[ Mia Wray - Where I stand ]
Did you guys watch midnight sun yet? Give it a comment about it. I watch it and I kind of tears up at the end of the story but overall it's a great movie for me.
After a week of freedom, now I'm back at the hospital and get ready to do the chemotherapy. "I had so much fun for this one week. Especially when I got to spend my time with all if you guys. Thank you guys for making me happy and forget about all this for a while." I said to all my friends while me, I'm back to lay on the bed with all the tubes and things all over my body.
"Don't mention it. We did all that with sincerity. We're all glad that you love it. So as much as we want to talk to you right now, I think it's time for us to go because your doctor will be here soon. We will see you later Adrienne. Bye." Cherry said and they all wave goodbye to me and I feel so sad because I feel like this is the last goodbye.
"Babe, I love you. I'll see you very soon. See ya." Joel said and kiss my forehead before he follows the rest of them out from my room.
Then not long after that, the doctor walks in. "Hello Adrienne. How you feeling?" He asks me.
"I feel sick and tired." I answer and he just nodded his head and smile at me.
"Okay I need to bring you to the chemotherapy room right now. Let's go." I get onto the wheelchair and the nurse helps me by push the wheelchair for me.
I thought the doctor really gave me one week for me to get out from the hospital but then I know why he let me. It's because the third cycle was delayed by a week due to neutropenia (low white blood cells) and extreme fatigue. No wonder I feel so tired and weak. So, the doctor give me the G-CSF injections (to strengthen my immune system). These were not painful in themselves but I suffered back pain and spasms after them. My back is so painful.
I now have blood tests to check for diabetes and have full blood count before seeing my oncologist. A CT scan is done and the nurse help me to move back to my room.
Since my treatment finished I have like a time to rest and maybe have a chat with my parents or friends. I love spending time with my parents and friends because they make me happy each time when I'm with them.
I see my friends as often as possible and I am allowed to walk at the park and also reading some novels. My time is taken up by the activities that I had done. I don't think about my diagnosis too much, as long as I am well enough to speak and laugh with the people I know.
Then, I was told that I was a priority for a Whipple's operation. The date was set, about 2 weeks from the initial diagnosis scan. I am so nervous about this operation because it have lots of consequences. Even though my mom, my dad, Joel and my fellow friends are giving me the full support, I still feel so scared and nervous at the same time.
2 Weeks later
The time is over. Today is the day of my biggest operations I've ever had in my life. I was given a bed and then I had all sorts of visits from the people I know, My mom, my dad, Joel, Issac, Zach, Hayes, Cherry, Hillary and even Piper and Willy comes to see me. I was kind of shocked when I see Willy was here to visit me at the hospital and I'm glad he already accepted the baby inside of Piper's. All through this I remained happy and relaxed. I don't know why because this was a major operation and my life depended on it but I was giggling and having fun with the staff and my whole family and friends, but that's just the way I am. I remained to be happy and normal before the operation.
"Adrienne, my daughter please be strong in there. We all here will waiting for you." My dad said. Okay here we go. All the tears that I've been keeping up, are now flowing like a river through my cheeks. He wipes my tears but the tears keep coming out.
"I'm sorry if I did anything wrong to you and maybe there's a words that I said makes your heart hurt. I am so sorry, dad. I hope you will always love me like now even though I'm not in this world anymore." I said to him and continue "-and promise me to not work too hard until you fall sick. Always remember to eat at the right time and sleep at the right time. Also, please take care of Ray for me." He hug me and that's makes me so sad of thought of leaving him.
"I promise my princess." He said and now my mom's turn.
"Adrienne, I am so sorry I didn't take care of you since you were a baby. I was wrong that time and I admitted it. This whole few months of taking care of you making me feel so happy even though I met you in this kind of situation. Just remember my love towards you are never change and it's true because you are my one and only daughter I've ever had. You can do this and you can go to Graduation that in just a few weeks from now. You get to wear the dress that we bought that day." I smile at her.
"I am lucky to have you as my mom. I want you to know I love you too." She hug me and kiss my cheeks.
And then Hayes, Zach and Isaac comes to me and said the things that they wanted to say. They even make a jokes and making me let out a small chuckle. "I won't forget you all guys. Also your jokes that always make me laugh." I said and Cherry and Hillary didn't said much to me because both of them crying and decided just to hug me. Also with Piper and Willy.
The last one is, Joel. I can see his red eyes and his sad face. "I'm sorry about all this. I am sorry if I can't keep the promise that we've made." I said to him.
"Let's just forget about the promises. All I want now is you too coming out alive. That's it and then that's when we talk about our promises.. I love you and I really do..." Just when he talk to me, my doctor walks in and that's mean It's time for the operation.
I wave goodbye to everyone and that's the last time I saw them after my eyes completely close and now all I can see is darkness.
I cannot stop praying to God for Adrienne to safe from this operation. I can see all of them here are doing the same thing as me. Adrienne I know you do it. We all here waiting for you with the prayer.
This Is the longest time for me. I waited and waited until the doctor walks out from the operation room. We all stand up and waiting for the doctor to talk. My heart beating do fast.
"How's my daughter?" Mr. Nelson asks. It takes a few seconds for the doctor to speak up.
"I hope all of you will stay strong of what happened -" Before the doctor can continue Laila already crying so hard like she knows what happened to her daughter. "We can't safe her. We did everything we could to keep her alive but God love her more than we do. Stay strong. I have to go now. I'm sorry." He said and walk away.
... I don't know what to say what to react at the moment. I feel my world has stop and my heart are slice up with the knife. It's feels so hurt and it hurt so badly.
I take a seat and feel my tears coming out. Adrienne, why you leave me like this. You know I love you so much and you also knew that you have a promises that you need to keep it. Why you leave so soon.
This is not a good news at all. This is so sad thinking that he will never get to see Adrienne again. Poor him...
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