I was waking to the beautiful sounds of the birds and the soft blow of the wind. I loved everything about being here. I was even more excited that I was going to start school in three days. I was also smiling at myself that Levi was coming over to fix dinner tonight. I can't believe that I actually like him. I never thought I'd get over Spencer. He still pops up in my head here and there but I haven't heard a word from him since he left. I guess he truly wasn't in love with me. I have learned to accept that. Now it was my time to shine and I was doing what I wanted with my life. I don't know where Levi and I will end up but for now, it's my turn to live.
I spent the day organizing my stuff for school and I shot Levi a text asking him if I could pick anything up for dinner and he told me he had it all covered. I would see him in two hours. I decided to jump into the shower and get ready for dinner. I put on a simple red summer dress and black flats. I blew dried my hair and then straightened it out. I left it laying flat. My hair has gotten so long. I think it might be time for a trim. I covered my body in body spray and did little makeup. It was almost time for Levi to get here. I smiled at myself in the mirror and went downstairs. It was just starting to get dark and I made sure the house was all opened up. I turned on some light music in the background. Then I waited on the front porch with a glass of tea.
I watched as Levi pulled up with a huge smile on his face. I'm so used to seeing him in bossiness suites. Tonight he was in shorts and a tank top. looking very casual and very sexy.
"Hey, beautiful." He said as he made his way up to the porch carrying about four bags of food.
"Let me help you with that," I said standing up to grab a bag or two. I took two bags from him and he was just staring at me. "What are you looking at?" I asked him.
"You. You're breathtaking." He said. I blushed. Then I just smiled at him. I walked off inside the house and set the bags on my kitchen counter. Levi followed me inside.
"So what are we having for dinner?" I asked him. He turned and smiled at me.
"You'll see." He said. I went around the counter and took a seat at the bar facing him. I watched as he pulled all the items out of the bags and began to cook. He truly looked like he knew what he was doing and enjoyed it. I got up and went and got us each a glass of wine. I sat his down next to him and stood there. He looked up at me. "You shouldn't stand so close to me." He said in a whisper.
"And why not?" I asked him. He just looked me right in the eyes.
"Because I might get the wrong idea and take advantage of you." He said. I blushed and smiled.
"Maybe I want that," I said out of nowhere. Sometimes I really don't know what comes over me. Everything tonight just seems to be right, the mood, the food, the company. I don't know why I was all of a sudden brave and just full of lust. I felt good and it had been a very long time since I had felt this way. It's funny how things change in one's life. Things I didn't actually want to change and things I did, but in a different way. Things that change and may not seem good at the time, but end up better later. I don't really understand why, but I trusted Levi. I enjoyed him. He seems easy, easy in the way that he doesn't come with problems or trouble. He seems safe and trustworthy. Why am I trying so hard to not rush this? I want Levi and I know I want him.
"I thought you wanted to take things slow beautiful?" He said. I just smiled at him and returned myself to the stool. I watched him finish making dinner and he made us both a plate. He set the food down in front of me and then took the seat next to me. He made a chicken and broccoli alfredo from scratch. It smelled amazing. I took my fork and dug in. It also tasted amazing.
"Oh my god, that's so good Levi, thank you." I said with a mouth full of food. He smiled and laughed.
"You really are one of a kind Page." He said.
"I hope that's a good thing." I said. He nodded at me.
"Its a very good thing." He said. I smiled at him. After we were done eating I started to clean up our mess. Levi turned on some soft music and came over to my side. He took my arm and lead me out onto the back porch. We could still hear the music and he took me in his arms and we both began to dance. "Tell me about your life Page?" He asked me.
"There's not much to tell. I grew up with my mother who passed away and left me with a lot of money. I moved here to be closer to the college of my choice." I said.
"I already knew that about you. I mean tell me about you. What do you love? What do you hate? Who was your mother? Have you even been in love?" He asked me all these questions that I wasn't prepared to answer.
"You first." I said. He smiled at me and squinted his eyes.
"Okay, I grew here and have never left. My mother and father are still married and we are very close. I have a younger brother who is in school and I went into to real estate right out of college. I've been friends with my partner since high school and I've only been in love once." He said. "Now you." I took a deep breath.
"I'm not really sure if you want to hear this but here it goes." Levi stopped dancing and he walked me over to the bench. We took a seat. "My mother was a horrible person. My father walked out on us when I was very little. My mother treated me like more of a inconvenience then like her loving child. I spent my life watching her go though husband after husband. I have been working for a long time trying to get my things in order to leave her and go to school. She never did anything for me. I did it all for myself. Then she came home with husband number five. A man much closer to my age than hers. A man who I fell in love with. A man who wasn't strong enough to stay with me and left me after my mother killed herself." I stopped talking and looked to the ground. I waited for him to be disgusted and leave, but he didn't he didn't even say anything for a moment.
"Page, I'm so sorry you had to go though all of that. Its sounds so sad." He said. I looked up at him and he was holding on to my hand. "Where is this man now?" He asked me.
"I don't know for sure , but I think he went back to New York." I said.
"Did you and him get close, I mean close?" Levi asked me. I nodded at him."That's horrible Page. That he would take advantage of you like that." He said.
"Its wasn't like that." I said.
"What do you mean?" He said.
"I wanted him to. Maybe more then he wanted me actually. He was very good to me Levi. I just don't think he loved me back." I said. Levi took in a deep breath.
"I don't mean to upset you Page, but he sounds like a monster to me. Married to your mother but sleeping with her daughter. That's not right." He said. I knew in the back of my mind that Levi was right. I mean it was all very wrong. I knew it was wrong, but I have no excuse for it. It was just how things went at the time and I'm not sorry for them.
"Levi, I don't expect you to understand, but you wanted to know. So I told you. We were both at fault. It wasn't just his doing. I'm just as guilty." I said.
"I understand Page and I'm sorry to be so judgmental." He said. I smiled at him. "Do you know why your mother took her life?" He asked me. This was an even more sour subject. I still in the back of my mind don't believe she did. I took a deep breath and looked away.
"I don't know. We were on a small vacation. The three of us. Spencer and I found her body in the woods. The cops out there ruled it a suicide." I said. Levi watched me for a moment.
"But?" He said. I looked up at him.
"But, what?" I said.
"Well you look like you don't believe that." He said.
"I'm not really sure that I do. See my mother lived her life a certain way and I just have a real hard time believing she wanted it to end. Or even believing she would do that to herself." I said.
"Have you told anyone how you feel?" He asked me.
"Not really, I mean I told Spencer and my best friend Brandy how I felt, but not the authorities." I said.
"Wow Page, for someone as carefree and out going as you are. I never would of guessed this was the type of life you had to live. I'm sorry." Levi said. He genuinely looked concerned. He even looked a little sad.
"Please Levi don't pity me. I'm doing so much better now and living life my way for me. I've never felt sorry for myself and you shouldn't either." I said and smiled at him. He smiled back at me.
"Your an amazing woman Page." He said.
"Thank you." I said to him. He reached over and kissed my nose.
"I'm glad my partner was sick the day we met." He said.
"Really and why is that?" I asked.
"Because I'm glad to be here with you now."He said. I bit my lip and moved myself closer to him. I placed my hands on his cheeks and pressed my lips to him. He kissed me back and this time I wasn't going to stop him.