My father's words were really bugging me and I was having a hard time sleeping. I rolled over and looked at the clock. It was after one in the morning. What exactly was I going to do at this time in the morning? I hated feeling like this. I don't take kindly to being used, but I didn't know if that's what was actually going on or not. Ugh, my brain and my heart were having a war and it wasn't allowing me to sleep. Screw this, I'm going to go talk to him. I need to know what's going on. I climbed out of bed and grabbed some sweats I got dressed and quietly left the house.
It took me about an hour to reach Dante's place. I pulled into the garage and parked by the elevators. Before I got out of my car, I saw the elevator doors open. Allissa and Dante stepped out. What in the hell is Allissa doing here at this time of night? I said to myself. I watched Dante walk her over to her car with his hand on her lower back. Are they seeing each other behind my back? I couldn't understand what they were saying to each other, but Allissa didn't look too happy. I should just get out of the car and go over there. I continued to watch them. Dante looked annoyed and Allissa looked upset. Fuck this, I said and got out of the car.
I headed toward them. They both looked over at me. Dante's face looked fearful and Allissa looked pissed. "Hey you two, what's going on?" I said as I reached them.
"What are you doing here?" Allissa said.
"No, I think I'll let you go first," I said. Dante wasn't saying a word. Allissa just stood there. "So, no one is going to say anything." I looked at both of them. "Okay, have a nice night," I said and headed back to my car. Before I could get in my car, Dante stopped me.
"Wait, Beth, don't go." He said. I turned and pushed him back.
"Why, obviously you two have things covered just fine." He ran his hand through his hair.
"It's not what it looks like, I swear." He said.
Allissa came running over to us. "What's really going on?" I asked. "Allissa, I'm talking to you." She looked down.
"I came over to see Dante because I was feeling lonely. I could have came over to you, but I knew your family would be asleep." She looked over at Dante. He took a deep breath.
"Then what were you two arguing about?" I asked.
"We weren't arguing," Allissa said. Things just didn't seem right. I crossed my arms and kept looking at both of them.
"I think I should just head home," I said.
"Wait a minute, what are you doing here?" Allissa asked me.
"I needed to talk to Dante alone." She studied me for a moment.
"Alone?" I just shook my head.
"Yeah, my father had some words today for me about Dante, and I wanted to talk to him about it. It had nothing to do with you." I was getting upset and you could hear it in my voice. First I'm told shit about Dante and Sierra and now I'm running into Allissa and Dante together in the middle of the night.
Now I really don't know what to think. "I'm leaving, good night," I said and got inside my car. Dante's face looked pained and Allissa just looked pissed off. I drove out of there and started to head home. This was all becoming ridiculous. I wasn't even looking for a relationship, but these two just fell into my lap. I guess that's how life works, but now I feel like I'm locked into a tangled mess. I just need to keep myself away from them. Maybe my trip to Paris needs to come sooner than later. I drove home trying to clear my head and I wasn't coming to any conclusions that I was happy with. I pulled up in front of the house and sat in my car. I could hear my phone buzzing in my purse.
I pulled it out of my bag and I had missed text messages and three missed calls. I checked the text messages first.
The first missed text was from Dante. "Sugar, please let me explain."
The second text was from Dante. "Please don't ignore me."
The third text was from Dante. "Please sugar?"
The fourth text was from Allissa. "We need to talk."
I took a deep breath. I didn't want to talk to either of them. I turn my phone off and headed inside. All of a sudden I was very tired.
The next day went by awfully slow. I didn't turn my phone on all day and my mother had been bugging me about what was wrong, but I kept telling her nothing. I just stayed in my room most of the day. I tried to remain focused on anything other than Dante and Allissa, but it just wasn't working. My only problem was my thoughts were more about Dante than Allissa. That was making things even more confusing for myself. I didn't understand why I was thinking like that. I felt like I had no one to talk to and I was having a hard time figuring things out for myself.
I heard a tap at my bedroom door and my mother stuck her head in. "Beth honey, can I talk to you?" She asked.
"Sure mom, come on in," I said. She walked in with two glasses of milk and a plate of her famous brownies. She always knew the way to my heart. She sat the tray down on my bed and climbed in with me.
"Beth, I know something is on your mind. Would you like to talk about it with me?" She asked. I really did, but how do I tell my mother what's wrong, if I'm so conflicted about everything myself?
"I'd love to talk mom, but I don't even know where to start," I said, looking down at my pillow.
"Why don't you just start from the beginning." She said.
I started from the very beginning, from the night of the ball all the way up to last night. I told her everything but leaving out the many details about the sexual stuff. I mean, this is my mother I don't need to get too personal. After I was finished, my mother sat there for a moment. "Does your brother know about Allissa?" She asked me. I just shrugged my shoulders.
"I really don't know." I said.
"Well honey, to me it sounds like you have developed feelings for Dante, but I don't think you have the same feelings for Allissa." I thought about her words for a moment. Was that the reason why I felt the way I felt? Did I really develop deeper feelings for Dante?
I felt like I was more confused than ever. "I don't know mom, maybe your right. I do like Allissa, I like her a lot, but." I stopped talking. Was I having actual deep feelings towards Dante? I asked myself. My mother taped my leg.
"Maybe you should think about things more." She said smiling at me.
"Okay, so let's say this is true. Let's say I've got feelings for Dante. What about what dad said?" I questioned her. She just shook her head.
"Adriana, you know how your father can be, and he means well. Trust me, but when have you ever just took the word of one person before finding out for yourself? You need to talk to him." I took a deep breath. I didn't want to see him right now. She bent over and kissed my forehead. "you'll figure this out Beth, I know you will." I smiled up at her as she left my room.
I grabbed a brownie and shoved it in my mouth. I really did waste the day away, as I turned to see it was already six at night. I got up and went into my bathroom to take a long needed hot bath. I started the bath and turned on my music. I dropped my clothes and slipped into the tub. I sung along with my music, trying to clear my head. Then my phone went off. I reached over to see it was Dante. I took a deep breath and answered it.
"Yes Dante, it's me." I loved it when he called me sugar.
"We need to talk." He said.
"So talk," I said.
"I think we have a problem with Allissa." He said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I mean, she showed up that night trying to get into my bed. It felt wrong to me and she got angry when I told her no. I told her this wasn't right without you." I took a deep breath.
"I knew something wasn't right with her that morning, but Dante you both can do whatever you want. We're not together." I said, there was silence on the other end.
"Do you really feel that way?" He asked me.
"To tell you the truth Dante, I don't know what I'm feeling. What I do know is you have a wife, who claims to be telling my father that you won't let it go, and apparently your possessive and rude. He wants me to stay away from you. Then I show up to talk to you about it and I find Allissa leaving your place in the middle of the night. I don't know what's really going on with you Dante, but you've got three women in your life. Who apparently has the wrong idea about you." I heard him take a deep breath. I closed my eyes, waiting for him to respond.
"And how do you feel about me sugar?" He asked me. Before he even acknowledged anything else I told him.
"I can't answer that for you just yet. What I can tell you is you'r always on my mind. That's the best I can give you right now."
"I promise you, your the one that's on my mind too." He said in a soft voice. I took a breath in. I felt his warmth all over my body and all I wanted to do was see him, but I knew I needed to figure out what was going on, before I completely lost myself in him.
"Whatever Sierra is telling your father is a lie." He said. I actually believed him. I wasn't sure why, but I did.
"I need to see you." I just blurted out. Fuck, sometime my mouth over rides my brain.
"I'm on my way." He said.
"Wait, my father is home. I'll meet you down the road." I said.
"Okay sugar, I can't wait to see you." He said and hung up the phone.
I got out of the tub and brushed my hair into a ponytail. I slipped into some leggings and a long sleeved blue top that showed my stomach when I pulled my arms up. I pulled my sneakers on and headed outside. My mother was in the kitchen with my father, "Come on princess, give me a kiss." My father said to my mother.
"Really dad?" I said as I walked by. I heard my mother laugh as I left the house. I took off running down the road. The last thing I needed was my father knowing what I was doing, but I needed to know what Sierra was up to. Plus I really wanted to see Dante. I just shook my head at my own thoughts.
Not long after I got to the end of the road, Dante pulled up and I got into his car. "I feel like a teenager sneaking out, and your the big bad wolf." I said. Dante laughed, and placed his hand on my leg. I didn't move it and just placed mine on top of it. We road in silence back to his place. We got inside and Dante went into the kitchen. I walked into his living room and took a seat. He came back in and handed me a glass of wine. He took the seat next to me. "Look, I think we might have a problem with Allissa." He said. I looked over at him.
"What do you mean?" I said.
"When she showed up here. She was talking about how much she wanted me and how her and I should be together. She did her best to try and get me into bed with her." He said. I listened to his words and took a deep breath.