It all started about 6 years ago when I was 14 and a fucking naive little girl. I found what I thought to be my true love. The one person that would never leave me and would cherish our time together, and in the long run, marry me.
Well that shit was foolish of me to even think about. His name was Mason. It was one of those fucking cliche high school romances where boy meets girl, girl falls in love and blah, blah, blah. However, where there was suppose to be a happily ever after at the end, it turned to utter fucking shit.
Mason and I were together for most of my high school time, ending shortly before the end of my junior year. We didn’t label it, we both didnt believe in labels, but everyone knew we were together. Mason was my first everything. First boyfriend, first love, the boy that took my virginity, the whole 9 yards. In my mind, he was it for me. I thought I found the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with.
During our junior year, a transfer student seemed to steal Masons attention. Her name was Emma, I can’t lie, she was pretty, but I didn’t see why Mason took such a liken to her. She had shoulder length dark auburn hair, where I had long chocolate brown hair. She had shit brown eyes where I had bright blue eyes. She had thin lips where as I had full plump lips. Her features fit her, making her very pretty, but I was prettier.
It just didn’t make sense to me why Mason all of a sudden wouldn’t hold my hand or kiss me when she was in the same room as us, and went out of his way to strike up a conversation with her. I tried not to let it bother me, but a bitch can only handle so much.
It was a Friday, we had plans to go to the carnival after school that was in town. I loved the carnival, I loved the atmosphere and the food. It was just all around a romantic date in my eyes. And after that there was a party that Mason's older brother Sean was throwing.
I was sitting at lunch waiting for Mason to come and join me. It was taking him forever so I figured I’d go and find him and take him the extra turkey sandwich that I always packed for him, his favorite. Walking down the hall when I heard voices coming from the science lab.
Curiosity getting the better of me, I peaked in, only to see Mason with his shirt off, hands up a girls shirt and attached at the lips. My heart was breaking at the site. Stepping into the room, all I could mutter was, “Mason?”
Although that was effective in getting their attention, I fucking hated how what I was feeling could be heard in that one damn word, that one damn name. I felt betrayed and hurt, I was so close to crying but I refused to do it in front of them. It wasn’t until Mason started to panic that I took a look at the skank that ruined my relationship only for it to be none other than Emma.
“Ava, please let me explain.” I remember Mason saying, only he was cut off by Emma. “Mas, why do you need to explain to your friend? Does she have a crush on you or something? I thought you told all your friends we’ve been going out?”
The pain that I remember shooting through my chest, it felt like someone was squeezing my heart, trying to see how much pain I could take before I broke. Choking back my own sobs, trying to swallow the lump in my throat. “Friend? Our friends know about this?”
“Ava, please baby. Let’s go somewhere to talk. Let me explain this to you.” And in that moment, hearing his desperate pleas, it was as if a switch was flipped inside of me. I became void of showing any emotions, not caring to hear his lame ass excuses.
Tossing the sandwich in the bin, I looked at him with stoney-eyes. “In case you’re delusional, we are over.” Before turning on my heels and walking calmly out of there. The further I walked the less I could hear him calling after me, and her holding him back begging for an explanation.
It was then that I realized there is no such thing as happily ever afters. There is no unconditional, never ending, earth shattering love. It simply didn’t exist. I can’t expect a man to be my Prince Charming because in the end of the day, they are all fucking animals.
Before that school day ended, I approached the friends that Mason and I had together. There was 5 of them in general, three boys(Ted, Aaron, and Liam) and 2 girls(Ruby and Gemma), not including Mason and me. “Did you guys know? Did you know Mason was fucking Emma?” My voice was calm and collected. They all looked to each other in surprise, however two of the boys in our group looked guilty, telling me they knew and the other didn’t.
Before any of them could utter a word I punched Ted in the face, breaking his nose, and kicked Aaron right in his little boy balls. It's clear to me that they are more Mason's friends than mine so I don't need them. Turning to the rest of them, talking only to the girls and Liam. "I'll see you guys later at the party."
That was when I took my leave, walking out of the school, knowing that the next time I walked into this school I will not be the same stupid little girl. I was done trying to do the right thing, trying to not do things that would be frowned upon. To each their fucking own and I plan on doing whatever the hell I pleased.
I planned on getting in my sexiest dress that night and showing Mason what the hell he just lost. Hell and maybe, just maybe, give someone else the luxuries of what it is like to be with me. But I think we all know, I did just that. And I don't even give a damn.