Chapter 11 Could he really hurt me like that?
Chapter 11 Could he really hurt me like that?
”Yes, he does that…It’s his trademark like that obnoxious smirk is yours. It’s irritating as hell”
I answer Gus feeling a pinch in my heart. I wish he could stay. Why can’t he just stay? Doesn’t he want to stay? But his actions certainly show me that he wants to. What if it’s just a trick and this is how he wants me to pay my debt?
But if that was the case, then it makes no sense that he wanted us to stop, that he was so hesitant about it. He said it wouldn’t be fair to me and that I might hate him when I find out who he is. What if I will hate him? What if all this sweet and charming man actually is worse than Jason? I groan frustrated and look at Gus, who still looks shocked
“Damn Ivy, he is scary as fuck and he just disappeared like he was never here. Who is that guy?”
“I don’t know who he is… He called himself Sam, but I know that it’s not his name.” I say with a big sigh
“Whoa! You are sleeping with a guy and you don’t even know his name? Damn Ivy I didn’t think you were that naughty”
He says and wiggles his eyebrows and I snort. No, I am not sleeping with him thanks to you, I almost say.
“I am not sleeping with him.”
“Okay, but you want to? How does that even work? I mean you have a mate, please tell me that you aren’t doing this even though you don’t want to just to get back at Jason”
“First, I’m not doing anything. Two, I’m not doing anything I don’t want to do. Three, I’m not trying to get back at Jason. I… like him and I don’t know how it’s possible.”
“You should talk to Lia about this, she is an Omega and she is a damn good one too.”
“No, I am not talking to Lia about this because then I need to explain how I met him and that I owe him for helping me save her. I don’t want her to feel guilty and we both know that she will, she is sweet and soft, too soft.”
“Okay, but I still think that you should talk to her about it. So you like him as in like, like him?”
He asks with a huge grin and I roll my eyes
“Can we just go back?”
I say and start walking in the direction of the packhouse.
“Come on let shift and we get back a lot faster.”
He tells me and I try to feel if my wolf is there but she’s not. I swallow the lump in my throat and take a deep breath, Mr Green eyes said that she is still there. He said that she hasn’t left me and I believe him.
I did feel her even if it was just for a second. But I miss her, it feels like a part of me is broken. But I won’t let that stop me from finding out what the freaking hell is going on here.
“I prefer to walk.” I say and keep my eyes glued to the ground
“Ivy you need to let your wolf out, you haven’t shifted for days and your wound is healed now. We both know that if you don’t let out some steam, you get all cranky. Remember that time you mother punished you and didn’t allow you to shift for a week, you practically tore the house down.”
“I was eight years when that happened and I want to walk, okay?!”
I hiss irritated at him and I feel his eyes burn a hole in my back.
“You lost her didn’t you?”
He says and I almost trip. I clench my hands into fists and curse the universe for everything and for… yeah just everything.
“I don’t know what you are talking about!”
I snarl and he comes to stand in front of me. He grabs my chin and force me to look at him
“Ivy, did you lose your wolf?”
He asks again, worry shining in his eyes. I back away and look down on the ground and study my feet.
“Yes a few days ago, when we got here. When Jason.. Was all over his girlfriend outside the pack house. But she is still there, she is just hiding.”
“I’m going to kill him!”
“No Gus, there’s no point, Jason isn’t worth the trouble.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
He asks and I see the pity in his eyes. I hate that, I even hate the word pity. I might be fucking angry at everything and blame Jason but I don’t feel sorry for myself, most of the time anyway. And even if I do, I don’t want anyone else to feel sorry for me. I know I can fix this, I just don’t know how. I will get my wolf back even if I have to drag her out by her tail.
“Because I… I don’t want anyone to know about it, especially not Jason or my parents. Mum would probably get a heart attack and then Trey and Greyson would come here fussing over me because mum ordered them to. They would probably kill Jason and make it all worse. You have to promise me to not tell anyone. Promise me Gus!”
I say and it’s not a plead it’s an order coming from an Alpha.
“Ivy you need to talk to someone about this, your mother…”
He starts, but I interrupt him with a threatening growl. Gus needs to learn how to obey orders! I have always admired that about him. How he shrugs my dad´s off with a smirk when he thinks that they are being stupid, but right now I do not admire that about him.
“My mother can’t do shit about this! I’m going to fix this, me and no one else. I am the only one who can fix this and you know that too. So keep your mouth shut about this!”
Gus nods his head and I start walking back towards the packhouse. Half way there I see Jason´s coming towards me in his Lycan form. He snarls at me before he shifts and I look away when he stands there naked before me.
“Look at me!”
He growls and I see Gus tens up by my side, ready to defend me if needed. I don’t look at him, I don’t want to look at him. I feel him stepping closer and for every step he takes I feel his anger stronger and stronger. It triggers mine and my Alpha instincts just want to put him in his place.
But I need my freaking wolf to be able to do it! Damn wolf! I shift from foot to foot when my body starts itching to dig my claws into him. When I look into his yellow eyes, I see how tired and sad they look. Why?
“Gus, leave us.”
He says with a calm voice and Gus snorts at him. I pretend to scratch my cheek hiding my amused smile and Jason narrows his eyes at me. I clear my throat and place a hand on Gus bicep only because I know that Jason doesn’t like it.
“Gus, it’s okay. Why don’t you wait for me in my room?”
A low rumbling growl leaves Jason and Gus smile goes huge. If someone is up for some teasing it is Gus. He is all about irritating people and he is damn good at it. Gus looks me up and down, nodding his head with a sneaky smile and then he kisses my cheek before he with a wink says
“I warm up the bed for you.”
I can hardly keep myself from laughing when Gus turns around and give Jason his trademark smirk. Jason glare after Gus until he is so far away from us that he can’t hear us talk before he turns back to look at me.
“Have the two of you…”
He starts to say, but stops talking when I raise my eyebrows. He drags his hands through his hair and sighs, his eyes going back to that beautiful brown chocolate color.
“Ivy please don’t go into the forest alone, this rogues are vicious and they will hurt you.”
“So they are like you?”
I ask disgust lacing my voice and I am sure that it can be seen in my eyes too. This is exactly how I feel about him, I hate my mate for everything he has done to me. He looks at me, his eyes looks almost pleading when he speaks
“Ivy, you don’t understand.”
“I understand perfectly, you want to keep me, but you don’t want me. You are just like them, mean and evil. You aren’t even worthy of your title. Just because you moved from a camp to a packhouse doesn’t mean that you will be anything more than just than a traitorous rogue! ”
I hiss and he moves closer so fast that I don’t have the time to react.
“Yes, I was forced to be a rogue for a lot of years and I do things differently. Thanks to that a lot of people are alive, including you!”
Including me? I think, but all thoughts about that is gone when he stiffens and his eyes turn back to yellow and I see anger flash in them. I gulp when he leans closer and sniff me. He can smell him on me... my whole body stiffen when his grip on my arm tightens almost painfully.
“Where is he?”
“Even if I knew I wouldn’t tell you!”
He grabs my hair and forces me to look at him, we glare at each other.
“Did you contact him and told him that you are here?”
I give him a smirk, but doesn’t answer
“Did he fuck you?”
He asks and I can hear the fury in his voice even though he tries to rein it in.
“That is none of your business and why do you even care? You have your own fuck toy so I think that I’m allowed to have one too”
“I don’t fuck her!”
“Don’t lie to me! I heard the two of you!”
I snap back at him.
“I can’t fuck her because my Lycan only wants you! I don’t even sleep in my own room anymore, but she does and she is definitely not sleeping with me!”
He growls and I actually believe him. That part of me that wants him cheer in pure joy. He isn’t sleeping with her, but he is still too damn close to her for it to be okay. And now he is mad at me because he can’t be with her?
“Are you letting him touch you because I don’t?”
He asks and I snort
“What he and I do has nothing to do with you. I like him, I feel things for him that I don’t feel for you!”
He flinches like I punched him and then he shows me his fangs and I freeze.
“Well pup, then I might have to do something about that!”
“What are you going to do?”
I ask with wide eyes and he gives me a wicked smile. Shivers of fear run up my spine and I almost feel sick. Damn wolf I need you, as in NOW! Come here now! I yell to her in my head.
“I’m going to make you mine in all ways I can”
He says and I gasp when he lowers his head towards my neck. I struggle against him, but he holds me in place. I desperately call to my wolf, but she doesn’t come and I feel the panic rise inside of me. I try so hard to shift that my body starts to ache, but nothing happens.
When I feel his fangs against my marking spot pain ripples through me. He can’t do that! He wouldn’t mark me without my consent, or would he? Could he really hurt me like that? Marking someone without their consent is one of the worst things that a mate can do.
Tears flow down my cheeks when his fangs penetrate the skin and blood trickle down my neck.
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