My crush, His affair
My life changed when he walked into my sandwich shop. He was a vendor who brought me a very popular energy drink at the time. He would come in three times a week and I would smile when he would walk in. You could say, he was my crush, and I looked forward to seeing him every time.
Then one day I had the courage to go talk to him. I would start with the normal talk like, “Hey Jason, how’s your day going, or Nice weather we’re having.” You know those cheesy one-liners to talk to someone.
Every time he would just smile and I would smack my forehead with my palm.
Until one day he came in all happy about something. He walks up to me.
“Tammy, every time I see you, you always have a smile on your face.”
I wanted to say, “It’s because you came to see me. You are the light that brightens my day.” I don’t. I just say. “I smile because life is too short to frown, live life, be happy.”
“Well, you have a beautiful smile,” he said.
“Thank you, it’s because of you.”
He stops what he’s doing and looks at me. Oh, shit! He thinks I’m probably hitting on him. I mean, I want to hit on him. Jesus, not like that.
“What time do you get done today?” I ask.
“Around three. Why?”
“Would you like to come back and maybe have coffee with me?”
“Sure, I could swing it.” he said.
Later that day he showed up a little after three. I make us two coffee’s and take a seat at one of the tables by the window. We just sit there staring at each other drinking our coffee.
“Tell me about yourself?” I ask.
“Well, I’m married with no children going on fifteen years.”
Fuck, he’s married, and he’s not wearing a wedding ring. I knew it was to good to be true.
“You’re not wearing a wedding ring?” I say pointing at his finger.
“I lost it one day. My hands were cold and it slipped off in one of my accounts and it was gone. Don’t know where either.”
“Tell me about your wife?” I ask.
“She’s beautiful, brave, and strong,” he said. I look at him with my eyebrows lowered, and he sees it. “You see, she loved her mountain bike. She and her friends were out riding when it just rained a little making the trail slick. She hit a rock, flipped over her bike and broke her back.”
I put my hand over my mouth. “I’m so sorry,” I said.
“It’s ok, it happened five years ago. She has a caretaker watch her while I work.”
I take a drink of my coffee, and shake my head.
“So, tell me about you?” he asks.
“Well not much here. I pretty much live here. When I get time off, my best friend helps me run this place. So, as you can see, I have no social life.”
“Same here,” he said.
“I’ve had two failed marriages with three great boys who support me in every way. My sex life on the other hand is dead. Has been for almost five years.” I cover my eyes because I can’t believe I just said that to him. He takes his hand and touches mine.
“I know what you mean,” he said.
We sit there drinking our coffee until Jason starts talking again.
“You need a friend,” he said.
“You know, like the movie Friends with benefits, with no strings attached. Just mind-numbing sex,” he says with a smile.
“I couldn’t do that. I would get attached too quickly. Plus have you seen my clientele? Either they’re too old or too young because their balls haven’t dropped yet,” I said as we both laugh.
“I mean it’s an idea, right?” he said.
“What, like you?” I say pointing at him. He doesn’t give me a yes or a no. He just looks at me and shrugs his shoulders.
A couple of weeks have gone by and I can feel the sexual tension between us. I mean we still talk and have coffee. Until one day he pulls me in the back room to talk in private.
“Rachel looked at me and noticed something was up. So I told her about you.”
“No you didn’t!” I say smacking his arm.
“I don’t lie to my wife. She understands 100% what you’re going through. What I’m going through,” he said holding my hands. “She gave me her permission.”
“I got the green light to be your,” he stops and does air quotes. “Friends with benefits.”
“I don’t think so. It would be weird.” I say as I see the light in his eyes deflate. “I don’t know. I really need to think about it.”
He gives me a slight smile and goes back to work.
All day I thought about what he said, and I couldn’t think of a way not too. My mind was all over the place. I find his business card and texted him to see me later.
Later that day he comes in as I take him to the back room. I was about to say, when he takes my head and plants a kiss on my lips. It was a soft kiss with no tongue. A passionate kiss, as his breathing changed as did mine. I put my hands on his hips and kiss him back. I suck on his lower lip. He lets go of me as my eyes are still closed.
“I was going to tell you, that I want to be your friend,” I say opening my eyes. “But, we need to talk rules, where and what not to do.”
“Agreed,” he said. “I’m off tomorrow.”
“So am I. I’m taking a day off.” I pull out a piece of paper. “Come by my place and we’ll talk.”
The next day, he comes by that afternoon. I open the door and Jason has a nervous smile on his face. I give him a hug then put my hands on his chest. His heart was beating fast, almost out of his chest.
“What’s wrong?” I ask.
“I’m so fucking nervous,” he said.
“So am I.”
I take his hand and lead him to my room. He sits on the bed.
“I’m going to give you some bad news,” I said as he looks at me with a sad face. “My boys are coming over, and I don’t know when.”
His reaction was priceless. I walk up to him and hug him as he’s still sitting on the bed. I made sure to lay his head between my tits to make sure he felt them. I sat down next to him as we planned our adventure and talked about the rules. There are no rules. Our jobs and family comes first, then we would play if time would let us. Sex positions? Anything goes, even anal. I tell him.
We lay back on the bed and talk about ourselves. What we wanted in life and what we got instead. We hold hands as I roll on top of him and start kissing him. Our tongues touch for the first time as we explore each other’s mouth. It felt so damn good to kiss again.
He moans a little as I reach down and caress his hard-on over his pants. At the time, I was wearing sweatpants and a loose t-shirt. He reaches up under my shirt and cups my braless tits. My nipples are hard as hell feeling the touch of another. He slightly pinches them making me coo to his touch.
Then I hear the front door open and hear my boys walking in.
“Damn,” I say.
We both laugh at each other because we were acting like school kids playing and exploring with each other.
“Stay here for a minute and put that away,” I said snickering at his ragging boner.
I come back to the room to see him standing next to the bed.
“As much as I want you right now. I don’t think my kids would understand a booty call.” I said laughing.
He turns me around and gets behind me as his chest is on my back. He takes his right hand and comes over my shoulder, under my shirt and cups my left boob. Then takes his left hand and goes under my sweatpants and cups my pussy. He starts kissing my neck below the ear, and I started to melt. I reach behind me and unzip his fly and stick my hand in and grab his cock.
We both moan at the same time, then I push him away.
“You got to go,” I tell him. I didn’t want it to stop.
The next day I was working and couldn’t get him out of my mind, me holding him wanting more. Jason walks in with a delivery. I look around the shop and say.
“You! I need a word with you in my office now! The last invoice you gave me, you double charged me.”
He looks at me like what is happening. I make it to my office as he’s right behind me. I slam the door as I see the look of fear in his eyes.
I get on my knees and undo his pants. His slacks fall to the floor as his cock bounces in my face. I take hold and stick it in my mouth. I suck him with one hand as the other hand is rubbing his chest. He wants to moan as he keeps a hand over his mouth as I take him deep down my throat.
He puts a hand on the back of my head as I work on his gorgeous cock of his. I feel a tap on my shoulder. I wave him off with a finger. I know what he’s going to say. I know, I pump him harder until I feel the flood of salty seed going down my throat. I stay there until he stops pulsating in my mouth. I look up at him.
“That was a lot,” I said.
“I’ve been saving it for you,” he said laughing. “That was a nice surprise.”
“I didn’t want everybody to know,” I said as I help him put his pants back on.
“When you left yesterday, I stayed wet all day. I imagined doing so many nasty things to you, until you showed up this morning.”
Jason steps out of my office.
“I’m sorry Tammy. I won’t let that happen again,” he said looking back at me giving me two thumbs up. I give him a smile liking what he did right there. He goes back to work as do I.
I get a text from him later that day saying his wife’s girlfriends were coming over to have a movie night. So, that meant he was coming over tonight. A big smile hits my face from ear to ear. He’ll be over at eight.
I wait at my house impatiently like a kid waiting for Christmas. I was so nervous about what was going to happen. I look in my closet to find something sexy to wear. I sigh. I haven’t had anything sexy to wear in years. My last husband didn’t care for that stuff, so I never bought myself anything nice.
I pick out a large t-shirt. I take everything off and slip it over my head. Now I’m comfortable. Then I stop and think, maybe he’s expecting me to be in lingerie? Stop my brain says, it’s just sex.
I hear a knock at the door. My heart starts beating so fast I thought it was coming out. I pull the curtain to look outside and it’s him holding a red rose in his hand. I open the door, and he has a nervous smile on his face. I take his hand and bring him in the house.
As soon as the door closed. I jumped in his arms. He dropped the rose and cups my ass. He smiles because he realizes I’m not wearing panties. I plant a kiss then my tongue. Our tongues work each other’s mouth exploring each other again. He pins me up against the wall as I have my arms around his neck. He holds me there as his hands come up under my shirt and cups my boobs.
My breathing becomes shallow as does his. I stop kissing him and look at him and nod my head to go that way. He picks me up and heads towards the kitchen. He puts me down on the counter. I start to pull his shirt over his head as he starts to take his pants off. I throw the shirt as he throws his pants.
He bends down and pulls my shirt up a little then sticks his head under it. I can hear him taking deep breaths smelling me.
“God, you smell good,” he said as I feel his tongue lick the folds of my pussy. My head falls back as I grab his head. I bring my legs up to give him more room. That’s when I feel his whole mouth engulf my pussy. Now his tongue works on my swollen clit making me buck on the counter. Right there is when I came in his mouth, wave after wave I climax. I stop breathing wanting to feel everything that was happening. I pull his head up to look at me.
“I haven’t cummed that hard in like forever,” I say pulling my shirt over my head.
“Oh, don’t worry. There’s plenty more where that came from,” he said going back down on my pussy.
I finger his hair as I continue to work another orgasm. It didn’t take long before I had his head pushing him in harder, shuddering all over his face.
He gets done, then comes up to kiss me letting me taste myself on his lips. I moan licking his face. I look down, and he’s stroking himself nice and hard.
I jump off the counter and lead him to the bedroom. I turn around and show him my naked body for the first time.
“I haven’t been naked in front of someone in a long time. But for some reason, I’m very comfortable around you,” I say as I take a seat at the end of the bed. I take his cock and stick it in my mouth. He was ready for me. I try to take him deep, but he’s too hard for me. Instead, I get him wet and lay back on the bed.
He gets between my legs as I take his cock and place it at my entrance. I do a small nod as I feel him pushing his way in. I was so wet that he bottomed out in my pussy. I could feel his cock twitching in my pussy.
“It’s been that long, hasn’t it?” I ask.
“It’s been too long.”
“Trust me, I know,” I said.
I let him not move until he was able to control himself until he was ready to move.
“I forgot how hot a pussy can get, and yours is on fire,” he said. I look at him and smile.
“I’m in no hurry. If it happens, it happens. We will get you back. It’s going to take time.”
“I don’t want you to think anything different of me if I cum too early.”
“Just feeling you inside is enough for me right now,” I said looking in his eyes. “Let it go. We can try again later.” He nods his head as he pulls out slowly and starts to fuck me slow. I don’t care if he cums now. There’s going to be many more of this.
He gets thirty seconds in. “I can’t hold it any longer,” he said.
Now he’s fucking me faster. His eyes are closed and his mouth is open when I feel the heat of his climax inside my pussy. This makes me cum again as we climax together.
He lies on top of me still inside as we catch our breath. He falls to the side and lays next to me. I get up and stick him back in my mouth to clean him off. I can taste him and I together on his cock and it tastes fantastic.
I lied back down next to him and give him my back. He comes closer and spoons me. He reaches over and cups my breast as I hold his hand. His head is touching the back of mine and I can feel him breathing on my neck. His warm rhythmic sounds of breathing relaxes me and I close my eyes.
I wake up a couple of hours later to feel he’s not there anymore. I get up and notice his clothes are missing. He left. My heart started crying. It felt like a one-night stand. Like I was being used. Then I had to remind myself, that it’s all about sex, nothing more. This is what I, we agreed on.
The next day he comes in for a coffee and all I wanted to do was run up to him, give him a hug and kiss him. But it so hard not to show it. He looks at me as I nod my head for him to go in the back. He walks back there.
“Sorry about last night. She called that her friends had to leave, and she didn’t want to be alone.”
“It’s ok. Wake me next time,” I say standing on my toes looking for a kiss. He bends down and kisses me. I look up at him. “This is going to be hard for me.”
“I know, even though I got permission. I feel like I’m cheating,” he said as he takes a drink of his coffee. “She asked me how it was?”
“What did you say?”
“It was quick.”
“Are you having second thoughts?” I ask.
“No,” he said bending down to kiss me again. “I’m nervous to say, I want more.”
I reach down and cup his cock over his pants. “We will have more,” I say kissing him again and walking out.
For the next two weeks it was getting frustrating. My boys were coming over more often. His wife was doing rehab a lot more. So we started texting with pictures. I would send him titty pics, and he would send dick pics from another account.
It passed the time, but it was getting old. So, the last picture I sent him was my dripping wet pussy with my finger pointing at it.
“You need to cum clean this off.” Then hit send.
Ten minutes go by and here he comes walking into my shop. I stop what I was doing and take him by the arm and lead him in my office. I lock the door and pull my pants down. He knew what was coming, and he took his pants off. I knock everything off my desk and take a seat. I pull my legs up. He pumps himself a couple of times and sticks it in.
Primal fucking at its best as I look down as I watch his cock go in and out. He grabs my ass and starts to pound my pussy.
He looks up at me with his mouth open. Then all of a sudden, I feel his hot seed fill my insides. Well, I can’t complain. He lasted a little bit longer this time. He stays inside while kissing me. This is what I missed the most, he’s kiss and I didn’t want it to stop.
“I got your text,” he said looking at me.
“Good, at least it worked,” I said laughing. “I think my people know what’s going on now.”
For the next two months, we sucked and fucked each other where ever we wanted. I was happy to be getting steady dick. He was happier he was lasting longer.
But something inside me wanted more. I wanted a dinner date, I wanted him to spend the night. I just wanted more, and I knew he couldn’t give it to me.
I read an article on friends with benefits, and it breaks down to one major problem. Emotions. Emotions are the biggest problem I have, and I can tell, if it’s affecting him as we.
He’s struggling with reality, he wants to take care of me, but he has to take care of his crippled wife also. He mentioned leaving her. I smiled when I heard him say that. That he would leave her for me, and everything about that was wrong.
I told him we needed to take a break from each other. We were spending every waking moment together, engaging in something with sex.
“I love you way too much,” I tell him.
“I love you more.”
“That’s the problem, my heart wants you, not that,” I said pointing at his crotch. “We need to see if we can stop before someone really gets hurt.”
After the talk, we agreed to stay friends. He still serviced my sub shop, as we would have normal conversations.
Several months have passed and I’m seeing someone. It’s hard to see someone and not think about the other person. My new guy is the same age as me, but doesn’t have a lot of the experience that Jason had. But, he makes me happy, and he’s there when I wake up.
When I met David. I deleted all the pictures Jason and I had. It was sad when I did that. It was just a constant reminder of the past. Then I got a text from Jason.
“I need to see you.”
Maybe this is closure for him and I. Maybe this is his way to move on. “Sure come by the shop.” I hit send and my hearts starts to beat really fast.
Couple hours later and Jason walks in. He takes a seat at the table by the window. I finish what I was doing and meet up with him. I take a seat as he has his hands out on the table wanting to hold mine. I place my hands in his.
“I wanted to tell you that Rachel and I are moving to Texas. They have a hospital there that can restructure her spine, and they think she will be able to walk again within weeks of the surgery.”
“This is good news, right?”
“It is,” he said.
“So, you’re moving away and this is your goodbye?”
“No,” he said not letting go of my hands. “Yes, I’m leaving. No, I’m not saying good bye.”
I give him a look of confusion. “If you’re leaving then yes its goodbye,” I say to myself. “I don’t know what you mean?” I ask.
He pulls out a card from his pocket. I pick it up and it’s a key card to a hotel down the street.
“I want you to spend the night with me tomorrow night. I want to thank you for being that special friend to me. When we stopped seeing each other, I felt like I missed something. I’m still in love with you. I can’t explain it, but I think this will help us move on.”
“No, I have a boyfriend now. I have to think about him and my future with him,” I said sliding the card back to him. “ You can’t do that. You can’t just walk back into my life, fuck me again and leave. It’s not fair. I wanted you entirely, and that’s something you’re not going to give me.”
A tear falls down my cheek. Jason wipes the tear and stands up.
“I love you. I’ll be there tomorrow night,” he said pointing at the card and walks out.
The card sits on the table as I stare at it. I pick it up and throw it away.
That night I couldn’t sleep at all. The thought of being with him one more time confused me. It confused my brain. My brain wanting nothing to do with him. My heart wanted to love him, my pussy just wanted him.
I finally went to sleep around 4 when my brain got tired of thinking about it.
I get up late and go into work around lunchtime. My best friend Shelly and David are the only two people in my life that know what was going on with Jason.
Shelly came into the shop and wanted to talk. I told her everything Jason and I said yesterday and what he had planned for tonight. I told her I wasn’t doing it. I should have never done what I did in the first place. My heart and my emotions got caught up in this and I fell in love with him. Shelly looks at me while holding my hands.
“This is a true love story that doesn’t end happy. This book is part of your life and this chapter isn’t over. You can’t open the last chapter with The End. You need to go tonight, tell him how you really feel and what’s in your future. End this chapter on a good note, and close the book. Start a new book with David. I’m pretty sure David will agree and understand.”
“I don’t know,” I tell her. “I need to go for a walk and think about it.”
Shelly stayed and ran the shop the rest of the day. I must have walked for hours thinking about every possibility that could happen. Then I had my answer.
* * *
I stand in front of the room holding the key card. I take a deep breath and swipe the card. The door turns green as I push it open.
Jason stands as I walk in the room. I big smile hits his face. I give him a small hug as he kisses my cheek. He points at a bottle of Jack sitting on the table. I nod my head. He takes a seat and pours a small amount.
I gulp it down as I ask for another one.
“I wasn’t sure if you were coming,” he said pouring another drink. “I just want to...”
I hold up a finger to get him to stop. I drink the second drink and put the glass down. I breath out of my mouth because the second shot burned a little.
“I’m going to talk first. First off, I know you love me, because I love you more than you’ll ever know. I also love David. If it wasn’t for you, I would still be an empty shell working my sub shop. What you did for me was mind-blowing. You opened a lot of doors to my sexuality, for which I’m grateful. Second off, I hate you. I hate you for choosing your wife over me. But, I can’t say that, because I knew when this started it was going to be hard. Hard really isn’t a word I would use. Painful is what I’m looking for. Painful watching you walk away and get a second chance. Third, I’m grateful for my kids. I’m grateful you came into my life. I will never forget you.” I stop to pour myself another drink.
“I just...” I hold up a finger.
“I’m not done.” I guzzle the drink and put the glass down. “I don’t know what’s going to happen tonight, but when it’s all over. I’m going to have to forget about you and move to the next chapter in my new book.”
“Some days, I wished I never married Rachel. I wish I waited for you because, I also fell in love with you,” he said.
“You can’t say that. I was never around when you met Rachel.” I said as I start crying.
Jason moves closer to me and hugs me as we sit on the couch. He leans back as my head lays between his shoulder and neck. Her pulls out a couple of tissues out from somewhere and hands them to me.
“Thank you,” I said as snot runs down my nose. I put my head back on his shoulder. I sit there for a good while as he rubs my arm. I can smell again as my nose lets me breath. He’s wearing that cologne that drives me wild. I take in a deep breath and sigh as I breathe out. I start to kiss his neck as my hand cups his face. He lowers his head until our lips touch and that spark returns.
My tongue touches his lower lip asking to be let in. He opens his mouth as our tongues collide like they did months ago. My heart starts beating faster as my hand finds his crotch over his pants.
“Don’t say a word, and let me do this,” I said.
He nods his head. I take my left hand and undo his pants, then reach under and grab his cock. I can feel it was growing as I squeeze it. He starts to moan in my mouth as I continue kissing him.
He takes his free hand and works on unbuttoning his shirt. He opens it up as I trace my fingers over his stomach.
I get on my knees and place my self between his legs and pull his pants all the way off. He looks down at me as I look up at him. I take his cock and hold it as I slowly place it in my mouth. My eyes never left his face. I work my magic on him stroking and licking, even deep throating him.
I start to look back when we first started, and he couldn’t hold on too long and would cum in minutes. Now he has control now.
When I get done sucking his cock, I stand up and take all my clothes off slowly like what a stripper would do. giving him a show. He has a smile on his face watching mew do this.
Once everything was off, I get on his lap and place his cock at my door. Then I feel the head go in, I sit all the way down with my mouth open. God, it felt so good to feel him inside me again. I place my hands on his chest and start to ride him. He places his hands on my hips. I rode him on the couch for a good ten minutes until my knees were getting tired. He picks me up without coming out of me, and walks toward the bed. He lays me down gently as we move closer to the center of the bed.
He lies on top of me with his arms under my shoulders. My arms wrap around his head kissing him with a lot of passion. He slowly moves his hips as he begins to make love to me.
Tonight, we don’t fuck like animals, we make love for the last time. Passionate love making filling every desire known to us. Not taking anything for granted just loving each other one more time.
His chest lies on mine breathing together as one. He starts to pick up his speed. I start to cum as he places his lips on mine to distract me of my orgasm. I try to breath through my nose, but my orgasm overpowers me and I had to pull away. Now I can feel my pussy grip his cock with every thrust he does trying to make him cum. It works as he explodes inside as I feel the heat from his seed.
He lays his head on my chest as I hold his head, kissing him on the forehead.
We take a shower and made love again. He ordered room service as we took breaks in between love making. We rested and fucked some more. I knew this was going to be the end, so I wanted him to never forget about me and gave him a night he’ll never forget.
After that night in the hotel room I went home and slept for days. I never heard from him again.
We kept in touch with Facebook, but it was too hard for me to see. He was happy that his wife was slowly walking again. They wanted to start a family. It was at that moment, I deleted everything he was on. I couldn’t watch him be happy. I mean, I’m happy also. I married David a few months after Jason left, but it was never the same. When ever I was alone, I would close my eyes and think about all the things we did. It wasn’t the same without him.
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