Mom's reaction is so unpredictable at the moment. She thinks I went out earlier to have sex with Darren. I fucking hate that guy! How could he just come here and hand me this stupid jacket?! I don't even know who owns it!"
Mom, I'm still a virgin and I hate that guy!" I say, "let's not talk right now.""
You've changed a lot," she says," Would you like to go to your dad's for the weekend?"
Dad is three hours away. He's got this beautiful house with a pool and all but I just don't feel so happy when I'm there. Since things are starting to get so messed up, I might consider going there for a day or two.
"I'll think about it."
"Ariana, I want us to talk," she says, "about everything you've been going through for the past few days. I'm worried about you."
"There's no need to be worried mom. I'm fine," I give her a small smile, "we'll talk. I promise. Just not now." I can't talk now. I've had a very long day.
"Okay," she nods.
I make my way to my bedroom and shut the door.
My life has never been so messed up. Ever since I got back from Miami, weird things have been happening.
Bryson complimenting my body, Jade's appearance in this house, Amanda's betrayal, Darren drugging me, some stranger trying to take advantage of me and that stupid moment and Darren's house.
I've never had any kind of drama in my life. I always just went to school and came back home to watch a movie. Bryson and Leo would come and hang with me every Friday night but now they just don't.
I make my way into Biology class. I'm a bit late though. Wish I wasn't! Alya is seated next to Bryson! What the fuck is her problem? I didn't even know she was in this class!
How could Bryson let her just take my spot? This is really frustrating!
I make my way to the back after my teacher glares at me. I take Alya's seat and turn to look at her and Bryce. He has his hand in between her thighs like way close to her panties. She's wearing some weird short skirt. It's almost like as if she planned this.
I don't know why but I feel like someone just stabbed me in the throat. I hate Alya and I want her to know it!
I tear a paper from my notebook and start to scribble, 'never get your ass in my spot again! I hate changes as much as I hate you!' I turn to look at her and place the note on top of her open biology text book.
I started taking notes but stop when Bryson taps me on the shoulder.
"Aria, why are you being rude to her?" He whispers but I don't answer him.
He knows how much I hate it when some girl tries to take my spot. I'm the one who sits next to Bryson. He can sit next to whoever he wants in the classes that I don't attend with him.
I hate changes. Mostly the ones that affect my life. Like when mom and dad split! It was the worst. Things changed a lot and it was so hard for me to adjust to the new situation. I don't wanna go through some shit that only affects me in a negative way.
If I don't sit next to Bryson, I might just become crazy. I can't stand most kids at this school and being with him is fun and good for my health.
It's lunch time now. I'm making my way to the cafeteria but someone holds on to my arm causing me to stop. It's Bryson.
"Hey," I roll my eyes.
"What's wrong with you?"
"What do you mean?'
"That note you gave Alya this morning?" He reminds me and I sigh.
"What's up with it?"
"That wasn't nice."
"So, you were a bitch to her. That wasn't cool. You shouldn't have written that. It really hurt her."
"You wanted me to let you stick your hand in her panties and let her think that I'm okay with it?"
Oh My God! I did not just say that. How did that come out of my mouth? What is wrong with me?
"What's the problem with that?" He smirks, "I do that to many girls. Why didn't you complain before."
I need to come up with something to cover up. He might just think I'm jealous straight away. Maybe I am. Not because I like him or anything. I don't feel that away about him. I just don't like Alya. It's normal for me to feel uncomfortable about their sexual relationship.
"I hate Alya. That's why," I say.
"Are you sure that's the only reason?"
"Yes," I say.
"Okay," get chuckles as he walks into the cafeteria.
I just hope he forgets what I just said. That was so stupid and unintended. I've never said such a thing to Bryson. I've never even cared about his sexual relationships.
"Hey cupcake," that son of a bitch!
What does he want from me? I was pretty clear when I told him I didn't want anything to do with him!
I started to walk away but he takes a hold of my wrist.
"Fucking let go of me!" He pulls me into one of the classes and shuts the door behind him. What's with him and empty rooms?
"Did you think I'd just let you get away?" He chuckles, "it's not over baby. You made me want you even more."
"Darren, open this damn door and let me out. I don't have time for this."
I push him out of my way and open the door. He takes a hold of my arm before I can get out.
"I'm crazy about you Ariana. See you at Kate's party," he winks and lets go of my arm.
I can't believe he let me go that easily. I hope that means he's starting to notice the brain that he could be having.
What did he mean by Kate's party? Is she throwing another one? I know I'm not gonna show up after what happened to me at Darren's. I hate parties!
I get into the cafeteria and join Tina and Kate at their table.
"Hey girls," I smile at them.
"Hello Ari," Tina smiles.
"Hi Ariana. How've you been?" Kate asks.
"I can't exactly say I've been okay," I say.
"Why?" Tina asks.
"I'm a little stressed out 'bout a few things," I say.
"I hope that doesn't stop you from showing up on Friday," Kate says.
"What's there on Friday?" I ask pretending not to know about the party.
"Kate's throwing a party," Tina smiles.
"I can't be there," I shake my head.
"Why not?" Kate asks.
"I've got a lot of things to work on that night. I won't be able to show up," I lie.
I don't have any plans for Friday night. I might just look for some series on Netflix and spend my night watching them.
"Come on Ari, you have to be there. It'll be really fun. I can't go without you," Tina says.
"I'm sorry girls. I just can't." This is gonna be some long conversation.
I spent lunch making up some stupid excuses so I can stay home on Friday night. I don't think Kate is gonna leave me alone though. She might just make me show up. She wants me to be there with her and Leo and other friends. I would've gone but I'm not gonna be there and go through the same thing that I went through last weekend. Knowing that Darren is gonna be around only makes me more nervous.
I'm in French class with Bryson. He seems to be in a really good mood. I don't know why and I'm not gonna ask either. He would have told me if he wanted me to know.
"Aria," he says my name quietly.
"I'm happy," he smiles.
"I see," I nod.
"Don't you wanna know why?"
"Not now Bryson," I give him a small smile.
I wanna know but not now. I'm not tryna to dodge the conversation. I just hate it when Miss Justine gives us death glares in every lesson. She used to send us out but now she's just used to us.
After a while of paying attention and having random thoughts, I feel Bryson's hand on my thigh. He caresses my skin softly and his hand keeps finds it's way deeper.
Bryson's hands on my skin feel so good. I feel stupid though. He just touched Alya and now he's doing the same thing to me. I wouldn't have any problem if he wasn't such a player.
His hand on my skin is giving me some weird feeling. I don't know how to describe it. I'm enjoying it but I also want him to stop. I can't let him do this. We're in class and it's starting to get a little weird. I can't let him do this. I'm not like Alya or any other girl he's used before. This is getting weirder by the second.
I get his hand off my thigh slowly and look up at him with a small smile.
When I get into the living room, Cole is there watching TV. He didn't ride with me 'cause I had somewhere to be before coming home. I was at Leo's. He showed me his work and sang for me some of his songs.
His voice is more than good. It was so relaxing to listen to him sing. I loved every song he's written so far. The lyrics are so romantic and sweet. I loved every single one of them. There was a song that confused me a little. It's the kind of song a heartbroken person would sing.
Leo isn't heartbroken. He's catching feelings for someone and she likes him too. I'm so confused as to why he has written it. I didn't ask 'cause I didn't think he'd want me to. I'll ask him some time in the future.
I sit next to Cole and he glances at me with a smirk on his face.
"What?" I ask.
"What?" He smiles.
"Why are you looking at me like that?"
"Like what?" He asks.
"You're giving me some weird look. Explain yourself," I say.
"I talked to Darren," he says.
"Why the fuck did you do that!?"
"I wanted to know what's going on between the both of you," he says.
"What did he tell you?"
"He was like you guys are sleeping together and you're nervous around him when you're in public."
Is this a joke?! Me sleeping with Darren? That's the biggest lie that there is! Why would he say that to my brother?! He's so out of his mind! I just wanna punch the hell out of him but I can't. Every time I go to see Darren, something happens. I'm not gonna make that mistake again.
I hope Cole didn't believe that. He knows me so well. I'm a virgin and I plan on giving my virginity to the one I love. Not some asshole who keeps doing shit to me.
"Did you believe that?" I ask.
"Of course I did. That makes so much sense. It kinda explains your weird behavior."
"That's a fucking lie! I thought you were smarter than this Cole."
"Aria, you're a little weird these days. What do you want me to believe?"
"I want you to believe me! Nothing is going on. If there was something, I'd tell you. Please don't talk or go near Darren again. He's not a good guy," I say.
"And you are the good one?" How could he ask me that? I'm the good one.
"Yes. I'm gonna go cook dinner."
"Don't bother yourself. Mom did the cooking."
"Great," I smile, "Is she around?"
"Yeah. She's in her bedroom," he says, "she wants to talk to you but you're being a bitch."
"I'll go talk to her." I roll my eyes.
I make my way up the stairs and when I get to mom's room, she's looking at her phone.
"Hey Mom," I smile.
"Hello Aria," she says.
I sit next to her and we stay quiet for a moment. I want to talk to her but I don't know how. It was never hard opening up to my mom. I used to tell her everything but now I just can't.
"How are you honey?" She asks.
"That's really good to hear but I'm not sure I believe you."
"Mom, I know I've been distant lately and I'm sorry about that. I wanted to tell you everything but I was scared." I say and she gives me a hug.
"It's fine baby. I just don't want us to have any problems."
Thank God she's not mad. The last thing I want is her yelling at me.
"Did he hurt you?" She asks quietly.
"Not really." I can't tell her. She'll get some worried.
"It's okay if you don't want to talk about it."
The week has ended really fast. I've tried to avoid stupid situations like being with Darren!
Bryson hasn't been talking to me that much. I don't really know why. He has been sitting with Ethan in biology and I barely saw him in other classes.
It was like he was avoiding me. Could that be it? If it is, then why? Why would he avoid me? There's no reason to do that. Not to me! We're best friends and we do almost everything together.
I've been spending so much time with Tina since Bryson was being an asshole.
I was so irritated by what he was doing and how he acted like I wasn't even around. I went to his house yesterday and his mom opened the door.
She let me in but when I tried to open Bryson's bedroom door, it was locked. I was so pissed so I kept knocking. He didn't open for me.
I left the house in anger and sent him angry texts when I came home. He didn't text back.
I'm freaking out right now! How could he be such an asshole!? What have I done to deserve that kind of treatment from him?
I don't even know what to do for the evening. I got back from school about three hours ago. I already told Kate I'm not going to her party.
My phone rings and I pick up immediately. It's Bryson! Finally! I need to yell at him for the shit he has been doing.
"Bryson!" I shout.
"Aria, it's Leo." Great!
Why is Leo the one I'm talking to? This is Bryson's phone. He's the one supposed to be talking!
"He's in the kitchen. My phone died so I used his." I should've known.
Why is Bryson ignoring me? What did I do to him? This is so frustrating!
"Oh. What's up?"
"We're coming to pick you up."
"We're going to Kate's."
"I'm not going. I already have plans for the night. I told Kate I'm not gonna show up."
"I just can't." I say and hang up before he can say anything.
Why won't they leave me alone? It's just a party and I don't want to be there. I'm so sick and tired of people talking about it.
I lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. The first thing I think of is Bryson. I don't like the situation he's putting me in. I feel so sad 'cause of what he's doing.
Is he avoiding me because of what I said about Alya? Does he think I'm jealous? Or is it because I took his hand off my thigh. I just can't think of any reason as to why he'd want to stay away from me. Bryson doesn't get mad at such things. He's very chill.
My door swings open and I immediately sit up on my bed. Kate and Tina are standing there looking gorgeous in their skin tight dresses.
What are they doing here? Aren't they supposed to be at Kate's house?
"Hey girls," I say.
"Hi Ariana," they both smile.
"What are you doing here?"
"We came to pick you up," Tina says.
"I don't want to go to that party."
"You're not getting out of this," Kate says as she opens my closet. She takes out a little burgundy dress with thin straps. She gives it to me with a smile on her face and I take it without saying a thing. Looks like I'm not getting out of this.
The girls go downstairs and I remain in my bedroom staring at myself in the mirror. What's going to happen to me tonight? Will I be ok? I know for fact that I'm not gonna drink anything.
After putting on the dress, I apply lipstick and coat my lashes with mascara. This will do. I'm not staying there for more than half an hour.
When I get to the living room, the girls look at me with a smile and I give them one back. Why am I doing this?
The party is in full swing. People are already drunk and wild in here. I'm starting to regret coming here. Kate and Tina are leading me through the crowd. I guess we're going to that couch in the corner.
When we get there, Bryson is seated with Ethan and Leo. They seem to be in a deep conversation.
"Hey boys," I give them a small smile.
"Hello there sexy," Ethan winks and I smile at him.
"Hey Ari, I thought you said you weren't coming," Leo stands up and gives me a hug.
"The girls came over and made come with them. I'll be leaving shortly," I say as well pull away.
I turn to look at Bryson and find him staring at me. He didn't say anything from the moment I got here. Maybe I shouldn't stress myself. If he wants to be an asshole, let him be one!
He gets up and goes to 'I don't know where.' Kate and Leo make their way to the dancefloor and I sit next to Ethan and Tina on the couch.
"Has he talked to you yet?" Ethan asks. He's obviously talking about Bryson.
"No. I'm sick and tired of his actions," I say.
"He's doing that for a reason," Ethan says.
"I'm not the one who should be answering you."
"You're right but how am I supposed to get answers if he can't even be in the same place as me?"
"Don't worry about that Ari. He'll come by soon. I can assure you," he smiles.
I hope he does. I miss him. I know it hasn't been a week but still. Every moment without Bryson is so dull.
I look at Kate and Leo. They're dancing in a really nice way and they look so good together. Leo's hands are on her waist as they look into each other's eyes.
When I look at the two next to them, I see nothing but horn. I can't really see the guy well but the girl is Alya.
She seems to be laughing at something he has said. His hand goes to her butt and squeezes tightly. It looks like the guy is kissing her on the neck. She looks so pleasured by it.
I'm starting to think that guy is Bryson. I'm sure it's him. The same clothes and hair. What more do I need to know that it's him?
He glances at where I'm seated and then turns back to Alya. What the fuck is he trying to do? Make me jealous? Oh please!
He connects their lips and they start to kiss roughly. I want to do nothing but go there and push Alya till she falls to the ground. How could they do this?!
I stand up and rush to the kitchen. I grab a bottle of vodka and chug it down. The liquid burns me in the throat but that doesn't stop me from drinking more.
I don't want to feel anything. I don't want to look at them. I don't even want to think about them. I'm so angry!
I got back and sit on the couch with the bottle of vodka still in my hand. Bryson and Alya aren't on the dancefloor anymore. They're probably in one of the rooms fucking.
Leo and Kate come back and sit next to me. They have these smiles on their faces.
"Aria, you can't drink all this!" Leo says.
"I want to." He stretches his arm to take the bottle away but I get up before he can. I make my way to the dancefloor and start to move my body as I enjoy my drink.
I wake up the next morning on a really comfortable surface. There's something warm behind me. Could it be the pillows?
They're not always this warm and hard when I get up. My bed feels weird this morning.
I don't remember going home last night. I open my eyes as realization hit and I turned to look behind me.
I look at myself and see that I'm completely naked. No no no!
It didn't happen. There's no way in hell! I did not have sex with Darren! I didn't!