I'M BROKEN, NOT STUPID
MITCHELL, I’M BROKEN, NOT STUPID
“What is going on Trey? Why won’t she stay?” I hate how weak I sound. I feel like I was hit by a train, but I hate sounding like it. Trey wouldn’t even look at Jenna. She wants a life with both of us. How perfect is that?! Win win, uh – win! So what is the problem? What is his problem?
“We need to talk first Mitch,” he’s pacing now. All agitated and hyped up. Awesome. I can’t defend myself so he’ll likely knock me out before the hospital staff can stop him. This should be fun. If he is going to throw this all away because he doesn’t want to what? Share her? Then he’s a bigger asshole than I ever thought possible.
“What the fuck is going on Trey? Seems to me like our prayers have been answered?” I don’t sound as weak anymore, which is good. A lot angrier, which is not. Nothing is a bigger catalyst for Trey’s temper than someone else’s. But he isn’t angry. He’s… what the fuck is going on.
“Mitch. I want to make sure you’ve thought this through. Every angle. All the pros and the cons. It isn’t going to be all amazing sex and cute babies.” Ok, he has a point. But that is true for any relationship. Also a good point.
“If you’re worried about seeing each other’s dicks or something Trey, I’m fucking kicking your ass when I’m out of here.” Do I look forward to seeing him fuck Jenna? No. Do I hate the thought of it? Also no. Because he loves her like I do. If it is for her, there is nothing I wouldn’t do for her. Well, except actually fuck Trey. That is never happening. Seeing her pleasured, whether by my hands or his sounds like absolutely incredible. I’m getting hard thinking about it.
“No, Mitch. I’m not worried about that. Not anymore, anyways.” Trey gets up and closes my room door. “I’d be lying if I didn’t admit to thinking about it some… or a lot. I mean come on man – this is…” I know what he’s trying to say. It’s a big deal. I nod, letting him off the hook. He stops pacing and turns to me. I’ve never seen that look on Trey’s face before. “Mitch. You’re not making a lifetime commitment to Jenna. You’re making it to me too.” Wow. He’s right.
It is more than just promising to love Jenna forever. That part is easy. She also loves Trey, and he loves her. It isn’t just the two of us, it is the three of us. Shit. I know that, but yet, do I know that really? I love Trey, I really do. He’s my best friend, more like a brother really. But this is a step I’ve never considered before. A threesome? Sure. But a lifetime commitment? Hell no. Until now. The thought of not doing this is not even in the realm of reality – I’d sooner die. Or kill Trey if he blows it for both of us. This is clearly something he has been thinking about a lot too, which is good. Neither of us should enter into this lightly, we’re both worth more and Jenna definitely is.
“Trey? Sit down. I think this is going to take awhile.”