It's been only a few days and I'm still stuck in this bed. Cordel has us hiding somewhere in France. I was useless to the point where Cordel has to help me to the bathroom. I had no chance of running. At this point I could only hope for my family to help me. I still didn't know if anyone was hurt and I prayed everyone was okay. "Do you want to go outside today?" Cordel asked me as I was finishing up my eggs. Ever since the first night we got here. Nothing has gone on between Cordel and I. He has been acting like we didn't even have a talk. I don't know how to play him right now. It's not like I'm in a place to play the seductress at the moment.
"Sure, your not to busy?" He looked over at me.
"No Carolina, I'm not."
"Are you upset with me?" He stopped and took a seat on my bed.
"I'm not upset with you. I just want to know what this is between us. I have been doing some thinking. Like maybe I'm on the wrong side. I have bee with these people for as long as I can remember and you have me questioning my life." Shit, I said to myself. I wasn't wanting him to catch feelings. I reached out and put my arm around him.
"I would never ask you to change your life around for me." Cordel stood up taking me with him, bridle style. I closed my eyes from the pain and he pulled me closer to him.
"I can't have you and be a part of them. I want to get you back to your family." I looked up at him.
"Are you crazy? They will kill you."
"I care about you Carolina, it's already too late for that."
"Cordel, all we have done is kiss. You don't know how you feel about me." Cordel just smiled and laughed to himself.
"Sometimes a kiss is all it takes." I just cocked my head at him and held on as he took me outside. Maybe I was wrong about Cordel? Fuck, now he was confusing me. We got out to the back yard and Cordel went to sit me down. I didn't remove my arms from around his neck. "Baby, you have to let me go so you can sit." His head turned towards me. I don't know what changed inside of me, but I pressed my lips to his. He didn't stop me and as he laid me back carefully in the lounge chair. I still kept my arms around him and his fingers were roaming my body. I knew my heart was with Nash, but my head was full of nothing but Cordel. His kisses were deep and full of lust and passion. Even though I was hurting, the pain was nothing compared to the passion I was feeling. I knew I was going to hell.
Our lips parted and I did my best to remove my shirt. He hovered above me and just watched. "I don't want to hurt you." He whispered out.
"You won't, I trust you." His lips found my breast and I moaned out. My fingers dug into his hair. His lips made there way down to my shorts. I had no idea if anyone could see us and at that moment I didn't care.
"Fuck, your so sweet." He hissed out. I could see the beads of sweat run down his face. His fingers went into the belt loops and he pulled them off of my body. I laid there in nothing more then my panties. He removed his shirt and his body looked like an artist just sculpted his body for me. He was covered in tattoo and his mussels were tight. He brought his lips back to mine. I reached down to undo his jeans. A warm breeze covered us and he pulled my leg up and entered me slowly. I moaned out as he was large. He stayed still allowing me to adjust to his size. He filled me up perfectly. The next thing I knew we were rocking back and forth in perfect rhythm. He felt wonderful inside of me. He buried his head in the nape of my neck.
I knew he wanted to move faster, but he was scared of hurting me. To be honest I wasn't feeling any pain at this moment. I knew i would hate myself later, but right now all I could focus on was Cordel and the wonderful things he was doing to my body. I ran my nails down his back. I could feel myself start to build up and I knew Cordel was close. His breathing was becoming rapid and he was pushing deeper down in me. I could tell he was fighting the urge to hit me harder, but he did his best to hold it in. "When your better, your really going to know what I can do to this body of yours."
"Oh yeah." I moaned out in pleasure and he came along with me. We both laid there in each others arms. Cordel reached out and grabbed a towel laying over a chair. He covered my body up and I laid there and watched him get dress. He had a smile on his face. I just smiled back up at him. I knew now that I had to come clean with him. I had to tell him the truth about Nash. The only problem now was I knew I had feelings for the both of them. I knew I loved Nash, but I cared about Cordel, now more then I had before.
"Come on let me give you a bath." I nodded at him and he picked me up and took me back to my room. He laid me in my bed and went into the bathroom and started a bath. I laid there in the hot water, surrounded by bubbles. Cordel was making my bed and getting me clean clothes together. He walked back into the bathroom and started to help me wash my hair. Once I was all clean. He helped me to dress and put me to bed. He sat on the edge of my bed lost in his own thoughts.
"What are you thinking about?"
"How to get you home."
"Give me a phone." He looked at me.
"You understand once your with your family. I will have to disappear."
"Carolina, when they find out I returned you. They will hunt me down and kill me. I have to go into hiding."
"My family will help you for helping me."
"Your father will kill me for helping to take you." I just smiled at him.
"Cordel, if you want to help me. Give me a phone." Cordel sat there for a moment and then I watched him stand up and walk out of the room I laid there and prayed he would come back with a cell phone. I had to worry about him and Nash later. The first thing I needed to do was get to my father.
I laid in the hospital bed for what felt like months. We attacked and tried to find Carolina, but they had already gotten her out of the house. It turned into a blood bath. We were the ones that ended up taking out more of the men in that house, but we lost a few of ours as well. Mr. Conti and his closest men were fine and Vance was unharmed. I took a bullet to the back ad have been stuck in this fucking bed for days.
We ended up moving to a different safe house just to make sure we weren't followed. Mr. Conti's men were working hard to find a location on Carolina. Carolina's brother was brought home yesterday and was recovering nicely. I was still having a hard time moving around. Vance was driving me crazy and no matter what I did, I just couldn't seem to relax enough. All I could think about was Carolina and her safety. God only knows what she has been through, but I'm stuck taking orders from her father, and the only reason why I have been doing that is because of Carolina. I don't take orders from anyone and this woman has made me soft. I just laid back and closed my eyes.
I heard the bedroom door open. I knew Vance was already in the room. I opened my eyes and Mr. Conti came walking in. "How are you feeling today Nash?" I nodded my head at him.
"Alright, I need to get out of this bed."
"You just had back surgery. Your going to be down a while." Just then his phone started to go off. He pulled out of his pocket and then answered it.
"Carolina, baby is that you?" My heart started to race.