Chapter 23: Panic Attack (Part 2)
The silence of the night was eerie. I didn’t know if she was asleep and I was too scared to open my mouth and ask. This was my one chance to be like this with her and I didn’t want anything to ruin it. Seeing her tear stained cheeks both put fear in my heart and broke it. When she hugged me, I knew her mom had given me a chance to come clean to her myself. She looked so broken though that I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I couldn’t hurt her more than what she was already hurting.
“You have no idea how much I love you. Nor how sorry I will always be.” I whispered before kissing her on her forehead.
I could feel myself being shaken awake. I was so comfortable that I didn’t want to move. Dave’s arm was still wrapped tightly around my torso pulling me closer to him. My eyes popped open to see my dad staring at me worriedly.
“I can explain.” I breathed groggily.
“No need princess. I talked to his mom. I know he had a rough night also. I’m just glad you had each other.”
“So I’m not in trouble?” I asked confused.
“Not for this. Not this time. I just came to tell you that the school called. A gas pipe burst and it’s not safe to be there for a couple days. Mom is gone and his parents are okay with him being here. I’m getting ready to leave. I love you and I’ll see you later.”
“Love you to daddy.” I whispered before he kissed my forehead and left as I laid back down getting comfortable again. In no time I was deep in dreamland.
I woke up to the smell of bacon. I yawned before getting up to take a shower. The warm water felt like heaven on my stiff body. My face felt swollen from all the crying I had done. Today was the kind of day to just be comfortable.
Once my shower was done and my muscles were relaxed from hot water, I threw my curly hair up in a messy ponytail before throwing on a pair of light grey sweatpants and a black long sleeve shirt. I couldn’t have a comfortable day without my trusted pink fuzzy socks.
I could still smell the bacon cooking and hear the dogs starting to bark. Dave must have been the one cooking. Last night was unexpected in so many ways. I felt closer to him than I ever had before. Being close to him calmed me in a way I hadn’t ever experienced before.
I tried to shake away everything as I walked into the kitchen and groaned. Dave too was wearing a pair of light grey sweatpants and a black long sleeve shirt with his hair in a ponytail.
“Please tell me you don’t have on pink fuzzy socks too Mickey.” I whined as he grinned before lifting his foot up.
“They were my moms, but I’m keeping them.” He laughed as legitimate shock filled me. He actually had on pink fuzzy socks. I rolled my eyes as we went silent as he finished cooking. A few minutes later he placed the most delicious looking plate in front of me.
There were pancakes, breakfast potatoes, bacon, sausages, eggs and fruit. He grinned weakly as he slid a large cup of orange juice towards me.
“Do you think we drink too much juice?” I asked, trying to lighten the mood in the room.
“Maybe.” He shrugged before sitting next to me. “Minnie we need to talk.” He sighed.
“Not today Mickey. Last night was too much for me. I just kind of want to relax today and just spend some time together.”
“Fine, but we really need to talk.” He spat, sounding annoyed and panicked.
“And we will, but not today.” I growled shaking my head before grabbing my plate and going into the living room. Maybe some tv would stop him from trying to ruin the peace we’d built around us.
“Minnie what the hell?” He asked, stomping behind me. “Why are you acting like this?”
“I already said that I didn’t want to talk Dave. A real friend would listen and try to understand. Are you a real friend?” I threw the accusation at him immediately feeling bad about it. That wasn’t meant for him neither was my anger, but I was exploding. I needed to get it out, I’d apologize later.
“Your mom told you.” He whispered going pale as he stopped in his tracks. All kinds of alarms went off in me. I played along trying to figure out what the hell was going on.
“Of course she told me idiot! How could you?!” I snapped forcing tears coming to my eyes.
“I needed the money Minnie. She didn’t know I was already interested in you. So when she offered me seven thousand to be your friend I thought it was perfect. I could kill two birds with one stone. Make a new friend and finally get my truck.” The room went silent as everything stopped.
What did he just say? Did he really-
What was left of my heart shattered.
“You and Clarissa really do deserve each other.” I cried tears free falling down my cheeks. I couldn’t stop them even if I wanted to.
“Minnie I’m so sorry.” He cried tears of his own coming down his cheeks.
“WHY SHOULD I BELIEVE YOU?! EVERYTHING YOU’VE EVER SAID WAS A LIE! EVERYTHING ABOUT US HAS BEEN A LIE! You’ve been getting paid to hangout with me. You and Clarissa must have a field day laughing about everything. You sicken me.” I was pacing now trying to calm myself down. I was being a bit of a hypocrite right now, but I didn’t care. I have never been so mad right now. I was livid. I wanted him to hurt. I wanted to see his blood.
“Minnie it’s not-”
“Don’t call me that! Don’t you dare call me that! How about you just go to your little girlfriend and ask her about how we used to be friends? Ask her about the rumors she spread after she tried to have me raped and failed. Ask her?! Or maybe she already told you and you thought that playing nice would make me want to give it up to you. I guess you both failed. Just get out of here. I never want to see you or talk to you again.”
“Maria please?” He begged.
“GET THE HELL OUT!” I yelled, throwing the plate of food at him and hitting him in his face. I was shattered as I ran to my room and locked the door behind me. I had no idea what was real anymore. I couldn’t believe my mom could do something like that. I was sick to my stomach and just wanted to be alone. I just wanted to die.