"Il get it!" Dad yells out.
Pulling the door open, he rolls his eyes at the boy standing on our front porch.
"Steph! Its Liam!" He yells out, as a shy smile makes its was to my lips.
"You want leftovers? It's meatloaf?" Closing the door behind him.
God he looks good!
Wearing dark blue jeans that hang low on his hips, white t-shirt clinging to his arms and chest as he rubs the back of his neck.
"Um..na thanks anyway Mr E"
My dad let's out a breath "That's fair.. shit is still repeating on me" while rubbing his chest.
Liam let's out a laugh as I roll my eyes at Dads comment.
"She will hear you dad, be careful" I say with an amused look.
"ETHAN!" Mum yells from the kitchen as dad put his head down.
I burst out laughing, as I watch him mumble something, making his way into the kitchen.
Should have known better old man.
I love my mum more than anything, but her cooking does tend to repeat on you for time to time.
Wiping the tears from my eyes, I jump up off the lounge, running into Liams arms.
He presses me closer into his chest that I can hear is heart beating.
"Hey ladybug" Liam whispers into my ear as it sends a nice shiver down my spin.
I pull my head away from his chest, looking up into his eyes that are staring down at me.
How can someone have such perfect eyes?
His black wavey hair is falling just above his grey eyes as he smiles a perfect smile.
"Hey" I say kissing his pink lips, but he pulls away a bit to quick.
"Is everything ok?" I ask confused.
Maybe it was his father again?
Liams dad always wanted him to take over his sporting goods stores when he graduated college.
Mr Jackson is the owner of one of the largest Sporting goods stores in America and as Laim is an only child, Mr Jackson expects him to take over one day.
Never going to happen, but he can dream.
His dad always tells him that his dreams of becoming a "rock star" was just that, dreams, but Liam has always had a love of music and he will never give that up.
"Is it your dad again?" I ask as he takes a step back, rubbing the back of his neck again.
"Not quite" he says looking anywhere but me.
I am suddenly hit with a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.
I'm over reacting.
I know Liam loves me just as much as I love him, but seeing the look on his face is leaving a nasty taste in my mouth.
"Can we talk? Outside maybe?" Sticking his thumb out towards the front door.
"Outside? Why don't we go up to my room?" I say, taking his hand, but pulls away at the last minute, as he walks towards the front door, waiting for me go outside.
What's going on with him?
I nervously walk outside, waiting for Liam to close the front door to join me on my porch.
I rest my back against the railing while I wait for Liam to speak.
He walks in front of me, looking me in the eye before he begins.
"You know how our band records our music and then we uploaded it to YouTube?"
I nob as I am the one who helps set up the cameras and uploads the footage.
"Yes..considering I'm the one how does it" I smile.
"Right, well...our videos have made some waves in England and this big music manager is interested in meeting us, if all goes well, he wants to sign us up"
My eyes light up as I through my arms around his neck "Liam that's fantastic! I am so proud of you! When do you leave?"
This is his dream!
And its all coming true!
He removes my hands from his neck, leading me to the front steps as we take a seat together.
Placing a hand on his thigh, he looks up to see a wide smile plastered on my face.
I cant help it!
He and the other guys have been dreaming about this for so long and now its finally here!
"We leave in two days. We have a lot to do before then. We need to pick a few songs that we want to play and all the packing that is involved too."
"Packing? How long will you be there for?" I ask.
Why is he breathing heavily?
"That's the thing....we won't be coming back." He comments as my eyes widen in shock.
Did I just hear him right?
I shake my head "What do you mean? What if it doesn't work out? You will have to come back? Right?" I say rushing the words out, feeling my chest crush ever so slightly.
He has to come back.
"The guys and I have decided to stay in England, to try and break through there. If it doesn't work out, then we will come back but not for a few years." He whispers.
I pale at his words as they hit me over and over again.
Leaving in two days
Does this mean what I think it means?
"A-are you breaking up with m-me?" My voice trembling as tears fall from my eyes.
I can feel my heart breaking as the words leave my mouth.
He wouldn't do that.
Liam quickly stands up, pulling my hand away from his, like my touch has burnt him.
Which makes the crushing feeling in my chest even worse.
"I have to do this Steph! This is my dream and I won't give that up!" He yells.
What the fuck?
His once beautiful grey eyes are now dark with anger and rage.
"I'm not telling you to give up anything! Your the one giving up!" I yell back.
"Your giving up on us Liam! Did you ever think to discuss this with me first? before going off and deciding all of this on your own?! We can make it work, I love you that much that we can make this work! After college I can come be with you.."
"I can't expect you to give up everything for me! Your family, your future..." he says while looking down at his feet, hands by his side.
Is he kidding me?!
"You are my future! I want to be with you!" I pleaded as I walk down the steps.
"Christ!" Liam growls out, runs his hands through his hair, pulling on the roots.
My whole body is shaking as tears stain my cheeks.
Liam is pacing back and forth on my front lawn, having a mental debate about what to say next.
I can't loose him.
We can do this, he just needs to see that. He needs to have faith in us the way I do.
I can got to College in England, or I can stay here and visit on holidays! It will be hard but anything us better than this!
I love him to much.
Liam suddenly stops pacing, looking up at me.
I am shocked by the lack of emotion in his eyes and the glare that is masking his face as he finally says the words.
"We are over Steph. I am going to England and you will stay here. I am going to follow my dream and I wont let this" he motions between us with his hand "get in the way of that."
With his final words slicing through me, he turns, quickly jumps into his car taking off down the road, without even a second look.
I am frozen in my spot.
I don't know how long I have been outside for before I feel my dads hands on my shoulders.
I turn and hug him, cry into his chest.
He didn't even give us a chance!
I know we could have made it work!
I could have applied to colleges in England, or visited him on holidays, video chat.
I know we are only 18 but I have loved him since forever.
We grew up together, our mothers are good friends.
And I thought he was mine too.
My dad brought me back inside.
I could hear my parents voices but not what they were saying as I began to climbed the stairs one by one.
I couldnt stop the tears from falling as I made it to my bed, buring myself under the covers.
I hugged my pillow close to me, breathing in Liams scent.
which only made me cry harder while memories of the night before invaded my mind.
We had made love for the first time that night, after we told one another how much we loved eachother.
Did he know yesterday?
Did he just sleep with me then fuck off to England?
I cried harder as my eyes became to exhausted to stay open any longe.
So I close them, welcoming the darkness.
The sun was blasting through my bedroom window.
Due to the fact that I forgot to close my curtains night before.
Stupid fucking sun.
My head was pounding.
I struggle to open my eyes, only to shut them quickly.
The light is just to bright today!
My body felt heavy as I began to lift myself up and swing my legs out, hanging them over the bed, looked out my window to see black clouds off into the distance.
Going to rain again today.
Taking a few deep breaths I begin to recall what had happened last night.
I suddenly spring off the bed, looking for my phone.
I trip over my clothes that are thrown about my room.
Digging throught the pockets of my jeans I wore yesterday, I find it.
I sit on my bed, scrolling through till I find his name and press call.
Please pick up Liam!
I need to speak to him!
We can work this out, I know we can. Liam is the love of my life and I will not give up that easily.
My hands tremble as I wipe fresh tears away.
Sorry but this number has been disconnected.
I pull the phone away blankly staring at the screen.
I call again but the same voice tells me the same thing.
"No" I whispered as I pull up my facebook page.
Typing his name into the search bar, I press search but his profile doesn't appear.
This doesn't make any sense!
He is not in my friends lists and all pictures of us tagged together are just tagged with my name, not his.
A wave of nausea hits me as I scrabble to my bathroom and throw up into the toilet.
"He blocked me?" I sob as I lean my back onto the bathroom wall.
I bring my knees up to my chest, hugging them as I cry into my folded arms.
How is this happening!
He only ended things last night and he is this quick to cut me out?
Did I mean anything to him at all?! Was I the only one who loved him?!
With these thoughts, anger starts to build inside on me as I pull myself up from the floor.
I rush out of my room, taking the stairs two at a time.
I will be damed if he wants to end it like this after everything.
I grab my keys off the coffee table, running out the door towards my car.
I dont give a shit that I'm in my night shorts and tank top, with my hair in a knotted bun that is sure going to be a bitch to brush out.
I need to talk to him!
I hear my mum yell out to me from the opened door, but I don't stop, I can't. I need to go see Liam.
Jumping into my car, I quickly turn the key as I spot my dad running towards me.
I put the car into drive, taking off out of the gates that surround our property.
It doesn't take me long till I am parked out the front of his house.
Turning the car off, I jump out and run up to his door, knocking furiously.
"Liam! Open up!" I scream, continuing to pound on the wooden door but no one answers.
I rush over to the window but can't see anything as I let out a frustrated sigh.
I continue to shout his name when a woman appears to my left, scaring me.
"Shit!" I yell, jumping back a little with my hand over my chest.
"Steph? Are you ok?" She asks aproching me with a concerned look.
Mr Smith, Liams nextdoor neighbour sat down on the porch swing that Liam and I had once sat on.
"Sorry Mrs Smith...I was just looking for Liam" I said looking back at the front door "But it looks like no one is home."
"They left to take Liam to the airport, didn't he tell you?" She said, snapping my head towards her.
What? She must be wrong!
"Airport? Are you sure? Liam told me he was leaving in 2 days!"
"No dear, they left early this morning. Again, why didn't he tell you?" She asked, standing to approach me.
I didnt realise I was shacking till Mrs Smith pulled me into a hug.
I buried my head in my hands, sobbing while she rubbed my back trying to sooth me.
But nothing would.
Why would he tell me he was leaving in two days? I don't understand!
Did I mean nothing to him at all?
"Sshhh its ok dear, its ok. Do you want me to call your parents to pick you up?" She whispers, shack my head no.
I dont want them to see me like this again after last night.
I pull away from Mrs Smith while wiping my tears away. I continue to stair at the ground for sometime before she speaks.
"He broke up with you? Didnt he" she says with a frown. I didnt have to say anything really, because my behaviour had done that for me.
I dont know why but I begin to tell her everything that had happened in the last 14 hours.
Maybe to justify why I was screaming at 8 in the morning?
"He is a fucking idiot! Don't worry, once he lands Il be giving him an earful!"
"DONT!" I yell "Sorry...but please don't say anything..I just...I.." I had no idea what to say. All I know is that I didnt need Mrs Smith or anyone else fighting my battles for me.
"Just forget about it..iv got to go now, take care Mrs Smith." I say, hurrying back down to my car.
Once in, I start the engine with shacky hands as I grip the steering wheel and head home.