Chapter 24.. Fear Takes Over
Startled awake by yet another nightmare, I got out of bed and reached for my I.V. pole and led it out of the door and into the lit hallway. The nurses who sat at the station near my room noticed me, and one came over to my doorway.
“Meg, did you have another nightmare?”
“Would you like a cup of tea?”
I shook my head and pointed to my wrist to ask her the time.
“Four-thirty. You have three hours to go until you can talk again.”
Everyone around me was looking forward to tomorrow morning, but I doubted that Alex did. Something told me that he’d prefer not to hear what happened to me. Regardless, I had to tell him, Ruby and the prosecutor, and then I needed to deal with this as best as possible. Without sign or motion, I turned back to my room’s door and led the IV pole through as the night-turn nurse followed and tucked me back into the bed. When I pointed to my bear, which sat in Alex’s chair, she handed him to me. As I squeezed and held the bear against me with my arm in the cast, I smiled and waved at her to say thanks and good night.
In a few hours, my silence would end, then it would all begin. I had to keep reminding myself that I had to stay strong for Alex. He’d been my strength and my shoulder to cry on through this whole thing. Over the last few weeks, I learned not to cry as much, but only when I couldn’t hold it back any longer. When I needed just to be close to him, I’d smile and move over on the bed so he’d sit with me, then I’d cuddle into his arms and sigh so he’d hold me tighter. I found that being held by Alex felt better than a good cry any day. Almost always I’d fall asleep there in his arms. Alex called it nap time because he knew about the nightmares, even though I didn’t tell him. He had his own band of spies in that nursing staff that volunteered information to him daily.
When I woke a couple hours later, the girl from the nutrition staff had entered the room with my shake and a cup of coffee. I had just popped the top of my shake when the nurse came into the room.
“Ah ah ah,” she said, taking the shake from my hand, “they’re waiting for you. It’s time to get those wires off, Megan.”