Our kisses became hot and it took all I had not to rip his clothes off and have my way with him. His skillful hands were all over my body. I could hear his deep breathing along with mine. All of a sudden Spencer came into my mind. Flashes of his body on mine and our kisses filled my mind. I tried to push him away, but I failed. I took one last deep breath as I moved away from Levi. This just wasn't fair to him or me. Fuck! What was wrong with me. Levi just sat up and looked at me.
"I'm sorry Levi. It's just not the right time." I said sounding ashamed as I moved away from him. He smiled at me and reached out and moved a piece of my hair behind my ear.
"You don't have anything to be sorry for Page." He said. I just smiled at him as I was so angry inside with myself. Why? why was this happening to me? I kept scolding myself. "Hey," Levi said as he took me into his arms. "Why are you so upset?" He said in my ear as he rubs my shoulders. "This guy must have really done a job on you." He said. How the hell did he know? I just looked up at him and I could feel the tears in my eyes. He just shook his head. "I won't hurt you." He said. He sounded so sincere, but he wasn't the problem. Spencer was and I thought I was over him. I took a deep breath and just laid my head in Levi's chest. He held me for a while until I thought it was best for him to leave. Not that I wanted to be alone, but I needed some time to think.
Levi and I said goodbye and he gently kissed my cheek. I smiled at him and watched him leave. I closed the door and slid down the back of it and just put my head on my knees. What is wrong with me? I said to myself. I got up and ran to my room. I pulled open my dresser drawer and found the note Spencer left me with his cell number on the bottom. I was tempted to call him and let him have it. Scream at him for leaving me and making me feel this way. I took a deep breath as my shaky fingers pressed his numbers into my phone. I sat there just looking at the call button. I tilted my head up to the ceiling and just took a deep breath. I hit delete on my phone and tossed it across the room. My body fell to the floor and I cried.
The next couple of weeks went by in a flash. School was going great and I had made a couple of new friends. Levi hasn't been around too much. I think I might have scared him away, but I also haven't reached out to him. It's not that I don't want to, but I've got other things I need to focus on right now. I think a man is the last thing I need right now. I headed off to my English class that I was running late for. I walked in and all heads faced me. Shit, I said to myself.
"Nice of you to join us." The unknown voice rang out. I turned to see a stranger standing in front of the classroom. He was a young looking man with kind of long black hair and bright blue eyes. I stopped in my tracks and just gave him an I'm so sorry look as I took a seat quickly. He must be a sub for our teacher Mr. Cummings. I have to admit he was very handsome. Something I knew all the girls in this class was thinking. Considering it smelled like sex in here. I just shook my head. "As I was saying, my name is Mathew Swanson and I'll be filling in for Mr. Cummings till the end of the semester." He said loud and proud. Oh god, this man was going to be with us for four weeks. How are any of us going to get any work done? The bell rang and everyone started to head out. I grabbed my things and started to leave. "Excuse me." I heard Mathew say. I looked up at him and he was looking right at me.
"Yes, sir?" I said in a shy voice.
"Please join me at my desk." He said. I grabbed my things and went over to his desk.
"I'm sorry I was late sir, it won't happen again," I said. He smiled at me. I was chewing on my lip.
"What's your name?" He asked me.
"I'm Page Walker sir," I said. He smiled again.
"Please call me Mathew," he said. I gave him a small smile. "Page I don't like tardiness so please make sure you're on time from now on." He said. I nodded at him and just wanted to get out of there. I didn't want to fall under his spell like all the other girls in his class.
"Yes sir, I mean Mathew," I said. He laughed a little.
"You can go Page. See you tomorrow." He said. I nodded and left the room in a hurry. Jesus, what the hell was wrong with me? I said as I made my way down the hallway. The rest of the day dragged on and on. I couldn't wait to go home. Finally, the last bell rang and I headed to the cafeteria to grab some coffee. My head was tried and all I wanted to do was go home. I got to the cafeteria and who was standing there but Mr sexy himself. With about four girls around him just giggling away. I rolled my eyes and went over to the coffee bar. I sat my thing on the stool and waiting for the woman to come to take my order. I could hear the girl just laughing behind me. Honestly, I said to myself. The woman came over to me and I ordered my coffee and waited. She returned and handed me my cup of coffee. Before I could pay her. Mathew handed her his card.
"I got this." He said. I turned to look at him. I kind of cocked my head at him. He winked at me. You got to be kidding me. I said to myself. I crossed my arms.
"You didn't have to do that," I said.
"I know, but I wanted to. You look tired. I thought I could help." He said with a smile.
"By buying my coffee?" I asked him. he smiled again at me. This time I felt annoyed. "Don't you have a flock of girls over there to impress?" I was sorry right after it left my lips. He just looked me up and down for a moment. I turned away from him and sipped my coffee. He cocked his head at me and walked away. I felt like an ass and just took a deep breath and headed out to my car. I felt his eyes on me as I walked passed him. I don't understand why he made me feel that way or why I had to open my big mouth.
"Hey!" I heard someone shout as I opened my car door. I turned to see Mathew headed my way. Great, what now? I said to myself. He approached me and the look on his face wasn't a nice one. "You could of at least said thank you." He said.
"Thank you," I said. I just stood there waiting for him to say more.
"Your very closed off aren't you?" He said.
"You don't even know me," I said.
"Yeah, but I think I'd like to." He said. What? I said to myself.
"Why?" I asked him. He eyed me for a moment. I watched as he bit his bottom lip.
"I don't know, but I do. You have yourself a good evening Miss Walker. I watched him turn and walk away. What in the actual fuck? I said as I took a seat in my car. I don't know why, but I smiled all the way home.