Sunday, June 14th 2:27PM
My name is Matthias Baker. I’m thirty four years old, a military veteran, and a privately contracted bodyguard. Four years ago, I was honorably discharged from the United States Army. I served my country as a member of special ops and for the most part, I enjoyed it. However, there was always something missing. I’d look at other members of my team and notice how one year they’d be married with a baby on the way, and the next, they’d be divorced. We never asked. We didn’t talk about it, but it got to the point where I realized that my life was becoming a marathon of utter isolation and the only future I focused on, was completing the mission in front of me.
I’ve been described by others as reserved, quiet, cold even. But the truth is that I’ve learned more by sitting back and observing than I ever have by opening my mouth. It’s probably why I succeeded in my job. I’ve never been a people person, but I’ve always been able to read people. I possess the ability to figure someone out within minutes of meeting them and as far as friends go, I’m able to determine whether I like someone or not, almost immediately.
As far as relationships go, I don’t know that I’ve ever been in a place to give someone what they’d need emotionally. My focus for eleven years was, serve in the military, obtain a degree, make sergeant, and then make Delta Force. I chose not to engage with locals whether I was stationed overseas or stateside. It made for a lonely life, sometimes. However, I decided early on in my career that I’d rather be single than marry the first chick I met.
In the Army, marriages were a dime a dozen, and I could count a soldier on both hands, who’d gotten married and divorced in one deployment. Husbands and wives came and went and I wasn’t interested in that life. And I certainly wasn’t interested in being played for a fool. Both soldiers and their wives slept around on their spouses and then had the nerve to go home to them as though nothing happened.
I’ve never been interested in that kind of fleeting love. The conditional kind where women married soldiers for stability and soldiers married for a semblance freedom. I’ve always known that in the distant future, if I ever fell in love, It’d have to be real. All consuming, trusting, lasting... I knew even then that if I ever found someone to call mine, It would have to be a life changing love for me to consider settling down.
That kind of love, I didn’t believe existed. But now I know that it does. I never expected for it to happen the way that it did, or with who it did, but the important thing is that I found it. And it took over my life in ways I’d never once have imagined it would.
My world was turned upside down four years ago, and I’ll never forget the moment it happened for as long as I live.
This... is my story.
The story of how I met Mya and Mavis. The only girls I’ve ever loved. The only girls I ever will love.