Tampering With Devotion

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Beginning from the end. •°•°•°•°•°• Zylorina Vi Censeri is the last line in her family, crushed that she has to attend a funeral of the only father figure she's ever known, she can't help but do what she's always had to, endure. Her loss will be fresh, recognized and gradually accepted, but her gain: unexpected, hesitant, and possibly short lived. As easily as shattering glass, it apparently can be broken, as if they'll fall into a sea of sand, their pieces will be difficult to find. It was only supposed to be a funeral, but something bigger was waiting for her. Now, in the midst of trying to help right a wrong, she has to choose; which would be right, which would be her choice and hers alone. Being bonded or being bound. Is there a difference? Should there be?

Drama / Romance
Noelle Iroquois
Age Rating:

Chapter 1

Ch. One.

As the day sprouts from night so does life spring from death. As the day dilutes into the night. Life slowly melts into death. Even as the lightning flashes, death bolts like thunder, at times..Colors of the universe, bright. But dark are the rays of light. See those fallen shadows there. Are the shadows false of light? Is life light in motion? Yonder truth no one knows. He who seeks shall find it sure, from the book of futures' life."

●Mani Purathayil Madhavan.

To me, the moments I am beaten down are like rain on a warm evening, light and drizzling, splashing every part of me in portions, little by little covering me whole. Each drop clinging my clothes to me while the soft sting soaks into my bones. I may shiver and complain, maybe even writhe in pain, but I always bear the weather, no matter what it may be.

That's how I was raised.

I lay against my seat. I know a few people that would think they're indestructible under any circumstances, but even if I've rarely seen it, I knew they have weaknesses- everyone does. As a matter of fact, this particular occasion might be one of Silvas'. I wonder if I'll finally see a chink in that fluid exterior of his. Tap, tap, tap. I think it'd go. Or maybe like; tink, tink, tink… tap, tap, smack! The sound returns harder and harder. I grunt and whip my head towards the perpetrator, slapping Donovans' hand off. "What, Uno?"

"We're coming up on a two-way, my battery died on my phone, so let me use yours." He gestures tiredly at the highway. It was a damn 30 hour drive from Miami, we've been taking turns- five hours each, my shifts ended an hour ago.

I puff out my lip. "Remind me again why we are driving to Woodmoor."

He ignores my request. "Unless you want to take over."

"Dude, it's nothing but road, just keep going straight."

"Fuck you."

"I'm using my phone."

"Then pay attention, at least. I'm not trying to get lost out here in the sticks."

"Kiss it." I roll my eyes. Something I always do when aggravated, which is why even if he couldn't see me, he still cooed sarcastically.

"Bend over." I fake gag. "Jeez, if I didn't know you, I couldn't vouch that you weren't a pampered princess."

"Well, if I didn't know you, I couldn't vouch that your ass wasn't a spoiled brat sucking on your familys' silver spoon." I retort and turn away just as his lips curl into a displeased pout. We both came from money, well, he did way more than I, even so, ethically speaking, we both both saw it as being our parents' money, not ours. I never claimed to have had the roughest life, but I never flaunted what I did have, either, that just wasn't me.

My gold iPhone buzzes with a random pinterest notification. I consider changing the techo-remix into something more melancholic and dramatic as I intentionally avoid focusing on the small band of hair just underneath it. I'd even meticulously placed my phone on its center to be sure that it covered the white ribbons' italic wording on the front. I sigh, totally despondent remembering the morning I received this and, once again, rested back in pain. Kid mailed it to me a week ago and I still couldn't come to terms with it. My fingers skittered along its edges, gripping then letting it go. I sigh again, then close my eyes. I'm acting like a damn kid. So what? You were his damn kid. My mind countered, truthfully I didn't know whether to reprimand myself or agree with that quick thought.

Thirty minutes later a turnpike exit came, no cars have been around since. "Take it'n just follow the road. Should see a welcome sign a lil ways down."

Donovan snorts, "Alright, but I hope that's the last of the directions because your voice is starting to grate on my ears."

"Te golpearé más tarde."

He lifted a hand to grab his shoulder and shivered theatrically. "Oh, I'm so fucking scared." I scoff, I knew he didn't mean it, he was just nitpicking to keep me from turning into a balling mess.

It was a bad idea to lean away since the evening sun slowly angled to beam in my pupils, so I reach for the top mirror over the window and note that the empty road doesn't take long to become enshrouded by trees on both sides. Pine trees that towered over us, some crooked just at the top like enormous claws stuck grasping at the sky. The sunlight almost filters through them but their bodies were too thick, saving my eyes to comfortably take in the scene of forest and road. Unfortunately, memories collide with the nostalgia hidden behind every trunk and shrub or expanse of earth; a tree I climbed whenever I ran away when I felt too scared, a rock I jumped from to prank my sister and brothers, hide and seek. There was an old clubhouse behind our home that Solo had made our secret hideout, it was a bit further in the woods but not far enough to get lost.

A smile graces my lips as our childhood antics roused and our laughter faded in my ears. More play behind my eyelids, passing in my mind like my own number one movie. My smile broadens the more my little self tailed behind everyone. Once, I tried to hop over a stone shaped like a funny witch shoe when my foot slipped but, instead of falling, a strong arm wrapped around my waist and hoisted me up on an equally rough shoulder.

"Dammit Tinker, if ya can't watch where ya steppin, don't go travelin in the dark!" He all but growled in that guttural voice that girated my eardrums every time while he carried me to the house. His reprimand went from the trees back to the house, longer if he caught us tuning him out. My shoulders shake in quiet laughter. God forbid he heard us mumbling. Pops' voice was always loud, always strumming every vocal cord in his throat to the point that I saw other bears jump at the sound a few times. A firecracker he was when he blew his fuse, but as tame as a river when he wasn't.

I feel Donovan peek at me out of his peripheral, staying quiet to let me drown in my reverie. Instantly my smile drops, just as my movie reaches the part I haven't even experienced yet, his lifeless body shrouded in white, laying upon cushions of poofy pillows. Rejection to the image burns my eyes and I hold the tears at bay at the cost of dropping my attention to my lap. In the meantime my mind plays tons of scenes all about him: smiling, yelling, angry, worried, ruthless- all flashing back and forth like an old picture projector, each clip pulling me towards him, sucking me into the frame that held more emotion. The more I saw, the more I concentrated only on him. Only him until his pictures became faint, his voice frail, his strong arms fragile. They encircled me without the usual grip but a new, colder sensation pooled around me in its place.

It was like a pressure covered my throat too tightly. A murky sensation eats at my airway the more I try to use it. No, not now. Come on, breathe. I try to shake my head, nothing happens until another heavy pressure grasps my shoulder to jostle me. At first it's something easily outdone, yet, gradually, it becomes heavier and firmer and then a voice pounds around the outside of it, sounding like a hard fist doing damage to a large door. "Breathe, Rye. Come on, we're almost there so I'm not trying to pull over, but I will burn the fucking rubber if you don't get it together. Come on, you have to breathe. Breathe. "

As always, Donovans' stern voice was soft with worry whenever I got like this. He may be a total narcissist, overconfident, and a pushy asshole which combines into an unholy concoction, but his considerate side- which I've learned to bring out with my own sprinkle of personality- poured in to balance his flavours. At the behest of wanting to be rid of his strong grip, I take the deepest breath as if I just learned how and meet his gaze as he retracts his hand to slap onto his leg.

The sleeves of his burgundy jean jacket strain against his biceps that his white tee finished with black jeans and matching timberlands. My own outfit; a white tank with a plaid over shirt and stressed jeans twins his casual wear. I didn't want to roll up already in the traditional attire and burrowed brow, I felt that I could breathe easier with these on, that the other clothes would feel too big on my heart. And if I want to do right by that old man, I was doing something as simple as my clothing, my way--- at least until I arrived.

I glance at my best friend who merely followed suit in clothing and journey in general for my sake. When he holds my stare, the corner of his lips quirk a little in a rare sweet smile before completely twisting into a cocky smirk. Here we go. "Rye," he cooes sickly sweet, "I thought you already got your daily dose of eye-fucking me?"

I click my tongue. "Donovan, please. Looking at you wouldn't do a thing for me. You wish I'd eye-fuck you."

"No, sweetheart, I know you do. And it's alright. It's totally okay if it'll keep your spirit animal calm during this dark time. So, by all means, eye-fuck away."

My nose crinkles in disagreement as a shudder peels down my spine at his latter comment. "My spirit animal? That's what you think I have?"

"It kind of is like that isn't it? Your animal reflects you or some shit like that?"

"Not really. If you're in a particular category then that's that. What you're talking about is more like a roll of dice but that's only if your parents aren't the same species, then it's one or the other. But I mean, if it truly does reflect you, then that'd be a nice coincidence, I guess."

He hums, right before the smirk from his lips dies and is replaced with an iced stare that molded sincerity and understanding into one awestruck gaze. Among other things, his attention to me makes me want to shrink away, mainly because his seriousness brings more reality to my obstinate dream, so much so that I had to repeat it to myself in reminder as if I'd somehow forget. I'm going to his funeral.

Sadness coils around my heart, melding to the shape in heated twists and prods. My hand clutches the air above my chest and I hiss just as I avert my eyes, trying to make it seem like the real heat was from his devilish greys rather than the blacksmith toiling away inside my chest.

"Thanks, Uno." I cave after a minute with a full dose of candor of my own. "For coming with me, for keeping me company. I mean it, I really appreciate it." I stretch as much as his 2018 GMC Acadia would allow. I'm a big girl so I'd kinda get uncomfortable often. Donovans' large hand opens, reaching across. With an amused hum I grab it and intertwine our fingers as our arms naturally begin a petty battle for the space of the armrest.

The sun keeps nipping at the crevices between the trees even as it almost sets behind the skyline, forcing me to continuously squint because I'm the idiot that lost her sunglasses in the neverending spaces of this car. A mellow mixture of orange and yellow tinged into the oncoming blue of the night. The day is almost up, time will move no matter what may change or want to remain the same, so it's up to us to move with it. And just keep moving. My fingers toil at the memorial tightly, my teeth sliding against each other as if preparing for the worst sucker punch I'd ever get, even though all I was doing was remembering one of my big brothers' lessons.

"Don't wait for anything to change, at that point you may as well laugh at yourself, cause time definitely will. Just move. And keep moving."

I push down my tears and hang on to his words, crinkling the strands of neatly wrapped tendrils as my eyes slide over the typical words sewn into the ribbon.

In loving memory of Idris Xavier Vi Censeri.

The second the words became blurry I will the tears to stay, wetting nothing more than my lashes. My teeth dig into my lip while I mull forth that poem I'd recently discovered to help aid my wounded mind. I whisper it like a spell, or rather, like a memory forgotten.

"As… As the day sprouts from night so does life spring from death. As the day dilutes into the night. Life slowly melts into death. Even as the lightning flashes, death bolts like thunder, at times..Colors of the universe, bright. But dark are the rays of light. See those fallen shadows there. Are the shadows false of light? Is life light in motion? Yonder truth no one knows. He who seeks shall find it sure, from the book of futures' life."

"Who was that by." Donovan asks, sounding listless and a little impressed with my dorky hobby, as he always was whenever I did that.

"Mani Purathayil Madhavan."

"...It's good."

"Yeah." I wiggle about in an attempt of another comfortable position. Through a couple minutes of failing, hearing Donovan yawn and crack his neck then blink a thousand times to keep himself awake, and with nothing else to do, plus with no hope of getting any sleep myself, I grip the secured hairs before stuffing them in my pocket and hitting his shoulder. He grunts his annoyance whereas I simply gesture to the side of the road. "Pull over here. I'll drive the rest of the way."

To be continued.
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