I Hate You
I didn't want Jocelyn to be mad at me. That was exactly what I didn't want to happen. But the thought of her being upset with me over something I said about Victoria was just…out there. I knew she was jealous. I odds of Jocelyn being jealous were very slim and I…I wasn't going to get my hopes up. So, when she walked out of the class and saw Victoria and I kissing, I didn't expect her to get any matter than she already was. I had seen Jocelyn kissing a ton of guys but as soon as she sees me; she gets an attitude!
"What the fuck?" she yelled, storming over to me and grabbing me by the shoulder. I pulled away from Victoria and frowned at her. "What? What's wrong?" I asked, standing up.
"You're really going to kiss Victoria out here. I thought you were trying to keep this secret" she replied. "What secret? Everybody around suspects I'm gay so I might as well keep up with the status quo" I said, getting a bit upset with her attitude.
"Oh so now you're just ready to tell the world after telling me? Is that how it is?" she yelled. Victoria looked uncomfortable about the turn in conversation and I looked down at her.
"Maybe it is Jocelyn! Just a couple of seconds ago you wanted me to fuck off. Now what do you want huh? Do you want me to tell everyone honestly what's going on? You have absolutely no right to be angry right now!" I yelled back.
"But I do! I have a right to be angry because you haven't realized…you don't even…oh I fucking hate you!" she screamed, pointing an accusing finger at me. I was shocked by her words and even a bit confused.
"You hate me Jocelyn? You really fucking hate me? Ok, that's fine but let's get this straight, you're mad at me, at me, for kissing Victoria even after all the shit you've done. I'm really surprised that you even give a fuck what I do," I said in anger.
"Oh trust me, I don't. I really don't care what you do because I don't care about you".
This argument continued on and on until Izzy, Adam, and Maxie had to pull me away from our shouting contest with Izzy trying to calm me down. Jocelyn and I had never gotten into a fight this bad. Victoria was trying to get her to look at me and cupped my face, keeping my attention on her long enough to forget about Jocelyn but for some reason, as I watched Jocelyn crumble to the floor in tears.
I forgot all about our argument. I forget all about everyone. I just…I just wanted to comfort her.
I ran over to her before pushing Izzy and everyone else away expect for Victoria, and pulled her into my arms as she cried. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I'm sorry," I whispered to her as she pulled me closer to her and said the same. I cupped my face in her hands and kissed her forehead before she smiled and put her head in the crook of my neck.
Izzy sighed and ran her fingers through her hair. "Jesus Tori, I wish you and Jocelyn would straighten this whole thing out" she mumbled before shaking her head.
Adam and Maxie both nodded in agreement as Victoria stood there in silence. "She loves her?" she whispered. Izzy looked over at her and Adam and Maxie did the same.
Adam groaned as Maxie nodded her head. "Yes" Izzy whispered. Victoria inhaled sharply and looked away. "I guess, I always knew. I just didn't want to admit it to myself" she said.
I held Jocelyn as she cried on my shoulder. This was the worst fight that we had ever had and I truly hoped that there wouldn't be a second round. We could scream at each other, argue with each other; even bring up illogically information to hurt each other, but I hoped that we would never say that we hated each other again.