Cody has been gone for almost a week now. Connor has been getting better each day. I even had him laughing some last night. I have been having a good time with him. He is still the same guy I met all those years ago. Cocky and fun-loving. He has always been one of my best friends. "Thank you," Connor said. I looked over at him.
"For what?" I asked him.
"Staying with me. I think I would have gone out of my mind if you would have left to." He said.
"I told you, Connor. I would stay as long as you needed me. I know what it feels like to need someone to help you feel better." He turned towards me.
"Tell me what happened April, I mean with you and Cannon." I sighed and put the movie on hold. I turned to face and I explained the whole story to him. He just listened to me and shook his head.
"I'm sorry, sweetheart. I don't know what his problem could be and to be honest. This doesn't really sound like him." I nodded at him. It still stung my heart. "Now, tell me about you and Cody." He said. I snapped my head back to him.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Come on April, Don't play dumb with me. I know how my brother feels about you. Your looking at him in a very different light. What's going on?" I huffed out air and laid back against the couch.
"Your going to think so badly of me," I said.
"No way." He said.
"I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know if I made a mistake or not. I think Cody might think it was a mistake." I said.
"Not likely, did you sleep with him?" Connor asked. I nodded my head at him and he just smiled at me. "Cody has loved you for a very long time April, I promise anything that has happened between you two is more or less the happiest thing to him, not a mistake.
"You think I'm horrible?" I asked.
"No April, I don't. We do stupid things when were hurt and confused." He said. "Like the simple fact that all I want to do right now is pull you into my lap and kiss you." He said. It caused me to turn and look at him with my mouth wide open.
"What?" Was all I could think to say.
"I'm sorry I don't mean to be so blunt, We have all loved you." He said as he shrugged his shoulders at me. I didn't know what to think. He got up and started to walk out of the room.
"Connor," I said silently. He stopped and turn back to face me. I'm going straight to hell for this. I said to myself. I got up and ran to his arms. He braced himself and caught me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and I crashed my lips to his. He didn't break the kiss. He held onto me tightly and took me back to the couch. He laid me down and our lips never broke. Our hands were all over each other's bodies and our tongues danced together perfectly. After a good while, I started to realize that I was truly crazy. "Connor", I tried to say with swollen lips.
"Yes, baby?" He said while now kissing my neck. I was losing myself again. He had the best lips out of the three of them. "We have to stop." I tried toget the words out. I felt him take a deep breath. He sat himself up and just looked at me. "This is not right Connor, I just broke up with Cannon. I just slept with Cody in Paris and now here I am making out with you. I'm taking advantage of you. You just lost someone you love. This is not right." I said as I started to get up off the couch. "I'm so sorry Connor," I said as I went up to my room in tears.
A few minutes had passed and I was just laying on the bed feeling sorry for myself. I heard my bedroom door open and Connor came walking in. "I don't mean to bother you April, but there is something I need to tell you." He said as he took a seat on the bed next to me. "Please don't be upset when I tell you this." I just eyed him.
"What is it, Connor?" I asked.
"Back in high school before you had made your choice to be with Cannon. The three of us had a long talk about you. See one thing you must understand about us. We have always had each other's backs no matter what. No matter what was going on at home or even outside of our home. It was always the three of us that got through it together. You were no exception to the rule, April. The only problem was you were the first girl we all shared an interest in together." I wasnt quite understanding where he was going with this. "Like I was saying before you had chosen to be with Cannon. We thought you weren't going to choose at all. We then sat down and agreed we would all share you." I eyed him again and crossed my arms.
"Share me? What the hell does that mean?" I asked. He gave me a pained look.
"I asked you to not be upset." He said.
"Connor you had better start talking." I snapped.
"We thought you wanted all of us and you weren't going to choose in fear of losing all of us. We decided to give you the choice to have all three of us." He stopped talking for a moment. "But then you chose Cannon and Cody and I stepped back. Something we also promised we would do if you chose."
"So let me get this straight. You and your brothers were willing to let me have all three of you. Like we would all be together, together?" I said. I almost laughed at the face Connor made.
"Gross, not like that. I love my brothers, but not in that way. We would share ourselves with you. You would have all three of us." He said. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. When did I become so popular between them that they were willing to do something like this? Now I was really confused. My head was spinning with questions, but I couldn't get them to come out. "Its okay April, I'll let you be for the night. I'll let you wrap your head around what I just told you. By the way, I'm sure we all still feel that way." He said as he closed the door behind him.
What, In the actual fuck? I said to myself. I fell asleep, with so many questions on my brain. The next morning I woke and heard arguing going on downstairs. I got up and grabbed my robe. I walked down and I recognized both voices right away. It was Cody and Connor talking about me in the kitchen.
"It's not fair that you shared that secret with her," Cody said.
"I had to tell her Cody, she was with Cannon and then slept with you. She came to my arms last night and we kissed for a long time. She loves us all." I heard Connor say. Was he right? Did I love them all? Hell, this was a mess. I sat on the stairs and just listened to them.
"So you just want to give her that choice?" I heard Cody say.
"Do you love her?" Connor asked. It was quiet for a moment.
"Yes. Do you?" I heard Cody ask.
"I thought I loved Kim more then I had ever loved anyone, but I never stopped loving April," Connor said. "Having her here proves that to me."
"Then we need to tell her how we feel and let her decided what she wants. I know she is still in love with Cannon. I don't know if that will ever go away. Besides, I don't know what's going on with him." Cody said.
"Maybe we should talk to him about all of this?" Connor said.
"After all this time Connor. I don't know how he would take this. It could either piss him off. Or if he is truly done with April. It just might be you and me." Cody said. I took a deep breath and headed back up to my room. I didn't want them to know I was listening to there conversation. After all this time I didn't know they all truly felt this way. Cannon never told me anything about this little arrangement he had with his brothers, but I guess he wouldn't. The funny thing was I thought I'd be mad about it, but It actually flatters me. To think they all cared so much that they would do something so unselfish.
I sat in my room wondering about each one of them individually. Let's start with Connor, I can't help but feel like he is using me to help him get over the pain of losing Kimberly. Not that its a bad thing because I did the same thing with Cody. Up until I slept with him. I slept with Cody because I wanted to. I understand that they all cared this much about me back in high school, but now its been so long and everyone moved on with their lives.
Cody, well Cody said it himself. He told me that he doesn't have time in his life for a relationship, but now all of a sudden he loves me? It's kind of hard to believe. Then there's Cannon, the one brother I know for sure owns my heart. The one Taylor I fell hard for and thought felt the same way in return. I took a deep breath. After what he has put me through and I still feel the way I do for him, but something wasnt quite right. Even Cody and Connor both said it themselves. His behavior is off and it doesn't sound like Cannon.
The only thing that was still on my brain. Back in high school when I first came into the picture. Cannon never really spoke to anyone. He kept to himself and his brothers only. He had reasons for why he was the way he was and I almost feel like he has gone back to his old ways. Only this time he has pushed his brothers away as well. Nothing was adding up except for the fact that he didn't want me anymore. Ugh, I fell back onto the pillow. I heard a knock on my door and knew it was Cody right away. "Come in," I yelled out. The door cracked open and sure enough, Cody stuck his head inside.
"Hello, beautiful." He said with a small smile. I think he was worried that I was going to rip his head off or something like that, but I smiled and he came inside and closed the door behind him. "Are you angry with me?" He asked as he took a seat on the other side of the bed.
"I'm not angry, confused maybe, but not angry," I said now messing with my fingers.
"Talk to me, April, tell me what's on your mind." He asked softly.
"What's on my mind, is you and your brothers." I started to tell him exactly what I was thinking about each one of them. No matter what I could always be honest with them.
"I understand, All I can answer for you is how I feel. Would you like to know how I feel?" He asked and I nodded at him. "Yes, It's true. With my life the way that it is. I feel like I don't have time for a relationship, But April, you are different. If I thought for even a second that I had a chance to be with you. It wouldn't matter what was going on in my life. There would always be time for you." He said. "I loved you in high school and those feelings never changed, but Cannon is my brother and when you picked him. I had to do what was right, but I was also willing to share you. Even if that meant that I only got a part of you. I had at least gotten that much. You showed back up in my life and all I wanted to do was be there for you. You were so broken and lost, but the more time I spent with you the more I made you smile. I couldn't let you go and my feelings just came rushing back. Then you went to me in Paris and I got what I wanted from you for so long. You allowed me to touch you and it only intensified how I felt. I'm in love with you." My mouth fell open.