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So forbidden it's borderline illegal. It feels illegal in a town like this. It was just sex. Ridiculous, I hate you sex with the one guy in school I had no business being with. But the line between love and hate blurs easily. And in a town like this, where secrets are hard to keep, we're playing with fire. Quitting him doesn't work, especially when he wants me even worse than I want him. Despite how much he hates me, despite that we were destined to hate each other. The only sure way to keep a secret is to be the only one who knows it. But this secret already involves two. And it's bound to get out and wreak havoc on my life and my plans for escape. The only questions that will remain are- was he worth it and will we survive the fall out?

Erotica / Romance
Violet Bloom
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Author's Note:

Before we start, this is an exceprt. You get the prologue and first 4 chapters

Haley’s point of view:

Have you ever been told that you should hate someone? You didn’t know why, but as long as you can remember you were told to hate them?

I never questioned it. Not until I was already eighteen and had spent my entire life hating him.

I remembered my first day of kindergarten clear as day. I’d just turned five. That was the problem with having a summer birthday. I was either going to be the oldest or the youngest in the class. Snake, my dad’s best friend’s son was three months younger and my parents wanted us in the same class so they started me in kindergarten as one of the oldest students. I’d always be the oldest student. Except for Will. Will was three days older than I was.

When I got on the bus to school, I sat with Snake and Sassy, the three of us crowded in the large seat. We weren’t nervous. The three of us had spent every day of our lives together. Sassy’s house was at the other end of the trailer park, and Snake’s was right next to mine. Snake and I were royalty in the trailer park. My dad was the leader of the South Side, even at five I’d known that. Snake’s dad was his number two.

We’d driven through the poor side of town, the one with the trailer park, the run down houses and the overgrown parks. As soon as we crossed the railroad tracks, it was like we’d literally driven into a separate town. The houses were big and modern. The parks were luxurious with soft tiles, having been updated to prevent the rich kids from getting hurt. At the time I didn’t think anything about the differences; I hadn’t realized that things were kept that was expressly.

I was sitting in-between Sassy and Snake and there hadn’t been room for anybody else, but I’d noticed Will as soon as he’d gotten on the bus. He was loud, even as a kid. He’d drawn attention to himself immediately.

When we’d gotten to school, Sassy and I had been separated from Snake. He’d been place in the other kindergarten class. Will had been in ours. I hadn’t known his name then, but I learned it soon. When our teacher, Ms. Stillwater, had called our names we’d exchanged a small smile before walking up to the class together.

“Hi,” he’d said loudly to me. “I’m Will.”

“I’m Haley,” I’d told him. Even then his smile had been bright and I’d thought he was cute. At the time I hadn’t known that those thoughts would be forced to change.

“Haley and Will have summer birthdays. Will’s is August 18th and Haley’s is August 21st,” our teacher had told the class. “So I’m giving them their card and special birthday treat today. The rest of you will get yours on your birthday.”

The rest of the class had protested, also wanting their special treat which had consisted of a bite size piece of candy we got to choose. Will had cheered loudly, running around and showing it off to everyone. When I was five, I’d thought it was cute. And even as we grew older, I still was somehow attracted to his obnoxiousness. But through the years I’d learn to push those feelings away because I had to hate him.

It was a family requirement.

But I hadn’t known that on my first day of kindergarten. Ms. Stillwater, who we’d gotten to call Ms. S, had sat us together, right in the front row. When it was lunch time, he’d saved me a seat next to him. “My mom packed me carrots; I don’t like them.” His nose had scrunched up and he’d offered them to me.

“I’ll trade you them for my tomatoes,” I told him.


Will and I shared lunch that first day, switching whatever we didn’t like for the other person’s. And when it was time for dessert, we’d split his cookie in half and shared one spoon for my chocolate pudding.

“Did your mom make this?” I’d asked when I’d taken a bite of the delicious cookie.

“She always bakes cookies,” he’d said.

“It’s delicious. My mom never bakes,” I’d told him. “She always buys them from the store, but they’re never this good.”

“She says it’s cos she bakes them with love.” Love? I’d known the word even though nobody had ever said it to me. “Maybe you can come back them with us sometime,” he offered. “She always lets me lick the batter off the egg beater. But we can’t tell dad that. Dad says it’s bad for me. But it’s the best part.”

“Moms and dads are weird.” He’d laughed while bobbing his big head up and down in agreement.

Sassy had sat on the other side of me, but she’d spent all of lunch talking to Snake. That had been before Snake and Sassy had realized we were supposed to hate Will too.

When we’d gone back to class, we’d had to line up two by two and hold hands with our partner. Before Sassy had been able to claim me as her partner, Will had grabbed my hand. Friends held hands all the time; I held hands with Sassy and Snake all the time, but I’d liked holding Will’s hand the best.

Ms. S constantly had to tell Will and I to stop talking during class. By the time class had been over that first day, I’d felt like Will was my best friend, just like Sassy and Snake.

On the bus ride home, I’d sat next to Will, just the two of us in the seat. Sassy and Snake had sat in the seat across the aisle from us. Sassy had always said Snake had cooties, but even then she’d smiled at him all the time. As the years would go on she’d smile at him less and less and I would end up embarrassed at how long it had taken me to realise why that was.

Will had gotten dropped off first. “See you tomorrow, Haley,” he’d said while he’d waved goodbye at me.

“I’ll save you a seat,” I’d told him.

I’d smiled happily all the way home, knowing I’d made my first friend that I hadn’t known my entire life and didn’t live in the trailer park with me.

My mom had been waiting for us when we’d gotten off the bus that first day. “How was school?” She’d asked. She hadn’t hugged me. Neither of my parents had ever been very affectionate. even when I’d been younger. And that hadn’t changed with the years. My littler sister, Chloe was on her hip, she’d been almost three at the time.

“I made a friend!” I’d shouted excitedly.

“You have friends,” she’d said somewhat annoyed.

“I made a new friend,” I’d told her seriously. “His name is Will.”

“Will what?” She’d snapped angrily. I’d been confused about why me making a friend would make her mad.

“Will Roberts.”

“You cannot be friends with him!” The tone of her voice and the volume of her shout had terrified me. It wouldn’t be until I was much older that she didn’t scare me anymore, even when she used that tone of voice on me.

“Why?” I’d asked. I hadn’t meant the question to annoy her more, but it had been a serious one. Why couldn’t I be friends with a nice boy.

“He’s Sheriff Robert’s son,” she said. “His daddy is the reason your daddy spent the weekend in jail.”

That had been the last time my dad had spent any time in jail. When I was older I’d finally figure out why.


She huffed heavily before turning and walking away from the three of us. I’d followed behind her, my little legs chasing after her. I’d wanted her to be happy with me. Things had always been better when she was happy with me.

“It’s okay,” Sassy had said. “We’re still your friends.” She’d rubbed her hand along my back soothingly while I’d felt sad for the loss off a friend.

“We’ll be best friends forever,” Snake had affirmed.

The next day, even though I’d promised to save Will a seat on the bus, I’d sat squished in with Sassy and Snake again. When Will had gotten on the bus, with the rest of the kids from the rich side of town, he’s smiled brightly at me. “Hi, Haley. Wanna sit with me?”

I hadn’t even given him an answer.

I’d been so young that I didn’t really understand mom’s reasoning, but all I knew was that I didn’t want make her mad. So, I ignored him.

As the years went on we ignored each other less and less and started tormenting each other. He was the town’s golden boy, the sheriff’s son, destined to be the next sheriff. The teachers kissed his ass because they wanted to stay on the sheriff’s good side. He was mediocre at best at sports and at school, but he was praised and worshiped like he was a god.

Was I judging him too harshly based on the way I had to hate him? Maybe.

But the feeling was mutual.

Mutual hatred that had both of us sent to the principal’s office more than once throughout elementary, middle, and high school. He’d make snarky comments about my dad being the leader of the south side gang, which encompassed basically the entire south side. I’d make comments about him being a goody-goody whose future was only set because of who his daddy was.

But every year, I remembered his birthday. Three days before mine made it hard to forget. And he didn’t know it, nobody knew, especially not my parents and certainly not my friends, but every year on his birthday, I sent him a birthday card. When we’d been younger, in first grade through about sixth, I’d brought a card with me to the first day of school and slipped it into his backpack or his cubby and eventually his locker. When I’d gotten old enough to afford to buy one, I stopped making them and started buying them. I never signed my name and I had no idea if he knew who they were from, but I’d always felt lonely on my birthday since it was in the summer. I thought it might make him feel nice to have a card on his special day.

Senior year of high school though, something changed. We stopped playing enemies. I hadn’t realized that for the last thirteen years we’d still been playing pretend. But the boy I liked so much that first ever day of school was still buried in there somewhere, underneath the cocky exterior that I pretended to hate.

I’d always thought that people who claimed that there was a thin line between love and hate were spouting cliche bull shit. I stopped thinking that when I realized that even if it was a cliche, it was true.

Which is why I was more shocked than anyone when he fell for me. It didn’t make any sense. Not after thirteen years of built up hatred.

It wasn’t supposed to be love.

It was supposed to be a one time thing, something to never be repeated. It was supposed to be a momentary lapse in judgement that led to a stupid decision. That same stupid decision wasn’t supposed to happen again and again and again. A decision I wasn’t supposed to want to happen again. One he wasn’t supposed to want and encourage. We weren’t supposed to tell anyone. It would ruin us.

I had plans, secret plans. And nothing would stand in the way of them, not even a tall, blonde haired, blue eyed man-boy that I hated. But there was no such thing as a kept secret, only if you were the only one who knew said secret.

Would sex lead to love? Would hate change to love?

But still. The answer to the biggest question would change both our lives, and possibly be the end of one of them.

Would I be the love of his life, or would I be the cause of his worst heartbreak?

Author’s Note

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