Winter was settling in, which meant I was currently freezing my ass off as I sat on Sebastian’s couch. I had two blankets covering me, as well as snuggling up close with my boyfriend. This was the first time in a few weeks that we’d been able to see each other. Not only were we caught up with school and work but now we were sneaking around everyone. The only people who knew about our relationship were Caylee, Rosie and Theo. Everyone else thinks that we are no more, including the two devils who don’t know when to butt out.
Which is the reason why this is the first time Sebastian and I have been able to see each other in weeks. Vanessa had been overly clingy and ecstatic when she found out her plan had seemingly worked. Bash had told me she wanted to be around him twenty-four seven and that he could barely stand her, knowing that she had threatened me. Their relationship was on a thin line and that pleased me immensely.
I cuddled closer to Sebastian as we watched the comedy on his television. His warm hands were softly running through my hair and I thought I would have an orgasm just from that. I’d found out that Sebastian worked as an apprentice for a carpenter, something he was really proud about and the fact that his apartment was so nice, he’d fixed it up himself. I loved when he’d talk to me about his day at work, he’d get that look in his eye when he talked about it and it’s the most adorable thing in the world.
I was slowly starting to fall asleep, my head resting in Sebastian’s lap as the movie played in the background. My eyes were drooping when all of a sudden there was a loud banging on Sebastian’s front door. I shot up straight away due the loud noise and quickly looked at Bash. He was just as confused as I was.
I wrapped the two blankets around me tighter as Sebastian slowly got up from the couch and the cold air surrounded me. I think we both knew who was at the door before he even had a chance to open it.
I tensed as he opened the door and revealed Vanessa standing in a trench coat on the other side of the door. It was late at night meaning there could only be one thing hidden under that trench coat. She had yet to spot me on the couch, walking into the apartment before dropping the trench coat immediately. She stood in a lace bodice, covering almost nothing with an ugly, seductive smirk resting on her face.
I saw Sebastian tense before averting his eyes altogether.
“I know you’re upset about your breakup with that little girl,” she began. She walked forward, her claws rubbing up and down his arm. “So, I thought I’d help you forget all about her,” she seductively whispered.
Sebastian roughly grabbed her arm, stopping her from touching him. He gently pushed her back before walking towards the couch, towards me. Her face completely dropped when she saw me sitting on the couch. I was beyond pissed and trying my hardest not to show it. I stood up slowly from the couch as she seethed in the corner, her eyes never leaving me. I walked towards Sebastian, still covered with the blankets. Bash’s arms tightly wrapped around me when I finally made it to his warm body.
“Why the fuck is she here Bash?” she practically yelled. I wanted to slap her just for using my nickname for him. “What does the whore have that I don’t?”
“I think you need to get the fuck out of my house and stay the fuck away from my girlfriend,” Bash growled at her.
It took us both by surprise when she started laughing. It wasn’t a genuine laugh, it was easy to tell this girl wasn’t that mentally healthy.
“You think you know everything about this bitch?” She laughed. “Did she ever tell you the reason her ex cheated on her?”
My face visibly paled. I hadn’t had the chance to tell Sebastian that he was my first. It wasn’t that I hadn’t wanted to, there was just never the right time and I was scared over his reaction. It looked like my chance to tell him would be completely taken away from me.
Bash looked at me suspiciously. My heart was racing in my chest and I never that any moment it was about to burst.
“Of course, the bitch hasn’t,” Vanessa spoke, a large grin crossing her face when she realised the power she held over me. “I’ve been doing some digging and she is nothing that she says she is Bash. She’s just a big, fat liar.”
“What the hell are you on about Vanessa?” Sebastian hissed.
She tensed for a moment, before she composed herself with a deep breath. I could feel Sebastian’s grip on me loosen, waiting for the truth to be revealed.
“Her ex cheated on her because she wouldn’t put out,” she purred in victory. She changed her stance so that her hand was placed on hip.
I knew it wouldn’t take long for Sebastian to figure it out and put two and two together. He didn’t show it on his face, he was composed but I could sense the tension from being so close to him. He’s grip on me completely disappeared.
“Get the fuck out of my apartment Vanessa,” he said monotonously.
Vanessa smirked before picking the trench coat up from the floor. She bent down, moving so her ass was in full view for Sebastian. Her heels clicked on the floor as she made her way out the door, slamming it shut behind her.
I let out a shaky breath, too scared to turn around and face Sebastian. The movie continued to play in the background, long forgotten.
“You were a virgin,” he spoke, and I winced at his harsh tone. I knew he’d be mad, but I didn’t think he’d be this mad. “You know,” he started. “I only ever had two rules when I hooked up with a girl. One night and no virgins, and I broke both of those rules.”
“Bash...” I whispered.
“Just get out Maizie,” he said, not once looking at me.
The tears were in the corner of my eyes, but I pushed them back and silently nodded. I dropped the blankets straight down on the floor before walking towards the door. I closed it quietly behind me, looking ahead to see if Vanessa had suck around for the show or to make more threats. I was lucky when I saw not a single soul in the hall, and with my decision made I ran.
I ran home in the late of night, stupid I know. The cold wind was quickly drying up my tears as I ran. I was thankful when I spotted and all-night coffee shop. My legs were aching from the running and with long, quick breaths I opened the door and the bell chimed. The little sign above the menu read ′Coffee Kisses’which only made me even more sad.
The place was pretty deserted apart from a few people scattered around the little café. Out of breath, I walked forward to the counter and with the loose change in my back pocket. I ordered a hot chocolate before scooting into a booth in the corner of the warm café.
I felt all their eyes on me. I was in a loose shirt, with tracksuit pants, puffy cheeks and red eyes. I sat in silence sipping on my hot chocolate before grabbing my phone from my back pocket. I called the number I always did when I had a problem.
The phone rang for a while, which is what I had expected considering it was the middle of the night. When they finally picked up I couldn’t help but let the tears run. It was one of those things where if I specific person asked if you were alright, the tears would just fall. That was exactly what happened to me in that moment.
When I had hung up the phone, I took a long sip of the hot chocolate in front of me. I felt a presence pull up beside me. Sniffing, I looked upward to come face to face with a girl around my age. She had a box of tissues in her hand. She gave me a small smile before placing them down on the table and placing muffin in front of me.
“I didn’t order this,” I whispered.
“It’s on the house,” she said before giving me on last smile and walking away.
I looked at the warm muffin for a moment before picking a small piece and placing it into my mouth. At that moment the café’s bell rung from another person entering the little shop. I looked backward to see my mother dressed in some tracksuit pants and a shirt, much like my own. She was wearing her slippers, and I felt bad for waking her up.
She spotted me fairly quickly and made her way over to my booth. She slid in the opposite side of me. I was too afraid to look her in the eye and continued to pick at the muffin. It was quiet for a while and I felt her eyes linger on me.
Eventually, she sighed and moved the muffin out of my grasp. “Tell me what happened baby.”
That’s when I broke down crying again. I grabbed a numerous amount of tissues from the box to try and dry my tears. I felt my mother move from across for me and into the seat next to me. She wrapped her arms around me and held me as I cried.
When there were no more tears left, I told her everything. From losing my virginity to everything that happened with Sebastian. When I had finished I took a sip from my hot chocolate and turned to face her.
She looked at me sadly, before pulling me into her arms again. “Boys are stupid,” she said. I hiccupped as I laughed at her remark. She rubbed my back soothingly. “Don’t worry baby, soon he’ll realise what he’s missing and come crawling back. Then you can kick him to the curb.”
I lifted my head from our hug and looked her in the eyes. “I think I’m falling in love with him ma,” I whispered.
“You said the same thing about Jax,” my mother reminded me. I scrunched my nose at the sound of his name, making my mother laugh.
“This is different ma, I never really loved Jax.”
My mother sighed before I cuddled my head back into her neck. “Couldn’t you have been like your sister and liked girls?”
I giggled at her remark before sniffing. “I’m sorry I lied,” I whispered to her.
“Oh, you will be. You’re grounded but you already knew that,” she scolded me. I groaned as I cuddled her. “Come on baby, let’s take you home,” she whispered before kissing me on the head.
We both scooted out of the booth before I gave the waitress a generous tip.
We sat in her car in silence, and even though I was sad I couldn’t help but feel content. I’d always loved night drives. It was a time when the world was quiet, and nobody was rushing around. It was peaceful and always gave me time to think.
When we arrived home, I wished my mum a goodnight before crawling into my bed. The tears began to fall again, but I quickly wiped them away. I took a few deep breaths, trying to calm myself.
I scolded myself for thinking about a boy and how I wasn’t good enough for him. I was determined to pay him no mind and focus on school and my future. No distractions, especially boys.
“You’re going to be fine Maizie,” I whispered into the dead of night.