It's so beautiful... I think to myself. The sunrise that is... I am in a high-rise building and yes I own it. It's mine baby. I metaphorically pat my self on my shoulder and give myself an awkward hug, I turn to look around to my surroundings and the sunrise shines on my queen size bed with white sheets complemented with roses and lilies. I imagine Damien sleeping there, his muscle bound chest, his sweet sexy face, hmmm I imagine feeling satisfied that I am the reason he's passed out like that on my bed.
Then I blink again and just like that the perfect image is gone. There it is again, that ache in my chest, it makes me uneasy, my stomach starts turning and I just start to feel sad because that ache reminds me of how lonely I am and most of all how much I miss him.
My alarm goes off taking me out of my daze, I grab my phone and check what's on the agenda today. I'm an early bird by nature no matter how late I sleep, I guess that's part of what makes me so good at my job. I rush to go shower, turning on the nobs and the water springs to life. I like hot showers no matter what season it is ... They always seem to calm my anxiety. I decide to wash my hair today because I want to straighten it out. The clients for today seem to be monied and I need them to spend every last cent they possibly can.
Growing up the way I did, I learned not to depend on anyone for anything, I taught myself that lesson a long time ago. If you don't depend on anyone it's easy to see who in your circle really cares about you and who is there because they need something from you, believe me, you would want someone like me around even if you don't like me. I am what they call resourceful, I hustle to get what I want and I pity the fool who gets in my way to get it.
I dry myself up and walk into my walk-in closet I look to the mirror and smirk, I turn around and those negative thoughts start to creep up... The bad ones. You know the I'm not good enough, who's going to love somebody like me, will I ever find the one thoughts. I feel empty, God I just need to catch a break, I breathe in and out and look at the mirror again, I have medium length hair and my skin is Caramel, I have DD boobs for size. The top part of my body is a size 36 and the bottom part of me is a size 40. I got a big ass for days... hips and thighs are curvy in the right places, nice and round and intact, just because I am a big girl it doesn't mean that I don't have the shape or that I don't work out. I have a cute tummy that behaves in some clothing and in some I just hope the world doesn't see "crossing fingers"
It's 7 am in the morning and I am ready to go, my hair is flowing as it should, I am wearing a navy blue tight dress that accentuates my hips, thighs, and ass, but today my boobs stay covered we don't want to overwhelm the world with all these assets now do we? Hahahahaah... As if on cue my PA calls.
"Hey, Miss Plum?"
Hey Eva I answer.
"I hope you are well and ready for today, we've got a few clients lined up for you, one particular client meeting at um... 6 pm sharp. It is a corporate account, not an individual one and their budget for their upcoming event is out of this world... Hmmm, anyway Miss Plum I wanted to confirm with you if you will make it, their assistant is very persistent, she keeps calling needing confirmation..."
I sigh in defeat... Excuse me Eva did you say 6 pm?
"Yes, mam I know it's not your usual time to meet clients but... Ummmm... I figured you would be up for this one ...?"
What! I yell.
"Owww," she says uncertainty and fear laced in her voice.
Owww?! You know this is a rule of mine. I expect you to know it well, out of my whole team! I don't meet anyone after working hours no matter what! I don't understand what is not clear about that. You should know this by now Eva this is unacceptable! I yell some more.
"But Plum, I have just sent you the quote, look at how much they willing to spend? It's ridiculous, even for the industry we're in for heaven's sake. This is a new level and I am just glad I get to be a part of it."
I flinch like someone just slapped me... Can you believe the disrespect? 'Can't you have Maggie meet them?' Maggie is my partner just as good with her hands as I am.
" I did ask and the assistant insisted on the meeting being with you alone Miss Plum, I can come along if you need Moral Support since I am the one breaking your routine?"
' Why would I bring you along? You've already messed up... Big time. I don't like this, especially when you plan my life without my consent' ... I peak over the quote and smirk... 'but I'll do it, just this once!'
'But I'm fucken warning you, this better not happen again no matter how much they willing to pay. We meet on my terms or we don't meet at all. It's a principle that I don't break for anybody, are we clear Eva?' I growl
"Yes Mam we are crystal clear"
Good. Then I hang up.
I get my things together, wear my nude 4-inch heels, and grab my handbag, as I am walking out to the elevator I decide I want to be driven today, Eva killed my good vibe. I call my driver to have him meet me by the lobby. I head out of the building, into the car and he drives me to the headoffice.