guts to ask anyone out. Even when they know they can get her.”
“You have a crush?”
“Yes. What’s her name?”
“Penny Kelly.” I rhymed. “Penny from the big bang theory--”
“You watched the show?!”
“Yeah. 12 years...shame...”
“It hit hard...not many people know that. It’s like...imagine Sidemen finished, everyone in the UK wouldn’t recover.”
Then the door opened. “Guys stop talking.” Laila said walking in the room. “Both of you get to sleep.”
“I can’t sleep...”
“I said, I can’t sleep properly...without Mason--”
“Hold up, you’re saying, let me get this right, you’re saying you sleep together?”
“Yeah...now you’re making it sound ridiculous.”
“No offence but, two sixteen year old sleep together even though they each have a couple?”
“Yeah. But Mason and Gemma are together-ish. Unknown relationship status...but we don’t always sleep in the same bed. Just every now and then. But I just had a nightmare...”
“She was having one about--”
“My teddy. I left it at the airport.” I lied. She bought it. I told you, I can lie my way through anything.
“Okay. You guys get to sleep.” Then she closed the door.
“You’ve got school tomorrow?”
“Yeah.” He mumbled. He sounded really sleepy.
“You can sleep. I’ll be fine.” I said. He turned around and started to sleep. I am not sleeping. Fuck no. I need Mason. I need him this instant to tell me to shut up and stop complaining, for him to get annoyed at my--
“You still awake?” He asked turning back to face me.
“Yeah.” I sighed.
“Come on, share my blanket.” He said and hugged me. It felt like Mason was actually here. But I needed him to tell me to shut up. Okay, I am being dramatic.