Chapter 12 : Why!? why him?
March 14th, Sunday, 6:35pm
This chapter contains talk of miscarriages. If you don’t want to read this I understand.March 25th, Sunday, 10:00 am
Me and Lovey are at Valerie’s place, me and Valerie are watching Game of Thrones with a bunch of popcorn, and Lovey is playing with her cousin Stephanie. We’re at Valerie’s place because I feel like I haven’t seen her in such a long time, and we decided to have a movie night together. We invited Sarah, but she had some things to do, apparently like my Lovey her twins are trouble makers, don’t really know what happened but I’m sure it was bad. We also invited Jeanette, but she said she wasn’t feeling to good.
So me and Valerie are huddled up on her couch watching Game of Thrones, and like me, her pregnancy belly is starting to show. At first, I thought it was kind of crazy to ride out your pregnancy with a friend but it’s been nice.
When I was pregnant with Lovey all I had was my brother and occasionally his friends, but it was always weird. With Valerie constantly texting you with questions, like why her boobs hurt so much, or if it’s normal to forget almost everything. I’m having such a fun time teaching her, even though she’s older than me.
“I need to tell you something,” Valerie said with a worried look on her face.
“Oh no, please don’t tell me you’re getting married to David.”
“What? No.” I let out a sigh, if she did I would owe Jeanette $20 again.
“Ok, what is it?”
“Me and David went for an ultrasound.”
“I gasped what’s the gender?” Valerie smiled brightly.
“It’s a boy.” I gasped.
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“Yeah,” Valerie said nodding her head while smiling brightly, I could see tears well up in her eyes. I’ve known Valerie for some time now, and I know that she’s always wanted to have her own little family. She even told me once that she was afraid she couldn’t have kids after her miscarriage a few years ago.
She was a freshman in college and she was dating some older guy and she got pregnant, but thankfully not like me he stuck by her side, but 2 months into the pregnancy she lost the baby. When she talked about it she was heartbroken, if I had lost lovey I don’t know what I would do, I don’t know who I would be right now, I’m just happy that Valerie got through it and now she’s this amazing person.
“Von you won’t believe this but, I’m having a boy too.” Valerie’s eyes widened in surprise.
"Oh My God our babies are going to be best friends.” we both squealed at the same time been growing over our new obsession. Then I hear 2 tiny little feet slapping onto the marble floor of Valerie’s condo.
“Would you keep it down? we’re playing Barbies.” Lovey said with both hands on her hips.
“Yeah, Ken found out that Barbie was cheating on him with his best friend Ryan,” Sophie said holding up the Barbie Ken and Ryan dolls. Me and Von started to laugh.
"Sorry.” We both said at the same time while still laughing. The two walked away with their dolls. I’m happy to see Lovey playing like a kid, I feel like it’s been forever since she’s finally acted her age. I know I haven’t been giving her attention, especially with all the drama this past year, and last year. I’m just happy that she’s become someone that can honestly express how she feels and won’t let people push her around.
2 hours later
After two hours of watching Game of Thrones, me and Valerie decide we should go and check on Jeanette after she hadn't answered any of my texts. We leave Lovey and Stephanie that's Valerie's Neighbors condo, don't we drive over to Jennette's apartments. We get on to Jeanette's floor and we both step out of the elevator, Valerie then pulls out a key from her bag, leaving me confused.
"Why do you have a key to Jennette's apartment?"
"You don't need to worry your pretty little head about that," Valerie said patting the top of my head, she been opened the door to Jeanette's apartment. As we walked into Jeanette's dimly lit home seeing how clean and in Tip-Top shape it usually is it we start to hear noises coming from Jeanette's room. Valerie and I share a look, but we silently agree to tread on slowly hearing the sounds getting louder and last muffle.
We decide quietly to open the door, and what we see after this changed us for the rest of our lives. We see two bodies melting together as they'd both Moan and Jeanette cry out in pleasure.
I bring my hands to cover my mouth, her purse making loud clicking sounds, the two of them stopped and stared at us and I've looked closer I could recognize the guy.
"NOAH?!" Every bone in my body shook, for a time I couldn't move I was stuck in place.
"Rowan it's not what it looks like," Jeanette said horrified covering herself up in a rush with the sheets.
I backed out of the doorway of her room and stirred walking away, I genuinely don't know what I just saw, I started to blink rapidly to try and bounce myself back into reality. And all I could feel was rage, I'm mad that Noah is treating Jeanette like all his other hookups, I'm mad at Jeanette for falling into his trap.
"I'm going to go," I said through gritted teeth then walked away.
March 17th wendsda
It's been two days and I have been hella grumpy, Jeanette has called me several times, but I haven't answered just cuz I don't want to but more like if she starts to talk I'm going to blow up at her, and I really don't want to.
I open the fridge door to see if we have anything to eat. Now that I’m eating for two I’m hungry all, the, time.
I literally can’t tell you how many times Isaac has found me eating Ice cream on the kitchen floor in the middle of the night, and every time I look like a dear caught in headlights.
“Ugh there is nothing in the fridge, who keeps eating all the food only three people live here.”
“I don’t know, here’s an idea, maybe you did?” I look at Isaac with a solemn look on my face.
“Are you calling me fat?” I said while arching an eyebrow.
“What? No I was just-” I cut Isaac off by raising a hand.
“You make me sick,” I said will walking away into the living room. Isaac followed me out of the kitchen and hugs me from behind.
"Baby, you know I didn't mean it like that," Isaac said in the crook of my neck.
"I know, I'm sorry, I'm just grumpy."
"Maybe you should talk to her instead of jumping to conclusions."
"Conclusions!? They were-" I looked over to lovey and she was wearing headphones and drawing on the coffee table. "Fucking," I whispered. "How can I not jump to conclusions after what I saw?"
"Don't know, I don't really like Jeanette or anything but I know that she would create mass murder for you." I turn my head and look up fat Isaac.
"But, if I talk to her now I feel like I'm going to ruin our friendship." As soon as I say that the doorbell rings.
"Welp, to late," Isaac said letting go of me then shrugging.
"What do you mean to late?" Isaac gave me a smirk then open the front door to reveal Jeanette.
For fuck sake Issac.
I give Issac a withering glare as he picks Lovey up with her pencil case into his arms and carries her up the stars.
"Asshole,"I say under my breath.
"Hey," Jeanette said with a nervous wave of her hand.
"Hi," I said simply, she walked over and sat on the couch paying a spot beside her. I went over and sat right next to her. after a long silence Jeanette broke and spoke first.
"I'm so sorry for not telling you about me and Noah, there was just never any right time to tell you."
"Any right time? Have you been together?" I ask holding my breath.
"After the New Year's Eve party."
"That was 2 months ago, you've been lying to me for 2 months?" my eyes started to water, I didn't expect this kind of heartbreak. It was different, your friends are people that support you and love you and protect you, but it felt like it was all a lie.
"I wasn't lying to you I just didn't tell you."
"That's the same thing, Jen how could you do this to me?" I say in a small voice.
"Ugh, my god!" Jeanette stood up from the couch unexpectedly." Rowan you know I love you but you always do this."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, you just always act so selfish." Jeanette blurted out.
"I was there for you when your crazy mother tried to get back into your life, I was there for you when you put a restraining order on her, I was there for you when you didn't have anyone to snuggle with, I was always there, for you," I said getting up from the couch cushion and pointing my finger at her.
"Rowan, have you ever stopped to think that maybe I felt lonely, after my mom stopped being such a pain in the ass I had nothing and no one to worry about, I had all the time in the world and nothing in the back of my head killing me?"
"I realized how truly sad my life has been."
"Jeanette you know I care for you and I love you, but why Noah, there are literally thousands of men in the world with enough brain cells but you choose Noah, why?" I say pleading for her to answer me. Jeanette takes a deep breath then plops back on the couch.
"Because unlike everyone else he makes me feel something, I finally understand how you feel around Isaac, I understand why Valerie loves David so much," Jeanette said while staring at nothing in particular, she looked up at me with her sad eyes.
"I'm sorry, but I just can't help it," she said the exact words I used as an excuse for being with Isaac and for some reason it takes the anger away. I sit back onto the couch slowly wild looking at Jeanette.
"Eres mi familiar." (You're my Family) I said with a smile.
"Sí, supongo que estamos atrapados.” (Yeah, guess we’re stuck together.) Jeanette said while smiling brightly.