"Kinky this is a kinky way round being such a Emu."
"I have sat down enough must now get up and get going."
"That we live in such times when we can't belong and will not be allowed out." Said mother in a heart felt manner.
"Have some more supper."
"I don't mind if I do." Mother looked so ill it went through her the face started to swell.
"Is there something the matter?" Emu asked.
"I am going to bed." She said and did not want to eat.
Dad said nothing he said could he stay in our room?
"No." Emu said.
Unintentionally I must have stumbled onto something. I did nothing to ward the blow off. They came frequently and did matter nothing to me. I was told off sod off but there was this care in my community people startled me by avoiding me. Dad had told them a pack of lies.
The world is running low on gas as women have become men and the men have become worn out. The world is that nobody cares because everybody dares. That we see it all the time wives beating their wives and husbands running off. That we lived and died and now are dinning like them huge monsters who are eating their kids just to stay young. We believe in this worst of possible times we behave just so because we are the new lipped gloss and that makes us dangerous? We are dangerous we have the instincts to make this world a worst nightmare for all.
No one is comfortable we need nothing but the strength of character the fortitude and the fortune which goes with it. To make this world palatable. We will eat it dry. We have left the world high and dried up like a dried up prune. Do not be prude come and join us girls.
The poor rich kids who made themselves cry. Why you crying honey? It is because my tit has flagged at the sexual orgasm. The whole crowd is now laughing at me. Do not worry yourselves come and swim when you drown they will all be sorry.
"Is there a madman running this show?"
"Do not worry with your talent no one will drown you."
"Ten to one there are too many cuts in this."
Due to the many facts of the case there has been so many such drownings we now take it with the pinch of salt. Oh another young person has drowned because they got drunk and disorderly. Well the superior person who owns the house is now sacked and is a disgrace. As it should be well it is the worst of them nightmares because when some others like her do it they get forgiven forgotten. Poor little lady broken down and broken into.
When one is tending a bar what do the bar tenders have to do? Health and safety. Well the health and safety standards have not been met. Obviously the key to this is when a woman gets away with murder because she is so charming that melts the hearts as soon as she starts crying that makes her swimming pool less beautiful? Well all the men flock to her she has the whimsical fantastic flights which no one can resist. Honeys come and swim in my pool it is free.
"It will be the death of me but okay."
"She gives her keys to anybody and no maid or butler was in. " "They all went away all of them?"
"The man was 19 years old."
"That makes it nothing."
"We all know how to swim by that age."
"A home owner is supposed to be responsible and does not con a man out of his life."
We all know what happens when a man shoots another man for intruding but what does happen when a accidental death occur due to over supply of liquor and such stuff? And a warm swimming pool round for the games which rounders will play?
"Do not speak to me ever again."
"I am not speaking to you."
It was not her fault it was not her indoors she was out. Well we do know about such cases. Look it is only that she must have known he had the key to her own house? That is right rub it in. Like salt wounds.
"This has gone a long time."
"It had to because now we do not even dare to speak about it. Facts of life of earning ones living or trying to."
It was a kid who had no right to be in that house her posh lovely home. What was he doing swimming in her pool? We do not know such things maybe the health and safety man should be called to see why he drowned. He is not the husband? Well eh?
Lads take a good picture of this. What no it is crazy. I am going mad because do not belong in this night world this nightmare of clowns glossing over their inadequacies and masking tape off they have lived lives which many deem irresponsible indecent and always in their own pants. They have trawled they have done what they pleased they have been and made the world the nasty place that it is now. They have taken without giving they have taken themselves out for no one they have taken the life and the works of others without the due compensation the compassion has gone out of these monsters.
That the insider in me told them all that there was this is the charming man who did annoy no one at all. His party loving wife and their proper children. Well that he loved me he said and that I rejected him. I rejected them all.
Not waving but drowning in the sorrows of what it is to know nothing. The sorrows of being in such a stalemate the sorrow which follows me daily.
Pangs of grief and shame the shared shame of living with the super heroes who make them things their own. We believed in ourselves. We still do this is us this is what we have become we are the truly talented the others are less worthy of consideration. The tooth fairy the tooth fairy who gave me money for losing. Now we know what it is a fairy tale ending that made them losers.
"We must speak no more about this distressing subject the neighbours are beginning to notice."
"Dad nearly forced me down on my knees." Emu said sadly.
Poverty is akin to madness we know what they say the doctors because we poor we are mad. Well said Emu they might be right. If one is ambitious and poor that is a certain madness. Well he did not think well on his wings.
"We are humans."
"We are nothing of the sort." Said Emu.
That we seen through it all that the birds come and go and we leave it as if someone else to shag someday. We are the balanced out the bouncer without the right muscles. We worn out with the worthiness of spite and our spirit is low. Come and tell Emu that he is no longer required as he was the bird in hand which took the words out and was throttled.
Birds are not rare they are all round the place being pleasant and misbehaving but that was not the sort of bird Emu was. A pleasant a good bird with impeccable manners. Not a mean scent in him.
He did not seek the notoriety of bad behaviour. He just haplessly found himself looking at the wrong angles all the time. What made him a peacock of disaster? He did not give a monkey what he did give was a good run for the money.
Emu you sad dog. No not dog the mixed metaphors hung in the air and Emu went flying as he fly tipped. What is that to do with it all? Well he did not know no one in their right minds would know because most of the time he Emu who knew he had been done wrong with and he helplessly trying to fly off it.
There is a tense moment then I am free to go. That he is new to this of course he isn't he is just having himself a ball. The blow job would have made him the fancy man. He has recently taken to his own liking.
"We are better than that." Said all the family who has now thrown him into the house which we lived.
The family threw their own father out because I am dispensable. Like a prescribed event.
"Food shelter and that is what we must eat because in London in this world he is the man to feed us all."
"Don't speak to us like that."
"How dare you say that thing about daddy. He never harmed us."
"We all believe you are rotten one."
"You silly not having a good life."
"One must profit from all that experience."
"Expert advances in sin has led us to clean ourselves every month."
"Reap the rewards of sin then obey the curtains and that meal serves thousand there a thousand souls made grateful with their prayers well fed stomach too, Let us sin with that let me speak about sin?"
"No do not."
"One must bow down to authority he has the right of that."
"I feel like someone has crossed over and that speaking to them is nothing that makes sense from my mouth. Nonsense comes from my mouth. Tediously I did some dusting while they continued on. There was nothing wrong with this discussion I felt out of sort and asked to be alone but the woman called the interpreter for dad said nothing doing, We are not getting younger.
"Money comes from the mouth of your dad and food money and food shelter that is what he offers. Others what do they know about people like us? They know Goddamn nothing."
"We have the roof so be silent."
"I paid for this roof."
"Well she paid of course you should pay what with?"
"Oh you shouldn't have you should have used your tits."
"Well that beats the Dutchman? Mum when I was young people said that should not be a option."
"We are now using all we can to make money. That is because we have evolved and become better."
"What is it about?"
"Money I must get out of here I want something to show me the way."
Trappings of marriage was not to ma's state of mind as if she had recently married dad had too had his second thoughts and doubts. They sat down and glowered at each other until dad made a fist and took a himself off to his car. The thing was he did not go far. He was with the next door as this was where he went with the dancing girl who danced in the nude for the clients. Until the boy friend put the lights so low that the clients could not see.
She danced well he said once and flushed guiltily. I did not pay any attention but he paid 30,000 which was a bit odd as we had the mortgage and he said paying me would ruin him.