chapter 20 (edited)
I was stressing.
I didn’t know what to do anymore, and I was losing time. I needed to find a way to get out of this wedding and fast.
On top of things, Bella ruined a chance for me to meet up with Ava. Needless to say, I had to sit and watch Bella’s photoshoot on facetime. She made sure I had no contact with Ava at any point. I wanted to talk to her so badly.
Work was a struggle. I kept myself busy all day. My PA usually did all the communicating between us if needed.
I couldn’t look at her since everything happened. I didn’t want to see the hurt in her eyes. All I wanted to do was comfort her and let her know everything was going to be okay. I’m going to find a way out of this, even if it has to wait until the wedding day.
Walking back into the office building, it was quiet except for my feet hitting the floor. I didn’t realize it was already late, and the workday was over. I needed to finish up a few things before I could head home.
Making it up to my floor, I was a little disappointed when I realized Ava wouldn’t be there. It was for the best though I couldn’t risk Bella doing something to her.
When I sat down at my desk, the first thing I noticed was the papers. By the way they were placed, I knew Ava was the one that brought them in. That meant Bella was back and made sure Ava knew the wedding was happening.
I’m relieved she placed them when I wasn’t around because I wouldn’t be able to see the hurt in her eyes. Maybe it wouldn’t be hurt but disappointment.
She’s bound to hate me at this point, and I couldn’t blame her. She deserved someone better than me, but I just couldn’t let her go yet. I wanted a chance to show her that I meant everything I ever said to her.
For once, I wish I had a normal life and that I wasn’t some big hotshot.
Moving the papers to the side, I started working on the few things I needed to get done. I’m hoping it takes most of the night because I’m trying to avoid Bella. She insisted she stays at my apartment to make it look like everything was perfect between us. I hated every minute of it. Luckily she stays in my spare bedroom and not mine.
Finishing up my work, it was 9 o’clock, which gave me enough time to grab some food, take a shower, and then head to bed.
When I arrived home, I was not ready for the surprise that was waiting for me.
When I got home, I felt alone. Yes, there was Remy, but it wasn’t the same. Matty was to move in fully sometime this week, but he would be busy with Rob and work. Besides, I didn’t want to bug him with my problems. It seemed like I always had something to tell him every day.
What bothered me the most was seeing the marriage license. I knew why Bella wanted me to put it in the office. She wanted to rub it in that they were getting married. It wouldn’t surprise me if she sent me an invite to the actual ceremony. That would be a low blow on her part, and I hope karma kicks her in the ass.
How could someone do that to a person? All for what, money? They do say money can change a person. My family changed after getting my mother’s money.
I know there’s a lot of cruel people out there, but come on, there’s a child involved in all of this mess.
For the rest of the night, Remy and I cuddled on the couch while watching T.V. I wasn’t in the mood to finish the few boxes that I had left to unbox. I even ordered takeout because I was too lazy to cook.
Maybe I was getting depressed, which if that’s the case, I need to get my shit together. I always said, a man was never worth it, but once you start falling in love, you get sucked in.
Was I that in love with Xavier?
We haven’t hung out in person, but from all the letters we wrote back and forth, I could tell he had a great personality. The plus was he was indeed a good looking man, there was no denying that.
Matty explained the situation to Rob and his parents, seeing how they are lawyers and are willing to help out. The problem with that is, I can’t seem to talk to him. Maybe it’s him not wanting to talk to me. Either way, I was at a standstill, and I wasn’t sure how long it was going to be.
I really should stop thinking about him and just move on. No one will compare to him at this time, but I’m sure there’s someone else out there. One who doesn’t have any crazy pretend girlfriends.
Looking at the time, it was already going to be midnight, which means I should head to bed. If I didn’t, work was going to kick my ass tomorrow.
Walking into work, it was unusually quiet. It was never this quiet, everyone was always upbeat.
When I got to my desk, Mac was there waiting for me, and he did not look happy.
“Good morning Mac.”
“Good morning Miss Parker. I just wanted to warn you that Mr. Black is in a rather bad mood this morning. I’d stay clear if I were you.”
I wonder what he could be mad about? Did I do something that made him like that? Was it because I went into his office without permission yesterday?
“Thanks, Mac, for the warning.”
“Anytime Miss Parker. I better get back to work before I get in trouble. Good day, Miss Parker.”
Mac was gone before I could ask him if he knew why Xavier was in a foul mood.
I better get to work then before I’m yelled at as well. I don’t want to make him any angrier than he already is.
Xavier stayed in his office all day. He even had Mac bring his lunch up to him. This was very unlike Xavier, which made me believe he was mad at me.
In order to get to the elevator, he had to pass my desk. That meant he didn’t want to look at me or be near me.
Every day there’s always something new that seemed to break my heart. I pushed those thoughts away, and I made myself busy with work, canceling all of his appointments and setting up new.
Even at the end of the day, Xavier never came out of that office.