Lunar Skylar

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“So, you just wasted, Nike Air vapormax, £170, Air Force 1 ’07 AN20 - Navy/White, £90, and another one, Red/White, £90.” Victoria said throwing the receipt at my face.

“Vic, calm down.” I said putting the three shoe boxes under my bed. “No one is going to know.”

“Know what?” Noah or Calvin? walked into the room.

“Erm. Nothing.” I lied.

“It’s Noah.”

“I knew that.” I lied.

“No you didn’t.”

“Stop making me feel bad.”

“Sorry.” He sighed. “’ve been talking to Victoria’s ghost?”


“I’ve been spying on you in the hospital and now. So please tell me where the hell did you get all that money but before that, explain, why are you taking to a ghost--”

“She’s not a ghost. She’s my friend.” I hissed.


“I’m crazy. Here it goes. Let’s take you to a therapist or--”

Then he hugged me. “Some people’s not your fault.”

“She’s not my hallucination.”

“Okay.” He sighed kissing my forehead. “Now will you please tell me where did you find the money?”

“What money?”

Then he looked at my bed and found the receipt. “So you’ve wasted, a total amount of....” He looked closely. “Sky, you’ve spent, £350.”

“Have I? I think you’ve made a mistake.”

“He made a mistake?!” Victoria shouted.

“Sky...last time I checked, your bank account is empty. Nothing.”

“Just go!!!” I screamed.

“Sky, hey, calm down--”

“Don’t make me hurt you!!!”

“Okay, I’m going outside. I’ll be back soon.” He said leaving the room.


“Oh just shut up!!” I screamed at her. Then she disappeared.

I sat on my bed staring at the,

Greatest Showman movie!!

December 31st!!

Main Hall


Tuesday 21st October 2020

I wish I could go...well, at least, I’m all alone in the house. Everyone is out. I smiled and put on my favorite song. Yes. I kind of...can’t sing in front of people...I sound terrible..I guess. I feel really happy right now. After ages, I can actually sing. I walked over to my Bluetooth speaker and turned it loud. Now I was free. I played the song, 2002. Anne Marie. Legendary favorite song.

"I will always remember
The day you kissed my lips
Light as a feather
And it went just like this
No, it’s never been better
Than the summer of 2002 (ooh)”

I smiled as I sang along. I sat down. “Uh, we were only eleven. But acting like grown-ups--”

Calvin came in and joined in. “Like we are in the present
Drinking from plastic cups

“Love is forever and ever.” I sang.

“Well, I guess that was true.”

“Dancing on the hood in the middle of the woods, on an old Mustang, where we sang, songs with all our childhood friends

“And it went like this, say,” Calvin sat next to me.

We both started singing together, “Oops, I got 99 problems singing bye, bye, bye
Hold up, if you wanna go and take a ride with me
Better hit me, baby, one more time, uh
Paint a picture for you and me
On the days when we were young, uh
Singing at the top of both our lungs.”

I smiled at Calvin as he started singing. “Now we’re under the covers--"

"Fast forward to eighteen

We are more than lovers
Yeah, we are all we need
When we’re holding each other
I’m taken back to 2002 (ooh)
I sang.

“Dancing on the hood in the middle of the woods

On an old Mustang, where we sang
Songs with all our childhood friends
And it went like this, say,”
We both sang. “Oops, I got 99 problems singing bye, bye, bye
Hold up, if you wanna go and take a ride with me
Better hit me, baby, one more time, uh
Paint a picture for you and me
On the days when we were young, uh
Singing at the top of both our lungs
On the day we fell in love
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh
On the day we fell in love
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh.

I stared at Calvin as he kept singing. He blushed as he saw me staring. “Why are you staring at me?”

“I forgot how well you can sing.”

“Oh.” He smiled. Then frowned. “You sang...”


“You were singing...just now.”

I looked at him confused and then it suddenly dawned on me. I quickly got up about to leave the room when he pulled me back.

“Sky you’ve got the best vocals ever...”

“I need to go--”

Then he lifted my chin up. “Stop worrying and thinking about them. You can sing. It’s you. So sing.”

“I can’t--”

“Why not?” He sat me down then saw the poster on the bed. He looked at it and sighed.

“The incident...what if it happens again?”

“Sky, you’re over stressing. Please, just audition...”

“No..I..I can’t.” I got up to leave when I saw Noah and his friends come in. I quickly rushed back to my bed and put the blanket over my head.

“Sky they won’t hurt you, wanna hang out with us?”

“Noah are you serious?!”

“Do you?”


“We’re downstairs.”

“Just go!!!”

“Your vocals are on point.” Jamie complimented. Teased. Maybe?

“Jamie shut up!!” Thomas slapped him across the head.


“You heard me sing?”

“Yeah, we did.” Jordan said.

Noah walked up to me and so did Jay. Then they gave me Cleo Cole. “You can sing. And we are sorry about last High School Musical. That was out of order.” Noah said.

“You threw tomatoes at me.”

“Stop crying and is that...” Dylan walked up to Calvin and took the poster. “Are you going to go?”


“The musical.” He waved the poster in my face.


“Why not?” Miles walked up to me.

“Nothing.” I held onto Cleo and Cole tightly.

“We have fucked up real bad.” James said. “I blame it on Noah.”


“Yeah, you said we should humiliate her.”

“But you agreed.” He argued.

“Guys stop fighting.” Calvin said getting up. “It’s all yous fault. I did tell you all to not.”

“Stop making yourself look like a hero.” Tyler said annoyed.

“No, I’m not!”

“You are.” Grayson agreed.

“Will you all quit arguing!!” I shouted. “It’s because of you, I can’t sing in front of people. I have a phobia of singing in front of people. You heard me!! You’ve all made me have this phobia these past few months!!” I looked down at Cleo and Cole. “I don’t even feel safe singing to them.”

“We are sorry.”

“You should be!!” I snatched the poster off Dylan and ripped it in half. “My hopes are gone.”

“We are sorry.” Jonas apologised. “Just go do it.”

“I can’t.”

“We won’t throw tomatoes at you.”

“No. I won’t. I sound terrible.” I wiped my tears. “I hate my voice.”

“No, you sound really good.” Noah walked up to me. “Please just go to it. Just for me.”


“Why not?”

“Because of you guys. It’ll happen again, people will laugh at me and I’ll sound terrible and--”

“Stop over thinking this.”

“Noah go away. You can blame yourselves until you die.”

“Not really going to.” Jamie said.

“Will you shut up!!” Jordan stepped on his foot.


“Come on, we’ll be there!” Noah said.

“That’s even worse!!”

“What? So you expect me to be home?”



“Piss off.”


“All of you leave before I loose it!!!”

Then they left. I looked at Calvin, spooked to the core. “I want to go so badly but I can’t.”

“ one is stopping you...just go.”

“No..remember last musical? I got humiliated...”

“What if...what if..” He looked at me stressed. “Why don’t you really want to go?”

“Well...I guess I have that worry...I’ll be alone and then the tomatoes and humiliation and my voice will be horrible or I’ll suffer a seizure or--”

“Woah, breathe!” He sighed. “I have a solution for all that.”

“What?” I sat up properly.

“Yes.” He looked down at his hands. “Do you really want to go?”

“Yeah...but no is unfair at times...” I sighed. “I really want to audition...but my’s terrible--”

“No, it’s on point. Believe me, it’s really good.”

“You’re just saying that...” I wiped my tears.

“No,’s amazing...”

I looked at him unsure for a moment. “I believe you...?”


“But I’m not going, what if I don’t sound perfect--”

“Hey, listen. We go to the audition and audition. They’ll rate us out of ten. Maybe that’ll reassure you.”

“You said WE.”

He wiped my tears. “I’ll join you.”

“You what?”

“Yeah. I’ll be with you to calm you down.”

“I thought--”

“Don’t worry. I’ll do it. Just for you.”

“You serious?”


Then I hugged him. “So you’ll audition with me?”

“That’s what I said.”

“You’re really nice.”

“I know. You don’t need to keep saying it.” He gloated. “So you’re going?”

“No.” I pulled out. He looked at me confused. “Calvin, with all due respect, I know, I’ll be made fun of.”

“No you won’t!!”

“What if I mess up a line? Or forget my lines. Or my voice--”

“Listen, you feel safe around me?”

“I guess...”

“I’ll be in stage with you. I promise. Any one hurts you, I will kill them. Not in real life but I will.”


“Yeah. So is it a yes or a no?”


He hugged me. “That’s so brave, come on. Let’s tell--”

“No..I don’t want them to know case I don’t get accepted to do the main role.”

“Main role?!”

“That’s always been my spot...”

“Okay, you’ll be the main girl. I’ll be with the people.”

“Calvin you can sing and dance and act...but why did you start not going? Not auditioning? You know us two have always been main characters in school musicals.”

“I know...I guess I got bored...”

“Audition for the main role. Please!!!!!”

“Okay. Done.” He sighed getting up. “You know tomorrow is the auditions. You’ve only got today...oh shit.” He started panicking.

“Calm down, we know the lines. We watched the movie. And listened to the songs a million times.”

“My singing, what if my voice cracks?”

“No it won’t. Remember, you went through that phase.”

“You’re right...wanna rehears?”

“We know the words and lyrics--”

“No, the singing. Our voice.”

“I mean...sure.” I shifted uncomfortably. “This is big. I haven’t sang in front of anyone for ages...months...”

“You need to get used to it. Singing.” He said about to sit next to me when he spotted the letters. He was about to pick them up when I snatched them off him. “It’s private!!!”

“Okay, chill.” He took a step back. “What does it say?”

“It’s private.” I said coldly.

“Okay.” He stood up. “Let’s go to my room.” He said leaving the room. I picked Cleo and Cole up and we went into Calvin’s room.

“Lets try high notes.” He said locking the door. “Comfortable?”


“Now you can sing.”


I laid down next to Calvin and smiled. “Why you smiling?” He blushed.

“I don’t know.” I tried to hide my smiled.


“Tomorrow...” I bit my lip. “What if--”

“Nothing. Everything will be okay. Yeah?”

“Okay.” I mumbled. “But what if--”

“Shh.” Calvin said as Cleo started stirring in her sleep.

“They’re amazing.” Calvin mumbled twirling her hair.

“I know...” I sighed and kissed Cole on the forehead. “Who’d have guessed after all this, they’d be in perfect condition...”

“I’m sorry for my brother...”

“No need to...just wish...never mind.”


I bit my lip. “Do you see me as a girl or a boy?”

“Girl, why?”

“How about Noah?”

“Girl. Why?”

“I mean...he treats me like I’m one of his friends...”

“He loves you way too much. He knows you’re not a girl.”

“I’m just re thinking everything.” I sat up. “What if...we were never meant to be?”

Calvin sat up. “No, you are meant to be..I’ll talk to him, whatever, just don’t break his heart..”

“ treat a girl right...”


“I mean...why can’t he be like you?”

“Sky what are you on about?” He laughed nervously.

“I just wish he was a bit like you.”

He looked at me uncomfortable. “He’s good for you. He’s meant to be with you.”

“What if he--”

“Sky...” He looked at me agitated. “Let’s talk about something else.”

I pulled his arm. I could see his scared face. “Xander will beat me up and Noah will kill me and--”

“Calm down. I don’t like you.”

“That’s a relief.”

“....I just want him to treat me like his girlfriend...not a boy...”

“He never buys you flowers or gifts unless it’s a special occasion. He also never cares...shows not a lot of attention to you...” He sighed. “I’m sorry about last time..”


“The first day, Noah left you didn’t go with me...and then the day I went back to school with the bruises, he didn’t say good morning or anything, just dodged you and...I saw the hurt in your eyes...I’m really sorry...”

“’re really thoughtful...I can’t believe you realised...”

“Yeah, I do realise a lot of things...I just don’t talk about one gets me.”

“I do...”

“My brother can be an idiot but he really loves you...for real.”

“He never really...sends me messages, never asks how I am, never says good morning, always treats me like...everyone else.”

“Don’t cry.”

“I’ve had it with him. I mean, at first he would act like the perfect boyfriend and then he just stopped...”

“I’ll speak to him..”

“I still love him...just want him to care about me.” I laid back down. He started wiping my tears. “I will tell him off.”

“Don’t be hard on him...I just want him to ask how I I’m doing...”

“Don’t worry. Get some sleep, tomorrow is a big day.”

“Right.” I said as he kissed my forehead.

“My bro’s a good guy. He’d never mean to hurt you.”

“I know.”

“I can’t do this.” I said walking away. Calvin pulled me back.

“Sky, you can’t back out. Now is your time to prove to yourself, you’re talented.”

I looked at the sixteen school kids with the music and dance teacher.


“I’ll walk with you. I’ll stay with you.”

“Okay.” I said looking at the line behind me. “What if--”

“Stop doubting yourself.”


“Lunar Skylar?”

I glanced back at the judges and back at Calvin. I turned to go home but he grabbed onto my arm and pulled me up to the center of the stage. Miss handed me a microphone. “Good luck!!” She said winking.

“Can he stay?”


“Okay, so, song? Duet?”

“No. Solo. I picked 2002?”

“You Noah?”

“Nope. Calvin.”

“Okay. So, the stage is all yours.” Natalia said leaning back. I looked at Calvin and he held onto my hand. “Don’t panic. Remember, face your fears.”

“Okay.” I said as he let go off my hand. “Can he...start the first line?”

“Sure.” Zee said.

Then the song started. I froze. “I can’t do this--”

“Sky, you can.”

“Is this about last year?” Zee asked.

“You see, Calvin, everyone knows. I can’t--”

“You’re really good at singing. What the guys did was really wrong.” Sally said. “You’re a brilliant singer.”

“Is that true?” I asked unsure.

“Yeah. Come on, sing.” Miss Lee said. “You’re safe here. Come on.” She started the song again.

Then Calvin sang the first line, I joined and I started singing solo when suddenly I froze. I forgot the lines.

Calvin saved me really smoothly by singing the lines I’d forgotten. ”Hold up, if you wanna go and take a ride with me, better hit me, baby, one more time uh, paint a picture for you--”

“And me on the days where we were young uh, singing at the top of both our lungs...”

“Now we’re under the covers, fast forward to eighteen--”

“We are more than lovers, yeah we are all we need when we’re holding each other, I’m taking back to 2002...”

“Dancing on the hood in the middle of the woods, on an old Mustang, where we sang, songs with all our childhood friends, And it went like this, say--”

“Ooops, I got 99 problems singing bye, bye, bye. Hold up, if you wanna go and take a ride with me, better hit me, baby, one more time, uh, paint a picture for you and me, on the days when we were young, uh, singing at the top of both our lungs...”

Once the song had finished he hugged me. “You did it!!”

“That was amazing!!!!” Piper jumped. Then she started whispering something with Zee, Natalia and Sally. Miss Lee and Miss Rose started talking about something.

“Sky you did it.”

Then I burst out crying. “I did it...”

“But keep in mind, this is a small audience, so get ready.” Calvin whispered.

“I probably haven’t got the role...”

“I have a feeling you have.” Calvin said hugging me again. “You were so scared before.”

“I know...”

“Guys, Calvin. Did you want to audition too?” Natalia asked.

“Well yeah, but--”

“Your vocals are amazing, for a boy. Wow.” She bit her lip. “This is really shocking. I mean, we all know you can sing since secondary school but now..”

“Yeah.” He blushed.

“God he’s so cute!!” Sally cooed.

“This is embarrassing.” He whispered. Then cleared his throat. “But I only sang in total for about thirty seconds.”

“Yeah, but your vocals are the main point. Thirty seconds is still long. So you’ve auditioned.” Zee said. “But, can you sing the chorus? We just wanna know how good your vocals are.”

Then Miss went a few seconds back. “Dancing on the hood in the middle of the woods, on an old Mustang, where we sang, songs with all our childhood friends, And it went like this, say..”

"The way you change your vocals..." Zee raised his eyebrows.

"Voice control on point." Sally smiled. "Okay, Natalia?"


"Okay, well great! The roles will be at the main hall.” Piper said. “Tomorrow.”

“Bye.” I said as Calvin and I rushed out the stage and out the school.

“That was humiliation.” He said as we put our skates on.

“But you are cute though.”

He blushed and looked away. “Stop.”

“Oooooooo.” I started making kissing noises. He got up and started skating away.

“Wait up.” I said trying to catch up with him.

“So, how do you feel now?”


“Don’t worry.”

“What if people look at me weirdly or laugh or--”

“Hey, you got all your friends. Noah and Mason though, will beat whoever said that’s ass and I will kill them.” He said.

“The rap tiktok blew up.”

“Sky have you told your fans anything?”

I fell silent. “I’ve got four million people waiting for me to say something...”

“I don’t want to tell you this but...they think you’re using them for clout.”


“Hey, come on. Let’s go.”

“Sorry.” I wiped my tears. “I’d never use them for clout.”

“Okay then. Take your phone out and tell them.”

I did as he said and started recording. “Hi guys, I haven’t been using yous for clout. I have been on a little break because too much has happened. I am really sorry for not telling you guys that I’d be taking a break. Me and Noah are back together. But it’s not that, it’s some stuff that’s private. So I’m sorry. I’ll be back. When I’m ready again.” Then I froze. “Calvin is it just me or...” Then I stopped skating.

“Sky stop, just cut the video first and I’ll tell you.” He said. I cut the video and posted it. Then put my phone back inside my pocket. “Ruby! Jenny! Leah!!” I shouted at Calvin.

“There was no proof. And so...they let them free.”

“But the injections and the--”

“By the time the police came, Ruby had come back and taken everything and did a runner. She has the equipment...she destroyed them probably and now the police have no evidence.”

At that I burst out crying and he hugged me. “But I put them away for good.” I sobbed.

“You did but no proof no--”

“SKY!!!” Ruby rushed to me and kissed me. I didn’t pull out at first but Calvin shoved her away from me and hugged me. “Don’t worry.”

“I didn’t pull out and Noah--”

“You were confused and scared. Don’t worry. It was just a surprise.”

“See you in class.” Ruby smirked, then crossed the road to join her ‘illegal friends’.

“He’ll hate me--”

“Listen, you froze. Not your fault. Okay?”

“I should’ve just pushed her or dodged her. I was just confused and my mind went blank--”

“Don’t worry. It’s not your fault that that happened. It’s not your fault.” He whispered and kissed my forehead. “Come on. Let’s go home. Xander will be wondering where we were.”

“I need to tell Noah...”

“I’ll tell him.”

The door opened and Alex 1.1 walked in. She looked really tired. “Hello people of the century.”

“Where’s the hype at?” I walked over to her. “You look tired, we’ll help--”

Then Noah rushed to her and hugged her. “I’ve missed you!!” He burst into tears.

“Come on baby Noah, don’t cry. Please.” Alex patted his back. “I’ll be staying home for a few more hours--”

“Hours?!” Noah pulled out.

“The hospital has ran out of people okay. I can’t be here sleeping when people are dying. Families are depending--”

Noah shook his head. “You’ve not been home for days!!”


Then her phone started ringing. She looked at it and back at Noah.

“If you answer that. I will never treat you with respect. I will hate you.” Noah said. Alex declined the call but he felt pure guilt. “Alex I--”

“Save it.” She said going into the kitchen. “I’m not cooking anything today. Pizza. I’ll order it.” She sighed. Clearly exhausted.

“Guys, tell me about your day.” Alex said as she tried to stay awake.

“Alex you should sleep.” Xander suggested.

“I’m fine. Xander, Alex, off your phones.” The out of nowhere, her phone started ringing.


“Noah, I’m sorry--”

“Come on--”

“Noah you know she needs to go.” Calvin said. “It’s killing us all but it’s her job.”

“I’m sorry Noah.” Alex said answering the call. “Okay, I’ll be can’t...can’t Susan do it?...okay, fine. I’m coming.”

Noah looked at her disappointed.

“Noah, I’m sorry--”

“No. I don’t want anything to do with you anymore.” He said.

“Noah..” Then her phone started ringing. She picked her work bag and stood up. “I love you--”

“I hate you!!”

She looked at him speechless. “I’m sorry if I disappointed you and couldn’t be the sister you wanted.” She started walking away but Noah pulled her back and hugged her.

“I love you. I don’t hate you.”

“I’m really sorry.”

“You need to do your job--”

“No. I know it’s selfish of me but I think I need a rest and I owe you some time.” She said starting to call someone.

“I can’t come...there’s been an emergency...I know...I wish...I know...I’m really sorry...I’ll be there tomorrow...okay...yeah...I get can’t do that...okay.” Then she cut the call. She looked really worried but hugged Noah. “I’ll spend as much time with you as I can. Let’s do some online shopping in my room.” Alex said taking him out the room.

“That was really selfish...people are dying..” Xander said.

“But she needs a day off.” I argued.

“How many patients does she see in an hour? Sky, they’re both being selfish.” Alex said.

“You both are so deep.” I said. “I can’t believe it. She hasn’t slept properly for a while.”

“That’s true.” Mason said.

“Mason you are so irrelevant right now.” I said.

“Gee.” He rolled his eyes.

“Xander and I are going to go out.” Alex said.

“Okay. I need to buy some stuff myself.” He said as he and Alex left the room.

“I need to do my studies.” Calvin said going upstairs. Once the front door had shut, I slumped down on the sofa next to Mason.

“Want to play Roblox?”



“Nope. I’m busy.”

“Mason, we haven’t played anything together for a while.”

“Okay then. What do you want to watch?!” He snapped.

My mouth opened and closed. “I..I..never mind.”

“Sky, piss off.” Mason said.

I looked at him. Pissed. “Mason why would you say that to me?”

“I’m sorry if ‘piss off’ is a bad word to you.”

“Mason all I’m asking for is your attention. Just let’s play something. Or go out. Or watch a movie. Just lets hang out together. I miss us. How about Hollyoaks--”

“You talk too much.” He complained going back to his phone.

“Mason I just want to hang out with you.”

“Fine then. What do you want to do?”

“Let’s watch the next step? Or bad boys. We haven’t seen that movie.” I said switching the TV on.

“Mason did you enjoy it?” I asked hyped.

“Yeah.” He said.

“I told you it was going to be sick.” I stared at him for a while and saw he was using his phone sneakily.



“You were using your phone the whole time!!!” I snapped.

“No. I wasn’t.” He lied.

I scoffed. “I thought you actually cared about me. But again, you ignore me just like Noah. I am just a stupid idiot that you barely care about.”

“Sky that’s not true.” He stood up.

“I asked you to just watch a movie with me. But you can’t even do that. Just because of your stupid phone!!” I snatched the phone and threw it across the room, hitting it on the wall.

He froze for a second and glared at me. “Why would you do that?!” He rushed to the phone.

“You don’t pay attention to me, I just want you to talk with me, chat and be like olden times...”

He looked up at me and rushed to hug me. “I’m sorry. I was being an idiot. I do care about you. How about we watch another movie?”


“Yeah.” Then his phone started ringing. “Gemma.”

“Hi’m with, I...okay...but we haven’t spent any, I want to spend time with her now...I know...please Gemma...” Then he turned to me. “She wants me to come to her...”

“It’s fine. You can go.”

“Okay, I’ll be back. Promise.”

“I’ll go to my room and wait.” I said and ran up the stairs into my room. I put my pyjamas on and laid down on my bed. I pulled the blanket on me and started crying. Then the door knocked.

“You can go. I’m fine.” I sobbed. Then Noah came in. I snapped, “Don’t you want to go spend time with Alex over your own girlfriend?! Dodge me like I’m nothing. Don’t even give a shit about me?!”

“Sky, I’m Calvin.” Calvin said laying down next to me. “Sky you okay?”

“Of course I am. Mason just went off and couldn’t even spend an hour with me watching a movie. I asked him to just spend some time with me...”

“Hey, stop crying.”

“And then Noah, the whole time, he didn’t give a damn. I mean, since he came this after noon, he didn’t even pay a single attention towards me did he?!”

“Don’t cry. I’m sorry. I’ll be back.” He said getting up. He left the room and came back a few moments later carrying his laptop.

“Ice cream?”

“Thanks.” I said as he handed me the tube. I opened it and started eating while he had his lollipop. “Strawberry bubble gum flavor.” He said giving me one. “And stop looking so sad. I’m sure he’ll be here in no time.” He said opening the laptop and going to Netflix, then he started typing.


“That movie, I wanted to watch it!!” I said excited.

“Okay, now you can watch it, with your ‘frenemie’.” He nudged me in the ribs.


“And that was the best movie ever.” I smiled at Calvin.

“Apart from the ‘period blood’,” He teased, “Why are you so happy?”

“Because you actually took your time to spend time with me?”

“Yeah. I did. And I also enjoyed the movie.”


“For what?”

“Now and the auditions..”

“’s fine. Well, I’m a hero--”

“Come on.” I rolled my eyes. “I’m really tired. I wonder where he is.” I said unlocking my phone. I called Mason. “Hey Mase.”


“Yeah. Where are you?”

“Gemma’s. I’m coming now. Yeah?”

“I’m going to sleep.” I cut the call. Calvin got up. “Should I close the light?”


“Scared of the dark?”

“No.” I lied. He laughed and left. The house was oddly quiet and it’s just me and the silent house. That sounds scary. I got up and left my room. Then knocked on Calvin’s door.

“Sky?” He asked putting his pyjama shirt on. “Why you here?”

“Can I sleep with you?”

“Sure.” He said as I laid down next to him. “What’s wrong?”

“I keep getting hurt don’t I?”

“Don’t cry...”

“I’m not crying...” I sobbed.

“I’m here.”

“I mean, I keep getting shouted at, screamed at, hit, I mean, no one pays attention to me. I just....”

“I rarely shout at you, or scream at you.”

“I know...”

“And all my life, even when we were kids...I’ve always been scared to hit you...I’m sorry about last time and I promise I’ll never do that again. I mean, I just...Alex means everything. Both of them, Xander too, I mean, everyone...but if I lost’ll be different.” He stressed.

“It’s not okay what you did...but I know why you did it.”

“I’m sorry...”

“Stop apologising...”

“But it was wrong of me. I should keep my hands to myself. Now I feel guilty...and are you feeling..about the play?”

“I haven’t got the role..and if you don’t get main character, I wouldn’t be able to cope.”

“Stop crying. You’re safe. I’m here and you know with all your heart, I would never ever hurt you. Ever in my life.”

“I know--” Then the door opened. “Sky?


“Sky, how are you?” He walked over to me and stroked my hair.

“I’m fine. Why’d you ask?”

“I can’t sleep. I feel so bad...about the way I’ve been treating you since we started dating. I never pay attention to you and I’m sorry....”


“I know you might hate me for all that but...I love you. Always will because you are my everything.”

“You mean that?”

“Yeah..I love you and always will. I should’ve realised I was being an idiot...I was treating you like one of my friends...”

“I know...and it really hurt me. I was always the third wheel...”

“I’m sorry. I promise from now on, I’ll be the PERFECT boyfriend. Okay?”


“Trust me on this.”


“Are you ready for tomorrow? The dance? Party?”

“Oh yeah. I forgot, hey, I bought--”

“Calvin, I was speaking to Sky. So Sky?”

“Yeah. I’m ready.” I lied. I’ve completely forgetten about it.

“Good. Night.” He kissed my forehead. Then he got up and left.

“That was so sweet.” I burst into tears.

“So, he’s changed.”

“Yeah, he has...?”

“You don’t seem to believe it....” He whispered wiping my tears.

“He always says that though...”

“This you trust him?”

“I do...”

“Then don’t worry. Just sleep. Tomorrow’s a big day.” He kissed my forehead. “Baby sis.”

“You haven’t called me that for a long time.”

“I know...” He sighed. “Why did we all turn out like this...?”

“I don’t know but let’s just look forward to our birthday!!”

“Two months left.”

“Less but yeah.”

“You going to buy me a good present?”

“Yeah. You?”

“Yeah. No pranks though.”


“You still visit Miles everyday. Aren’t you tired?”

“No...I get to do exersise.”

“Okay.” He said.

“Do you feel sad about Alex?”

He fell silent for a while. Then I stroked his hair. “Is that a yes?”

“I miss her...a lot..but if I tell her that..she’s going to feel even worse and probably stop going to hospital and spend time with us.”

“But you miss her...”

“I do...and I’m happy now that she’s fast asleep.”

“And Noah’s also sleeping with her...I swear I know he loves Alex more than anything. He’s like her shadow.”


“Calvin...would you bully me now?”

“No..I think..maybe no.”

“You sure?”

“Maybe to entertain my fans.”

“Of course.” I sighed.

“You know I love you right?”

“I know.”

“So don’t ever, run away or harm yourself..yeah?”


“Xander and Alex 1.2 keep asking me how I’m doing. I am getting so annoyed.”

“Yeah...they do care about you...and Xander..drugs aren’t the key. I’m really worried for the both of you...”

“I wonder how he’s doing with Neha.” He got up. “I’ll be back.” He said leaving the room. Then I felt something. A book. I realised it was his diary. I could open it...or not. Maybe...ish. No.


“Yeah?” I quickly hid it.

“Are you...holding my diary?”

“Yes. But I wasn’t going to read it.” I said handing it to him. He looked at me confused. “You sure?”

“Yeah. It’s your privacy. But you said diary’s were lame.”

“It was a secret but now it’s exposed...Sky please don’t read it and don’t tell anyone.”

“Okay. Promise.”

We stood waiting for Sally, Zee, Natalia or Piper to tell us if we got our roles. “Will I get main role?” I asked Calvin.

“Same question. I don’t really care but yeah. I--”

“Okay, everyone move!!” Piper squealed as she pinned the paper on the notice board. “Here are the roles, if you didn’t get in then try next year!!!”

“Sky let’s wait.” He said as everyone dashed for the board. “Once it’s calm you can go.”

“I’m fine. Don’t worry. It’s not like they’re going to kill me--”

“NO!!!!” Avery screamed at me.

“Spoke too soon.” Calvin said as she shoved me to the floor. I quickly got up and she punched me. Then I lost it. I kicked her in the face. Her nose started bleeding and she started screaming at me.

“Guys calm down.” Calvin pulled me away from her.

“She stole my role!!!” Avery spat.

“I don’t even know what role I got!!”

“You got main role. HAPPY!?”

There was silence in the hall, eyes staring at me.

“You auditioned?” A random guy asked.

“I did. Now I’m regretting it!!” I opened my water bottle and threw all the water at Avery. “Count yourself lucky this time.” I hissed at her and stormed off into the girls toilet.

I went into a cubicle and burst out crying. Re thinking the whole event. From the audition to now. Should I have even auditioned?! After a while I heard someone come in. I continued crying and then there was a knock at the cubicle door. I was expecting it to be Gemma, or Noah, or Mason or definitely not Lucas, well maybe. His curiosity never end. Urgh. Aiden would definitely not come. But of course, they didn’t witness what happened. As they didn’t audition. I looked at the door and it kept knocking.

“Sky open the door please. I’m worried about you.”

“Calvin why are you here?”


“Just go away!!”

“Come on.” He knocked on the door again. “Open it please.”

“No.” I sobbed.

“Come on, Sky...”

“No. I’m just an idiot who doesn’t deserve to be happy!!”

“No, that’s not deserve to be happy more than anyone in this world. After everything you’ve went through, you’re still here. Breathing.”

I opened the door and hugged him. “I just wanted to prove myself I was good enough!!”

“You got chosen for the main role. Of course you weren’t good enough.” He said sarcastically. Then I burst out crying. “I love you so much.”

“You could’ve told me you were auditioning.”

“I know...I was just scared..scared of just failing and seeing your disappointed face.”

“I’ll never be disappointed in you.”

“I mean, I know you hate me not wearing jeans or dresses like the other girls and not wearing makeup or having long hair--”

“Hey, hey. I fell in love with a girl that wears hoodies and shorts and has the most beautiful short curly hair and the best personality ever.”

Then I burst out crying. “I’ve been so insecure...”

“Why? If I didn’t like you, I wouldn’t have asked you to be my girlfriend would I?”

“I just think you--”

“I love you. I should be feeling insecure.”

“Don’t be. You know I’ve only got eyes for you. Don’t worry.”

“So we’re both insecure.” He smiled. “So, come on. And Calvin’s got a surprise for you.”

“What surprise?”

“It’s a surprise...stop crying. No one will pick on you. I promise.” He said wiping my tears.

“How about the boys?”

He froze. “They aren’t going to---”

The bell rang. “Lunch time.” Noah sighed. “Don’t cry. Lift your head up and ignore your stupid insecurities. Yeah?”

“Yeah....and thanks..”

“I’m going to be the perfect boyfriend.”

“Don’t let me down...I don’t want to get hurt again..”

“Please stop the water works.” He sat me down on the counter and sat next to me. “Sky you’ve been through so much. Too much.”

“I know...”

“I’m sorry about what the guys and I was out of order..”

“I know..” I burst into tears. “You scared me too much.”

“I know.” He hugged me.

“I was so scared. I had nightmares. I was so scared.”

“I don’t know what we were thinking...Sky we’re all sorry. They are too. I’m sorry. Please, you know I can’t lie.” He looked at me properly. “I swear I’m sorry and so are the boys. Okay?”

“I know...but I can’t just be okay. You hurt me too much. And I was scared. I thought I was going to die!!”

“Hey, don’t cry. Listen, I’m sorry, we all are. How can we make it up to you?”

“Well, you could buy me flowers?” I said battering my lashes sweetly at him.

“Of course. And also a surprise.”


“Yeah.” He ruffled my hair. “You know I know you’re a girl not a boy. Even if I act like you’re a boy, to me, I think you’re a girl.”

“I was so worried last time...I spoke to--”

Then the door burst open and so many girls came in. Yeah. It was awkward. They were all looking at us weirdly and suspiciously. We got off the counter and walked out. “Sky, wanna hang out with me and the guys?”

“Noah, what on your right mind would make you think--”

“So it’s a no.”


“Do you want to talk about your adventurous feelings?”

“Nah. But....don’t forget me or act like I’m nothing.”

“I’m just going to hang out with them. It’s not like I’m going to forget you in,” He checked his watch. “Sixty minutes.”

I laughed. “Okay, whatever.” I hugged him. He kissed me on the forehead. “So, see you later...babes.”

“Fuck’s sake you know I hate it when people call me that.”

“What’s wrong with it though?”

“It’s too loveish.”



“You complain about the way I use my wordings. While you on the other hand, make words up.”


“Babes.” He teased. I tried not to smile. “Fuck you.”

“Babes.” He whispered as Mason came over to me.

“Urgh.” I pushed him away. Noah, not Mason.

“Hi guys.”

“Bye guys.” Noah said leaving. “Bye, babes.” He mouthed.

I blushed.

“Someone’s in love.” Mason nudged me in the ribs. We walked back into the classroom and sat down on the table.

“So, what were you talking about?”

“Nothing.” I said scrolling through my phone.

“Do you want to do something?”

“Just piss off.” I said coldly.

He looked at me confused. “I was just asking. What’s up today? You seem moody.”

“I’m not.” I hissed. “It’s you. You and stupid Gemma. You don’t see, she’s going to grab you away from me. She won’t share.”

“Sky, you’re jealous of us?”

“No...” I sighed. “You never pay attention to me.”

“You jealous?”

“No...I just don’t think...Mason. I asked you to just spend a second with me but NO. You couldn’t even do it. When was the last time we actually hang out apart from school?!”

He looked down at his hands silently. “Mason...It’s been too long. I’ve had enough. I get you’re always there for me..but I’m tired. You never call me. If I ever call you seem all pissed and that--”

“Because you call me at night and it’s not my fault you don’t talk to me properly about this!!” He shouted. I sat there, tears rolling down my eyes. He rubbed his eyebrows. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to---”

I got up and rushed out the classroom wiping my tears furiously. Then I saw Avery and her friends. Of course, Ruby and Jenny had to be there. I didn’t even feel like fighting. I just give up.

“Look who it is.” Ruby smirked.

“Want a tissue?”

“Or a hug?” Ruby walked up to me. “Don’t cry. What’s wrong?”

“Fuck you!”

“Come on. Speak. Tell us.”

“No. Fuck off!!” I shoved her. Then she kissed me. I froze for a second and then shoved her on the floor. She hit her head. Hard. Is she dead? I don’t give a fuck. I’d rather see her dead.

I could hear people whispering and talking about me. I quickly rushed out the hall and into the study hub which was empty. I burst out crying and sat on the sofa facing the wall and the ‘never give up’ posters. BULLSHIT.

’When the world says ‘give up’ hope whispers, ‘try one more time.’

‘Everything comes to you at the right time, be patient and trust in the process.’

‘It’s going to be hard, but hard isn’t impossible.’

“Sky?” Mason approached me.

“Go away!!”

“I am sorry.”

“No. I can’t deal with this. Everyone screaming at me, shouting at me. It’s all too much.” I burst out crying. He sat me up and hugged me. “I’m sorry. I know sorry won’t fix anything but I’ll try.”

“I’m tired.”

“I know you are and I realised shouting and screaming at you isn’t okay. I’ve been an idiot. No one deserves to be shouted at. Especially the fact that you’re a girl. Come on. Don’t cry. Tell you what, today, I’m going to hang out with you. Okay?”

“I thought you have a date with Gemma? You told me this morning--”

“Fuck that.”

“She’ll be sad--”

“I would pick anyone over you in a heart beat. And...when you picked Noah last time...just made me pissed. Started re thinking everything. I almost got hit by a car because I was so busy thinking...”

“You got hit by a car?” My voice wobbled.

“Yeah. Almost.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Didn’t want to worry you...”

“Mason...” I looked at him clearly. “You’re my best friend, best bro and my other half....I..” I looked down at my hands. “I would pick you over everyone...?”


“Three months ago, even if I was still dating Noah, I’d pick you in a heart beat.”

“But now...we’ve lost that strong bond and I want us to make it stronger. So, let’s start by you telling me how you feel?”

“I feel like bullshit.” I said.

He sat down on the sofa and laid my head on his lap. “You’ve been through so much.” He stroked my hair.

“And I’m still here. Happy as ever.”

“You’ve got something on your mind.”

“What if I’m not good enough?”

“Listen. You are the best person I’ll ever meet...” He sighed. “Will we ever be the same...bro and sis. Charlie, Lola?”

I burst out laughing. “Trixie, Robbie?”

“God sake, we had the best childhood ever.”

I wiped my tears. “Will we ever be able to choose each other in a heart beat?”

He looked at me silently and at his hands. I sat up and realised the answer. I would...I guess I realised. He’s my bestie, best friend...I can’t ever loose him. He is my everything.

“It’s fine. Besides, I have Noah. I’m just being stupid. It’s not like I’m gonna love you more than him. I love him more than you.” I lied.

He still didn’t say anything.

“Mason say something. You’re really scaring me. Did I say something wrong?”

Then he hugged me and burst out crying. “Like I said, I’d pick you in a heart beat.” He pulled out.

“I’ve got you running through my veins,” I hugged him again and smiled. “I feel it in my head, my shoulders knees and toes.”

“Oh my god, that song!!”

“Hey, don’t judge.”

“You’ve got an amazing voice.”

“Thanks...just wish they didn’t do that..”

“Well, what if...what if you try. When the world says ‘give up’ hope whispers, ’try one more time." He read from the board.

I looked at the quote. “So you want me to...give it one more go?”

“..Sky...would you love me more than Noah?”

I looked at him silently and smiled. “Like I said. Now that I think of it...properly...maybe..maybe I do. I’d choose you over Noah. Yeah...I love Noah are the bestest friend anyone could ever’re my other half..”

“I love Gemma--”


“I do...”

“Since when?!”

“Well...I realised yesterday..Lucas and Aiden made me realise. I was talking about her and then Aiden said I sounded like I was in love and my body language and my eyes, stuff like that...and it made me think...”

“Have you told her?”

“I’m not ready...”

“Okay. This is crazy.”

“Sky, I’d pick you over anyone...I promise.” Then he lifted my chin up. “Cross my heart hope to die. I’d pick you...over anyone.”

“Cross my heart hope to die. I’d pick you over anyone..from now on...we be honest with each other.”

“I will support you...and...I can’t believe I don’t know when you’re lying or not. Before, no one didn’t know when you were lying, apart from Calvin, but...I knew everything...when did I loose that ability?”

“We can get it back. We just need to get closer.” I said laying back down on his lap. Then the door opened and I saw Jordan and the lot. At first I freaked out and then didn’t. I didn’t freak out. I sat up and walked over to them. I felt no something wrong with me?”

“Why aren’t you running away?”

“Why should I? I’m not scared--”

“Noah. He’s sick, like vomiting and fainting. He looks like he’s going to die.” Jordan said in a rush.


“He is!!”

I quickly rushed out the room and ran into the class room as I saw Noah on the floor Calvin next to him. I rushed over to him. “Calvin, what happened?”

“He’s been feeling sick. Xander’s going to pick him up.”

“Will you all just fuck off!!” I snapped. Noah was sweating a lot, I could see the sweat on his chest. He looked like he’d just come out the shower. Miss was sitting next to him trying to dry the sweat. “He’s sweating too much.” She panicked.

Mason sat next to me and his face went pale. “Sky call an ambulance, he’s got the same sympt--”

Then I puked. I heard gasps. I fainted all of a sudden. I woke up immediately only to puke again. “Sky?!” Mason sat me up properly. “You sick?”

“I’m fine.” I lied. Then someone quickly handed me a plastic bag and I puked inside. “I feel hot.” I slurred. Then vomited again.

“NO PULSE!!!” Calvin freaked out. And started doing CPR. My chest felt like it was burning.

“He’s having a seizure in his sleep!!” Mason panicked trying to wake Noah up. Now Calvin was on the phone calling someone. Ambulance.

“It’s Alex. Alex’s fault--”

“Calvin what are you doing?!”

“It’s Alex!!” Calvin took his phone out and started calling him. Everyone looked at him confused.

“I’m in class--”

“I don’t care. Listen, last time, you said Tisha mixed Iodine and Gunpowder--”

Everyone gasped and I puked again.

“And some other bullshit, it caused an explosion right?”

“Of course. You were fucking there--”

“What side effects could it have? I mean, what can go wrong? Is it just an explosion or more?”

“I was expecting there would be radiation--”

“RADIATION?!” He freaked out.

“I didn’t do much research on it--”

“You said radiation. What happens if we don’t open the windows?”

“I mean, we haven’t even touched the windows, it’s fucking cold. Who opens windows at this weather? It’s fucking October--”

Then I vomited again and passed out. I woke up again and Noah started having a seizure in his sleep. Again. I puked again and again. Miss was starting to get concerned and soon enough Mr Anderson rushed in. “What the fuck is going on?!”

“Radiation?” Miss panicked. Then I vomited and again and again. I could see everyone worried. Jay was literally biting his fingers and trying not to cry. I passed out again and woke up again.

“Calm down. But then nothing happened. I forgot about it. But why are you asking?”

“Alex, because of your stupid potions, you not only got me killed, Noah’s having the same symptoms and Sky too!! Hope you’re fucking happy!!” He shouted down the phone. His phone started ringing again.

“Xander’s at home. He said he wasn’t feeling well--”


“I’m on my way and I’m calling an ambulance.”

Then he cut the call. Calvin looked like he was going to die. He looked pale as fuck.

“I feel hot. Too hot!!” I puked again. Then fainted and woke up again. “Sky calm down. Just focus--”

Then I puked again.

Miss started taking my clothes off. Then I puked again. “EVERYONE, OUT NOW!!” Miss shouted.

“Will they be okay?” Dylan asked.

“They’ll be fine...” Miss lied. Then I fainted again and woke up. I tried breathing for air.

“Quickly, trousers off!!” Sir said on the phone with the operator.

“Miss they look really sick.” Joanna frowned.

“They’ll probably die..” Lily looked at us worried. “They won’t die...Miss tell us they won’t..”

Then I puked and fainted again waking up immediately.

“They can’t possibly die?!” Rishi panicked.

“Guys, don’t panick--”

Then I passed out. After a few moments...I think? I woke up. I looked around and Jay burst out crying and hugged me.

“What happened?”

“Mason did CPR on you.”

“I died?”

Everyone looked around me trying to fight back tears.

“Jayden back off her.” Miss said sternly. Everyone gasped. No one ever calls him Jayden. No one..

“Everyone just mind your business. They’ll be fine.” Miss swallowed. “They’ll be fine...” Miss burst out crying. “Stop crying everyone--”

Then I fainted again. I woke up again and saw paramedics checking on me.

“SHE’S ALIVE!!” One of them exhaled. They rushed up to me and put an oxygen mask on me. “Come on.” Then I took it off and puked.

Mason looked at me worriedly. “Sky...” He started crying.

“I promise I won’t die.”

“Don’t promise me..” He started sobbing.

“Where’s Noah? Calvin?”

“They’re in the ambulance, already gone.” Mason hugged me. I could feel his tears rolling down my back. “I love you. Don’t cry.” I whispered.

“ died. TWICE!!” He started sobbing. I saw Jay sitting next to me and looking at me worriedly.

“Jayden, OUT!!” Miss shouted.

“No, he can stay.” Sir said.

The paramedics placed me on a stretcher and I puked again. Then burst out crying. “What’s going on with me?!”

“Sky, don’t worry...everything’s going to be okay..Calvin survived, you will too.”

“Promise me. Mase?”

“I promise.” He looked down at my hand. “I promise you’ll be okay.”

“Okay, we’ll take her down. Are you family?” He asked Jay. He said nothing.

“He is.” Mr Anderson said. Jay looked at him confused.

“Your dad told me.”

“He’s related to Sky?” Miss asked confused.

I puked.


“No wonder. You look exactly like twins. Same--”

“She’s my step sister. Share the same dad.” He got up.

“No way. You look identical--”

Then Mason got a phone call. “I’m outside. Do you want me to drive you?” Alex asked.

“I’m coming.” Mason said cutting the call. “Sky, I promise you’ll be fine.” He kissed my forehead and left.

“Come on.”

“I thought they were twins.” Miss said walking up to me. “You’ll be fine. Okay?”

“Okay--” Then I puked. She stroked my hair. “You’ll be okay.”

“Okay, we need to go now.”

Sir looked at me worriedly. “Don’t die.”

Miss slapped him across the head. “What the hell are you thinking. Last words should be--”

“Last words?!” I panicked.

“No, don’t worry.” Miss swallowed and glared at Sir. He blushed. “Sorry.”

Then I saw the class standing in the corridor as the paramedics carried me out the hall. Out of nowhere, I fainted.


I looked around. Everything was blurry--

“Alex?” I turned to him. His arm was wrapped around me and I could feel his soft breathing.

“Xander.” He kissed my forehead. “How do you feel?”


“You look so tired. Poor thing.” He stroked my cheek. I looked at his arms and then his whole body. "You're so fit."

"Are you flirting with me?"

"No. Can't I just give a compliment?"

"Okay, sorry. Thanks..?" He blushed. “Eliza and Levi visited with the rest of the gang...but they both painted your face.” He laughed.

“Why am I not surprised...” I frowned. “What is wrong with me?”

“Nothing.” He wiped my tears.

“They’re my family. I haven’t seen mum or dad properly and my siblings...I’ve been so distant from home...”

“Yeah, we all have...”

“I’m going to visit my mum and dad. Then aunty Sarah and Aunty Nasreen. And then Uncle Haris and then Uncle Riaz.”

“Good. Now, please go change.”

I got up but my legs felt weak. “I’m really tired.”

“Come on.” He helped me lay back down on the bed. He laid next to me and turned. “God’s sake. How many times will you be in these situations?”

“Where’s Noah? Mason?”

“They’re both recovering. They’re really exhausted but they want to see you badly...”

“How long have I been asleep?”

“Two days so far...”


“Yeah...Jay..he’s worried for you.”

“Why is he not here?”

“He’s been bringing you cupcakes. Even if you don’t eat them. He baked it from scratch.” He said. “Tried a lot. He also bought you flowers..well the whole gang did.”

“The boys came?”



“Don’t worry. Nothing happened.”

“Did they do...something to me?”

“No. I was there the whole time.”

“Good.” I exhaled.

“Besides, if they did...I’d already have killed them.”

“That’s good.”

“Why would you read it?!” Xander shouted snatching his diary from me.

“I didn’t read it!!!”

“Then why do you have it?!”

“I was helping you organize your school work and then I found it. I was going to give it to you but then I saw a paper fall out. I was going to put it back in. I swear I didn’t even read one word!!”

“Don’t lie to me!!” He shouted. “This is my fucking privacy. My thoughts. My life. What were you thinking?!”

“I was helping you--”

“SHUT UP!!” He screamed. “You fucking don’t go around reading people’s diaries!!!”

“Stop screaming..”

“No, I won’t. Because you don’t understand what ‘personal space’ and ‘privacy’ means!!”

Tears started rolling down my eyes. “I didn’t read it.”

He looked down at the diary and back at me. “I’m sick of you. I don’t want to see you out the room until tomorrow. Do I make myself clear?!”

“Stop shouting.”

He looked at his diary and back at me. Oh shit. I’m fucked. “Xander don’t hit me. I was only--”

Then he raised his arm and I closed my eyes shielding my face with my arms. “Please don’t hit me!! I’m sorry!! I shouldn’t have read your diary. Just don’t hit me!! Please!! Don’t hit me!!” I sobbed. I was waiting for a punch but then he hugged me and I gasped. Then burst out crying. “Don’t hurt me.”

“I won’t.” He whispered. “I’m sorry. I was being stupid. I didn’t mean to scare you that bad.”

“You scared me. Please don’t hit me.” I hugged him tighter. “I’ve already been hit. Please don’t hurt me--”

“Hey, I promise not to.” He pulled out and kissed my forehead. “I’m not that low.”

I wiped my tears. “You screamed at me.”

“And I’m sorry...did you read my diary?”

“No. I swear to god I didn’t. I was just tidying up. I wanted to but I knew it was your privacy. I didn’t read it.”

“I’m really sorry for screaming at you.”

I looked down at my hands. “I’ve had too much. I act like I don’t care when someone screams at me but hurts. It hurts so much. I feel bad...terrible and scared and--”

Then he hugged me again. “I love you. Stop crying. I’ll try not to scream at you.”

“But you can’t help it can you...”

“I don’t hit you. Even if I want to so badly...”

“Would you ever hit anyone again? Alex? Calvin? Noah?”

“No..after what happened with Mr Trent..never...I can’t believe I was that stupid. I can’t believe all this time...I was so stupid. He was only fifteen. Fifteen and I was scaring him. He couldn’t even look me in the eye..and he inflicted his pain onto you...and when he came home...after having a phone call from his teacher...I’d hurt him...he was only just a kid. He was depressed...scared....he refused to even bring his friends over...all because he was scared of me...he would always cling to Alex and Alex...if he was home alone with me...he’s go visit Alex in the hospital...” He smiled sadly. “I’m a terrible person...”

“It wasn’t entirely your fault...I guess I blame it on Mr Trent...he was the cause to all this...Noah wasn’t ever aggressive...I guess he had enough...”

“Yeah...I feel terrible..I just wish they knew how sorry I am..”

“Stop crying. You’re a grown man.”

“Oh come on.” He smiled and wiped his tears. “You’re so kind.”

“I don’t get that a lot. But crazy I do.”

“’re definitely not. Last time you did something crazy was a while ago. We just jumped onto conclusions and called you crazy when half the time you did nothing...I’m sorry.”

“You’re a good person too...I forgot to tell David about the letter!”

“What did it say?”

“I can’t say. It said it was a secret and it’s a good secret. But anyways, I gotta go.” I said getting up. “You’d never hit me..right?”

“Yeah, why?”

“I’m day you might...lose it?”

“I’ve lost it a million times and have never hit you. Just screamed and shouted at diary is big. Private. And when you...I thought you read it...I’m sorry I didn’t believe you.”

“Thanks for not hitting me.” I hugged him. “Promise me..please...I just don’t want to get’ll be too much..I know I’ll never be able to hug you again without thinking about your hit.”

“I promise not to hit you. Okay?”

“Okay.” I said opening the door when I saw Neha peeking through the hole. “Neha?!”

Xander quickly got up and hugged her.

“Well, I have come to break up with you.” She said puling out.

I saw Xander’s expression fall. Then tears rolling down his eyes.

“I’ll come back later. Yeah?”

“Don’t worry. I’m fine.” He lied and slammed the door at her face. She looked at me concerned. “I’ll be back. I just need to figure out if I should get back with him.” She said walking away.

I sighed and walked back into my room where Mason was playing Among Us. He took his head set off. “I’m imposter.” He whispered. “Wanna play?”

I looked at him unsure.

“They love you. You’re being silly. They’re your friends.”

“Are you sure they like me? I don’t even feel like they like me. I kidnapped both my babies. They won’t understand. They think of me like I’m crazy and--”

“That’s not true. Come on. Join us.” I heard Lucas say.

“You’re on the phone?” I asked Mason.

“Yeah, so come on. We’re you’re friends.” Aiden said.



“I’ve missed you so much.”

“Gee, have you missed us?” Lucas laughed.

“Yeah I have...but mostly Aiden.” I said going to my gaming chair. I sat down and plugged my computer on.

“Guys, me and Mason are going to film this. Okay?”

“What?” They all asked at the same time.

“We haven’t really uploaded anything on YouTube so, maybe we should. So..should we?

“I mean, sure.”

“Okay, I’ll get the camera. And lighting ready.” I said.

“Okay..” I sighed and sat on my computer. ”Hi guys, welcome to our YouTube channel. Today we’re playing Among Us and we’re really sorry for not uploading stuff. But I have some stuff in mind. We’ll hopefully start uploading more stuff." I said already on the game.

Then we started playing. After about half an hour, I heard voices in the Gaming Room. No one really goes there but Alex 1.1 did spend £50k in that room.

“Who’s in there?” I asked Mason.

“Probably Noah and his friends.”


“Sky you okay?”

Then I paused the video. “We should end it soon. The video.”


I resumed the video and we went on for another five minutes when I said, ”Okay guys, I think I have a sore throat from all the shouting. Make sure to like, subscribe and share. More videos coming up weekly or even daily. But...thanks for being patient and I’m, we all are, really sorry. Thanks for watching. Love y’all." Then I cut the video. “Fuck.”

I got up. “I’ll check on Xander.” I said leaving the room. I went into Xander’s room only to see Alex 1.2 patting him on the back and speaking to him softly. Xander was..drunk. I looked at the vodka bottle in his right arm and the cigarette he was holding.


“Sky?” They both turned around.

I walked up to him. “How could you be so stupid?!” I snatched the bottle off him. Then the cigarette. “Are you stupid?!”

“I’m dead. End of. I just wanted to be happy but...I can’t...she means everything and Noah and Calvin and Alex hates me for beating them up.”

“We don’t hate you.” Alex whispered hugging him. Then the door opened and I saw Calvin and Noah standing speechless.



“Why have you got..” Calvin or Noah snatched the Vodka and cigarette off me.

“He was..” I looked at Xander who was clearly drunk.

“He drank almost the whole-”

Then Xander puked on Alex. But Alex didn’t cringe. Just kept rubbing Xander’s back.

“Calvin get a sick bag.”

“On it.”

“Noah?” I looked at him as he held the vodka and cigarette.

“Still don’t know me?” He looked at me hurt.

“Eventually I will.” I said with a smile. He gave me a fake smile.

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