It’s been about two weeks since we have arrived in London. There have been no signs of Anna. I think Nick is starting to give up. He has been keeping himself extremely busy and his moods are all over the place. I try to give him some comfort, but he has been pushing me away. I have been raised in this family and I know how to handle these men. I care about Nick and I know he is in pain and has a lot of mixed emotions. I know when to back off and let him do what he needs to do.
“We’re going home.” Nick came walking back into the bedroom. “Pack your things.” I nodded at him wondering if I was going back to his place or if I was going to my home with my father. My mother has been missing my dad so I knew he would be headed to California to see her. Nick has been keeping his men pretty busy, but he promised my father that he could head home.
“Nick?” He stuck his head back in the doorway. “Where am I going?” He looked me up and down.
“Wherever you want to go.” That kind of hurt.
“Do you want me to go home with you?”
“You can do whatever you want to do.” I took a deep breath. I knew he was hurting. I knew he was upset that coming here was a bust. I hated that he was being hateful but what was I to do? Maybe it was best to give him some space.
“Maybe I should go see my mother. It’s been a while.” I didn’t hear anything from him except the main door close. I didn’t really know whether I was making it worse or helping. Later on, I made my way out to the lobby where my father, Ethan, and Nick were waiting.
“I hear you’re going home with me.” My dad said as Nick turned his back on me.
“Can you two give me and Nick a moment, please?” Ethan and my dad walked away from us. I walked over to Nick.
“Anything?” He looked at me funny. “This is your chance to tell me to go with you.”
“Your a grown woman Aurora. I’m not going to tell you what to do.” I stood there and shook my head.
“So that’s it? You know what Nick? I have held my tongue because I know what you are going through, but you don’t get to take it out on me. You either want me or you don’t. This is your last chance. What jet will I be riding on?” He stood there for a long moment. I was having a hard time reading him. Then he leaned down and kissed my forehead.
“Give your mother a hug for me.” With that, he turned and walked away. My heart crashed and I knew he was pushing me away. I watched as he and Ethan climbed into one SUV, while my father waited by another. The SUV drove away and I was left standing there watching it go. My father grabbed my bags and I knew he knew something was up.
“Don’t give up on him. His priorities are all over the place.” I looked at my father as he opened the door for me. “It not like I don’t know Aurora and I actually think you are good for him, but he needs your strength and understanding right now.”
“I just don’t know if I can do this or not.”
“Do you care about him?” He asked as I placed my seatbelt on.
“I do, but I just don’t know how he feels about me.” My father started to laugh. “What’s so funny?”
“You really don’t?”
“Well I thought I did, but he just pushed me away.”
“Give him time, he is a complex guy, and right now he is all over the place. He cares about you Aurora. It’s very obvious to us all. He doesn’t hide it well.” I just sighed and was over-talking about it.
“I won’t wait forever.”
“And no one is telling you too.”
I was just angry. I had no other emotions but anger. I knew the woman in the pictures was Anna. We spent so much time trying to find her. I figured by the end that maybe she was only passing by here. We found nothing and I was ready to kill. Ethan has been doing his best to keep me in line. Like butting into my business with Aurora. She is not my damn wife and I don’t owe anyone a damn thing. I’m sick of him going on about how I’m going to lose her. First of all, I never had her. She is her own person and we never made any commitment towards each other.
I kept my eyes on her as our car pulled away. Of course, I wanted her to come home with me. I knew she just wanted me to say that, but she needed to decide that for herself. If I mattered to her she would be sitting next to me now. “You know your dumb as hell right?”
“Watch your mouth, Ethan. I’m warning you.” Ethan sat back and crossed his arms.
“Just what are you going to do Nicolas?” I looked at him and all I wanted to do was punch his face. I seriously sat there and contemplated it. “Come on, I’m just trying to be honest with you.”
“Yeah well, I don’t want to hear it.” Ethan nodded his head at me and stayed quiet the rest of the drive. We pulled up in front of the jet. I stood there a moment remembering the first time I touched Aurora was on this jet. I sighed and grabbed my bag from the car.
“You know it’s not too late?” Ethan said standing next to me.
“Not too late for what?”
“To ask her to come with you. Their jet leaves after ours.” I looked at him and at that moment I wanted to call her and tell her to come with me, but of course, my stubbornness told me that she hasn’t tried to call me once. I gave Ethan a look and headed towards our jet. I felt tired and all I wanted to do was sleep. I took a seat by the window and just kept my eyes open. I was in conflict with myself. In the pictures, we had of Anna. She looked happy, it was almost painful to see. She was taken from us and she actually looked happy. I know it’s been years and I was so confused. Could whoever have her had her brainwashed so good that she moved on from us? What could have possibly been said to have her believe anything other than how much we loved her?
I almost felt like giving up and leaving her alone. I was tired of being angry and hating everything and everyone. Even if she was brainwashed. She looked free. You would think you would want some answers. Why hasn’t she tried to find us? My anger was building again and I was just too damn tired of it. Then there was this hole Aurora thing. I didn’t know how to deal with this. I cared about her but I just felt like maybe I cared more than she does. It was too late for either of us to do anything as all I could see were the stars in the sky. I got up and headed towards the cabin. I needed sleep.
I woke up to hitting some turbulence. It was still dark out. I tried to get myself comfortable again, but my phone was vibrating. I actually laid there ready to throw it at the wall. I didn’t care to talk to anyone. I just wanted to sleep. I rolled over and covered my head with the pillows. Before I knew it. I passed out again.
“Nicolas, wake up! There has been an attack.” I heard Ethan holler out. I jumped up and was still in the cabin of the jet.
“What’s going on?”
“Someone attacked Jason’s jet when it landed.”
“What the fuck are you talking about?” My head was pounding. I looked over at him.
“After they landed there was an explosion and we don’t know anything other than that.” My first thought was Aurora.
“What the fuck do you mean you know nothing else? Turn this jet around now!”
“We can’t Nicolas. We have to land and refuel. We will never make it.” I grabbed my pants and started to get dressed. “I’m sorry man, we can’t seem to get anyone on the phone. We have men headed to the airport now. Nicolas?” I turned to face him. “We can’t get ahold of Aurora or Jason.” I sighed if she is gone. It’s my fault for not telling her what I really wanted. “We will land and refuel and head to Los Angeles right away.”