Valentine's Day approached before I was completely ready for it. Not that I have many plans, maybe fuck Evan and order some pizza. Just staying in so I don't have to see all of that love bullshit and see people prancing around with gifts that are fucking pointless.
I never understood why people chose one day to show their affection and gratitude to their significant other when it should be all the damn time. It's probably an excuse to make up for how they fuck each other over all year round. Spoiling them one day out of the year for their "love". Such bullshit.
Walking into work, I couldn't help but roll my eyes at all the pink hearts and girls squealing because their men showed up with stuffed bears and chocolates. Before I could reach my office I witnessed a marriage proposal. How cheesy is that? To propose on a holiday.
I never understood that in the first place. You're celebrating a holiday so why would you want to ruin it by proposing? Hell what happens when you leave that person or they fuck around on you? Are you suppose to just forget that you planned to spend the rest of your life with someone, thinking that the celebration of the holiday would also be the celebration of your love? But instead you will have to be reminded every time on that one holiday that you wasted so much precious time on a piece of shit.
Closing my office door, I settled into my chair. Pulling out my phone to find a text from Liam. Lets go dancing tonight!x Smiling to myself, I quickly replied. Okay, I'm in.x I never turned Liam down. He has been there for me through everything that life has thrown in my fucking face so I feel kind of indebted to him.
Finally looking up to my desk, I found a bouquet of gorgeous flowers and a small heart shaped box of chocolates. Who the fuck would give this to me? Now I'm not completely heartless, I don't mind the whole affection showing, but when people to it for the attention, that I don't like. Never have.
So the fact that no one was around, and whoever left it wasn't trying to cause a scene, I liked it. Plucking the card from the card holder, I opened it. Come to my office when you see this. Make sure you're not wearing panties. Rolling my eyes, he's so demanding.. I love it.
Slipping my panties off from under my skirt, I tucked them neatly into the bottom of my purse, and headed into Evans office. Once inside, he was finishing up with a phone call so I took a seat on the couch and waited.
Evans eyes were on me, so I decided to tease him a bit.
Walking around, I took a seat on his desk right in front of him. Spreading my legs, I propped one foot on the side of his chair, hiking my skirt up. His eyes watching my every move, going darker when he realized what I was doing. When my pussy was on full view, I bit my lip, knowing that he loves when I do.
Evans eyes trailed from my lips all the way down to my delicate folds. Never missing a beat of his conversation. Guess I'm not tempting enough. Sliding my hand down my neck, making sure his attention was on that hand. I ran it over the curves of my breasts, down my stomach, until I met my now wet pussy. Making slow circles with my fingers, I let out a soft moan.
Evan cursed under his breath, putting an end to his call, before towering above me. "Someone is being bad already this morning." You could almost see the shutter that went though him as he continued to watch me touch myself.
Looking up at him through my lashes. "I'm sorry, Sir. Your gift just sparked something in me. I came here to show my thanks, but you were busy. So I decided to start without you." His hand clamped around my wrist, pulling my fingers up to his mouth where he sucked my honey off of them. Not gonna lie that was kinda hot.
Leaning down, he placed a kiss on my lips. "You're welcome, baby. You deserved something special since you closed the deal with the new hotel and I wanted to congratulate you." Not going to lie, I was taken aback at the thought that he wasn't using today to show his 'love' to me, but he and I aren't technically together. But then why do I feel like he just tore my heart out.
He slid his hand down, moving slowly until he was about to touch my pussy. But I was no longer feeling up for it. Closing my legs, and hoping off of his desk, I quickly made some space between us. He looked at me with confusion, until realization dawned over his features. Before he could say anything, I was out of his office and back into mine.
I have no reason to be hurt. I have no reason to expect something more from him on this stupid holiday. Because it is just that, a stupid holiday. He is not my boyfriend. Groaning while putting my head into my hands, why did I have to overreact? What the fuck is wrong with you, Ava? Evan is probably so confused and not understanding what happened.
I'll have to explain to him later, right now, I have to get some work done. I do have a whole hotel to decorate. The day passed fairly quickly and before I knew it, it was time to go home. Packing up my bag, Evan knocked and came into my office without waiting for an answer.
Rolling my eyes at his tendencies, I couldn't help but smile. He shut the door behind him and locked it and I knew automatically what was about to happen. Part of me was okay with it but another part of me couldn't help but feel like today just wasn't the day to fool around. As if it means more that it normally does just because its Valentine's Day.
I know its foolish to think that way, hell I didn't understand why I felt this way, but I couldn't push the feeling away. "Ava, I wanted to talk to you." I nodded, motioning for him to continue. "What happened earlier, I'm sorry. It's just- You don't celebrate this holiday, I didn't think that you-" I stood up, interrupting him.
"Evan, it's fine. I should be the one apologizing. I don't know why I thought it was because of what day it was. It was foolish of me, and I'm sorry. I know this thing between us is nothing more than sexual. I just... I guess I just misunderstood for a moment."
Evan crossed the floor, coming to a halt in front of me, placing his hands on my shoulders. “Ava, please be honest with me for a moment. What are you looking for out of our relationship? Is it still strictly carnal? Or are you wanting something more platonic?” I could see the hint of hope glimmering in his stormy eyes, but I couldn’t bring myself to answer him.
Do I want more? Am I finally ready to be more with someone? To try again? To give my heart and possibly be let down again? But I don’t feel like Evan would do that to me. But then again, I never thought Mason would either.
All I knew, in that moment was I couldn’t lie to Evan, but I knew I couldn’t give him the answer I felt he was wanting. “Evan, I feel for you something that I’m not sure how to describe. I just can’t give you an answer to that question because I don’t know it myself. Please, could you give me some time to get my own thoughts straight and let you know?”
Another thing that was awesome about Evan, he was understanding. Even though the dominate in him was itching to spank me for my uncertainty, and was extremely impatient, he knew that I needed this. “Of course, Ava. I’ll be waiting for you to give me an answer.” He tucked my hair behind my ears and kissed my forehead tenderly, before leaving my office.
Well shit, Ava. What the fuck are you going to do now? Do you want to take things to the next level with Evan? Or is it time to move on so these feelings don’t make you vulnerable. And on the other hand I couldn’t help but think about Sean. He is now officially back in my life for the next few months. Is that something I want to persue? I couldn’t deny the attraction and heat that was still between us.
Sighing loudly, I exited the building. Ready to drink and dance the night away with Liam and forget the choices that were going to be impossible to ignore very very soon.