Seat of shame
I woke up in an unfamiliar place with two faces looking at me. They all looked strange. I rubbed my eyes and the faces became more and more clearer. It was Lucas and Gemma. I had an oxygen mask with a tube connected. And there was a nurse checking my blood pressure. I also had an IV tube inserted into my hand.
“Sky?” Gemma smiled. I looked at her unable to speak. My cheek and jaw were killing me. I looked at Gemma, my eyes fearful. Gemma and Lucas could see I was panicking.
“Sky, calm down. Everything’s fine.” Lucas reassured. I didn’t even bother listening to him. My head was just swirling around and all I could think about was, where is Mason?
The heart rate monitor was above average which made everything so much worse. Now there were alarms beeping all over the place and I could hear voices telling me to calm down but I can’t! I can’t! I don’t know why but I couldn’t. The voices started to get louder and louder and people were rushing into the room and I could hear my heart pounding and tears rolling down my cheeks.
Gemma was already crying and some nurses were looking at me confused and panicked. Lucas was biting his lip trying not to cry. They were all looking at me.
“Oh no, we need Dr Lea. Get Dr Lea for me. Nurse Alex!”
“Okay but I’ve just got a bleep. Code blue.” She panicked and rushed out the room.
Seconds later I was surrounded by doctors and nurses. They were all talking gibberish.
All I could do is watch and listen and panic. Where was Mason?!
Soon enough, I couldn’t breathe and then I started to everything went blank.
I woke up next to a big glass window showing the cold, depressing dark sky of Hounslow. I looked around and saw Mason was sleeping on the bed next to me holding my hand. I was confused for a moment and then relaxed. He was safe. I exhaled. I looked at him again and saw his arm was ‘professionally’ done. He’d gotten a cast and his cheek was fixed and so was his brow. I couldn’t see his shoulder but I know it was probably fixed. I was hurt for a moment because I did a good job and they just go ahead and---
“Sky.” Mason said with a smile as he woke up.
“Hi. I see your arm’s fixed.”
“Yeah. You had a panic attack before.”
“Are you in pain now?” I asked looking at his cast.
“I’ve got a headache.”
“Do you remember what happened?”
“You’re awake.” I heard a voice next to me.
I jumped. “Noah? What happened to your arm?”
“Lets not discuss that yeah?”
“Why are you here?”
“Well, I came to visit you and tell you--”
“No visitors allowed until she’s ready.” A nurse, Nurse Alex!! Said entering the room. Then she looked up. “Noah?!”
“What? Can’t I come and visit my ex?”
“Chill she’s with Sky's mum's house.”
“Wait what?” I asked confused. Since when did...oh...right. I forgot. Alex...oh...I miss her--
“Well, I wanted to tell you that I--”
“Noah, you’re not supposed to be here!”
“Calm down sis.”
I raised my eyebrows. “Where’s your cousin?”
“Talk of the devil.” Nurse Alex said as someone came in.
“Hi, I’m Dr--” She paused, “It’s you.” She glared at me. “You dumped my cousin.”
“I can explain--”
She was about to walk up to me when she saw Noah sitting on the sofa with a bruised arm. “Noah why are you here?!”
“I’m here because I just wanted to--”
“You realise she’s your ex.”
“Soon she won’t be.”
“No. I won’t.” Then I paused. “Wait. What?”
“You dumped my cousin.” Dr Lea walked up to me.
“Lea, stop. You need to act professional. If you can’t dress properly then at least try act professionally.”
“I dress and act...never mind.” She groaned. “What are you doing?!” She glared at Mason. “You’re the boyfriend--”
“No, I’m her best friend.”
“Oh my goodness, Lea can you stop. Let’s just do our job.”
“You do it. I cannot believe--”
“They’re best friends Lea. They’ve always been.”
“Seriously?! Now they’ve poisoned--”
“Lea, they have been best friends since they were born. They went to the same schools with Noah since nursery.” Nurse Alex rolled her eyes. “I go to their house a million times a day, okay?”
“Are you serious? Noah? Are they dating yes or no?!”
“No!” We all said at the same time.
“I am single and he’s dating Gemma!”
“Sky how did you know that?” Mason panicked.
“Please, you’re so obvious. I see how you both look at each other and touch--”
“Okay, okay!” Mason cut in blushing.
Noah moved closer to me. “So you’re single...right?”
“Noah, just stop.” Lea shouted. “Get out!”
“Anyways, I just wanted to tell you that I---”
Lea grabbed on to his hoodie and started pulling him.
“I love you.” Then Dr Lea gave him a smack on the head and pulled him by the ear and out the room.
I looked at Mason shocked. Nurse Alex did the check-ups and before she left she said. “He’s a good guy, Sky. Don’t break his heart. Please.”
“Thanks Alex.” I smiled at her. As soon as she left I rolled my eyes and saw Mason was pissed.
“Mason what’s wrong with you? Why do you hate Noah so bad?!”
“I don’t hate him! I just....” He sighs. “I feel like it’s my responsibility to look after you and--”
“I can look after myself! I don’t need you to keep ruining the love of my life just because you think he’s trouble!”
The room fell silent. That awkward silence. That uncomfortable silence. All I could hear is the nurses chatting and the baby next door crying. Mason looked shocked. "You love him?"
"That’s why you always hate it when I bad mouth him.”
“I love him and I keep feeling angry every time you just--”
“I’m sorry okay?” He paused. “I feel like if he was ever going to be official official with you, maybe.....I don’t know....he might go off and--”
“You don’t need to worry about me, I can fight my own battles. Seriously, no one can hurt me. I hurt people, obviously. You shouldn’t worry about me because, I have the shortest temper ever....and I know how to use it.”
“That’s why no one dares to mess around with you.”
“No one does.” I winked.
Then Dr Lea and Nurse Alex walked back in with Noah in front of them. He blushed as he looked at me. “So....”
“Come here.” I pulled him in and gave him the biggest snog, sorry kiss. :) ever.
“Ewwww!” Dr Lea pulled him away from him.
“Noah’s told us about the whole misunderstanding.” Nurse Alex said.
“I love you too.” I kissed him again and gave him a hug.
“So, now that we’ve all made up--”
“Hi...Lea.” I winked. Then I twirled my hair. “Loving your outfit.”
“Skylar are you flirting with my cousin?!” Noah fumed.
“Chill Noah. It’s not like I’m going to kiss--”
“Shut up!” Dr Lea hissed at me. “You need to shut up and back off my cousin.”
“Oh...right....and then we can...erm...you know--”
“Shut up Skylar!” Noah glared at me. I then realised that Dr Lea was red in the face and ready to punch me in the face any moment now. Serves her right!
“Chill....doctor...” I smirked. Dr Lea was about to punch me when Nurse Alex grabbed her fist.
Nurse Alex covered her mouth and dragged her outside.
“Well, she’s got issues.” I muttered.
“No you do!” Mason sat up.
“What do you think you’re doing? You’re flirting with my cousin!” Noah glared at me. “If you don’t--”
“I was just winding her up. Seriously, you people need to chill.”
“She could’ve gotten fired!” Mason argued.
“That wasn’t funny you know!”
“Guys can you please just sit down and stop surrounding me. Gosh you people have issues.”
“Skylar, we don’t have issues.” Mason said. “YOU DO!”
“Mason please just shut up.” I groaned.
“You flirted with my cousin. Can you please tell my why on your right mind would you do that?!”
I sat still silently. My plan was working. I managed to annoy Dr Lea until breaking point. She deserved that coming. She has no right to tell me to back off from the love of my life. Wow, second time I’ve said that in under five minutes. And my other plan is to get Noah and Mason to stop hatting on each other, I mean seriously. Why fight all the time?
“Okay, so you tell me you love me and then you flirt with my cousin and then you ignore me?! This isn’t Love Island!”
“Noah’s right. You can’t just do that to someone!” Mason went on. “You’re pissing her off and she could get arrested for physical assault to a minor.”
“Mason’s right. What were you thinking?”
“I thought she was hot and--”
“You what?! You just told me you loved me!”
“But I still love you. Just have a fantasy just like Ruby Rose--”
“Ruby Rose?!” Noah started pacing around. “Okay, so you’re bi?”
“No! I am straight--”
“You...” Mason just sighed.
“Guys just give me a sec to check my social media. Can you both go away!”
They walked out the room. I didn’t even bother doing anything but to just lie down. I don’t care about what’s happening now...I just care about getting out of this place and going home. I started to fiddle with the bed remote controller.
After a while, Mason and Noah came back in.
“Do you love me?” Noah looked straight to my eyes. I looked back at his eyes. “Yes. Now let’s just move on--”
“Why did you do it? Flirt with her? Are you b--”
“I swear to god if you say I am any part of the LGBTQ+, I am going to break your neck, shove your head down a toilet and throw you off the highest building I could find in Hounslow East!”
Noah took a step back. “Okay....so you’re straight.”
“You just wanted to piss her off.” Mason shook his head. “She’s already mad at you why would you--”
“Oh relax. It was just a bit of fun and regardless. I hate her.”
“You can’t hate my cousin!”
“I just did.” I rolled my eyes. “I didn’t mean for her to take it so seriously, actually I did, it was just a few flirty stuff to make her lose it and then....I don’t know.”
“That’s the thing. You don’t know. You never do.”
“Who’s side are you on then?!”
“His side. You’re completely crazy.”
“Exactly.” Noah said.
“So you’re on his side now, Noah?!”
“Finally. Looks like it all worked out well.”
“Yeah what are you talking about?”
“Well...Mason you hated Noah and you’ve never once been in his side....ever...and in 16 years, today is the day you actually sided with him.”
Mason and Noah fell silent. “This is awkward. I expected you both to be--”
“So you don’t actually like my cousin...right?”
“Chill. Don’t worry I only like you. But I got to say, she is dang.”
“I’m going to act like I didn’t hear that.”
“A few things you need to understand is,” I opened my phone and showed him my wallpaper showing him a photo of Ruby Rose, “I’m in love with Ruby Rose, not in a romantic way of course....maybe...I guess....but she will always be in my heart. I mean....why did she quit Batwoman? That’s betrayal. She is so hot and really really se--”
He covered my mouth. “Skylar! Shut up before you actually get dumped.” Then he let go and exhaled.
Mason started looking at Noah’s arm. Then he blushed and looked away. His arm looked bruised....did he do that?
“How did you--”
“You don’t remember?”
“She was knocked out.” Mason looked away.
“What? I don’t understand--”
“I was going to hit Noah with the bat but you jumped in and instead you got hit.” Mason sighed. “I thought he was going to kill you...”
I looked at him shocked--
“Don’t blame him. He didn’t mean it. I’m sure he didn’t...”
“I was pissed at you Noah. I meant it. I didn’t mean you to die or anything, I just wanted to hit you back the same way you did to me. And all the times I tried to jeopardize anything nice you were trying to do to Sky, I’m sorry. I just wanted her to be safe and I felt it was my responsibility and I didn’t realise how far it would go.” Mason said in a hurry. Then he exhaled.
Noah exhaled. “I--”
“Hold on. You both have hated each other since nursery because of some silly thing probably and for some reason, since that day, you both just kept hating and as you grew up, your hate for each other grew worse and worse.” I sighed. “You both need to stop. You’re no longer in nursery. Us three have been together since nursery, then primary, then secondary school and now...college...”
“I guess you’re right...” Noah bit his lip.
“Why did this feud between you and Mason start?”
They both thought long and hard. After a while they just looked at each other clueless.
I shook my head. “You don’t even know. Please will you both just make up.”
Mason and Noah looked at each other awkwardly. “I don’t know what to say...I just...I--”
I took my phone and sneakily started recording. “Say you’re sorry Noah.”
“I guess...maybe Skylar is right...we’ve been angry with each other for all these years for no reason, we torment each other....for nothing, just a silly fight in nursery...I...I..I’m....sorry...” He said rubbing the back of his neck.
“I’m sorry too...” Mason blushed. “A petty argument that we forgot about has ruined our relationship. If it wasn’t for our moms...we would...yeah..just sorry...”
“This is really weird. Awkward.” I said. “Guys after 16 years, they’ve managed to apologise. They fought for no reason for 16 years. Wow.”
“Sky who are you--”
I took my camera and turned it to me. “Like, follow and share. Bye.” I cut the video, then I shut my phone before any of them were to delete it.
“Sky open your phone.” Mason demanded.
"This is going to go on tiktok." I smirked.
Noah glared at me. “Skylar this isn’t funny. This is--”
“Something.” Nurse Alex walked in with a bright smile. “Which one of you wants to answer my hundred questions.” She asked waving a few sheets of paper.
“Mason. You do it. After all me and my new ‘LOVER’ need to talk. No kissing I swear. Just talk.”
“Urrggh why?” He reluctantly walked out with Nurse Alex.
Noah sat next to me. “Now that we’re alone. Are you--”
“No. I am straight. Straight straight.” I rolled my eyes. “Why and how did you find us?”
“My dad’s alarm went off and I checked the security cameras and I saw you with no clo--”
“Thank you.” I cut in sharply before he could continue.
“And Mason with no shirt--”
“So my instant thought was....”
“Oh for fuck sake Noah. Why would you even....never mind.” I groaned. “Why can’t male and females be friends but female and female and male and male can be friends?”
“Maybe because......I don’t know....maybe because many opposite gender best friends end up being lovers....?”
“Listen. Thank you for the jumper--”
“I forgot about the jumper but you’re welcome.”
“But how comes you didn’t--”
“Okay listen, I just saw you both in the ground floor naked--”
“And with frustration, I closed the tape and ran down to the building and figuring out once and for all if you like me or not. Then I saw you both cuddling and kissing and I saw a bat next to me so I grabbed it and just got mad.” He said in a rush. Then he exhaled.
I raised my brows. “You do realise we didn’t actually--”
“I know.” He said getting up.
“Where are you going?”
“I’m going to actually apologise and make the awkwardness between me and Mason go away.”
“Okay.” I said as I tried to get up. “Fuck!”
“Your ankle is broken.”
“I fucking know that!” I groaned. I jumped off and started hopping around to the nurses station.
“Hi Skylar.” Nurse Alex said.
“Alex! I can’t walk. I want to walk. I need to walk.”
“Sky, take these crutches.” She looked around and found them. “I can assure you with a bit more rest--”
“I don’t rest. I need to do my tiktoks and my--”
Then she looked at the paper written on the crutches. She paused for a moment. “Skylar. Due to your difficulty your doctor asked if you would like to use a whee--”
“Don’t even think about finishing that word!” I huffed. I reluctantly took the crutches.
“Skylar, I know it’ll be hard but you must do as your doctor says, at least until the fifth of this month.”
“But that’s two days! What’s the point?!”
Then I saw my doctor. Dr Lilith. “The point is that you might hurt yourself if anything happens and your muscles are too weak sometimes. You are probably the most strongest girl I’ve seen, I mean...last year?”
“Okay, the girl was asking for it. Besides I didn’t hurt her that badly...” I lied.
“She had bruises all over her face.”
“Regardless. I only feel weak rarely. Yes sometimes my legs hurt but that’s just natural--”
“I can still walk! I don’t need a fucking wheelchair.”
“Well, now you do.” She said followed by another nurse.
“Here you go.” The nurse said.
I stared at the chair. “I’m not disabled. I am never going to go out like that. I am perfectly fine okay?!”
“Skylar stop being ridiculous. Just sit on your chair.”
“I will call your mum. I already filled her in on what Mason had told Nurse Alex. So come and sit down.”
“A. that’s blackmail and b. I won’t sit down.”
“Okay. If you don’t, you will remain sitting on this wheel chair until your leg and ankle heels.”
“You have got to be kidding me.....right?” I gave a nervous laugh. Her expression didn’t change. “Sit.”
I hopped to the wheelchair, now as I call it, ‘the seat of shame’. I sat. “I feel small...depressed...I feel like there’s no--”
“Nice try. It’s just for a few days.” Dr Lilith wheeled me back to my bed.
“I cannot believe this. This is harassment! I feel so humiliated! Someone call the police!”
“Skylar you’re waking everyone up in the ward. Quieten down.”
I glared at her. Humiliated. This isn’t fair! How am I going to go out?
Dr Lilith helped me lie on the bed and then said. “Lunar Skylar if I hear a single word from you, you will be stuck in that wheel chair for months.” Then she left.
I laid down staring at the seat of shame. Then I heard a knock. A guy in a wheel chair and two broken legs came in.
“Sorry, are you lost?”
“N...no...erm..sorry...I..I haven’t...I’m sorry.” He scratched his head. “I’ve been stuck here for a month and I haven’t met anyone apart from my sister. I only talk to my friends via phone so...I’m just...sorry.”
“Hey, don’t worry. Tell you what, why don’t you come and hang out with me for a while? I’ll get to know you after all, we’re both bored as fuck.”
He wheeled over to me. “I’m Liam.”
“How did you-”
“Everyone in this ward knows your full name.”
I bit my lip. “Am I really that loud?”
“What do you want to do?”
“Well...I haven’t done a tik tok for a while so I was wondering...can you sing? It’s okay if you...are you okay? I didn’t mean to--”
I closed my eyes and wiped my tears. “No. It’s not you....”
“Hey, do you want to talk about it?”
I looked at him for a while. I have never ever spoken about this.. not even for Gemma...nor Mason. But...I just feel...like I can trust him. I just want to tell someone. I just want to be able to break free....
“You promise not to tell..”
“I haven’t even told my best friend which I’ve known since I was born...”
“Okay. Cross my heart hope to die.”
“Okay...” I sighed. “I haven’t sang in front of someone for three years...”
“It’s because of my boyfriend. Well, before he became my boyfriend...he was supposed to humiliate my best friend Mason but ended up accidentally humiliating me...he...he..I was performing on stage and he..he somehow got all his friends to throw tomatoes and all sorts of foods at me. And what’s worse is that I had to go to school the next day. Alex, well Nurse Alex is his sister and she always came to our house to help us out and talk to my mum. And every time, Noah had to come. Noah teased me for months on end...until I lost confidence on my singing and--”
“Sky you okay?” Mason asked entering the room. Then he looked at Liam. Then he looked at me wiping my tears. “What did you say to her?”
“He said nothing, he was just listening to me.”
“It’s nothing. Can you just wait a sec.” I smiled trying to look fine. Then he left the room.
“I just lost all my confidence in singing and every time I sing in public, the thoughts come and...I’m just--”
“How about....I make you feel better?” He looked at me. “Do you mind sneaking out at night while your bestie’s asleep. We’ll go to my room and we’ll draw all your problems.”
“I did art GCSE and I still can’t draw that great--”
“I will teach you. Now go ‘fake sleep’ before he comes and interrogates us. And try to be as quiet as you can when coming. I don’t want to wake the nurses up.”
“Okay.” I whispered and winked at him.
“Bye.” Then he wheeled out the room. Mason came in with a bright smile. “I’m leaving. Today. I’m going to grab my stuff and go home now.”
“Mason you can’t...you can’t..” I panicked. “How am I going to survive? I mean, how?”
“Sky, you’ve got the nurses and the boy, is he your friend?”
“I just met him--”
“Get to know him well. I need to leave now--”
I pressed the red nurse button which is only to be used for an emergency or a need for a nurse. After a few seconds, Nurse Alex appeared. “Sky what’s wrong?” She looked at me concerned.
“Mason wants to go home and he’ll leave me here all alone. If he goes, I go.” I said already hopping onto my wheel chair.
“Skylar...” She sighed. “I’ll be back in a second.” Then she went out the room and walked to the nurses station. I waited for a few seconds and she came back with another nurse and someone on the phone.
“Skylar!” A voice said from the phone startling me.
“Yes Dr Lilith.”
“Let Mason go, please. We need beds--”
“He can sleep on the sofa next to me, after all, the sofa can be turned into a bed....it’s a bed and a sofa....remember?”
“Skylar, Mason wants to go home right?”
“I do. I want to go home Sky.” He interrupted.
Then Dr Lilith said, “Just be independent here...for once...”
“I can’t...I need him..you don’t understand--”
“Okay, Mason what do you think? Would you like to stay here for a whole entire week, sorry, nine days?”
“Dr Lilith! Your making it all sound bad! Mason don’t listen to her.”
“She’s right. I don’t want to stay for nine days in this place.”
“You know what? Go. You go. Oh you go.” I snapped. “Don’t ever bother talking to me....ever again.” I sank down on my bed and covered my head with the blanket.
“I will visit you though.” He said with a weak laugh. I threw my whole blanket at him. “I don’t need you to come. Instead, I’ll ask Gemma to stay with me the whole time!”
“Gemma can’t. And Lucas. They’ve got so much work--”
“Well....they can do it here!”
“Sky you’re being ridiculous. Isn’t she?” He looked at the nurses and Dr Lilith. They all nodded in agreement.
“Skylar please stop being ridiculous. I’m going to come every now and then--”
I hopped off the bed. Then started wheeling out the room. “Sky, please stop being silly, I said I’ll come and visit.” He tried to follow me.
“You shut it! I hate...” I paused. Ohhhh....damn. I saw his expression fall. He knew what I was about to say. “I didn’t-”
“You hate me.”
"I'm not staying here. We are over." He hissed
I left the room in guilt, then turned right and saw another room. I knocked and went inside, then I saw Liam, and a girl.