I stared at the blue line in shock. Beside me, Mara inhaled sharply.
I closed my eyes as I tried to remain calm. This couldn't be happening.
"But, how? I'm on the pill."
My voice was wobbly, tears threatening to spill at any moment. I'd felt sick for a while, and my period was late. Mara had made me get a test, and now we were both sat on the bathroom floor at her house, stunned.
"It's not one hundred percent...have you missed any? Been ill? On medication?"
I racked my brains, which was like searching through a dusty filing cabinet lately.
"I honestly take it every day without fail."
Mara slid her arm around me as she kissed my head.
"Then it's that one percent. You need to tell Theo." She said softly, as I groaned.
"I can't." I murmured, as she frowned at me.
"What do you mean you can't?"
"He's been through so much with the whole Lissa thing...he doesn't want to be a teen dad. Trust me." I sighed as I picked up the pregnancy stick, analysing it carefully.
"Hannah." Mara said softly, as I turned to gaze at her sadly. "It's not your choice. You have to tell him. You're such an amazing couple, he will be so happy-"
"He will be stuck. He will be stuck with me, in this town, with this baby, forever." I shook my head sadly. "I don't want that for him."
"You have to tell him!" She demanded, her eyes flashing. "Tell him now. You can decide together, but don't you dare try and go through this alone."
She was right, but I just felt trapped. I wasn't even sure I wanted the baby- I lived with my mom and brother for gods sake. I was still in school. I had no job. Hardly idyllic.
Mara handed me my phone, and I texted Theo, asking if he could come and get me from Maras. He rang me instantly.
"Baby." He yawned, as I felt tears begin to spill at the sound of his voice. "Hannah?"
"Can you come and get me?" I managed, but knew he was probably already in the car.
"Are you ok?" He barked, as I heard the engine start shortly after.
"I'm fine- just come. Drive carefully."
He hung up immediately, and I felt intense nerves in the pit of my stomach. Mara rubbed my back reassuringly, as I gathered the stick and the box it came in.
"I'm ruining his life."
"Hannah, having a baby is a blessing! You are in love, and are so good together. You'll get through this regardless of your decision. Just please stop trying to decide for him." She begged, as I allowed myself to fall into her arms. "Plus I would totally be the Aunt." She whispered, and I felt myself laugh.
"You'd have to marry him first." I pointed out, as she chewed on her lip thoughtfully.
"I told him not yet. I want to finish school first."
I looked up at her sharply, a gasp escaping my lips.
"Wait. He's asked you?"
She nodded, as she smiled widely.
"He said he wants to marry me, but wanted to see how I felt about it if he proposed. He doesn't want to scare me off- we've been together about a month." She giggled as I stared at her in disbelief.
"I know. I jumped on him I was so excited!"
We made our way downstairs as the doorbell chimed through the house. I looked at Mara nervously as she went to open it.
"Want me to make myself scarce?"
"Yes please. In the nicest way. I have to do this myself." I swallowed, as Mara opened the door.
"Hi Theo, bye Theo." She strode past him as he looked at her in bewilderment.
"Has she just left her own house?" He jutted a finger in her direction as I waited for him to finally come in. He turned back to me, the smile on his lips fading when he took in my appearance. His eyes fell to the box in my hand, and he opened his mouth in an 'o' shape.
"A pregnancy test." I whispered, as he gazed at me, frozen to the spot.
"Are you, uh, are you...pregnant?" He managed, his voice strangely high pitched.
"Wow." He breathed, walking towards me. He took my hand, and kissed it softly. "So are these tears of happiness or sadness?" He asked quietly, as he wiped under my eyes.
"I honestly don't feel happy." I confessed, as he nodded slowly. "I'm in school, you're in school. We don't have any money. It would be so difficult Theo."
He was silent for a moment, as he studied me carefully.
"But it's our baby. We would have to find a way, to manage. I could work-"
"Like last time? I saw how exhausted you were."
"This isn't like last time." His eyes flashed angrily, making me step away from him instinctively. "It's us. It's you. I'd love working knowing you were carrying our child."
"You'd need to finish school-"
"Hannah." His voice was dangerously low. "Fuck logistics. Fuck society and its expectations. I want to know how you feel, and the rest will follow. Do you want this baby?"
My hand fell from his as I swallowed.
"If money wasn't an issue, if we could finish school, yes."
"Say that again without the caveats." He ordered, a smile on his face.
"Of course I want our baby Theodore. But-"
"No buts. We will find a way. Together. I love you Phillips. I always have. I know this isn't ideal, but it's the beginning of the rest of our lives. It's our family."
I chewed on my lip, my heart thundering in my chest at his words. He was right, of course, but I knew the stress we would be under.
"Ok." I said quietly, as he tilted my head up to his. "Let's do it."
"Han, you have to be sure. Give it a few weeks-"
"I'm sure. You're right. I'm worried about things that anyone would worry about of any age. I just really want us to finish school."
He nodded, pulling me into his arms as he kissed my head. I inhaled his scent, feeling myself relax as he spoke.
"We have a year left. Then exams. We can do this baby."
"I'm scared Theo." I whispered into his chest as he wrapped his arms tightly around me.
"We can do anything baby. Anything. I'm here with you every step of the way, and I fucking adore you."
"I don't want you to resent me."
He stiffened then as he forced me to look at him.
"Don't you understand I've wanted you for so long, it would be impossible to resent you. For anything. This...is amazing. I can't wait to be married, more kids...I'm willing to work hard to make sure we have it all."
"Me too." I confessed, as I felt his lips finally capture mine.
"So, does this mean I'm an aunt?" I heard a voice ask from behind us, as we pulled apart to see Mara grinning widely.
"Don't you have to marry Ryan first?" Teased Theo as she rolled her eyes.
"Legalities. I will, one day. Congratulations guys. Uh, Hannah, I'll be with you when you tell Ryan..." She shifted uncomfortably as I smiled gratefully.
"Thank you. Do you extend your services to Zane?" I groaned inwardly as I felt Theo stroke my back.
"I'll tell Zane. I'll tell them all if you like." He grinned at me as I saw the genuine happiness in his eyes.
"I'm so glad she told you." Mara exhaled, walking into the kitchen.
"Mara!" I hissed, as Theo frowned.
"You weren't going to tell me baby?" He asked, concern etched in his voice as he studied me.
"I just didn't want to ruin your life." I said in a small voice, as he shook his head in disbelief.
"You leaving me would ruin my life. This only enhances it. Come on Phillips, am I in this by myself?! I love you."
"I love you too, De Luca."
♡ THE END ♡