It’s been a little over a week now that I have been in this hospital. All I want to do is go home, but everyone is worried about my mental state. I don’t talk and I won’t eat. Well, I don’t talk or eat for anyone but Darren. I can’t tell you what my problem is or why I’m so attached to Darren right now. I don’t understand it myself. If anyone tries to come in or tries to touch me. I lose my shit and cry out for Darren. It’s been so bad that he has stopped leaving the hospital altogether. Even his father William has tried to talk to me, to let me know Darren needs to help find the people responsible for my daughter’s death, but it doesn’t matter. I don’t hear any of them. Including Lucas. I have pushed him away the most and still, he stays. I see him at least once every day. I don’t talk to him, but I haven’t moved away from him as much. Darren has told me he doesn’t leave the hospital. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me.
Darren stood on the side of my bed while the doctor was telling me it was time to go home. My home is not with Darren and I started to panic. I looked over at Darren and he could see the fear in my eyes. “Don’t worry beautiful. I will talk to Lucas and you will come home with me.” Darren said and I started to panic again. He cocked his head at me. “What’s wrong?” He asked.
“That house, I can’t.” I started to struggle with my words.
“Oh no, I sold that house. I have a new place in the city. You will come with me there.” He said and I relaxed some. I was a little worried about how Lucas was going to feel about this, but at the same time. I just didn’t care. I had to be near Darren. I felt completely safe with him.
“Lucas, we need to talk,” I said to him as I walked out of her room. Lucas stood up and walked over to me. “The doctors are releasing her today. She wants to come home with me.” I could see the anger rising up inside of him. “Before you lose it, hear me out. I own a penthouse. There are six bedrooms. You may come and take one of the rooms.” I said. “But she will not go with you. I’m sorry to say that, but we have to deal with her until she is healed. Please don’t make this harder then it already is. I’m willing to work with you on this, but this is how it is.” I said in a calm voice.
I would like to say that I was eating up the attention that Scarlet was giving me. I was number one in her eyes right now and she felt protected with me and me only, but I knew it was because of the loss of our daughter. I knew in the back of my heart that she had to be near me because I was the closest thing she had to the baby. I also knew her heart belonged to Lucas Daton and when she was better that’s where she would go, but for now, I was at her feet and wouldn’t leave her side until she asked me to. I would give her the world if it would take her pain away. I wouldn’t let anything happen to her as long as she wanted me near her. She has no idea how in love with her I am. No one does but my father. He only knows because he can read me like a book. The loss of our daughter has killed a part of me, but I can’t leave her side to take care of this yet. She needs me and I can see it in her eyes whenever her fear rises and she looks at me. I can’t walk away from her yet.
I know when the time comes and I do walk away from her. That I will burn this whole world to the ground. To find out who took Scarlet and killed my baby girl. I will skin everyone alive who stands in my way. I will kill families to get to the people involved in this, but for now, I keep that part of me hidden to take care of her. She is everything to me and I will move worlds for her. I also know that Lucas feels the same way. How can a man be so strong to stay and watch the woman he loves, Only want a different man’s arms? I know he loves her as much as I do. I can only give him the respect he deserves. I know how tough that is because I did it for over seven months. The moment I found out she was carrying my baby. I had to be near her. I had to watch her love him and until now, I thought that was the hardest thing I ever had to do but to see her in pain that I can’t fix. Now that’s the hardest thing I have to do.
Lucas agreed and went home to pack her things and some of his own. I gave him the new address and the code for the penthouse. It was heavily protected and he had to have the code to get inside the building itself. I was in the room helping her get herself together. She was quiet, but that’s normal. She only talks to me if I talk to her first. “Scarlet, Lucas will be staying at the house with us. I gave him a room of his own.” I told her. She looked over at me. Not with fear but you could tell she was thinking about things. I almost thought she was going to say he could stay in her room, but she didn’t she just went back to getting herself together. I pushed her down the hospital hallways with Lucas following behind us. I got her in the car and she watched me as I smiled at her and sat inside next to her. Lucas got in and she just looked out the window. We all agreed she needed therapy. I set it up with a female doctor to come to the house and talk with her. I wasn’t sure how well this was going to go and I decided to wait to tell her. I wanted her to get comfortable in the new place first and I knew that was going to take a while.
We pulled up at the new place and I got out of the car to help the driver with the bags. Lucas had got back to the hospital before we left and he had her things put into the car. I was in the back of the car when Scarlet got out of the car. She missed her footing and almost went to the ground. Lucas caught her and she looked into his eyes and my heart stopped, but then she pushed herself away from him and apologized to him. “It’s okay baby.” He said to her and she moved closer to me. I could see the pain on his face and it didn’t feel too good to see that. I knew he was hurting. I just didn’t know how long he could put up with it. Lucas came over and help us to grab everything. We got her set up in her room and after she fell asleep. I found Lucas sitting in the kitchen. He had a drink in his hands.
“Lucas, my home is your home. Anything you need just ask man.” I said to him.
“Do you think me being here is worth it?” I heard him ask me.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean she is wanting nothing to do with me. How long do you think it will be until she wants you only.” He said. I just hung my head and shook it.
“Lucas, her heart belongs to you. Our child is gone, she is so broken right now. I don’t think she knows which way is up. I don’t think she is acting this way because she wants to be with me.” I said to him. He just shook his head and looked out the window.
“If she loves me so much, how come it’s you she goes to?” He asked.
“Because I’m the father Lucas, don’t you see it? Once she is over all of this pain she will go back to you.” I said out of anger and I could feel myself heating up. I was trying to be the better man, but I was in a lot of pain myself and only Scarlet was keeping me together. I looked at him for a moment and walked off. I had to, if I stayed I would end up doing or saying something that I would regret. I walked to her bedroom door and that’s when I heard her cries. I knew she was having a nightmare. I took a deep breath and went to her side. She was crying and tossing and turning. I sat on the side of her bed and softly woke her up. She wrapped her arms around me and I hugged her close to me. Then she did something that shocked me. Her lips came to mine and before I knew it I was kissing her back. No stupid stop it, she is using you. I said to myself. I pulled myself away from her. “Scarlet, what are you doing?” I asked her.
“Please Darren, help me make a baby.” Her soft sweet voice pleaded with me. My mouth fell open at her request. I said I would give her the world, but this was crazy. The tears filled her eyes and it was breaking my heart. Scarlet needed help that I just couldn’t give her. I reached out and ran my hand down the side of her face.
“Listen to me beautiful. I can’t do that.” I said to her. If she was mine I would give her anything she wanted right now, but I know I don’t have her heart and this would be wrong. I just couldn’t so it. Even as her voice pleaded with me over and over again. I pushed her away. “Scarlet, I have a doctor coming to talk with you.” She looked at me and cocked her head. “We have to help you to get better,” I said to her. She looked at me like I had betrayed her and then she turned her back on me. I gave in and slumped forward as I left her room. I closed the door behind myself and leaned against the wall. I was so tired and I felt defeated. It was hard not to lay her down and give her what she needed to feel better, but I just couldn’t do it. It was wrong. I looked down the hallway to the kitchen. Where I knew Lucas was still sitting. Maybe he can give her what she needs? I said to myself. I then started to walk towards the kitchen. I had to have a talk with Lucas.