It was now Friday, the week with my dad had been great and I wanted to spend more time with him, but, I had to get the approvals of my new boyfriends first. Josh had driven me to school like usual, we held hands and spoke like two people in love. Thoughts of Jason flooded my mind though, I wasn’t sure what I was feeling and it made me feel anger towards myself. When he wasn’t around I felt hatred for him, but when he was close, or like last night, when we spoke over the phone, it was like how we were when we first met. Butterflies in my stomach, feeling shy and giddy, not wanting to let him go, I just didn’t know how to explain those feelings. Deep down inside, did I forgive him? Or has my plan messed with my mind and I’ve allowed myself to fall for him once again? I squeezed my eyes shut and shook my thoughts out, I needed to focus in class. Pen to paper, I took notes and focused on the words my Professor spoke, he called on me a few times and I answered without any hesitation. Confidence washed over me when I received a small smile each time, I felt like I had redeemed myself from the last couple of classes. The new friends I had made questioned me about the hot guys I was with earlier in the week. There was no way I was going to tell them the truth so I said they’re really good friends of mine. I just hope and pray no one connects Josh to the Professor Morris on staff, that’s a shit storm I’d like to avoid.
When the class ended I grabbed my things and started to exit along with the crowd, my eyes squinted to adjust to the sunlight and I blinked a few times to focus. “You’re adorable when you do that” with furrowed brows I looked to the direction of the voice to my right. “Uh, hi?” I responded. “Hi, I’m Scott" he held his hand out and I timidly took it in mine. “Skye” I smiled awkwardly. “I’ve seen you on campus a few times, I’m sorry if I come off too forward but, I think you’re really pretty” he blushed and lowered his eyes. A laugh bubbled out of me and he blushed even more. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to laugh at you” I shook my head smiling. “Your face was adorable” I chuckled a little and he smiled. “Thanks” he ran his fingers through his chestnut brown hair nervously. “I was wondering if you’d like to grab a coffee or something?” he stuffed his hands in his pockets. “That’s a really nice offer but-”
“She has a boyfriend” Jason’s arm wrapped around my waist possessively and he pulled me to his body. A shiver ran up my spine and a light gasp left my lips, the smirk on Jason’s face didn’t go unnoticed be either myself or Scott.
“Sorry bro, I didn’t know” Scott’s eyes opened a fraction with intimidation.
I didn’t blame him, Jason looked good. Like, really good, straight out of a GQ magazine good, and in that year he was away, he bulked up significantly. “I was just about to say that, baby” I chuckled and elbowed him in the side playfully. “Sorry, Scott” I rolled my eyes with a playful smirk. I tugged on Jason’s tie to break the death stare he was giving poor Scott and scolded him with my own. “Be nice” I scolded in a whisper. “I’ll uh, leave you two alone” with an awkward wave he turned on his heel and practically ran away.
“Idiot” Jason turned to face me and wrapped his other arm around me so that I was caged in his arms. “Silly boys trying to hit on my girl” he leaned in and pressed his lips against mine, I couldn’t help it, I kissed him back and then smiled against his lips when he wanted a much deeper kiss. “Easy there, big boy” I patted his chest. He pulled away with a chuckle and kissed my forehead. “Miss me?” he looked down at me, his eyes twinkling with my open show of affection. “Always” I ran my hand down his tie and eyed him hungrily “I have to admit Mr King,” I whispered as my eyes fluttered to meet his “you look very good today” I bit my lip. Groaning, he closed his eyes and his head rolled back “God, I love when you do that” his eyes zeroed in on my lip tucked between my teeth. I released it and he licked his lips, his hands pressing me closer. “I’m hungry” my voice dipped low. “For what?” his voice breathy. “Food!” I chuckled pushing on his chest laughing. Groaning once again he took my hand and we walked towards his Range Rover.
The time spent with Jason felt natural and easy, we talked about everything, we laughed and teased each other. There wasn’t a moment where I thought that I was going too far, that I was exposing myself too much. I wanted to be around him, I wanted to spend my time with him, I wanted to be with him. When we were done eating Jason took me back for my afternoon class. We made out in the car like a couple of high school kids before I tore myself away and said my goodbyes. Like a love stricken teenager I sat in class, smiling to myself as I remembered the silly comments Jason made at lunch. My phone vibrated in my bag so I leaned over to retrieve it, my smile dropped and I felt a pit in my stomach.
Josh: Hey sweetheart, missed you at lunch.
Skye: I’m sorry, Jason took me out.
Josh: Oh. I see.
Skye: Does that upset you?
I bit my lip and stared at the screen not knowing how to respond, clearly he was.
Skye: Please be honest with me. Having a relationship with two people will get tricky and I don’t want either of you to feel neglected.
Josh: We never made plans to meet, I shouldn’t just expect you to see me. I’m overreacting. I’m sorry if I’m making you feel bad, babe.
Sighing I typed out my response, a knot forming in my stomach.
Skye: I’ll see you after my class and we’ll talk about it ok? I don’t want to leave it like this.
Josh: Ok. I’ll see you after class. I love you.
I didn’t respond, he knows I’m not ready for that yet. I tucked my phone back in my bag and put my attention on my Professor.
Was I feeling guilty for not giving each of them my attention? But why would I feel that way?