Chapter 39: Natalie
~Four Months Later~
It’s amazing what four months can do for any relationship. The amount of trust and understanding that can be built still blows me away. When I first talked to Dave about the living arrangements he was furious and expressed his displeasure with the situation greatly. I could see that he was struggling with his little monster not to go and attack Phoenix. A part of me felt like that was what they both wanted though.
Dave needed to release the last bit of his aggression and Phoenix was itching to press charges. A part of me felt like I had been reading it wrong, but another part knew I wasn’t. Their hate for each other was not something that would easily be stopped. It was deeply rooted for good reasons. However, Phoenix and I seemed to grow closer over time. I ended up seeing something more than the guy I walked all over, or the asshole from my backyard.
Living with him opened me up to a new understanding. He had night terrors where he would spend hours screaming ‘stop hurting my sister’. I’d run in trying to wake him and he would just be a sweaty shell of himself. He would sit up in bed and just stare at the wall for the rest of the night. Since I would already be up I’d just join him. I knew how much something like that could affect you more if you were alone, and although I knew he wouldn’t ask, no one wanted to be alone after a night terror.
After a few weeks of doing so we began to have conversations. We really got to know each other then. I explained my situation to him and how Dave played a part in helping me better myself after it all. I explained why I ran away from him and how in the end I couldn’t deny what I felt for him. I explained, in a better way, that I couldn’t believe the rumors about him because he never believed them about me and that was all I wanted from someone. Dave provided me with a safe solitude that I hadn’t known I needed until it was given.
Yeah we were kind of toxic towards each other in the sense that we hated sharing. I wanted to be his whole world and he wanted to be mines.
Then we talked about Phoenix and what he said made me shiver straight from my soul. It didn’t help that he made sure to point out that dealing with me at the time only made the situation worse.
“I don’t know if you know, or if you ever had the chance to talk to her, but my sister is my world. She has been since what happened with Dave. It was the first time that I realized she wouldn’t always be there. I had to protect her, but when college came around I wanted to go away and she didn’t. There were rumors, little whispers that something was going to happen to her. Two years later, after everyone knew what happened to her, and people believe she was still in contact with him. They wanted to know where he was. They wanted to burn Dave at the stake.” he sighed trying to rub the sleep away from his eyes. “I’m no fool. I know someone was behind it. It was then that I started to see what Penelope was talking about. Those people just wanted a scapegoat whether it was true or not. I overheard a conversation between the girl’s parents and how they really wanted to move, but they couldn’t leave without Dave knowing that he wasn’t at fault. No one had seen Dave for two years at that point, but he was still on everyone’s mind.”
I gasped realizing that during all those ‘family trips back home’ Dave had been lying to me. It made me wonder what they were really doing for all that time.
“I almost felt bad for the dude, but then Penelope was hurt because of him again. Around this time last year, right before going on Christmas vacation, a video had been floating around. In the video was my sister looking completely out of it and tied to the bed. Those assholes had drugged her. They were hitting her demanding to know where Dave was. It didn’t take a genius to realize that she didn’t even know her own name in the moment. The assholes didn’t even bother to hide their faces. It was like they enjoyed teaming up on a poor girl.” His olive skin had gone pale and it didn’t take a genius to figure out what had happened.
“Oh no.” I gasped.
“Yeah, she didn’t have anyone there to save her.” he spat as I flinched. I knew he didn’t mean it, but it still hurt.
“You know being saved by someone just for them to turn around and try to do it again, doesn’t make you feel saved. It doesn’t change the fact that I was drugged and yeah while the actual sex didn’t happen, I was still fondled and played with without my consent and very much so unaware.” I snapped rolling my eyes as I got up to walk away. “I’m sorry that you had to see your sister being abused and I’m even more sorry that she was in a position where her trust was misplaced, but her heartache doesn’t give you the right to be an asshole. Before you say ‘he was your boyfriend’, it wasn’t him who found me first. It’s the only part of that night that I do remember. Some strangers hands and mouth all over me telling me that he was only warming me up for Jace and not being able to do a damn thing about it. To make it worse the voice sounds familiar, but I still can’t place a face. Knowing I was that intimate with someone against my will and still not having a clue who it was, but knowing that I know him doesn’t make me feel saved. So fuck off.”
That next morning he seemed to be trying a little harder to be friends. I understood his hatred for Dave a bit more, but I still felt it was unfair to blame him.
I also was having a hard time of my own. Sophomore year was harder than either of us had expected. We were so busy that we hardly had time to talk to each other. I was missing him like crazy and itching to do something that I knew would end us for good; but I wasn’t that person anymore. At least I was trying not to be. I wouldn’t cheat because I couldn’t get what I wanted from him. Or because I just needed a distraction because the memories wouldn’t stop. Besides, trading emails back and forth had been the most romantic thing ever. We talked but it was the physical him that I wanted.
When our first break came around I wasn’t shocked to realize he wasn’t coming. My dad had gone out of town for the holidays on business so there was no point in going home, but his mom needed him home so he couldn’t come to me. However, it was the first time we were able to really talk and hear each other’s voices. I actually cried because of it. Still, I had to make do. In that week I got closer to Peresphone who’d come up for a visit and we both got to meet the girlfriend Nix wouldn’t shut up about.
Amaryllis was just as beautiful as the flower she was named after. She stood at my height with a perfect hourglass figure and her voice was melodious. Her hair was a gorgeous dyed strawberry blonde with a shadow effect at her roots. Her smile lit up the room and she hugged us with each greeting. I loved her instantly and even more so when she pulled out her books for the road. The three of us bonded so much in such a short time that it made no sense. I was excited to finally have true girlfriends. We even traded secrets one night.
She talked about this boy she’d grown up with that she called Scar and how she wished they hadn’t lost contact. She wished she could tell him that she was okay now and apologize for hurting him. Persephone talked about her Pumpkin and how she hoped he would stop blaming himself for things neither of them could control. I talked about my Mickey and how I hoped for things to be better.
Today was the beginning of Christmas vacation though and I couldn’t wait to see my boyfriend. As I drove home, I couldn’t stop thinking about the last four months. Everything was finally out in the open and we’d talk about all that we could. All bridges were fixed and there was nothing left to make amends towards. This vacation was bound to be nothing but perfect. What could really go wrong?
“Do you miss me?” he asked for the umpteenth time as he yawned. I rolled my eyes trying to stifle a yawn of my own.
“How many times are you going to ask that Mickey?” I giggled softly. It was late, but we were on break so I didn’t really care.
“For every minute that I miss you. I would do it every second, but that would be kind of stalkerish.” he teased as I snorted.
“Has anyone ever told you that you get kind of cheesy when you are tired?”
“Only for you Minnie. Only for the girl who wears my heart around her neck.”he yawned again. For a moment there was silence as we just listened to each other breathe. It was something about the moment that didn’t need words. I found myself touching the necklace around my neck twirling it between my fingers.
“You know Mickey, I finally understand why you prefer your chain over the watch.” I breathed. “Somehow I feel closer to you wearing the full set. I don’t know why, but I do.”
“I miss you too Minnie.”
“Not as much as I miss you Mickey.” I whispered. We both grew silent again just enjoying the sound of each other breathing. I stared into the dark as slowly his breaths became even. “I love you Mickey and it terrifies me that one day you may know the entire truth of that night.” I admitted a single tear sliding down my cheek. His breathing stayed even ensuring that he hadn’t heard a word of what I said. A part of me felt bad, but a much bigger part wanted to enjoy the little bit of happiness I’d found for as long as I could.
The minute I’d gotten home I ran up to my room, neglecting to empty the trunk so I could begin unpacking. I didn’t feel like trudging my bags through a foot of snow and I’d already gotten the text that he was waiting for me and I was impatient for what I knew was to come. Both he and my father had texted me that he was in my room waiting. I understood. It had been far too long since I’d last saw him and all I wanted was him. I was feigning for everything he brought me. I wanted him to hold me and beg me not to leave again. I wanted him to love me until the proof of our love was permanently imprinted into his back. I wanted him to want me to never leave his side again.
I wanted him to need me like a person needed water and without me he would die. I wanted him to need me in a way that a human needed food for energy. I wanted so much from him that I wasn’t quite sure I, myself, would be able to give. I couldn’t really explain it. All I knew was that I just wanted him. I knew I would have the house completely to myself at least for the night and I couldn’t wait to release the energy that had been pent up for four months. I had the entire week planned. What we would do consisted mostly of making up for lost time; and then we’ll make time for friends.
He still didn’t like my sudden closeness with Phoenix, but they both had learned to accept it which I was grateful for. It was made easier when I explained that Nix had a girlfriend whom he was obsessed with, but all of that didn’t matter anymore. I was finally going to see my man and best-friend after four months of barely talking on the phone. The minute that I saw him, my mouth watered. His long dark black hair was splayed out around him as he laid on my bed shirtless with his headphones on. Every sexy muscle in his stomach, arms and chest were on display and flexing so deliciously.
I couldn’t wait until my tongue was licking down that manly torso and tracing every line that was practically bulging out.
“You just gonna stand there staring at me, or are you going to come give me a kiss?” he smirked as he continued to lay there staring at the ceiling. Maybe this was all a rouse for my benefit and he’d heard me the entire time. Either way I was pleased.
“You took the time to pose all sexily for me,” I began teasing with a giggle “At least give me the benefit of having the time to really admire it.”
“I’ll give you something to admire.” he growled, getting up from his position and closing the gap between us within the blink of the eye. I gasped as he lifted me up as I instantly wrapped myself around him for better leverage. There was no way he would let me fall, but taking a little extra precaution didn’t hurt. His fingers were already entangled in my hair as my back met my wooden door. My body was growing hot as he sucked on my neck intent on leaving his mark. I moaned as the intense sensations sent heavy vibrations straight to my core. I no longer regretted wearing the dress I had on. It may have been snowing out, but hell my car had a heater. I could feel his fingers exploring my nether regions and ripping my underwear in the process. “Say you missed me.” he growled as he sunk two fingers deep within me, pleasure instantly wrapping around every nerve in my body.
I cried out as I clung to him a little tighter. It had been far too long since we’ve done anything and fingering me against the door had me feeling too many different ways to be able to form a coherent thought let alone a sentence.
“Say you miss me Minnie. Say it or I’ll stop.” he threatened speeding up his actions a bit more. I cried out again as I sunk my nails harder into his shoulders. Already I was getting so close. My mind was telling me to just say it, but my body had taken over. My hips began to rock on their own as I rode his fingers a little harder trying to bring my first orgasm closer. “Minnie…” he warned as his thumb began circling my clit. Just as he pressed it I found my tongue.
“Fuck! Yes! Yes! Yes! I missed you! I missed you so much! Fuck I missed you, your wonderful fingers, glorious tongue and that long, vieny dick! Fuck, I missed it all!” I cried out in probably what sounded like gibberish as I rode out my orgasm. “Please? Please fuck me. Fuck me hard. Fuck me hard against the door.” I whined. It sounded like someone else was speaking those words using my voice. It had been so long since these filthy words left my mouth that they almost sounded foreign coming from me.
“Your wish is my command.” he groaned before lining himself up at my entrance and slowly lowering me down on it, filling me up and letting me adjust. I moaned as my eyes rolled into the back of my head. Yeah, I definitely missed his dick the most.
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I moaned as he kissed my neck again while I was trying to maintain my horrible hair. Usually I loved the big bushy mess it was, but thanks to Dave we both looked like wild animals. After our reunion Penelope texted me reminding me that I’d promise to have lunch with her and her brother and to bring Dave along. He protested saying there was a whole lot more we could do with the time, but eventually agreed. I thought we’d be able to take our showers here and be on our way. That was nearly an hour and a half ago and he was still trying to delay us a bit more.
The things that a boy could do with his hand alone should be illegal. We were so caught up in each other at that moment that we didn’t care about getting our hair wet. I’d figured I could just blow dry it once we were done, but he had other plans. Again we ended up having sex.
Three times in the last two or three hours and he was gunning for a fourth. I didn’t even know if I could cum anymore and clearly he was backed up. I don’t care what anyone says a bit of foreplay and a couple of quickies was better than several hours of sex. Then again, I knew once all of this was over I’d be having several hours of sex. He kissed the hickey he’d created again making me moan.
The spot was extra sensitive and throbbing from all the attention it had been given.
“Dave, no, we have to go meetup with the twins.” I whined struggling to put my hair in a ponytail after brushing it out. Mostly because he was in my way. Another kiss or two and I’d probably give in and say fuck the twins all together.
“Fuck them. We see them everyday. Know who we don’t see? Each other.” he spat spinning me around and placing a heated kiss on my lips full of nasty promises. I moaned into his mouth as my knees buckled and my core began to moisten. It’s not fair for someone to have this kind of affect on someone at all.
“I promise to do everything you’re thinking of and more if we can please just go get food and meet up with friends. Besides, I think Phoenix’s girlfriend, Amar, is coming still. He’ll want to leave early anyway. Besides, I need a moment to recharge.”
“No. Let’s agree not to show up and make the choice to leave easier for him.” he whined, ripping the towel off of my body and kissing down my back. He was making it so hard to say no to him as his hands traced the curvatures of my body. I grinded my sex into him hand as his fingers found my pleasure button. Throwing my head back in ecstasy, I leaned against him as he pleasured me while sucking on my neck again.
“Fine. Fine.” I moaned giving in to pleasure. “Thirty more minutes and then we go.”
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The short drive had taken a lot longer than it should’ve. Dave was making it nearly impossible to keep my promise. Not only had we’d taken another shower that ran long, we’d pulled over at least twice to have a quickie. THE DRIVE WAS ONLY FIFTEEN MINUTES! Twenty-five with traffic, but we made it. Dave went to go order our food as I joined the twins. Soon as I sat down she smiled at me with a knowing smirk.
“You know I do regret not having sex with him when I had the chance.” she teased. “I wanna be smiling like that too.” I flipped her off as my eyes found themselves turning towards Phoenix who was staring at me.
“Hey Nix.” I spoke.
“Hey Spice.” he sighed.
“Another one?” I asked sadly. I couldn’t imagine what he was going through. I didn’t have siblings, but at one point Clarissa was like a sister to me. It was one thing to have to see it, but to have nightmares about it also was something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. Hell I wouldn’t even wish it on Clarissa.
“It gets worse now that I have two others to worry about about.” he sighed as Persephone grabbed his hands.
“I told you there’s no need to worry. I have Dave looking out for me when you aren’t around. He knows what happens now and like you he wants to kill them.”
“Yeah, somehow killing feels too easy for scum like that.” he spat an evil tint filling his eyes. “They need to rot in their own personal hell being treated exactly as what they’d done.”
“Agreed.” came Dave’s voice scaring me as I got up to let him in. l had a thing about not feeling caged in and thankfully he understood. He passed me my food and drink as he and Phoenix began making conversation. Steph and I smiled at each other seeing the two of them finally getting along. It had taken a hell of a lot to get it to this point, but I couldn’t be happier that we’d finally gotten here.
“Damn this place is hard to find!” yelled a voice after the door chimed.
“Amar!” we yelled getting up to hug her.
“Steph! Mary!” she yelled back as we all giggled.
“Pumpkin, this is…”
“Bear?” I gasped realizing who this was.
“Scar?” she cried tears starting to fill her eyes. I’d heard of things like this before, but I’d never been witness to one. Dave got up slowly. It was almost like he was too scared to touch her. Like he feared it all was a hallucination and she would fade away at the slightest movement. I had tears of my own in my eyes as he finally reached out to touch her.
“What the fuck?” he whispered his voice hoarse. “H-how?”
“I missed you.” she sob closing the gap and wrapping her arms tight around him. He just stood there still too scared to move. I shook my head a small smile of my own as I helped him wrap his arms around her.
“This i-isn’t… this c-cant b-be...is this real?” he stuttered the tenseness in his shoulders slowly fading away.
“What’s happening?” asked Penelope, with confusion clearly on both their faces.
“That’s Natalie. He told me his nickname for her a few months back. If I’d known she called him Scar I would’ve called him that night we first met her.” I spoke watching their actions with a full heart. They stood there just hugging, she was crying and he was still in disbelief. I could tell he was happy though. He finally had his best-friend back and she wasn’t dead like he thought. This was a win for him for once.