Five months later...
So far Draco hasn’t shown his face. Today will be my fifth meeting with the doctor. Owen has been there for all my appointments. I have to say that Owen and I have become close. Honestly, if it wasn’t for Owen I might have gone insane by now. “How are you feeling today?”
“Fat, tired, over it.” He gave me a small smile.
“At least you are being left alone.” I nodded my head at him.
“I feel like he is just going on let me rot down here.” Owen ended up earning my trust. I spilled my story to him one night. That was a big no no and I thought for sure I would see Draco after that. I knew he had cameras down here so he could watch me, but Owen let me know. There were no cameras in my room. Only on the door. I’m not completely sure if Owen believed me at first, but he started to spend more time with me. He also played with Nicolas and they were good together. Owens phone went off and he stood up.
“It’s time.” I took a deep breath and stood up. Owen took Nicolas’s hand and out the steel doors, we went. You would have never known that we were underground in the basement. The room looked just like a normal doctor’s office. Owen waited outside the room while I got dressed in the hospital gown. The appointment lasted only a few minutes. Everything was looking good. My own little secret that I kept to myself was my love for this baby. I couldn’t help it, as the baby grew so did my love. All I have in this world is my son, and now I have a new baby growing inside of me. Any normal woman couldn’t deny her own child. I couldn’t blame any of this on my baby.
Today I found out that I was having a little girl. I didn’t have much in this world that made me smile. Only my children and my memories of Ryder made me smile. I just knew in my heart that if Ryder was still alive. He would love my children the same. Owen and Nicolas never came back into the room. They were both waiting for me when I walked out. “That’s a nice smile,” Owen said following me back into my room. Lunch was waiting for Nicolas and me.
“Come on baby,” I said to Nicolas as I set up lunch for him. I took a seat with him and we started to eat.
“What did the doctor say?” Owen asked me.
“It’s a girl.” Owen smiled at me.
“Looks like it’s time for baby items. What do you think you’ll need?”
“Maybe a crib and a changing table. I need clothes and diapers.” Owen nodded his head at me. “If you can, I’d like a lot of pink” Owen smiled.
“I’ll do my best.”
“Thank you, Owen. I hope I’m not a pain for you.”
“Not at all.” I was sitting on the floor with Nicolas coloring and watching some cartoons. It was getting harder for me to get up and down from the floor, but it was my son’s favorite thing to do. I heard the door open and thought for sure it was Owen, but Draco ended up walking in. My heart started to beat.
“Come with me.” He said. I told Nicolas I’d be right back and I followed Draco into the bathroom. Draco closed the bathroom door and I got worried. “I’m sorry I haven’t been around. Not that I think you cared.” I kept my mouth shut. “I hear you’re having a girl.” I nodded my head at him. He moved a little closer to me. I stayed still not sure what he was going to do. He reached out and placed his hands on my stomach. I took a deep breath. “If only I thought I could trust you. I’d take you out of here.” I looked down at Draco who was now on his knees. Then I did something I never thought I’d do. I reached out and ran my fingers through his hair. He looked up at me with a look of shock on his face.
“I have nowhere to go. There is no reason for me to run anymore.” It was almost as if Draco was studying me. He stood up and backed away from me.
“Don’t play your fucking games with me.”
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you.” He cocked his head at me and left the bathroom. I didn’t say what I had said because that was what I believed, but my words were true. Where the hell was I going to go? How the hell would I take care of two baby’s on my own? At least here we would be taken care of. I knew at that moment my fight was gone. All that matters to me is my children. Even though Draco treated me the way he did. He never harmed Nicolas and he knew Nicolas wasn’t his. I knew my children would be safe. The only thing I wanted was to get out of this basement. I haven’t seen the sun in almost five months. I wanted to smell the fresh air. I guess I was being selfish, but I would do almost anything.
I walked out to find Owen playing with Nicolas. He looked up at me and I could see the worry in his eyes. “Are you okay?” I nodded my head.
“I told him I wouldn’t run and that I had no place to go. I think it pissed him off.”
“Why did you say that?”
“Because it’s true. Look at me, Owen. Where the hell am I going to go? My children are the only thing that matters anymore. I hate it down here. I’m suffocating I need fresh air. I need the sunlight and if I play nice. At least I can have those things.” I felt a tear fall from my eye. I knew I was going to sell my soul to the devil himself. Just to have some sort of a life. Owen got up and walked over to me. He didn’t say anything but only pulled me into his arms and held me for a moment. I knew he had rules and he just broke one of them by touching me. It was an innocent hug, but it was nice to be held. Even if for only a moment. Even if it meant nothing more then I’m here for you. I knew if Draco knew, Owen would pay for it.
I didn’t see Draco again for the next couple of days. I woke up early one morning when the door opened. Draco stood there and he just looked at me. Nicolas was still sleeping. “Is everything okay?” I asked. Draco came into the room and took a seat on my bed. I sighed and knew something needed to be done for me to get out of here. I knew he didn’t trust me. I moved closer to him. “Are you okay?” I asked him. He turned and looked at me. I became stiff but tried to calm down. He reached out and moved a piece of my hair away from my face.
“I have always loved you.” I forced a small smile. “I never thought in a million years that I would fall in love with you. You know it’s not like I didn’t know it was wrong. It’s not like I didn’t fight it for years. You have always been beautiful and smart. I watched you grow into this incredibly strong woman, but damn it if you didn’t know how to piss me off and I think that became the reason why you turned me on. You fought me at every turn and I knew I wanted you by my side. I knew I wanted you to be my queen. Even if I knew it was wrong. I just didn’t give a fuck. I always get what I want and now you are carrying my baby and Ryder is dead.” I cringed on the inside as his words left his mouth, but all I cared about was the sun. “I can give you the world if you would just let me.”
Suck it up buttercup, I told myself. “Then give me the world.” He cocked his head. I knew he was going to test my words. He moved closer to me and placed his lips on mine. I didn’t fight him. I moved into his lap and kissed him harder. This is something I have never done. Even after everything that I have been through with Draco. The one thing I never let him take from me was a kiss. He moved back from me just a little.
“I need to think about things.” I just nodded at him. He walked out and I laid back in my bed. I knew this was going to be hard. I knew what I was doing, but it still hurt. I still felt guilty for my actions. I pulled my blanket up to my face and just cried. Forgive me, Ryder. I said to myself for I knew I had just given up.
It didn’t take long. The next day I was moved out of my prison and placed into a new prison. Only this prison was full of light and fresh air. I had the run of the place. The house wasn’t as huge as most of Draco’s homes. But only myself, my son, Draco, and Owen stayed inside. The place of heavily guarded, but they were not allowed inside. I could come and go as I pleased. Only I wasn’t allowed to leave the grounds. I was okay with that and I did my best to make the best of it. For the first week, all I did was sit outside with my son. Draco had a small playground set up and Nicolas couldn’t get enough of it. Both Nicolas and my new baby had bedrooms of their own. Draco went out of his way to make this a home for me and my children. I was even in charge of running the house. We had no maids so I did all the cooking.
Even though I cleaned, Draco still had people come in twice a week to do a deep cleaning. Just to help me out. Owen stayed at a distance just to make sure Draco stayed happy. I thought for sure things would change between Draco and me, but he never forced me to do anything. I let him hold me whenever he wanted and my lips now belonged to him. It seemed to keep him satisfied and honestly that all I needed to do. Trust me it was better than what I was used to when it came to him. I never really saw Draco that much. He was either gone or in his office during the day. Owen and I still talked and spent time together, but Owen always kept his distance from me. I didn’t want Owen killed or sent away. He is my only friend.
So this is my life right now. It’s not much but it’s better than what I’m used to and I will do what I have to do to keep my children safe and taken care of.