It has been 3 weeks 5 days since that morning in the woods. Ethan and I had drifted apart and our friendship seems to have hit rock bottom. We could not look at each other, talk to each other or stand being in the same room with each other. What happened that day was wrong, we are two straight guys who love women and pussy. Plus, our kind does not believe in homosexuality nor has there being anyone in any pack. I honestly didn’t not know how they will take it if they find out what transpired between us. The only answer was they would kick us out of the pack. We would have to live with humans. I sighed at the thought of not being able to be close to my best friend because of that night. I was the one to blame, if I looked were I was going, this would have not happened.
I have not been able to sleep since that day, and I have no idea why. I am tired most of the time and I can’t concentrate on anything. I spent most of my days and night with my girlfriend Emelda and sometimes with Bonga and Will. This was really hard for them (Bonga and Will) because they had to constantly choose sides or who they will chill with. So I would make it easy for them by chilling with Melda. To be honest I have not been able to be intimate with anyone. Even kissing Melda these days felt like I was doing something wrong. But this was not the case with my friend. Every night Ethan slept with different girls, he was distancing himself from Lisa. Well it seemed like there was trouble in paradise between the two of them. I also notice that he still didn’t allow women in his room. He preferred fucking them in their rooms, the woods, car, bathroom, anywhere as long as it was not in his room. I also observed that he drank every day. I didn’t know if all this was a way to get over what happened between us or it was the fact that Lisa was no longer showing any interest in him.
“Muzi, what are you wearing for Ethan’s birthday party tomorrow?” Melda asked me with hope in her eyes. I bet she thought I will change my mind about attending the party. “I’m not going. But you can go and have fun.” She was silence for a minute and then opened her mouth to remind me of the Alpha’s words. “Unfortunately for you, the alpha said it is compulsory for every unmated wolf and Ethan’s friends to attend the party.” She said it in such a way that she thought it will make me change my mind. “Well I am not his son, so he can’t tell me what to do. Anyway I will be sick tomorrow” She looked at me and signed. “Whatever it is that made you and Ethan to have a fall out, fix it. You guys have been friends since you were toddlers. This is stupid, especially if it’s because of that human girl.” She said it bitterly with a hint of jealousy. I raised my eyebrow to her statement. If only she knew why, she will feel stupid for even making such a statement. She probably wouldn’t be talking to me. “Fuck!” I said it out loud. I then came up with a reason why I was swearing. “I forgot my mom asked me to buy batteries. I have to go.” I stood up and sped out without saying goodbye.