I was sitting in the reading my research papers that I had to submit on Monday. It was the first research paper of my second year of college, so I had to impress my teachers because of what happened last year.
When I think of last year, damn that year a roller-coaster. I flew in from Arizona to Massachusetts. I was nervous but pumped at the same time. It was hard for me to move all across the country leaving my little sister. But I got in with my scholarship, so I had no choice. Don't get me wrong I love it here, but I do miss my sister. And, I probably wont be able to see her anytime soon. I'm not going back.
My roommate here was this beautiful, super rich girl who didn't want to stay in a sorority house because, there the bitches are fake, so decided to stay in a dorm. I thought that she would hate me, and you know put me down and stuff, but to my surprise, I was wrong we soon became friends. Celina ( my roommate) is a high spirited bitch, yeahh that's how I would describe her, sometimes annoying but in a good way. She introduced me to her high school friends Joe who is also her twin (short for Joey) and their childhood friend Austin. I'm pretty close with those three idiots. Most of the days we hang out in the cafe near college, chatting and sometimes studying ( it never happens ).
Celina and Austin weren't dating when I first got here, but I and Joe caught them in the act of Passion in our dorm room. I was skeptical and suggested that they like each other but Joe usually denied, and was so against them but he came around.
Then I started dating Justin. Oh boyy he was and is a piece of shit. I was sooo into him that I didn't see the red flags. He was in the same major that i had chosen, we talked at first.
Then he started the flirting and buying me flowers, when I wasn't with my friends (Red flag #1). He asked me to be his girlfriend and I agreed, because i thought he was actually a good person. I wanted to introduce him to my friends but he refused (Red flag #2). Which was very sketchy, so I showed Joe his picture and he gasped, looked me in the eye and told me to dump his ass, because Celina and Justin used to date in high school. But i was naive and so stupid that, I talked to Celina about it and she said it's in the past, don't worry I'm with Austin now. I was relieved, but instead of confronting Justin I informed him that I knew about him and Celina. He was shocked but he was so good with that shithole of that mouth that I believed in every fucking word he said. I was so fucking stupid ( Red flag #3).
He was patient and passionate just what i needed, but that were all lies that he spat out like a venomous waterfall. All he wanted was to have sex, I was very reluctant because I didn't want to loose my virginity yet. But I gave in. So during foreplay he moaned out Celina's name. I was shocked.
"What the fuck did you say?" I shouted.
"No no no, it's not what you think it is" he cried.
" Oh my God!! Fuck you, Justin. You were never really into me, were you? All you wanted to do was to make Celina jealous right?!"
"Yes... But that was the initial plan, Now I really like you, I think I'm in love with you. I wasn't in love with Celina."
" I was a plan! Oh God! I'm so fucking stupid." All the things he did make sense now.
"Please Lo-" he tried to hold my hand.
" Get out! " I mumbled. He was shocked. He didn't move.
" GET THE FUCK OUT JUSTIN! I don't even want to see your fucking face."
He left. He left me crying. All I felt was betrayal and anger. Joe was there with me after that. We became closer than before. He's my closest friend since them he knows everything about me and I know everything about him. My grades dropped because of that fucker and I thanked God that I didn't loose my virginity to him.
"Earth to Love! " Joe screamed in my ear. And the reality set back in..
" Don't call me that, especially in public." Well my parents were douche-bags while naming me, Love Philomena Lexington. Yupp that's my shitty name. I hate the name Love, so I go by Philomena or Philo.
" Don't be so ashamed by that, I just Lovvee it when you react like that." he joked and the lovebirds started chirping from afar. Joe talks very loudly and Austline ( that's a shipping name I made for them) heard him obviously.
"We are going clubbing tonight!" Celina exclaimed. " And No is not an option. " Everyone's eyes were on me. I scoffed " I have to give in my research papers. I have to score good."
" I read it while it was on the coffee table yesterday, it was perfect. Don't stress yourself. " Austin was always supportive.
I pleaded with them to let me stay at home. In these situations I regret staying together. Yup 3 bedroom apartment, 20 min walk from home to college. Obviously Celina and Austin had the master bedroom, I had the 2nd and Joe had the 3rd.
Back home Celina lent me a black very deep v neck croptop, and ripped jeans. I don't wear heels so I wore my sneakers. She did my make up and we were ready to go. Fuck... I hate them, but I love them too.
We all go to the same club everytime which was practically owned by Austin's parents. Yupp he's super rich too. His parents live in a private property nearby, so if we ever get wasted we spend the night at Austin's parents home.
We entered the room blasting with music, and people dancing couples fucking back in the room. And bar up front. It was a huge club.
" Shots..Now!!!" Celina screamed into my ear. Those twins have the same fucking problem. It's so funny that they are so similar even though they deny it.
We had lots of drinks, and no need to pay for it, honestly I would have bargained my way to pay for the drinks but i know i cant afford more that 2 and it sucks. But one day I'll buy all my drinks from this very bar! And in 2 hours, I was drunk, dancing in the sea of people, swaying my body with the rhythm of the beats, letting all those thoughts fade away as the beats lift my spirits up, feeling myself as I scream to the upbeat music, but it all stopped. Stopped when I laid my eyes on him as he confidently enter the club.
Damnnnn he was so fucking handsome. I just stopped dancing and was practically stalking him from a distance. He caught me staring, and locked his eyes on me and started to walk up to me. I then pretended to dance while he walked right past me. Damn he is even more handsome when he was up front.
His complexion was brown, not too brown not too light. Perfect... Just perfect. Slightly curly hair and ooh mama that body. I would do anything to touch his bare chest. Fuck! What was I thinking. Drunk me was wayy more confident than the sober me.
I came back to reality when he disappeared into thin air. The next thing I heard had me shocked.
" Looking for someone, Love"