Please listen to me
Chapter 4 Please listen to me.
I try to fight him off, but he is too strong. Fear stronger than I have ever felt before course through me and I scream as loud as I can.
“Ivy please listen to me.”
He begs me and leans his head against my forehead, but I don’t stop struggling. I want to shift, but I can’t and I suspect that it is he who prevents me from doing it.
“Shh, it’s okay. I won’t hurt you and I would never force you to do anything you don’t want to do.”
He tells me his voice is low and he talks slowly, suddenly I feel so tired, sleepy and I just want to lay down and a nap. I blink and blink and when I stop struggling I feel wide awake again.
“You tricked me.” I say accusingly
“I did not trick you! You never wanted to know what it would cost you to receive my help”
He tells me and rubs his cheek against mine. I clench my jaw
“It’s wrong, I have a mate. You mess with my head and you touch me. It’s wrong.”
He grabs my chin and forces me to look at him and I gulp seeing that his eyes seem to burn, like there was an actual flame in them. His body seems to be warmer and the anger he feels seeps into me and I whine like a puppy. I can feel it in every cell of my body and even though he is so warm it freezes my inside to ice. My heart is beating so fast that I can hear it.
“I would never take advantage of you, or any other woman like that!”
He growls and releases me. I back away from him so fast that I stumble and fall to the ground. He looks at me, his chest heaving with anger and his eyes are still burning. I crawl further away from him not stopping until my back hits a tree. Tears roll down my cheek when all feelings overwhelms me and I let out small sobs. He closes his eyes and take a deep breath and when he looks up at me again his eyes are back to normal. The anger is gone, replaced with regret and sadness.
“I’m sorry for scaring you, I don’t want you to fear me. I am not around people so much and I forget that they are more sensitive. Especially your kind or should I say especially you. You can easily feel others emotions. I’m sorry Ivy. But you have to believe me, I would never hurt you or force you to do anything.”
“I have a mate, it shouldn’t be possible, I should hate that you touch me.”
I tell him waving my hand between us. He slowly walks towards me and sits down against a tree, but keeps his distance which I am grateful over.
“I’m not a wolf, far from it. Your mate bond holds nothing over me.”
I’m not sure what to make out from that and now I only have more questions. I can’t deny that he has a way of making me want things I shouldn’t want. But I have a mate and most of the time others doesn’t interest you, so who is he if my mate bond isn’t stronger than this? But Jason hasn’t marked me and he has taken the first unmating step maybe that is why? Or he could just be my free pass? A free pass, a chance to… my wolf barks and wags her tail and I scold both myself and her. I see him study me with his head tilted to the side and my cheeks immediately heat up again. I need to stop thinking about him like that, at least when he is around it is so embarrassing. It always looks like he knows what I am thinking.
“Why are you blushing little Wolf?”
“I… it. I mean I think I have too much clothes on.”
I slap my hand over my mouth, too much clothes on? I’m only wearing a dress, underwear and shoes and that is NOT too much. I see him holding back his laugh when he looks at my dress.
“That´s probably the best lie you have ever told me.”
“Hey Mr, I didn’t… I wasn’t, I mean I wasn’t going to say that.”
“Then tell me what it was that you were going to say”
I stand up and glare at him but he doesn’t move, he just watches me.
“I won’t answer your questions because you never answer mine.”
I tell him crossing my arms over my chest and look down on him. He smiles sweetly and damn why does he have to smile like that? How am I supposed to be mad or even irritated when he behave like this?
“I answered two of your questions.”
“Yes, but your answers only lead to more question so it doesn’t count like an answer!”
He slowly stands up like he is afraid that I would run away if he made a to hasty movement.
“I answered them truthfully and then your imagination went wild and you made assumptions. I haven’t told you everything but you need to be patient. I don’t want to scare you like I just did.”
I look in his green eyes still seeing the regret and pain in them. I take a hesitant step towards him, then another, not stopping until I’m just a few feet away.
“I’m sorry, I got scared. It was stupid of me to say that and make those assumptions. I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
“You don’t have to apologize little Wolf. Most people are scared of me and they react even worse than you did. You are a lot braver than you give yourself credit for. I must say it was surprising that you yelled at me tonight, I don’t think anyone has ever done that to me before.”
He tells me smiling and a stupid giggle escapes me, I do not giggle I tell myself. I close the space between us and wrap my arms around his waist, he let out a deep breath and press me harder against his chest. He feels so good and warm.
“Who are you, what are you?” I ask and he chuckles
“Trust me, you had enough excitement for one night. Let me follow you home, I promise I will tell you one day.”
One day? That can mean the next millennia and I refuse to wait that long. Someone must know something and I’m going to search until I find the answer. I’m so busy thinking about everything he told me and not told me that my sneaky wolf takes over for a brief moment and I find myself rubbing my cheek against his chest like a cat. My wolf lets out a purr and I scold her for the hundred times since I ran after him.
“Why do you do that? Keep your paws to yourself!”
I hiss at her in my head and she turns her back at me with a loud snort.
“We need to have a serious discussion about this and don’t turn your back at me when I’m speaking to you!”
His voice is soft as honey when he interrupts my one way conversation with my wolf.
“She is just as cute as you are.”
He tells me and I look up at him with a questioning look trying to pretend that rubbing myself against him isn’t a big deal
“Your wolf, I can feel her and hear her.”
My cheeks go bright red, does he know what my wolf thinks about him? She purrs even louder and I scold her again before she starts to do tricks to get more of his attention.
“Does that mean that you know what I’m thinking too?”
I see him holding back a smile and I almost freak out.
“Not really and I don’t try to see inside your head, but sometimes your thoughts and emotions are so strong that I can hear or see them without trying.”
“What have you heard?” I blurt out horrified
“Do you really want me to tell you?”
“Yes, God Damn it, its my thoughts!”
“Very well, but don’t be mad at me if you don’t like it. You were going to do something you didn’t really want to do with that boy tonight”
“You could have chosen another thought!”
I hiss at him and he buries his nose in my hair. I feel more ashamed than I have ever done in my life and he strokes my back smiling against my neck.
“The Moon Goddess magic is strong, you and your wolf are strong and the two of you are a team working together in perfect sync, don’t try to ruin that because you are hurting.”
I am too stunned to ask how he knows that I am hurting because all I can think about is that he acknowledged my strength. He sees me like a strong wolf and he doesn’t even know me. No one has ever looked at me like that before except for my parents and Lisa, sure Nyx does it sometimes to.
Definitely not Jason even though he has seen with his own eyes what I can do. To my mate, I am useless and just a pup. A stinging pain rush through me when I think about Jasons mean words. I’m Ivy Winters and I don’t let people push me around I don’t cry because people are mean to me. But it’s different with Jason, his word hurts and cut deep into my soul and I just feel weak.
“Don’t ever let anyone make you believe otherwise. You are strong and the most beautiful woman I have ever met.”
“Umm… thank you.”
I say, blushing like a schoolgirl again and I feel stupid because I’m smiling like a dork. He called me strong and the most beautiful woman he has met. If I were an emoji I would have heart eyes right now. I need a chill pill or two, no I need a whole can! Just because a man gives you a compliment you can’t get all head over heels. I need to put a leash on myself.
“Why did you help me in the cave?”
“Flacără de foc, Little wolf I have been waiting for you for a very long time.”
“See, you are doing it again! You give me an answer that isn’t an answer to my question, no you tell me something and now I have even more questions.”
He chuckles and his beautiful eyes start to sparkle like someone is poring glitter in them.
“ I have known for a long time that I would meet you”
“Can you see the future?”
I ask still looking into his eyes like he has me hypnotized and in a way he has. He laughs and shakes his head.
“No, I can’t see the future, but I have known that I will find you one day. That day when you went to see the witch in Montana and she called you Flacără de foc, I knew that you were here”
He tells me and smiles at me like he knows something I don’t. Of course he knows things I don’t know because he doesn’t tell me shit. I pull away realizing that we have been standing for a very long time in each others arms. I look down on the ground feeling stupid. I have a debt to pay too this man I shouldn’t be standing here in the forest cuddling with him.
“I need to go home.”
We walk towards my car that is parked outside Lisa’s house. There’s so much I want to ask him, but there’s no point he never answers. I feel so confused and happy and angry at the same time. I curse under my breath when we come out of the forest and my car comes into view.
“What’s wrong little Wolf?”
I glance at him and see him looking at me, those fucking eyes drives me crazy! I stumble, but he catches me from diving head first into the pavement. Since when did I become clumsy? Oh, I know, since Mr green eyes twisted my head into goo.
“You need to be careful.”
He says and looks down on me. I pinch my eyes shut, unable to look him in the eyes anymore, it is like torturing yourself. I stop breathing when I feel his hot breath caress my lips and I don’t dare to move. Waves of goosebumps and tingles flush my skin, I have only one thought in my head and that is that I need to feel his lips against mine.
He whispers softly and I take a shaky breath and open my eyes, his lips aren’t even a full inch away. My wolf urges me to lean closer and I part my lips slightly when I hear a voice calling my name. He pulls away with a small smile and disappointment fills me to the verge where I almost want to cry.
“Ivy what are you doing?”
Lisa calls to me again. He lets go of me and take a step back. He looks at Lisa with a sigh
“I’m leaving tonight.”
“What?” I ask surprised
“I have things that I need to take care of.” He says cryptically
“Where are you going?”
“I need to go home.”
My wolf lets out a small whining sound and he looks at me sadness shining in his eyes.
“Will you be back? For how long will you be gone?”
“Take care of yourself little Wolf”
He tells me and kiss me on the forehead, then he turns towards the forest and leaves. I run after him, but he is gone without a trace. I stand there staring in disbelief when Lisa grabs my arm and spin me around.
“What are you doing Ivy? Are you okay? Why did you run into the forest when I called your name?”
“Yes, I’m fine, I just, didn’t you see him?”
“See who?” She asks and look around
“The man, tall with black hair. The man who stood with me on the curb when you approached us”
“Ivy have you been drinking? There was never a man here.”
She tells me and I blink feeling too confused to really understand what she is saying.