I stepped back and let Ryder take control. I had to because I didn't know how to sort out the situation that I was in and he was the person who could eliminate all of my problems with ease. That's why I chose him to be my Dominant in the beginning. A part of me deep inside trusted him from the beginning. It's his family that I couldn't. When I gave up my weekends for him, I knew that I would be placed in situations that were completely out of my control and yes he warned me, that's why I let him take full control of everything, even if that included my sister. I knew that he would keep her safe. I just had to keep it all a secret from Yasmin. She couldn't know otherwise she would end up in the same situation as me. To be honest, I didn't mind. The part that I didn't agree with was being ignored and left out. I didn't understand why he left me sitting on the floor for hours but when he showed up at my home and told me, I did.
I knew what was to come and I didn't see any point in trying to fight against him. Ryder would win instantly and I knew that so when I was sitting on my kitchen counter having a sip of my tea, I grabbed my keys and placed them in his hand. He looked down at them and then back up at me.
"My house needs to go doesn't it." He gave me a swift nod. I opened my mind up to the future instead of trying to push against the forces. A wedding was about to be dropped on my head, my life was about to evaporate and my freedom was gone. I was about to walk straight into a full time submissive commitment to him. I was a teacher, I wasn't stupid. I knew the risks when I left for Arlington, when he told me them, I just wanted to enjoy my life a little. I wanted to live. Obviously, all of it went to shit but all I can say to that is oh well. You learn from your mistakes and I'd already made many of those.
Thinking about it, I didn't enjoy being a university teacher at all anyway. It was stressing me the hell out so being able to let my hair down felt like a holiday where I could party and enjoy unlimited sex. Who would say no to that? Not me.
I read that contract, I knew the terms. I also knew the risks and because it all went tits upside down, I accepted it. My new life. I was ready for a new chapter to start. Close the previous and open the new.
"Come here," Ryder demanded and I jumped down off the kitchen counter top. Twisting me around to face away from him, he pulled my hair back and I closed my eyes relaxing. Taking a hair tie out of his suit jacket, he tightly dragged my hair up and secured it before twisting me back around to face him.
"Your not fighting me. I'm surprised." He smirked. I shrugged my shoulders. "It is what it is." Giving me a swift nod, he took my hand in his and guided me to the front door.
"Say goodbye. This is the last time you will be seeing this place."
"Bye bye house of freedom." I waved and he chuckled.
"You truly are one of a kind." Laughing, he walked me out to the hallway and locked the door before guiding me downstairs to the Audi where Andre was waiting patiently. Opening the door, he waited for me to slide in before he did.
"Turn." Turning away from him, I felt as his hands wrapped a collar around my neck. It didn't feel the same as the other one did and I touched it. I didn't know what colour it was or anything until I looked in the central mirror. It was red, bold and stood out like a sore thumb. The diamonds on it were gorgeous. I wrapped my arms around his stomach and thanked him. I had to show that I appreciated it and I did.
"Your my girl for good now Shannon. That's your new collar and you will wear it at all times, day, night, all week, never to be taken off."
"Never?" I strapped myself in the seat belt and he shook his head.
"Never." Nodding my head I looked up at him and he smirked. "Trust you to put your nose in it. Oh, well what can we do now hey. Andre to the warehouse." He leaned back in his seat and sighed looking out of the window. He was touching his lips with his finger and I smiled.
"So, what will happen to Kate? I heard you talking about her." Turning to look directly at me, a sad smile appeared on his lips. "She's dead."
"Dead?" My eyes widened and he nodded his head. "How could she possibly be dead?"
"She spoke about our family when she was sworn to secrecy. She shouldn't have done it and she knew that. When you swear to the Omerta, never speak about anything with outsiders. I won't be able to help you." I gave him a nervous smile as he opened up something underneath his seat. Sliding a box across the floor, he flipped the lid off it and my eyes almost flew out of my head.
"You have a gun!"
"AK47 and I have more than you can count. I manufacture them." He glanced over at me and I swollowed a lump inside my throat. Okay, I didn't expect that.
"You... Those?" I struggled to speak and he laughed touching my hand instantly calming me down. I giggled nervously rubbing my face with the palm of my left hand. Coughing, I felt as the palms of my hands started to sweat but not for the correct reasons. He was a gangster I thought to myself as I blushed. I knew that he was a bad man with a good heart, but I didn't know that he was making guns and following his families rules.
He pulled out a gun from inside his suit jacket pocket and I crossed my legs. Damn it body, my mind couldn't begin to understand why I was getting wet but I was. I had it all! The man who was built perfectly, he was dangerous, carrying guns, running what I believed to be one of the biggest mobs in the world and a Dominant who knew how to pleasure a woman correctly. I had hit the jackpot and to top it off, I wasn't allowed to work or go out, pay bills and attend places I didn't want to go. My dream had finally came true. A day in bed was something I was excited about and I couldn't fucking wait. Who would say no to all of that? Not me... I was jumping to the moon and back. I could finally say inside my mind. Hi my name is Shannon and I'm with the world's most notorious gangster. Yes please!
So that explains it then, I thought. The darkness I felt. Hmm, could I get used to that? Damn right I could. Something about a criminal flicked a light inside me and I wanted to explore it. My life was no longer boring four days a week and fun on the weekends. My life was about to become all sorts of fucked up and amazing. Yes!!!!!