It is never easy leaving with a broken heart. But she had to save what was left of her heart. Walking away was tough but staying away seemed worse, till she found Lino Ray, her redemption and the one who awakened her passion.
“Hey, look at me.” Yanick Said to me.
I slowly turned my head to look at him. I was laying on my back. I was having second thoughts. I did not want to give in to him. I did not feel ready for this.
“I love you “ he said.
“ I love you too.” I said to him, sincerely. I really did love him. I just wasn’t sure about what I was doing right now. I did not feel ready enough to give myself to him.
“Then trust me.” He said. “It won’t hurt. I will be gentle.” He completed.
I wanted to say no, but I did not want to lose him. I could do anything to keep him and I knew I could not stand the thought of him getting it from somewhere else.
“Fine.” I slowly said to him.
He gave me a broad smile like he was eagerly waiting for this. I looked at him as he fidgeted with my buttons. I was putting on a button up denim dress. This was way too easy for him to get me naked.
He pulled me out of my dress, looking pleased with what he was seeing. He smiled at me and he unbuttoned his shirt, getting it off and throwing it away, tossing it in the chair in his room. He then undid his trouser and threw it in the same direction. He was very speedy and he placed himself in-between my legs. He saw my hesitation and looked at me.
“ Come on, I thought we have already talked about this.” He said.
I nodded as I opened my legs for him. I swallowed hard, not knowing what to expect. I was very nervous and I was sweating. His hand reached for the fabric that was covering my genital area. He stroked me slowly, stroking against the fabric. The feeling was not bad at all. I actually like it. So I nodded, willing him to go on. It felt so beautiful, like star gazing.
He then snatched off the undies, exposing my nudity to him. I could see the swelling in his pants. He was clenching his jaws and he finally put his weight on my body. He then picked at my entrance with his muscular shaft. It was not bad. But I knew the worst was yet to come. He then exerted pressure as he tried to push into me. It was painful. I felt the strain at my entrance. I could not take this anymore. I wriggled underneath him, wanting to get myself free from him. His weight held me down. I used my hands to try and push him away but it was very hard. He was stronger.
“Calm down. “ he said.
I wanted to please him. I wanted him to be proud of me. I was dying for that I wanted to endure this for him. So I closed my eyes. He grabbed both of my hands and pinned them above my head. He went ahead with pushing into me. He pushed vigorously and violently. He wanted to get in. He wanted satisfaction. With my hands pinned, I reached for the bedsheet, tugging at it. I had to endure the pain. I wanted to do it for him . I tugged on the sheet with every ounce of pain that shot through me. After a while, I felt him inside. It was a strange feeling. And I felt sore. Sore and hot. A tear trickled down my cheeks. Finally, I heard him moaning his release. He pulled out of me and pulled off the condom, tossing it in the dust bin.
He got up and walked naked, disappearing into the shower room. I watched him leave without a word. I was yearning for him to say he loves me. I just did not know how to react after all that had just happened.
I shifted on the bed as I heard the shower running. I saw the blood in-between my legs and on the sheets. It had happened. I was no longer a virgin. I swallowed hard. I had given myself to him. I loved him even more, knowing that I had shared an intimate moment with him.