Ch. 3 - Why'd I Do That?
"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter." ~ James Earl Jones
A few months later -
It’s been a few months and things between me and Mat were going really well. We started both of our fitness journeys together, him managing to lose forty pounds and me losing around thirty-seven.
It was difficult, but we enjoyed losing weight and seeing each other’s progress when we went to school. I still wasn’t too confident in how I looked, but Mateo?
He looked really attractive now, and it lured me towards him even more than before, not that I wasn’t attracted to him already before.
I still wasn’t allowed to have a phone, but my brother got me an iPad, which I used to talk with certain friends, but never got the courage to ask Mat for his number. I don’t know why, but every time I want to something stops me. Either way, I’m still only allowed to hang out with him in school since my parents don’t see me here.
I was focused on doing my classwork when all of a sudden a teacher named Mrs. Yang came into our classroom.
“Hello, good morning students! I’m here today because I have an announcement. There is a field trip coming up to go to the movie theater with me and a bunch of other people. You guys don’t need to pay for it and it’s during the school day. After watching the movie we’ll go to a Science Museum to hang out and then I’ll order pizza for everyone. I can only choose three people from each class though, so anyone interested?”
Mat and I looked at each other for a quick millisecond before raising our hands at the same time. Mrs. Yang chuckled, choosing both of us and then choosing a guy named Alan, who was Mat’s best friend.
I was excited about the trip since it would be the first time I spend a day with Mat that’s outside of school.
The teacher gave us our field trip forms and then after she left, Mat and I hurried to finish our work so we could start planning on what we were gonna wear and what to bring.
When I walked in the next day, Ms. Reneé told me to hand in the forms with Mat to the main office. Alan supposedly already did before Ace and I arrived, so it was just us two going to the office together, not that I was really complaining.
My eyes searched the classroom to find Mat, and I felt my heart twinge a little bit at the sight of his laughing so brightly with her.
She was more widely known as Jules by everyone, and she was beautiful with her long and wavy blond hair, tall height, and a sharp facial structure that was accentuated further with her glasses, which were prettier than my own.
Juliana always tried to indirectly keep Mateo away from me and didn’t seem to have any positive feelings towards me.
Not that I liked myself either, so I guess it was understandable.
She would sometimes be successful in keeping him near her instead of me, but then other times he didn’t listen to her.
“Mat, we have to hand in our forms right now.“, I said just loud enough to catch his attention, quickly grabbing my form and walking out without waiting for him.
“Why are you getting so pressed for? He can have other female friends that aren’t you, Kiki.“, I murmured to myself, keeping my eyes on the floor ahead of me the entire time.
“Kiki, wait up for me!!“, he yelled childishly. “Don’t leave meeee!”
I couldn’t help but laugh a little at that, finding his behavior cute. I decided to forget whatever I was upset about and just wait for him as he ran up to me.
“Mat, it took you that long to catch up to me. Aren’t you supposed to be more athletic than me?”
“Oh shut up, Kiki. Or else.”
“Or else what, hm?“, I retorted mocking him, amusement laced in my voice.
“You don’t want to know.“, he smirked.
“Okay fine whatever, let’s go child.”
“I’m not a child Kiki, and fine.”
Soon enough, it was the Monday before the field trip. I went home that day and packed my backpack with snacks, along with my iPad to take selfies.
When I woke up the next morning and took a look at myself in the mirror while getting ready however, I legit scared myself.
My face looked like shit and I felt like it too. Going to my mom to ask if I’m okay, she told me that I got a high fever and couldn’t go to school.
“Pleaseee mom, can’t I just take some medicine and still go?“, I asked her, but her answer was a strict no.
Feeling down, I went back to my bed and sat at the edge of my bed, looking out the window. It happened to be a rainy day too, making me sigh and fall back asleep, clearly mad.
When I went back to school, the first thing I encountered was Mat running up to me and wrapping his arms around me.
“Where the hell were you yesterday? It was so boring without you.“, he pouted, getting a slap on his shoulder by Alan who seemed offended.
“Sorry bro, I was down with a fever.”
Why did you just call him bro? He isn’t your bro, dumbass.
“Oh my god, are you okay, Kiki?“, he asked, putting his hand on my forehead to check as my heartbeat quickened.
“Kiki, what the fuck is wrong with you? Quit it, you’re being weird again.“, I inaudibly whispered to myself, causing Mat to look at me in confusion.
“You say somethin’?”
“N-No, nothing. I feel better than yesterday, so let’s go sit down.”
Just like that, time kept on passing by as we grew closer every day, and soon it was March.
I was currently in the process of moving into a bigger house with my family, and I’d have my own room now, the thought exciting me.
But it wasn’t easy, for I got really really sick two days ago, so packing was a bit more difficult right now. I was throwing up every ten to fifteen minutes, and it got to the point where I was just throwing up the water I drank, because there was nothing else left in my stomach.
I haven’t been to school in a week either, and was having a very hard time breathing without feeling like my lungs were going to give up on me.
I was on my way to the hospital’s emergency room with my brother, but when we arrived we saw that the hospital was packed everywhere. Everyone was wearing masks on their face, including the nurses and receptionists.
“Hello, excuse me miss, but if you don’t mind telling us, why are there so many people here and why is everyone wearing masks?“, my brother asked.
“Well there’s an illness spreading, and one of the patients has a really contagious disease.“, she said, her face showing stress and concern. “Unless it’s an emergency I recommend coming back tomorrow because there’s going to be patients here until probably around eight to nine a.m. tomorrow. I apologize on the hospital’s behalf for this.”
My brother decided to bring us both back because it was just evening right now and that meant we’d have to stay here until the morning to even get treated to begin with.
After arriving home, I drank some juice since it was all I could keep down for more than ten minutes, and forced myself to fall asleep.
Two days later, I went to the hospital and was given three different medications for the stomach infection I had.
It was currently a Friday, and I decided to go back to school on Monday, seeing that I almost completely recovered and my complexion got better too.
It reminded me of that time I had an illness for six months back when I was in third grade, which had to do with my stomach as well.
“Akira!! There’s a call on the landline, go pick it up!“, my mom yelled from the kitchen.
“Okay!“, I yelled back as I went towards the phone and brought it to my ear. “Hello?”
“Hello, is this Akira Park’s parent?”
“No, it’s me Akira. Who is this?”
“It’s Ms. Reneé, Kiki. I’m calling during class right now because we’re all worried about you and Mateo keeps on asking if I know where you are. You haven’t been in school for more than a week, did something happen?”
Everyone’s worried about me? I didn’t think anyone would really care besides Sunshine.
“Yeah, I’m really sorry for not going since last week. I feel happy that you guys were thinking about me though, I feel loved. Anyways, I wasn’t at school because I caught some sort of viral infection and was struggling to go even fifteen minutes without throwing up. But I’ll be back on Monday though.“, I said, my heart feeling warm at the fact that she called during class even though she didn’t have to.
“Awww, sweetie that’s so bad! It must suck, and please don’t worry about school until you feel better. You just take your time on getting better, okay?“, she ordered. “I have to go teach the class now but before I go, Mateo is telling me to say that he said hi.”
“Thank you so much, and tell him I said hi back. Bye!“, I hung up, going to eat dinner.
It was Monday today and I went to school after eating breakfast, getting jumped by Sunshine and a few others right away. Mat on the other hand, was sulking in his seat since I left him alone for so long, but judging from the look in his eyes, he missed me just as much as I missed him.
“Mat, stop being salty.“, I said while chuckling. “It’s not like you didn’t have other friends besides me when I was absent. You have a lot of friends, even more than I do.”
“But that’s different.“, he pouted. “None of them are you.”
“Awww, my little Matty is sad aren’t you my little baby?“, I questioned, trying not to laugh at the look on his face.
“I’m not a kid.“, he said with a glare.
“Mhmm, sureee you aren’t.“, I responded, clearly mocking him.
“Kiki, don’t even right now.”
I was enjoying teasing him way more than I should be, after missing it for so long.
“Or else what? You can’t do anything about it little Matty.”
“Are you sure I can’t do anything about it? I wouldn’t keep on talking like that if I were you.“, he warned.
“Omg, I’m so scared Matt, like I can’t even breathe anymore.“, I said with sarcasm, even though I was secretly regretting it already.
“That’s it Kiki, you’re gonna get it.“, he said, getting up from his seat.
As soon as he finished that sentence, he started running and chasing me around the classroom, and the teacher looked like she was so done with our shit already.
Once he managed to catch me and put an arm around my waist, he started tickling me and wouldn’t let go of my waist. He was laughing along with me, but then I heard his laughs dying down, causing me to quiet down too and stare at his eyes.
“You know Kiki, I realized this recently but like...you’re pretty cute. I love your laugh and you always make me smile too, without even trying. Aaahhh, what am I even saying?“, he questioned himself, scratching the back of his neck in embarrassment.
I felt my cheeks burning up. I don’t know why, but those words just made me feel a certain way; a feeling I couldn’t quite perceive.
“Stop joking, Mat. T-That’s not funny. Quit teasing me or else I’ll rip your weave out.“, I nervously laughed, trying to divert the subject.
“Mmmm girl watchu talking about? My weave is one hundred percent real, kay?“, he sassed in an accent, making us both laugh even harder.
As we were laughing, Ms. Reneé just turned and looked at us, perplexed.
“Don’t worry about it Ms. Reneé.", we both said at the same time, surprising ourselves.
Ever since that day, Mat and I acted like he never said that to me, and things went back to normal. But every time I was by myself, I just couldn't help but think about what he said to me, about whether he was just teasing or being serious. But I was too scared to bring it up or ask him.
Interrupting me in the middle of doing my homework, my dad gathered all of us together in the living room to discuss something he said was really important.
"So your mom said I should tell you and your brother this before going.", he spoke up. "Especially you, because this will affect you the most, but you have no other choice but to do so."
Ugh, Akira is such an idiot sometimes, I swear to god. But I guess it's understandable from her point of view. Why do you think she reacted that way to what Mateo told her?