Songs for this chapter
Send my love-Adele
"Tay?" my voice cracks and he closes the gap between us making it impossible for me to breathe.
"Tell me you don't love me anymore and I will never bother you again."
"You know I can't do that because I love you. I will always love you." he cups my head and caresses my cheeks with his thumbs.
"Then tell me you don't anymore because if you don't I will never stop fighting for you, for us." tears prick at the corner of my eyes.
"Please don't make me do it" his eyes are begging me to do it. To take the pain away but I can't because I don't want to tell him I don't love him anymore even it will get him to leave me alone. A part of me doesn't him to stop fighting for us, but another big part wants him to give up.
"Then don't end us. It's hard to breathe when you are far away and I don't want to experience for the second time. Please I beg you?" he rests his forehead against mine and shut his eyes for a moment.
"I don't want to end us too, but I have to. Every night I close my eyes I see him and can feel his hands around me. I just can't do it."I confess.
"You don't have to deal with it alone anymore. We made promises to each other at the alter remember? We promised we will be with each other through thick and thin, and I meant every word. Please don't shut me out?" he pleads. Tears roll down his cheeks and my own join seconds later.
"Tay I love you, but this is something I can't do. I can't be with someone whose family destroyed my life. You've gotta let go of me and move on."I place my hand on top of his to try to let him let go of my face.
"How can you expect me to move on to someone else when all I want is you. I can never love someone else like I love you. I'm yours, and will always be yours." my heart melts into a puddle of joy at his words.
"You are branded on my heart. My heart only knows you, wants you, and nobody else. You are on my heart like a tattoo and I will always have you. We have survived so many things together and I know we will survive this too. Don't give up on us." he says and brushes his nose against mine.
"You are a good man Tay. I'm grateful for the memories we created together. They are the best thing in my life, and I will always cherish them."I promise. Even though he broke my heart a couple of times, he still gave me the best memories ever.
"Don't you dare? this is not goodbye." his voice cracks and I have to use all the energy I have to hold back the tears.
"I'm sorry," I say and before I can untangle myself from him he molds our lips together. His lips assault mine and I place my hand on his chest to push him away, but he tightens his hold on me. He keeps assaulting my lips until I give in and kiss him back. He slips in tongue in my mouth and I moan. His hands go in my hair and he brings me impossibly closer to him wanting to get as much as he can from this kiss. It might be the last time I get to kiss him so I respond with the same force. The familiar feeling builds in the pit of the stomach and I wish I could stay like this forever.
Seconds later he breaks the kiss but keeps his forehead on mine trying to get his breathing back to normal.
"Tell me you didn't feel anything? Tell me you don't ever want to feel my lips on your lips again? Tell me, Olivia."His voice is strong now and I swallow the ball that has managed to form on my throat.
"You don't get to take my heart full and bring it back to me in pieces. You have no right to do that."I sob.
"I'm not ready to give you up, even if you are ready to give me up. This story is only just getting started. The only way for you to be free of me is if I die." he says and tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear.
"I hope you find someone who will love you as much as I did, I do, "I say softly to him and place a small kiss at the corner of his lips, and walk out of the room.
I enter the living room to find Nate busy typing on his phone. He looks up and locks his eyes with mine for a few minutes. He stands up and walks to me.
"Are you guys seriously separating?" Nate asks and I nod since I don't trust my voice.
"But why? Why do you let other people destroy what you and Tay have?" he asks and leans against the couch.
"I'm doing what is right. Your family destroyed my life. Donald is your cousin, that will never change. I don't want to end up turning our love into hate. I don't want to hate you guys, so I think it's better if I choose me."I say and Nate looks at me for a moment trying to get my words to sink in.
"I hope you know what you are doing. Tay is not the one who destroyed your life and I don't think he deserves to pay for someone else sins. Just saying" he shrugs.
"Thanks for everything you have ever done for me" he nods and I walk to the front door not looking back once.
I slip into the passenger seat and Nora reverses the car out of the driveway, and into the empty road. I watch as Tays's house becomes smaller and smaller until I can't see it anymore.
( songs that remind you of Olivia and Tay?)