Spencer and I followed the lawyer into his massive office. "Please have a seat." He said as he pointed to the chairs in front of his desk. Spencer and I took a seat. I watched as the man took a seat in front of us. "Hello Miss Walker. My name is John Mayfield. Your both here for the reading of Mrs. Bonnie Walkers last will and testament. Were going to start with you Mr. Alan. Bonnie Walker left this envelope for you. I'm not aware of its contents." I watched as Mr. Mayfield handed Spencer a large white envelope. Spencer took it and set it down on his lap. "Miss Walker, your mom left you everything." As he spoke his words my mind went in to shook. I knew the look on my face was priceless.
"I'm sorry sir, what did you say?" He looked over at me with a bit of a surprised look on his face.
"Yes Miss. Walker, you are left with both houses, the two cars and six million dollars." He said. All I could do was turn and look at Spencer. He reached over and squeezed my hand with a smile on his face. I didn't know what to think. My mother treated me like the plague. Why did she leave me everything? I kept saying to myself.
Spencer and I stayed there long enough to sign papers and leave. I didn't say much on the ride back home. I also noticed that Spencer hadn't opened the envelope he was given. Spencer was also quite. I watched as the trees passed by on the road. "What are you thinking about?" He said. I didn't even look at him.
"I'm not really sure. All of this is just so weird to me." That was all I could think to say. I know most of this was hard for Spencer to understand, but it was just the way I felt. Even though I have explained my life to him. I'm still sure its hard for him to understand. I still just don't believe she killed herself and I knew this was going to eat at me. I don't think I was going to be able to let it go.
"You should be happy Page. Your set for life." He said. I just looked over at him. But at what cost? I said to myself. "Page, I know all of this is hard for you, but your mother is out of your life and now your getting what you deserve." he smiled at me.
"I guess your right." I said. "Are you upset?" I asked him.
"About what?" He said.
"That she didn't leave you anything." I said.
"Why would I be? I mean I don't need anything from her." He said. "I wanted you to have it all anyways." He said looking at the road. "If she had left it all to me I was going to give it all to you." He said. I didn't know what to say to that. "Page, I don't need her money. Why would I keep it?" He said. I guess he was right. I mean Spencer is worth so much more than what my mother had, but to know he was going to just give it all to me. Made me want him even more.
"Spencer, can I ask you a question?" I said. He nodded at me. "What are your plans?" I asked him.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"Well, I mean there's no reason for you to stay here now. Everything with my mother is handled now and you don't have to stay." Spencer slowed the car down and pulled over to the side of the road. He shut the car off and turned to face me.
"I care about you a lot Page, but I don't think I'm the man for you. There's just so much going on in my life that I don't want to bring you into. Plus I married your mom without thinking. I thought I loved her, but I was wrong." He said.
"And you don't know how you really feel about me?" I said. He just looked at me. He took a hold of my hand.
"I know how I feel about you, but It's not fair for me to drag you into my world." He said. I started to shake my head. I was actually getting a little upset.
"Spencer, I don't mean to sound like a bitch or anything, but this all sounds like a shit move." He looked at me funny.
"What do you mean, shit move?" He asked me.
"I mean if you cared about me enough you would want me in your life. You wouldn't be giving me this shit story. I'm not weak I can handle your life. If you don't love me then you don't have to stay, but at least be a man and say it." I said. Spencer got a huge smile across his face. "Why are you smiling? This is not funny." I said.
"I'm not smiling because I find this funny Page. I'm smiling because you amaze me everyday." I just looked at him. What was that suppose to mean? I said to myself. I just looked at him. Spencer took a deep breath. "I'm not going to tell you I love you Page, because I'm choosing not to stay. I want you to go and live your life the way you want. I don't want to take any of that away from you." I cocked my head at him.
"Do you love me Spencer?" I asked him. He took a deep breath again. Then he turned his head away from me.
"I can't tell you that Page. I'm sorry." He said. I just crossed my arms and asked him to take me home. We drove the rest of the way in silence. We pulled up in front of my house and I got out of the car and walked away from Spencer. I felt hurt because I knew I was in love with with Spencer, but I also knew that if he really loved me he would stay. At least that's how I felt.
I got inside and closed the door behind me and went into the kitchen. I heard the front door open and close. Spencer came walking into the kitchen. "Is this how your going to act till I leave?" he asked me. I turned all pissed off and looked at him.
"How do you want me to act?" I asked him.
"Not like a child." He said.
"You have to be kidding me?" I hollered out. "Why don't you just go now Spencer. I mean I wouldn't want to keep interfering in your tough life." I said, as I made my way out of the kitchen. Spencer reached out and grabbed me by my arm and pulled me into his chest.
"Your taking this all the wrong way Page. Why are you acting so hurt?" He said. I tried to push away from him.
"Because I love you." I just blurted out. Fuck, I didn't mean to tell him that. I said to myself. Spencer looked down at me.
"You think I'm doing this because I don't love you back? That's not true Page. I'm doing this because I love you." He said.