I managed to keep it together and pretend for the rest of the evening until it was time to leave. We got home and Yonda headed straight to his place because apparently there was a braai at a friend’s place and I was not in the mood for a crowd. In fact, I asked Miso to come and fetch Kendra. Kendra was in the room on the phone with one of her grandmother’s. Miso walked in… well his cologne gave him away
Him: you really should learn to close the door
Me: and miss you sneaking up on me?
I said sarcastically. It was kind of hot and I forgot to close the bugler when we got in.
Him: are you flirting with me Miss Graham? I didn’t respond.
Me: can I get you something to eat or drink?
Him: no thanks I’m good. Everything ok?
Me: yeah why wouldn’t it be?
Him: uhhm… owkay. I’ve literally just got here. What’s going on? What have I done now?
Me: so Toby’s wedding was interesting
Him: I wouldn’t expect anything less from a wedding
Me: so Ivy had invited her fiancé and he came a while later. And guess what, her fiancé just happens to be the guy you told me to stay away from because he’s engaged. How long have you known that he was seeing my sister and engaged to be married to her?
Him: I found out that day when Kendra was admitted
Me: and you couldn’t give me a heads up that he’s engaged to my sister
I said shoving his shoulder Him: it was not my place to tell
Me: isn’t it a little too late for that considering you told me that he was engaged. Don’t you think that too was never your news to tell?
Him: I’m sorry buttercup
Me: I’ve had it up to here with apologies.
Him: to be fair I warned you against him Buttercup from the get go
Me: I’ll go call Kendra
He held my arm before I could walk away. Him: you see this right here; this is your problem Yolanda. You can’t the handle the truth. You always running away from it and I pray to God that our daughter doesn’t turn out like you Me: excuse me
He let go of my hand
Him: you know I’m right. Every time something gets serious or you suddenly feel the heat you feel the need to run away. Why do you do that Yolanda? Why is that? When I confessed how I felt about you, you avoided me for days, when I popped the question you started distancing yourself from me. What the hell is wrong with you?
I won’t lie that struck a nerve. That stung real hard and for the first time I saw a side of Miso I was never ready for. He wasn’t pissed or something
Him: you never listen to anyone but yourself and when things suddenly don’t turn out as you’d hope you find someone else to blame because in your mind you are never wrong. You refuse to wrong as if you’ll be crucified for being wrong. I try to understand you but every time I think I’m close you always find a way to push me away. I’ve tried everything but you seemingly want to be alone and its fine, I’ll leave you alone because I can’t do this anymore with you. I can’t keep going back and forth with a person who refuses to grow the fuck up.
He left me standing there and went upstairs. I have never seen Miso like this and I don’t think I ever want to see this side of him ever again. He really scared the shiit out of me. I leaned in on
the kitchen counter and covered my face with
my hands, I was trying to stop the tears but they
wouldn’t stop coming out. he really went hard
on me for once and I won’t lie he had a point
about me… maybe even more than I thought
because after all no one else knows me as well
as he does. I heard them come down the stairs
talking and I got up to wash my face in the sink
and turned to them.
Me: got everything?
Him: yeah. I’ll bring her back tomorrow after church
Me: uhhm ok
She came to give me a hug
Her: I will see you tomorrow ok mommy
Me: ok my angel. Mommy loves you
Her: I love you to the moon and back
Me: and I love you to the stars and back
She giggled and let go of me. I squatted in front of her and planted a kiss on her forehead, cheeks and then lips… she liked that.
Me: bye now
Her: bye mommy
She walked out and Miso turned to me
Him: sort your life out Yolanda. Decided what exactly it is you want in your life. Bye
With that he walked out and left me like that. I went to the door and locked up after them and poured myself a glass of wine and went to the lounge and channel hopped. I had a dozen missed calls from Triston. I cleared my notifications and then put my phone back on the table and on silent this time instead of vibrate. I don’t know when I drifted off but I was woken up by a loud banging on the door. I dragged my feet and gulped the rest of my glass and then went to open after placing it on the counter. It was Triston.
Him: Yolanda please
Me: what are you doing here?
Him: I owe you an explanation and I’m not leaving without you hearing me out. so please open
Me: promise after this you will stay the f**k away from me
Him: I can’t do that Yolanda
Me: then please leave
Him: Yolanda I love you
Me: funny cause you engaged to my little sister
Him: I didn’t know she was your sister
Me: you lying.
Him: ok fine. When I found out you two are sisters it was already late and I had already popped the question. We’ve been engaged for a year and she was at work and finishing her time there before moving here with me.
Me: why didn’t you tell me you were engaged?
Him: cause I knew that if I had told you then you wouldn’t have agreed to be with me. I swear I didn’t know you two were sisters until it was late Me: and you still didn’t do anything about it Him: I’ve been trying to bring myself to end things with her but I couldn’t. I promised her mother I would take good care of her daughter Me: I don’t believe you. And the abuse
He looked down.
Him: it was one time
Me: she has bruises on her back.
Him: it was a mistake
Me: stay away from her Triston
Him: only if you’ll get back together with me
Me: go fuck yourself. I’ll never be with you
Him: then I won’t leave Ivy alone. My whole family loves her so no
Me: why are you with her if she’s your punching bag
Him: she’s not my punching bag. Believe it or not I love her
Me: and you love me too right? Just leave and never come here again or I’ll tell her everything Him: you don’t want to try me Yolanda
Me: excuse you
Him: don’t test me Yolanda. I am with your sister and she is madly in love with me and if you dare try to ruin what she and I have, I swear to God you will live to regret it
Me: are you threatening me?
Him: no, I’m warning you. You won’t say anything to Ivy and I won’t touch her, dare talk and you’ll never see her
I swallowed hard and he had this annoying smirk on his face
Him: now be a good girlfriend and let me in and we won’t have any problems
Me: Ivy is your problem and not mine
I don’t know what game I was playing but I wasn’t going to let myself be abused the same way Ivy’s mother abused me years back. I was not going to suffer the sufferings I thought I had conquered.
Him: you don’t know this game you trying to play Buttercup. Don’t start now. open this damn bugler
Me: No. leave or else I’ll call the cops He chuckled
Him: and that’s supposed to scare me right? oh please. I have the law right on the palm of my hands Yolanda. You want your sister to stick around and alive don’t you? Then I suggest you let me and let us continue with the way things once were between us before your dramatic storm out