Its crazy how this month has just gone by like it was nothing.
I am kind of angry I have to let my sweetheart go.
Damien texted me and said he and Adira were going to go to the Sex Club, that means a great opportunity to confess my love to Cassidy.
"Master?" My daydream is ruined at that moment and I look down at my sweetheart that is on her knees looking both worried and confused. Oh, do I love the way her eyebrows furrow.
"Yes my love?" I reply to her.
"Are you okay?" She asks.
"Just peachy." I smile at her and she smiles back at me, the hint of worry still present in her eyes. In all truths, I could never have quick sex with Cassidy. She maybe thinks that, but no, I have always made love to her.
"You are lying to me Master." I look at her again and her expression turns to sadness real quick. Oh, how I hate not seeing a smile on her face.
"Get up for me Bunny." I put my hand out to help her up and she takes it. I lead her to the bed and sit her down on it. I bend down infront of her so that she looks down at me.
"What's wrong Master?" I look up at her beautiful face and my eyes travel down to her lips. Not once have I kissed those beautiful plump lips of hers.
I cup the back of her head and bring myself up to kiss her lips. At first she was startled by my actions, but then she kissed me with the same passion I kissed her with. I break the kiss then lay my forehead on hers, breathing heavily.
"Can I tell you something?" I whisper.
"It's killing me inside out and I don't think i can keep it in any longer." She nods and my lips connect with hers causing her to moan in my mouth.
"Promise not to laugh?" I whisper again and she wraps her arms around my neck, pulling me in for a short sweet kiss.
"Promise." She whispers against my lips and I smash them on hers, making us fall on the bed.
"Could you fuck the A&C and stay with me forever?" I ask.
"I want to love you with every bit of my heart. I love you Cassidy with all my life and after you, I don't think I could fall for another woman."
We stopped moving and just look deep into each other's eyes. Her eyes embed with sadness and I know that look. Her eyes tell me exactly what I needed to hear, she was rejecting me.
"Daniel..." she whispers. It was the first time she had said my name. Yes, now I am sure she was rejecting me. I nod and get up.
"Daniel wait..." I run my hands up and down my face then look at her.
"I'm sorry, it was just a stupid confession. You know what, forget I said anything." I say hoping it would help me; it didn't. I turn around to leave the room. I couldn't handle rejection from her, it hit me too deep.
She grabs my wrists and walks infront of me, pulling me into a tight hug. I hug her as tight and place my chin on the top of her head.
"I'm so sorry Daniel, but I just can't say with you." A frown finds my face and she looks up at me with tear filled eyes.
"I have to go with Adira, you know I would choose her over anyone. She is my sister, my best friend." I cradle her face with my hands and bring my head down to kiss her lips softly.
"I know baby, I just... don't think I can live without you now that I have you." Her tears fall down her cheeks; silent and full of emotions.
"Shhhh, my love." I whisper assuring her. Of what? I don't know. I wipe hear tears with my thumbs and she closes her eyes, sniffilng.
"I didn't mean to make you cry. Let's use what little time we have left with eachother." She silently releases a sob and I wrap my arms around her, making her safe in my arms.
"I'm sorry. I want to stay but I can't. I really want to stay but can't." I rub her bad and kiss the top of her head, soothing her.
"I know my love. Stop saying sorry, I understand." She looks at me and I give her a warm smile. She knots her fingers in my hair and pulls me in for another kiss.
"Final day, let's make it count." My smile saddens as I wrap my arms around her waist.
We spent the night making love and as soon as her eyes closed and she was asleep, I got up to buy her goodbye gift.
I can't imagine how Damien would feel after letting Adira go. If I got attached and I can't let her go, I wonder if Damien would let her go after getting attached to her.