Didn't See That Coming!
Candace shook her head as she looked at me. After my argument with Jocelyn, Victoria had walked away and Izzy, Adam, and Maxie walked with me down the hallway, asking me how the fight started in the first place.
I explained things to them of course and Jocelyn went back to class before going to the bathroom to freshen herself up. I still felt bad about the entire thing, yes, I knew that I wasn't in the wrong but I also had to ask myself a question.
Why was she so upset?
I had seen Jocelyn and Jeremy kiss, make up, even almost getting to second base and yeah, it killed me but it never showed. I never let my emotions get the better of me. Jocelyn had clearly showed that she was not happy about Victoria and I but…maybe I was getting ahead of myself.
"What did you say to Jocelyn? She was so off today at practice" she asked as we sat on the couch in our living room at home. "Nothing. We just…got into a slight argument" I replied. "An argument? It definitely couldn't have been just an argument. She was just…in her own mind," she said, nibbling on her pencil.
"Jeremy came back today. She was probably thinking about him, you know?" I said, jotting down something in my notes. "Come on Tori, let's be real for a moment. Jocelyn and you got in argument but what was it about exactly?" she asked.
"She saw Victoria and I kissing and she got upset when I mentioned helping her with her son. That's it though. Why? Do you think it was something more?" I asked, arching my eyebrow at her.
"Its just…do you think Jocelyn might like you too?" she said. I dropped my journal and looked towards her, laughing a bit. "Come on Candace. I know I would like to think that she does, but the chances of her likely me are very, very slim" I replied, leaning against the couch.
"Maybe there not Tori. I mean, Victoria is crazy about you so what makes you think Jocelyn couldn't be?" she asked. "Because Jocelyn and Victoria are not the same. Trust me, I've found some similarities between them when I was…well, sleeping with Vicki but they were still there own separate people" I replied softly.
"Maybe not but I think you have a chance" she said. I smiled and pulled Candace into a hug. "Thank you Candy cane," I said. She just rolled her eyes and hugged me back. "Still can't believe you slept with Victoria Camden though" "Try not to think about it" I teased.
Candace laughed and we went back to work. I tried to concentrate but what Candace had said kept playing over and over in my head now.
"Do you think Jocelyn might like you too?"
The Next Day
"What's going on, Patchett?"
I turned around and was face to face with Jeremy. He was the last person I wanted to talk to and the way he looked at me showed that he obviously didn't care about Victoria.
"Get away from me" I groaned, walking away from him. "Hold on Tori. I just wanna talk to you" he chuckled, following me. "What don't you get? I don't want to talk to you Jeremy. You screwed my best friend over and you got m- and you got Victoria pregnant. I don't want to talk to you at all!" I said, trying to brush him off.
"Look, this isn't about any of that alright? This is strictly about you…and me," he said, pulling me aside. I stared at him in confusion and pulled my arm away from his grasp. "There is nothing between you and I, Jeremy. What are you talking about?" I asked.
He pulled out a picture and handed it to me. Surely, it wasn't what I thought it was and I nearly gasped when I saw it. "So…when are you going to tell Jocelyn that you're in love with her…but you also mess around with Victoria on the side? Or does she already know?" he smirked.
The picture was of the kiss that Victoria and I had shared yesterday in the hallway. I didn't think he was even there! "How did you get this?" I asked. "I forgot something when I came to class and when I walked out of class, who else would be there but you and Victoria, making out? So I walked back inside and when Jocelyn asked where you were, I said making out with her girlfriend. Oh you should have seen the look on her face. She was livid Patchett. Even more livid about every girl I have ever cheated on her with. I almost thought she had feelings for you for a moment before I remembered how much Jocelyn enjoys dick. So, I have to ask, when are you going to tell her that you love her…or should I just drop the news for her?" he replied.
My jaw dropped at how much he knew. It was almost like… "You've known all along, haven't you?" I sighed. "Since the day the heard you say, and I quote, "she's the only one for me, Izzy". I bet you thought you were alone in the locker room but Chelsea and I had a "prior engagement" in there. Don't you see Tori? I hold all the cards," he said.
I groaned and ran my hands through my hair. This was not going the way I thought it would. Jeremy knew everything! I was too careless and now I was paying for it but what actually did he want.
"Ok, I'm listening. What do you want from me?" I said, leaning against the lockers in despair. "That's my girl. I'm just going to make it very simple. I want you to tell everyone that you're gay. It will take some of the heat off of Victoria and myself. This whole pregnancy is making people talk but if there's some new gossip here; people will stop talking about me. So, all I want is for you to be truthful Tori. Come on out of that closet" he said in a whisper.
"So you're asking me to publicly humiliate myself? Is that right?" I asked. "That's exactly what I'm asking you to do. In exchange for that, I'll rip up that picture; keep my mouth shut about your "undying love" for my exe and you won't have to talk to me again" he replied.
I swallowed hard, trying not to look weak in front of him. "When do you want me to do this?" "Chemistry. When Jocelyn is around and in front of the entire class. News travels faster that way. I just want you to stand up and announce it to the world. That easy enough for you, Patchett?" he asked.
I nodded my head and he smiled before patting my shoulder. "Good. See ya in chemistry Tori" he said before walking down the hall. I clenched my fist and gritted my teeth. "What the hell am I going to do?" I thought, slamming my fist into the locker repeatedly.
"Tori! What are you doing?!"
I felt Izzy take my fist in her hand as she gently rubbed my bruised knuckles, concern etched on her face. "Why are you attacking your locker?" she asked.
"I'm so fucking screwed Izzy. So fucking screwed," I replied, pulling her towards me. She held me as I sobbed on her shoulder. "Ok, ok. What happened? What's wrong?" she asked, rubbing my back.
"Just…if you start hearing things…about me later on, just know that Jeremy is the biggest fucking douche bag in the whole fucking world!" I growled, before sharply pulling away from her and walking away.
Izzy stood there in confusion and I just continued walking. Today…was going to be horrible.
I walked into class practically shaking. I knew what was coming. If I didn't come out to the class properly than Jeremy was going to Jocelyn everything. I couldn't let that happen. I wouldn't let that happen. I carried far too much for Jocelyn to let Jeremy ruin our friendship and I knew the way he was going to tell her, was not going to be the way I wanted to.
I sat down and exhaled deeply, cringed when Jeremy walked in and smirked at me. I saw Jocelyn out the corner of my eye talking to one of her friends as everyone in our class, all 30 of them, sat down to take their seats.
My legs where shaking and I put my head down on the desk to calm myself down. I knew Jocelyn could tell I was acting strange but I didn't want to look at her for fear of breaking out in tears. This was going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done.
"Ok class. So what were we talking about yesterday? Anybody? No one knows?"
This was it. I knew it was because Jeremy turned around to look at me and I inhaled deeply, clenched my fists, and stood up. "Tori? Is something wrong?" Mrs. Parker asked as she looked at me.
I held on to the desk and my heart almost stopped. Jeremy's eyes were piercing as he stared at me but Jocelyn's felt like they were going to bare right through me.
Everyone waited for me to say something and before I even knew what was happening, I said it.
"Mrs. Parker, I'm g-"TORI!"
Everyone in class jumped when Jocelyn screamed my name and jumped out of her seat, grabbed my hand. "You're bleeding," she said, holding up my right fist. The same fist that was hitting my locker just a few minutes ago.
"Oh goodness. Jocelyn, can you take Tori to the nurse?" she asked. Jeremy frowned and glared at me as Jocelyn and I walked out of class. I grabbed my wrist and began to feel the throbbing pain that I had been ignoring from the fear of coming out.
Jocelyn looked over at me before quickly backing me into the wall and pinning me against her. "Why would you do that?" she asked. I arched my eyebrows at her in confusion. "Do what?" "You were about to come out. Why?" she asked.
I sighed and looked down at the blood dripping from my hand. "I don't know. Just felt like it" I lied. "You were terrified," she said, calling my bluff.
"Why'd you stop me?" I asked. "Because I noticed what you were about to say and I know that you do not want to come out like that, plus, your hand was really bleeding. What did you do?" she replied.
"Slammed it into a locker. It's no big deal," I said, wondering why she was so close to me. "Why do I feel like you're hiding something from me?" she whispered, coming closer towards me.
"Some things need to be kept secret," I whispered back. "Not between you and I" she said, before claiming my lips against hers. I quickly kissed her back and she cupped my face as we moved together. I deepened the kiss and she moaned against my lips before I moved my hands and placed them on her waist.
This kiss was…everything I ever wanted. I didn't want this to stop because I knew that this might be a once and a lifetime chance. Either Jocelyn had lost her mind or she wanted this just as badly as I did.
And then it happened.
The fireworks. The moment where the planets aligned and time itself stopped.
Jocelyn wrapped her right arm around my neck and I ran my hand up her back as her tongue entered my mouth. We fought for dominance and I turned us around so that she was against the locker. I noticed that things were actually heating up between us and if I didn't pull away right now, things might escalate.
I pulled away and she inhaled, her chest heaving as she looked at me and realization must have hit her because she covered a hand over her mouth and pushed me away.
"…Jocelyn…wait" I whispered but she shook her head and took off running down the hall. I groaned and was about to go after her but the pain in my hand stopped me. I would talk to Jocelyn later but I myself realized something important as well.
Jocelyn Viemore kissed me.
She kissed me. And not the other way around. Something inside of her wanted me and that made me feel even better than before. So maybe, this wasn't the worst day of my life. Jocelyn had saved me from coming out and even kissed me.
I bet Jeremy didn't see that coming.
Shit, neither did I.