I can't. I just can't leave my car right now. I'm still at the school parking lot. I can't do this. How am I supposed to be with Darren after all the shit he did to me? I can't stand him!
If I don't kiss him back, he's gonna upload the video. Everything will get ruined after that. I don't know what to do. I just wish someone was around to help me but unfortunately I'm in this on my own.
Someone knocks on my car window and when I look, it's Leo. He gives me a small smile and makes his way in.
We sit in silence for a while and the only thing I want to do is drive off. Cole left me in here about eight minutes ago.
"How're you doing?" Leo asks.
I can't keep this to myself any longer. I have to tell Leo. He's always here for me and all I've been doing lately was distance myself from people who care about me.
"I'm not fine Leo," I say in a shaky voice and tears start rolling down my cheeks.
He wraps me up in a tight hug and I cry my heart out. This is all I needed. Someone to be here for me.
I wish I didn't accept Darren's invitation to the party. I wish I just ignored him like I did before. Maybe then, all of this wouldn't have happened.
"He's going to ruin my life," I sniff.
"Who?" He asks, "is Darren still messing around with you?"
"I got drunk at Kate's p-party and we h-had sex," I cry, "I w-was really drunk. I d-don't remember a thing. He told m-me he has a sex tape and when I went to his house yesterday, he told me he wouldn't upload the video if I became his g-girlfriend."
"That's it! I'm going to kill him!"
"No! P-please don't d-do anything," I sniff, "I have no option but to do as he says.
"You can't date that asshole Aria," he says softly as he runs his fingers through my hair, "you're a sweet girl and you deserve better. I can't let you do this."
"I have no other option."
"Aria, I'll try as much as I can, to help you out. You don't have to do this." I wish there was some way I could get out of this.
"I'm afraid there's nothing you can do," I say.
We make our way out of the car and start to walk towards the entrance.
Leo has his arm around my shoulder and I'm trying hard not to cry again.
This is gonna be some long bad day. I just can't wait for it to end.
When we get to my locker, Leo leaves and I stand there all alone wishing the ground could open up and swallow me.
I open my locker and take my books out. I have about eight minutes before my first class. I hope Darren comes in late.
Speaking of the devil....He's here!
Darren and that Jerry guy make an entrance. They both have stupid smirks on their faces. This is it. It's time for the misery.
I slam my locker shut and when I turn around, Darren is standing in front of me with a grin on his face.
I'm finding it so hard to believe that Aria lost her virginity to Darren. It only happened 'cause she was drunk and I wouldn't have freaked out like that if I didn't want her first time to be with me.
I've always loved the fact that she's so pure and innocent. She might prove the opposite through her actions but she's the sweetest girl.
I can't picture her naked in anyone's bed but mine. The thought of Darren feeling her body on his almost drives me crazy. I hate that I'm so jealous but what am I supposed to do?
How am I supposed to act? Aria's so mad at me 'cause of the way I've been acting around her lately.
Honestly, I don't even know what is wrong with me!
Did Aria get drunk 'cause I was making out with Alya?
That might be the reason 'cause she made it clear a couple of times that she wasn't okay with me and Alya doing things together. I thought she was jealous and a part of me still believes that she was.
Would she have gone home early if I didn't upset her to the point of getting drunk? I'm starting to think that what happened to her that night was my fault. I was being such a dick.
To make things worse, Darren shot a video of them having sex. I can't imagine what Ariana is going through.
I was supposed to be next to her throughout the evening. I was supposed to protect her but I did none of that. I'm such a dick!
"Bryce, what you thinking about this morning?" Ethan asks.
We're standing at his locker. I'm waiting for him to get his books so we can go through some notes before doing the test.
Yes, I study!
I'm afraid Aria will have a hard time doing the test. The only reason she has been failing tests was because she spent time over thinking and obsessing over Leo.
Now, her life is a mess 'cause of Darren. She won't even let me deal with him.
"The test," I shrug.
"All you do is think about her?" Leo stands next to Ethan.
"Who are you talking about?" I ask, "you know I have a lot of girls in my life."
"What_the_fuck!" Ethan exclaims.
"What's wrong with you?" I ask.
"Dude, turn around," he says.
I do as he says and I immediately regret it. Am I hallucinating? Is Aria seriously making out with Darren?
He's forcing himself on her. I'm pretty sure this is just some joke and I'm going to fucking end it!
I make my way towards them and grab Darren by his shirt collar. I push him up against the lockers and notice that Aria's lipstick is all over his mouth. It makes me want to fucking kill him. He has a smile on his face and yet he knows I'm gonna beat the shit out of him.
"Why don't you just leave her the fuck alone?!" I yell, "if you're not gonna listen, I'm going to make you!"
"Bryson, let go of him," Aria says.
When I'm about to throw a punch at him, Aria holds my arm and I turn to look at her. She looks broken. I've never seen her this miserable. I just don't get why Darren won't leave her alone. What kind of guy forces himself on a girl who said no to him several times?
"Don't do anything to him!" She yells and people start gathering around us.
"Why won't you let me help you?" I ask, "I can end this right now, right here! Just let me do it."
"I'm not gonna let you him," she says, "Darren's my boyfriend and I don't want you hurting him.
What in the fuck?! This has to be a joke.
"Ari, quit playing around and let me get this done."
"No! Leave him," she says, "and I'm not playing around! I'm more than serious. Darren is my boyfriend."
"What kind of stupid joke is this?" I yell, "why would you date Darren after all that he did to you?"
Are they trying to prank me or something? This is not funny! I'd actually kill Darren if he went out with Aria.
"This is not a joke! Stop making a scene!" She takes a hold of Darren's hand and they walk away together?!
Why won't she hold my hand like that instead?! This is the worst morning and if I'm in a dream, I want it to end now!
What on earth is happening? Darren and Aria?
That's impossible! There's something going on. I don't have to ask her. It's about that sex tape. Why would Aria call Darren her boyfriend if he didn't force her? Last I checked, she wanted to kill him!
I'm going to follow them! Where are they going and what are they gonna do alone?
"Don't even think about it," Leo grabs my arm before I can even move. All those people who had gathered up here left already.
"We can't leave Aria alone with him!"
"Bryson, if you wanna protect her, don't do anything stupid," he says.
"He's going to hurt her!"
"He won't. Don't forget that Aria will beat the shit out of him if he tries to do something to her."
I don't care whether or not she can defend herself. I just don't want her near that piece of shit. Just when I thought things were getting better, this comes up!
Aria and Darren?!
No! I'm not letting that happen.
I got home about an hour ago. My mother isn't here. I guess she went out to see her man.
The doorbell rings when I'm eating my sandwich.
How I wish it's Aria!
When I open the door, I see Aria. About time! I finally got the chance to talk to her about what's happening.
"Hey, you busy?" She asks.
"No," I let her in and we make our way to the living room.
"I had to do it," Aria says. What does she mean? Did they have sex again?!
"I had to kiss him," she says. Oh. So, she's the one who kissed him, huh?
"Why are you doing this to yourself?"
"I don't want to but I have to," she runs a hand through her beautiful long hair. I just wanna hug her and let her know that it's all gonna be okay. "If I didn't accept to be his girlfriend, who would've uploaded that video."
"Did he show you the video?"
"No." He must be tricking her then.
"Why would you accept without actually watching the video. What if this one of his stupid tricks?"
"Bryson, I get it. You care about me but sometimes, we have to accept the painful truth. He has a video. He was really confident."
"If you don't ask him to show you the sex tape, I will!"
"Don't do that! I'll go see Darren," she says. I want to break something right now. Is she comfortable going to his house whenever?
"Fine. You don't have to leave now though," I wrap her up in a tight hug and take in her beautiful scent. I don't want this moment to end. This is where Aria belongs. Here, with me because I might have real feelings for her.